Living in the shadows

Title: Living in the shadows

Pairing: SiriusxRemus

Fandom : HP

Summary: Remus is in mourning for Sirius and relieves his past with the man he loved. Will his memories remind him that he is worthy of love? Slight prequel to Undeniable.

Notes: Obviously I don't own HP…if I had…well there would have been Draco and Harry in the end and not Harry and Ginny.

Mentions of kinky Moony and Padfoot sex- I do mean the werewolf and Sirius' animagus form, the Grim. If you don't like don't read...

Chapter six

Even in the summer Sirius made sure to keep most of our 'dates'…he got the afternoon of the full moons with Sirius and Moony had the evenings with Padfoot. Well he had the hours after James and Peter snuck back into the castle; Sirius supervised his transformations and then when Moony was calm enough he brought him out to play. Apparently, James, their Stag Animagus best friend could hold Moony off if he got upset until Padfoot could calm him down. Padfoot was the only one who could seem to keep Moony from being too aggressive.

He was still worried about Moony hurting them but Sirius promised Padfoot never would; Remus didn't trust Moony but he loved and trusted his boyfriend, Siri promised to be safe…

They'd been dating since Sirius saved Severus from Moony…he somehow managed to protect his secret. He still worried that the nosy Slytherin will figure out his secret and cause trouble. He would hate to be sent away…he relied on Sirius to keep him strong…

Just because one is a werewolf doesn't make you like the monster who destroyed his normal childhood…

Remus loved Sirius, so much…they still hadn't progressed to full-on shagging…but he wanted it and he didn't care what anyone thought. Okay, he sort of did…James was still hyper focused on Lily when it wasn't the full moon. The Full Moon was Marauder only time, Lily was an honorary member but they tried to keep her from knowing his secret but being the brightest witch in her year she probably knew but didn't mention it.

He was sure James was somewhat aware that he and Sirius were seeing each other not that their friend said much about it. He still wasn't sure what the Wizarding Communities take on being gay…he hadn't really asked Sirius. His boyfriend was from an ancient pure-blood family so he would know right? What he wanted more then anything was a family, his had fallen apart some what when he was attacked. He knew his father blamed himself, they had been camping when it happened. His mother had found out…after…his father had shown up at Hogwarts after it happened. He had begged his former Professor who was now the Headmaster to help his son.

Remus had been explained his condition when he was eight…it had been a terrible thing to have to realize. He'd barely been told he was a wizard and forbidden from using magic outside the house and never when he was alone or near an open window where the neighbors could see. Sometimes growing up around Muggles can be a problem…

Sirius slipped into his bed, still asleep. He kissed his boyfriend's cheek and snuggled, "I love that you want me to be close to me even when you sleep…"

He dozed off and was woke up later to feel Sirius's morning wood pressed against his own. He moaned softly, "Siri…"

A soft giggle sounded in his ear, "Took you long enough to notice…should I help you with that…" there was a hand cupping him through his pajama pants, "Merlin, Remy…I love you…"

Remus pressed against his hand, "Please tell me you used a silencing spell…"

Sirius smirked, "Of course I did…we wouldn't want to disturb James and Peter…"

Remus groaned as he felt a hand slip inside his pajama pants and stroke him, "Siri…" he started to stroke his lover as well, "I love you too…"

Sirius bit his ear, "You want me to suck you again…"

Remus glared, "Of course I do…only if I get to suck you off too…"

Sirius flushed scarlet, "You don't have to…"

Remus snickered, "I want too…"

"If you insist…but I want to make sure you enjoy yourself first…"

Remus glanced up at his lover, "Do as you like…."

Sirius chuckled, "Always do if it pleases you…"

Remus bit his lip as his pajama bottoms were tugged low enough to free his erection and Sirius took it into his mouth. Merlin, his lover was good at this…hell…

Sirius knew just how to make him feel amazing…it wasn't long before he came. Sirius was careful to swallow all of his essence and then crawled up to kiss him.

Remus kissed him back softly as he reached into to Sirius' pajama pants to take his member and started to stroke it…

Sirius groaned softly against his neck, the Beater was putty in his hands. Few would ever imagine that it was Remus who was the more aggressive one in the relationship. Sirius cared far more about Remus' pleasure then his own so Remus had to make sure that Sirius knew how much he loved him. He worried that Moony's monthly 'dates' with Padfoot were far more intense then Siri let on and that's why his lover was taking it slow. Few couples went this long before shagging…

When he sensed Sirius was hard enough, he rolled them over kissing his boyfriend.

Sirius groaned arching into his touch, "Remy…you don't have to…making you come…is enough…"

Remus kissed his way down Sirius' chest, "Hush now…just let me do this. You take such good care of me…let me take care of you."

Sirius groaned louder, "Remy…" his voice trailing off as he felt a tongue on the sensitive skin of his member and a hand cupping his balls. He didn't last long, as soon as he felt the warmth of Remus' mouth he came hard…

Remus licked his lips and curled up on the other, "Mmm… love you…"

"I love you too…lets try to rest a bit before breakfast…"

XoooooX

He really wanted to shag him sometimes…he knew that he would be the first…if you ignored Moony. Then again Moony shagged Padfoot which was a different form but still Siri, at least Siri had all his memories of being Padfoot. Remus had none of being Moony…he always worried that Moony would hurt Sirius badly. What would he do with Siri? Fear clutched his heart, sometimes he was terrified he'd lose his mate. Mate…that was how Moony felt about Padfoot. He loved that the boy he loved was also craved by Moony. He would hate it if the werewolf part of himself craved someone else.

James as usual was wrapped in Lily except during the Marauder Time, he was starting to settle down. He was getting better marks then usual, it was rumored he'd end up Head Boy and Quidditch Captain their last year. Remus was already a Prefect and that was how he made friends with Lily.

The up-tight Muggle-born witch was amazingly talented at potions, if he couldn't be paired with Sirius he wanted to be paired up with Lily, they kept him from blowing up cauldrons and exasperating Professor Slughorn.

He loved Siri…he hoped it wouldn't take them too long to feel comfortable shagging. He had finally discovered that somehow…the Playboy of Gryffindor had remained a virgin. Which pleased him immensely, now Sirius had managed to snog as many girls as he could before realizing he was in love with Remus. He worried that Sirius had moved out because his mother found out about them…

He would hate to be the reason his lover had lost his family…

What do you think? Outstanding? Exceeds Expectations? Acceptable? Poor? Dreadful? Troll?