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Nightmares
A/N: so I did end up re-writing some of it. more like just re-wording some things. So if you read it once you don’t need to reread it again. Thank you.
“So are you going to tell me why you have Draco Malfoy in your lap Harry?
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Draco was wide awake and shaking. He would have tried to run if he had his sight. As for Harry though, he just let out a sigh.
“How long have you known?”
“Just this morning. The first time I caught whiff of him he was covered in too many other smells. Did you really think that you could keep it from me? I was your teacher for a year you remember.” Remus was calm but it was doing nothing to calm Draco down.
“Shhhhhhhh, it’s alright Draco, he’s not going to hurt you. I’ve got you remember, I promised.” Harry picked up Draco and held him close to his neck. It always seemed to work and after a few moments Draco had calmed down. “Do you want me to tell him or do you want to tell him yourself?” Draco just buried his head further into Harry’s neck.
So Harry told him how he had found him. And in what condition he was in. He told him about Lucius and Bellatrix, and how he decided to keep him a secret because of how Hermione and Ron would take it.
“I can see why they would get mad, he’s been a right bastard to us for years, but they weren’t there when he begged me to kill him. They didn’t see him broken.” Draco stiffened at that. He was NOT broken.
“I can see your point Harry, I do agree that Malfoy needs some protection, but where is he going to stay. Not with you at headquarters. None of the Order members would stand for that.”
Harry’s hands tightened on Draco.
“And just where would he stay then Remus? He needs to be someplace safe.”
“On that we can both agree on, one of the other safe houses, with another member to watch him.”
“Watch him right. And just who would watch him, who would protect him, who would treat him fairly Remus? They all hold him responsible for Dumbledore’s death. And NONE of the safe houses are as safe as headquarters. Every ones been on edge about the safe houses since Kite’s was attacked. No I won’t put him through that. They would treat him like a prisoner and a suspect. If the safe house was attacked they might blame him. Leave him to die there, or be taken back to Voldemort. I won’t have it. I promised that I would keep him safe, and I will.”
“But Harry surly you understand that we can’t have him going about freely, it could still be a trap.” He held up his hand stalling Harry “Unlikely as it may be, we still have to consider it. None of the others will be thrilled that he’s going to be around, but having you personally taking responsibility for him and keeping him at headquarters is going over the top. Surely you can understand that.”
“He stays with me, and that’s final.” With that Harry got up and took Draco back to their room.
Remus was left looking after him with a sad look. “This is not going to go over well.”
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Harry was pissed as he walked into his room and shut the door, or more like slammed it. His magic was swirling around him as he paced back and forth in his room seething.
“Why do they all treat me like I’m an idiot, like I can’t make up my own mind. They question everything I do. Force me to go on a bloody DAMN vacation in the middle of a war, and then try to plan every moment of said vacation. If I wanted to take a holiday I sure as hell would have taken one. But no, everyone else gets to decide what I get to do, when I get to do it, and how much I get to know before doing it. It’s not like they have a fucking mad man trying to kill them personally, or on occasion have said mad man in their fucking HEAD! Like they know what’s best!” Harry ranted on only remember Draco when he squeezed to hard and a strangled mew emerged.
“Oh Merlin Draco, I’m sorry! Here let me change you back.” Harry set Draco down on the floor and changed him back to human. “Don’t let what Remus said out there get to you. I’m the one who promised to look out for you and I will. I won’t shove you on to anyone else.”
Draco just stood there with a blank look on his face.
“He’s right. You can’t know if you can trust me. You shouldn’t have taken me in, you shouldn’t have promised to protect me. You should have killed me back in that alley like I asked. I can’t help you, I can only burden you. Your insane if you take me back to your headquarters, even crazier if you try to keep watch over me yourself.” His voice started out hard but ended soft. “When I get my strength back I’ll leaving. I’ll go into hiding. Maybe go to the US. Disappear there.”
“He’s not right. I know you wouldn’t…”seeming to think about something” You wouldn’t betray us would you?”
“I did once before remember. Let Death Eaters into the school.”
“…Right you did. But you regretted it the moment you did, didn’t you?”
“….Yes, but I still did it. If I hadn’t Dumbledore would still be here.”
“You don’t know that. And how would you get there? How would you survive? You don’t have any money, you don’t know anyone there do you?”
“Don’t know, I’ll manage, no and no. But I’ll make do. Malfoy’s always do. I’m tired now. Where’s the bed?”
Harry let out a heavy sigh and took Malfoy’s arm, led him to the bed and helped get him tucked in.
“We’ll talk more about this later. Get some sleep. I’ll be in the room for the day. So don’t worry.”
“That’s like telling me not to breathe Potter. And you won’t change my mind.”
Didn’t take long for Malfoy to fall asleep.
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When Draco did wake up he knew he was awake. Knew that his eyes were open. Everything was really REALLY blurry, like he was looking through lots of water, but he could make out different shapes and light, and colors. It was almost enough to make him cry. Slowly he sat up and looked around. Over in a corner he saw a black spot and a red shape moving. Potter he assumed. It was then that he picked up the scent of oranges.
“What are you doing Potter?” his voice cracked with dryness. The Shape turned.
“Making more Dreamless sleep Potions.” Potter answered as he got up and walked over. He handed Draco a Glass of water and helped him sip it. “How are you feeling?” He asked.
“Hungry, and I can see a little.”
“Really? That’s great, see I told you that I knew the spell.” The Excitement in Potters voice sounded sincere. “I’ll order some food then, what would you like?” Potter got up and walked over and picked something up.
“I don’t know, pumpkin juice?”
“hahahaha. Muggle ship Malfoy, no wizarding foods here. But I think maybe some soup, salad, and….” Draco cut him off.
“Lemon aid then.”
“….ok.” He picked the object up again and put it next to his ear. “Hello, I would like your soup and salad with some lemon aid please.” A pause ” For 2 please. Yes, thank you.” He put whatever it was back on the desk and looked towards Draco once more. “It will take about 15 to 20 minutes. Would you like to take a shower before hand or after dinner?”
“Before if you don’t mind.” Draco got up and slowly started to walk still very cautious that while he could see, everything was still very very blurry.
“Not a problem.” Harry led him into the bathroom and showed him where everything was, the shampoo, conditioner, body wash, towels and washcloths. “Just holler when you’re done. I’ll bring in some fresh clothes for you.” Harry turned to walk out the door.
“Thank you Potter.” Draco’s voice was almost lost in the sound of running water. Almost.
“You’re welcome.” With that Potter left.
Draco was in the shower until after dinner had been brought to the room. He was in there for almost an hour. Harry had checked in on him a few times but he was alright. And when he got out supper was a quite affair. Neither one knowing what to talk about. It was only after the dishes had been cleared and Harry had gone back to bottling up the potions that the silenced was breached.
“So Potter, how did you get so good at potions? Or were you just faking the whole time?” asked Draco as Harry corked the last bottle. He was sitting on the bed in a borrowed tee-shirt and boxers. Still to thin but, a healthier complexion. Nutrition potions and good food would fix that.
“Believe it or not I do like potions. It was just hard to concentrate in Snape’s class because I could feel him just waiting for me to mess up. Which in turn made me mess up.” Harry’s voice took on a dark under tone when he talked about his former potions professor. And Draco quickly picked up on that.
“Oh, ok. Ummmm so what are we doing?”
“What?” harry looked at Draco.
“I mean where are we? where are we heading?, when will we get there?” Draco clarified.
“Oh, well we are on a muggle ship taking a vacation somewhere in the Atlantic Ocean. Where exactly I don’t know.”
“You’re taking a vacation when we are this close to war? Are you serious?” the shocked tone in Draco’s voice brought a smile to Harry’s.
“Wasn’t MY idea. I was kidnapped and guilt tripped into coming. I would rather be home preparing for this war trust me.” Harry sounded vaguely amused.
“Miss Granger’s Idea then?” Questioned Draco.
“Hahaha, yeah it was.” Harry let out a big yawn. “Well it’s late, we should probable get to bed.” Harry got up, grabbed some clothes and headed to the bathroom. After a few minutes Draco could hear the shower going. Harry had left the door open just a crack.
Draco crawled over to the far side of the bed and wiggled under the covers. He was fast asleep when Harry made his way to bed.
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‘It was dark. Too dark for him. And cold, oh it was so cold. He had been in this room since he got back just 3 days before. His father was angry, very angry, he took away his sight so he couldn’t see where he was coming from. His wrists hurt from where the cuffs had cut into him as he hung from the ceiling, his father circling around him with that whip.
“I’m so disappointed in you Draco. You couldn’t even kill an old fool. He was disarmed, and you still couldn’t do it.” The crack of the whip against his chest drew a startled yelp from him. But nothing chilled him like the voice that came from the darkness around him.
“Let me play with the boy Lucius.”
“He’s all yours. I had such high hopes for you Draco.” He heard the door close quietly moments before those hands touched him.’
Draco was roughly awaked by Harry shaking him.
“Malfoy, Malfoy, wake up, wake up.” Harry’s voice was frantic.
Draco opened his eyes and looked straight into the most vibrant green ones he had ever seen. And a silent sob ripped its way from his throat as he threw himself into the safety of Harry’s arms.
Potters arms closed around him as he continued to sob.
“shhhhshhh, it was just a dream, just a dream. It can’t hurt you now, calm down, calm down.” Muttered Potter as he rocked him. It took awhile for Malfoy to calm. And when he did he was laying on Potter’s chest again.
“I’m sorry.” His voice would have been soft but it broke from all the crying.
“It’s ok, I expected nightmares. Do you want to talk about it? It can help sometimes.” Harry had one arm around Malfoy’s back, and the other was running his fingers through the soft blond hair.
Malfoy just shook his head against Potters chest. “No, not tonight, maybe not ever.”
“Ok, I won’t push. I’ll be here if you change your mind.” Harry reached over and grabbed a Dreamless potion and handed it to Draco. “Here, I don’t want you to become dependent on them, but until you get some of your strength back, I don’t think it’s a back idea to take them after a nightmare.”
“Thank you.” He downed the potion and moved back to his side of the bed. “can I ask a favor?”
“sure.”
“Will you sing to me?”
It was quite for awhile and Draco thought that Harry wasn’t going to but then he wrapped his arms around him and shifted him so that Draco was once again laying with his head on his chest.
“Potter?”
“There are things I have done
There's a place I have gone
There's a beast and I let it run
Now it's running my way
There are things I regret
Cause you can't forgive
You can't forget
There's a gift that you send
You sent it my way
So take this night
Wrap it around me like a sheet
I know I'm not forgiven
But I need a place to sleep
So take this night
And lay me down on the street
I know I'm not forgiven
But I hope that I'll be
given some peace
There's a game that I play
There are rules I had to break
There's mistakes that I've made
But I've made them my way
So take this night
Wrap it around me like a sheet
I know I'm not forgiven
But I need a place to sleep
So take this night
And lay me down on the street
I know I'm not forgiven
But I hope that I'll be
given some peace
Some peace
Some peace”
When it was over Draco was back asleep, now safe in Harry’s arms. Harry soon followed.
A/N: sorry for the wait. Hope you liked it. Not sure I do so don’t be surprised if I re-write it. If I post the next chapter you’ll know that I’ll leave it be. Thank you for all the reviews. They make me happy.
“So are you going to tell me why you have Draco Malfoy in your lap Harry?
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Draco was wide awake and shaking. He would have tried to run if he had his sight. As for Harry though, he just let out a sigh.
“How long have you known?”
“Just this morning. The first time I caught whiff of him he was covered in too many other smells. Did you really think that you could keep it from me? I was your teacher for a year you remember.” Remus was calm but it was doing nothing to calm Draco down.
“Shhhhhhhh, it’s alright Draco, he’s not going to hurt you. I’ve got you remember, I promised.” Harry picked up Draco and held him close to his neck. It always seemed to work and after a few moments Draco had calmed down. “Do you want me to tell him or do you want to tell him yourself?” Draco just buried his head further into Harry’s neck.
So Harry told him how he had found him. And in what condition he was in. He told him about Lucius and Bellatrix, and how he decided to keep him a secret because of how Hermione and Ron would take it.
“I can see why they would get mad, he’s been a right bastard to us for years, but they weren’t there when he begged me to kill him. They didn’t see him broken.” Draco stiffened at that. He was NOT broken.
“I can see your point Harry, I do agree that Malfoy needs some protection, but where is he going to stay. Not with you at headquarters. None of the Order members would stand for that.”
Harry’s hands tightened on Draco.
“And just where would he stay then Remus? He needs to be someplace safe.”
“On that we can both agree on, one of the other safe houses, with another member to watch him.”
“Watch him right. And just who would watch him, who would protect him, who would treat him fairly Remus? They all hold him responsible for Dumbledore’s death. And NONE of the safe houses are as safe as headquarters. Every ones been on edge about the safe houses since Kite’s was attacked. No I won’t put him through that. They would treat him like a prisoner and a suspect. If the safe house was attacked they might blame him. Leave him to die there, or be taken back to Voldemort. I won’t have it. I promised that I would keep him safe, and I will.”
“But Harry surly you understand that we can’t have him going about freely, it could still be a trap.” He held up his hand stalling Harry “Unlikely as it may be, we still have to consider it. None of the others will be thrilled that he’s going to be around, but having you personally taking responsibility for him and keeping him at headquarters is going over the top. Surely you can understand that.”
“He stays with me, and that’s final.” With that Harry got up and took Draco back to their room.
Remus was left looking after him with a sad look. “This is not going to go over well.”
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Harry was pissed as he walked into his room and shut the door, or more like slammed it. His magic was swirling around him as he paced back and forth in his room seething.
“Why do they all treat me like I’m an idiot, like I can’t make up my own mind. They question everything I do. Force me to go on a bloody DAMN vacation in the middle of a war, and then try to plan every moment of said vacation. If I wanted to take a holiday I sure as hell would have taken one. But no, everyone else gets to decide what I get to do, when I get to do it, and how much I get to know before doing it. It’s not like they have a fucking mad man trying to kill them personally, or on occasion have said mad man in their fucking HEAD! Like they know what’s best!” Harry ranted on only remember Draco when he squeezed to hard and a strangled mew emerged.
“Oh Merlin Draco, I’m sorry! Here let me change you back.” Harry set Draco down on the floor and changed him back to human. “Don’t let what Remus said out there get to you. I’m the one who promised to look out for you and I will. I won’t shove you on to anyone else.”
Draco just stood there with a blank look on his face.
“He’s right. You can’t know if you can trust me. You shouldn’t have taken me in, you shouldn’t have promised to protect me. You should have killed me back in that alley like I asked. I can’t help you, I can only burden you. Your insane if you take me back to your headquarters, even crazier if you try to keep watch over me yourself.” His voice started out hard but ended soft. “When I get my strength back I’ll leaving. I’ll go into hiding. Maybe go to the US. Disappear there.”
“He’s not right. I know you wouldn’t…”seeming to think about something” You wouldn’t betray us would you?”
“I did once before remember. Let Death Eaters into the school.”
“…Right you did. But you regretted it the moment you did, didn’t you?”
“….Yes, but I still did it. If I hadn’t Dumbledore would still be here.”
“You don’t know that. And how would you get there? How would you survive? You don’t have any money, you don’t know anyone there do you?”
“Don’t know, I’ll manage, no and no. But I’ll make do. Malfoy’s always do. I’m tired now. Where’s the bed?”
Harry let out a heavy sigh and took Malfoy’s arm, led him to the bed and helped get him tucked in.
“We’ll talk more about this later. Get some sleep. I’ll be in the room for the day. So don’t worry.”
“That’s like telling me not to breathe Potter. And you won’t change my mind.”
Didn’t take long for Malfoy to fall asleep.
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When Draco did wake up he knew he was awake. Knew that his eyes were open. Everything was really REALLY blurry, like he was looking through lots of water, but he could make out different shapes and light, and colors. It was almost enough to make him cry. Slowly he sat up and looked around. Over in a corner he saw a black spot and a red shape moving. Potter he assumed. It was then that he picked up the scent of oranges.
“What are you doing Potter?” his voice cracked with dryness. The Shape turned.
“Making more Dreamless sleep Potions.” Potter answered as he got up and walked over. He handed Draco a Glass of water and helped him sip it. “How are you feeling?” He asked.
“Hungry, and I can see a little.”
“Really? That’s great, see I told you that I knew the spell.” The Excitement in Potters voice sounded sincere. “I’ll order some food then, what would you like?” Potter got up and walked over and picked something up.
“I don’t know, pumpkin juice?”
“hahahaha. Muggle ship Malfoy, no wizarding foods here. But I think maybe some soup, salad, and….” Draco cut him off.
“Lemon aid then.”
“….ok.” He picked the object up again and put it next to his ear. “Hello, I would like your soup and salad with some lemon aid please.” A pause ” For 2 please. Yes, thank you.” He put whatever it was back on the desk and looked towards Draco once more. “It will take about 15 to 20 minutes. Would you like to take a shower before hand or after dinner?”
“Before if you don’t mind.” Draco got up and slowly started to walk still very cautious that while he could see, everything was still very very blurry.
“Not a problem.” Harry led him into the bathroom and showed him where everything was, the shampoo, conditioner, body wash, towels and washcloths. “Just holler when you’re done. I’ll bring in some fresh clothes for you.” Harry turned to walk out the door.
“Thank you Potter.” Draco’s voice was almost lost in the sound of running water. Almost.
“You’re welcome.” With that Potter left.
Draco was in the shower until after dinner had been brought to the room. He was in there for almost an hour. Harry had checked in on him a few times but he was alright. And when he got out supper was a quite affair. Neither one knowing what to talk about. It was only after the dishes had been cleared and Harry had gone back to bottling up the potions that the silenced was breached.
“So Potter, how did you get so good at potions? Or were you just faking the whole time?” asked Draco as Harry corked the last bottle. He was sitting on the bed in a borrowed tee-shirt and boxers. Still to thin but, a healthier complexion. Nutrition potions and good food would fix that.
“Believe it or not I do like potions. It was just hard to concentrate in Snape’s class because I could feel him just waiting for me to mess up. Which in turn made me mess up.” Harry’s voice took on a dark under tone when he talked about his former potions professor. And Draco quickly picked up on that.
“Oh, ok. Ummmm so what are we doing?”
“What?” harry looked at Draco.
“I mean where are we? where are we heading?, when will we get there?” Draco clarified.
“Oh, well we are on a muggle ship taking a vacation somewhere in the Atlantic Ocean. Where exactly I don’t know.”
“You’re taking a vacation when we are this close to war? Are you serious?” the shocked tone in Draco’s voice brought a smile to Harry’s.
“Wasn’t MY idea. I was kidnapped and guilt tripped into coming. I would rather be home preparing for this war trust me.” Harry sounded vaguely amused.
“Miss Granger’s Idea then?” Questioned Draco.
“Hahaha, yeah it was.” Harry let out a big yawn. “Well it’s late, we should probable get to bed.” Harry got up, grabbed some clothes and headed to the bathroom. After a few minutes Draco could hear the shower going. Harry had left the door open just a crack.
Draco crawled over to the far side of the bed and wiggled under the covers. He was fast asleep when Harry made his way to bed.
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‘It was dark. Too dark for him. And cold, oh it was so cold. He had been in this room since he got back just 3 days before. His father was angry, very angry, he took away his sight so he couldn’t see where he was coming from. His wrists hurt from where the cuffs had cut into him as he hung from the ceiling, his father circling around him with that whip.
“I’m so disappointed in you Draco. You couldn’t even kill an old fool. He was disarmed, and you still couldn’t do it.” The crack of the whip against his chest drew a startled yelp from him. But nothing chilled him like the voice that came from the darkness around him.
“Let me play with the boy Lucius.”
“He’s all yours. I had such high hopes for you Draco.” He heard the door close quietly moments before those hands touched him.’
Draco was roughly awaked by Harry shaking him.
“Malfoy, Malfoy, wake up, wake up.” Harry’s voice was frantic.
Draco opened his eyes and looked straight into the most vibrant green ones he had ever seen. And a silent sob ripped its way from his throat as he threw himself into the safety of Harry’s arms.
Potters arms closed around him as he continued to sob.
“shhhhshhh, it was just a dream, just a dream. It can’t hurt you now, calm down, calm down.” Muttered Potter as he rocked him. It took awhile for Malfoy to calm. And when he did he was laying on Potter’s chest again.
“I’m sorry.” His voice would have been soft but it broke from all the crying.
“It’s ok, I expected nightmares. Do you want to talk about it? It can help sometimes.” Harry had one arm around Malfoy’s back, and the other was running his fingers through the soft blond hair.
Malfoy just shook his head against Potters chest. “No, not tonight, maybe not ever.”
“Ok, I won’t push. I’ll be here if you change your mind.” Harry reached over and grabbed a Dreamless potion and handed it to Draco. “Here, I don’t want you to become dependent on them, but until you get some of your strength back, I don’t think it’s a back idea to take them after a nightmare.”
“Thank you.” He downed the potion and moved back to his side of the bed. “can I ask a favor?”
“sure.”
“Will you sing to me?”
It was quite for awhile and Draco thought that Harry wasn’t going to but then he wrapped his arms around him and shifted him so that Draco was once again laying with his head on his chest.
“Potter?”
“There are things I have done
There's a place I have gone
There's a beast and I let it run
Now it's running my way
There are things I regret
Cause you can't forgive
You can't forget
There's a gift that you send
You sent it my way
So take this night
Wrap it around me like a sheet
I know I'm not forgiven
But I need a place to sleep
So take this night
And lay me down on the street
I know I'm not forgiven
But I hope that I'll be
given some peace
There's a game that I play
There are rules I had to break
There's mistakes that I've made
But I've made them my way
So take this night
Wrap it around me like a sheet
I know I'm not forgiven
But I need a place to sleep
So take this night
And lay me down on the street
I know I'm not forgiven
But I hope that I'll be
given some peace
Some peace
Some peace”
When it was over Draco was back asleep, now safe in Harry’s arms. Harry soon followed.
A/N: sorry for the wait. Hope you liked it. Not sure I do so don’t be surprised if I re-write it. If I post the next chapter you’ll know that I’ll leave it be. Thank you for all the reviews. They make me happy.