Cloudy Skies and Heartache
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Harry Potter › Slash - Male/Male › Remus/Sirius
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
12
Views:
5,870
Reviews:
36
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0
Currently Reading:
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I own nothing of Harry Potter and I’m making no profits out of this. I wish I had Sirius though –sighs-
Chapter 7
Chapter 7
Remus smiled gently to himself as he gazed down at his sleeping daughter. It had been three weeks since he had brought his daughter home. It had been a tough few weeks, with crazy feeding times and all that was required with a new baby. He was beyond exhausted, and all he wanted to do really was to fall asleep for a really long time.
Being a single parent wasn’t easy, much less being a single teen parent who was barely out of his childhood. His parents had passed away a few years ago, and so he had no one else he could rely on. In the past three week, he had run himself to the ground trying to care for his newborn’s every single need, leaving little time for himself to rest and recover.
But staring down at his beautiful daughter’s face, he couldn’t tear his eyes away. She looked just like Sirius. With a jet black tuft of hair on her head, and his aristocratic features. The only difference was that her eyes were a bright deep amber, just like Remus’ ones.
Adara Lupin.
That was the name Remus had chosen for his daughter. He had decided on that name after the star, Adhara in the Canis Majoris constellation, the same constellation that Sirius was in. It also meant beautiful and noble, which was just like her father.
This was his way of including Sirius in her life. Even though Sirius would probably not know of this child of his, Remus still wanted his daughter to know about her other father, and to love him in memory, for without him, she would not have existed.
He remembered how amazed he had felt when Madam Pomfrey had placed Adara in his arms three weeks ago, after he had awoken up from his potion-induced sleep. He could hardly believe that he had been part of creating such a beautiful child. He didn’t think he could have felt happier until the moment Adara had opened her large eyes slowly and stared at him quietly with eyes the same colour as his.
She had stared quietly at him for a long while, as though slowly inspecting the man that was holding her, before giving her approval with a baby smile and a gurgle.
At that moment, she had stolen whatever remained of his shattered heart.
Suddenly, a soft cry from below wrenched him out of his thoughts. His baby girl was awake and hungry, evident on her scrunched up face that was starting to turn redder as she began to cry louder.
‘Hush baby girl. Shhhh. Papa’s here.’
Remus quickly lifted her out of her crib, and grabbed the bottle he had nearby and offered it to her. The volume of her cries had been increasing exponentially during the short time it took for him to grab the bottle and feed her.
Looking at his little bundle of joy in his arms, he chuckled quietly to himself as Adara sucked quickly and vigorously on her bottle.
‘You’re just like your Daddy aren’t you. Loud, impatient, demanding and oh so beautiful.’
In response, Adara, who had just finished her bottle in record time, looked up at him with her deep amber eyes and a surprisingly intense look.
Remus brought a thumb up to her cheek and gently caressed it. Rubbing it soothingly as he continued staring into her large expressive eyes, he continued speaking softly to her.
‘I’m sorry your Daddy can’t be here. I’m sorry that I had hurt your Daddy, but if I had to do it, I would do it all over again. Because of my sins, I somehow got you, and I could never be more thankful and grateful. Your Daddy might never be part of your life, but don’t worry my love, I will always be here to hold you, care for you and love you. You’re my reason for living now. I love you so much so much.’
Adara stared up at her Daddy for a moment longer, before breaking the serious moment by blowing a spit bubble at her Daddy, gurgling happily.
‘Hahaha. Aren’t you just adorable baby girl.’
Remus felt a feeling a joy bubbling up inside of him. He hadn’t felt such a happiness in what felt like forever. It felt good to be so happy and carefree again.
Placing Adara carefully on his shoulder, he patted her back gently, as he tried to get her to burp so that she could go back to sleep.
After a quiet burp from the little girl on his chest, he began lulling her to sleep. Pacing the room slowly, he rocked her gently in his warm embrace, all the while humming a song he had heard awhile back that always reminded him of Sirius.
When the rain
Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love
When the evening shadows
And the stars appear
And there is no one there
To dry your tears
I could hold you
For a million years
To make you feel my love
I know you
Haven\'t made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong
I\'ve known it
From the moment
That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong
I\'d go hungry
I\'d go black and blue
I\'d go crawling
Down the avenue
No, there\'s nothing
That I wouldn\'t do
To make you feel my love
The storms are raging
On the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change
Are throwing wild and free
You ain\'t seen nothing
Like me yet
I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn\'t do
Go to the ends
Of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love
It still made Remus’ heart clench tightly in his chest to think of Sirius and the life he was leading now. But now that he had Adara, each day became something to look forward to, and each moment filled with new discoveries and joy. With his baby girl, he could get through this, he had to.
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Hello (: That song was by Adele – Make you feel my love. Its my favourite of the moment, because haven’t we all been in a position where we love someone, but that person doesn’t seem to see you or love you back in that way. Just like Remus.
A big thank you to all of you who gave me suggestions for baby names (: made continuing the story so much easier. Haha. And made me really happy that so many of you were genuinely interested in this story! A MASSIVE thank you to Lady Annikaa for giving me the name Adara! I think it’s a beautiful beautiful name. Perfect for Sirius & Remus’ child. Heh.
Thank you thank you thank you for all the wonderful reviews. I promise I will get to replying each and every one. So do keep reading and reviewing! Happy summer everyone! xxx
Remus smiled gently to himself as he gazed down at his sleeping daughter. It had been three weeks since he had brought his daughter home. It had been a tough few weeks, with crazy feeding times and all that was required with a new baby. He was beyond exhausted, and all he wanted to do really was to fall asleep for a really long time.
Being a single parent wasn’t easy, much less being a single teen parent who was barely out of his childhood. His parents had passed away a few years ago, and so he had no one else he could rely on. In the past three week, he had run himself to the ground trying to care for his newborn’s every single need, leaving little time for himself to rest and recover.
But staring down at his beautiful daughter’s face, he couldn’t tear his eyes away. She looked just like Sirius. With a jet black tuft of hair on her head, and his aristocratic features. The only difference was that her eyes were a bright deep amber, just like Remus’ ones.
Adara Lupin.
That was the name Remus had chosen for his daughter. He had decided on that name after the star, Adhara in the Canis Majoris constellation, the same constellation that Sirius was in. It also meant beautiful and noble, which was just like her father.
This was his way of including Sirius in her life. Even though Sirius would probably not know of this child of his, Remus still wanted his daughter to know about her other father, and to love him in memory, for without him, she would not have existed.
He remembered how amazed he had felt when Madam Pomfrey had placed Adara in his arms three weeks ago, after he had awoken up from his potion-induced sleep. He could hardly believe that he had been part of creating such a beautiful child. He didn’t think he could have felt happier until the moment Adara had opened her large eyes slowly and stared at him quietly with eyes the same colour as his.
She had stared quietly at him for a long while, as though slowly inspecting the man that was holding her, before giving her approval with a baby smile and a gurgle.
At that moment, she had stolen whatever remained of his shattered heart.
Suddenly, a soft cry from below wrenched him out of his thoughts. His baby girl was awake and hungry, evident on her scrunched up face that was starting to turn redder as she began to cry louder.
‘Hush baby girl. Shhhh. Papa’s here.’
Remus quickly lifted her out of her crib, and grabbed the bottle he had nearby and offered it to her. The volume of her cries had been increasing exponentially during the short time it took for him to grab the bottle and feed her.
Looking at his little bundle of joy in his arms, he chuckled quietly to himself as Adara sucked quickly and vigorously on her bottle.
‘You’re just like your Daddy aren’t you. Loud, impatient, demanding and oh so beautiful.’
In response, Adara, who had just finished her bottle in record time, looked up at him with her deep amber eyes and a surprisingly intense look.
Remus brought a thumb up to her cheek and gently caressed it. Rubbing it soothingly as he continued staring into her large expressive eyes, he continued speaking softly to her.
‘I’m sorry your Daddy can’t be here. I’m sorry that I had hurt your Daddy, but if I had to do it, I would do it all over again. Because of my sins, I somehow got you, and I could never be more thankful and grateful. Your Daddy might never be part of your life, but don’t worry my love, I will always be here to hold you, care for you and love you. You’re my reason for living now. I love you so much so much.’
Adara stared up at her Daddy for a moment longer, before breaking the serious moment by blowing a spit bubble at her Daddy, gurgling happily.
‘Hahaha. Aren’t you just adorable baby girl.’
Remus felt a feeling a joy bubbling up inside of him. He hadn’t felt such a happiness in what felt like forever. It felt good to be so happy and carefree again.
Placing Adara carefully on his shoulder, he patted her back gently, as he tried to get her to burp so that she could go back to sleep.
After a quiet burp from the little girl on his chest, he began lulling her to sleep. Pacing the room slowly, he rocked her gently in his warm embrace, all the while humming a song he had heard awhile back that always reminded him of Sirius.
When the rain
Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love
When the evening shadows
And the stars appear
And there is no one there
To dry your tears
I could hold you
For a million years
To make you feel my love
I know you
Haven\'t made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong
I\'ve known it
From the moment
That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong
I\'d go hungry
I\'d go black and blue
I\'d go crawling
Down the avenue
No, there\'s nothing
That I wouldn\'t do
To make you feel my love
The storms are raging
On the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change
Are throwing wild and free
You ain\'t seen nothing
Like me yet
I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn\'t do
Go to the ends
Of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love
It still made Remus’ heart clench tightly in his chest to think of Sirius and the life he was leading now. But now that he had Adara, each day became something to look forward to, and each moment filled with new discoveries and joy. With his baby girl, he could get through this, he had to.
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Hello (: That song was by Adele – Make you feel my love. Its my favourite of the moment, because haven’t we all been in a position where we love someone, but that person doesn’t seem to see you or love you back in that way. Just like Remus.
A big thank you to all of you who gave me suggestions for baby names (: made continuing the story so much easier. Haha. And made me really happy that so many of you were genuinely interested in this story! A MASSIVE thank you to Lady Annikaa for giving me the name Adara! I think it’s a beautiful beautiful name. Perfect for Sirius & Remus’ child. Heh.
Thank you thank you thank you for all the wonderful reviews. I promise I will get to replying each and every one. So do keep reading and reviewing! Happy summer everyone! xxx