What I Choose
I Love You
Remus POV
I sigh as I watch Carlie sit alone in the library working on her homework. She looks so sad, it pulls at my heart to see her like this. Moony is clawing at the walls of his proverbial cage to kill the people that hurt her so deeply, even though killing them would mean killing her because there is no one that she loves more than her twin, and he has hurt her the most. I look around quickly, and upon seeing no one that matters, I make up my mind and walk over to the girl I love.She completely ignores my presence once I reach the table in the back corner of the room she is hiding at; books piled high around her. I cast a few privacy spells and smile down at her. “May I join you?”
“Go away Remus.” She sounds terrified underneath her icy tone. “I’m busy.”
“No one that matters is in here Carlie, and there are privacy wards up around us.”
“I know there are, I felt them as soon as you cast them.”
“Then why not let me join you?”
“Are there Gryffindors in here?” I look around and see a few students from my house, some looking our way in curious disinterest and the rest ignoring us completely.
“Well yes, of course there are, it’s a public place.”
“Then you being seen with me will get back to your precious friends who will be perfectly mad at you for fraternizing with a Death Eater.” She spits at me venomously, finally looking up at me from her school work. Her face is set in an emotionless mask and her eyes are hard as steal, but underneath the cold exitior I catch a flicker of pain, fear, sadness, and something else, something I don’t recognize.
I glare at her as she says these words and grab her arm exposing the bare flesh. “Until you have that disgusting thing on your arm, you are NOT one of them. So cut the crap Carlie, your twin may be a right arrogant asshole, I’m not denying that his temper gets the better of him and that it blinds him and he jumps to conclusions, but he still loves you, I think. As for me, I don’t jump to conclusions, I live with you and so I see the way you act when you think no one is watching you, you are bloody miserable Cassiopea Carlie Black. Just tell me why!” She looks down and I see a tear roll down her cheek.
“Mother threatened to kill everyone that I care for if I didn’t stop talking to you all.” She mutters.
“What?!” I walk around the table and hug her closely to me. “Carlie, she can’t do that.”
“She can’t, but her pet is a hell hound. Decon can and will hunt you all down and kill you just because Mother tells him to. I can’t lose you or Siri, Remus, I just can’t!”
“Carlie, I know you care for Padfoot, but why me? I’m not that important.”
She looks up at me and places her soft hand on my face, her thumb running along my scar. “You Remus John Lupin, are the most intelligent, sweet, kind, caring, loving, and fun werewolf I have ever met.” I look deep into her eyes wondering how she knew what I am, and I see something else there in their depths, an emotion I don’t recognize, having never seen it before.
“Carlie…”
“Shhh.” She places a single finger over my lips to silence me. “I’m not done yet.” I nod and she moves her hand back to my cheek and then up so her fingers are gently twisted into my hair. I lean into her touch as she gently scratches my scalp, Moony almost purring, if a werewolf could purr, at the touch of our life mate. “Don’t you dare ever say that you aren’t important, because besides my twin, you are the most important person in my life.” She closes her eyes taking a deep breath before popping them open once more, “I am in love with you Remus. And I don’t… no… I CAN’T see you hurt.”
Carlie’s POVThere. I said it. I finally said it out loud to him. Now he knows. And… he’s just sitting there, staring at me. Oh Morgana! What have I done!! I should NEVER have told him! I’m his friend’s little sister, there is probably some boy rule about not liking your friend’s sister! “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said that.” I say quickly before I jump to my feet and wave my wand returning my books. I grab my bag and just as I turn to leave Remus grabs my arm and pulls me back into his chest, pressing us close together. I look up into his eyes, flashing from gold to blue grey, his wolf obviously trying to break free. A breath later and his lips are on mine tightly. I gasp as joy and pleasure shoot up and down my spine and return the bruising kiss. He pulls back just as I try to deepen the kiss and looks into my eyes.
“I love you too Carlie.”
“We have to keep this a secret Remus.”
“Why!? I want everyone to know you are mine.”
“NO!! They can’t!” I know he can see terror in my eyes and hear it in my voice.
“Don’t you want to be mine?”
“Yes, of course.” It’s all I’ve wanted for years!
“Then why?”
“My MOTHER! She will KILL you and I will NOT let that happen.” My beautiful, wonderful wolf looks down sadly before nodding.
“I understand.” I look at him a small smile on my face. “Doesn’t mean I like it.”
“I don’t like it either, but at least I get to have you, even if it is only for a while.”
“It could be forever.”
“Not as long as my little brother is on this self-destructive track.”
“Stupid git.” He growls hugging me tighter to his body before returning me to the more comfortable hold.
“That’s what brothers are good for.” He smiles at me and I kiss him lightly on his lips before I turn and walk away, shimmying my hips a little more, knowing that Remus is watching me.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~So so so so so so sooooo sorry it took so long!! between me and my AMAZEING AND WONDERFUL BETA Dylan_Harper neither of us have had a lot of time to work on this... or any of my other stories for that matter... BUT it's up now and I am SOOOOOOOOO sorry it's so short! BUT this is a point A to point B chap. I could have added MAYBE 2 more sentences to it... but... it would have felt odd... so I'll try REEEEEEEEEALLY hard to make the next chap longer (when I can get to it...)
LOTS OF LOVE Aqua!