Phases of the Moon
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Adult
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Phases Ch.7
Title: Phases of the Moon (1)
Chapter 7
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A/N: Sorry for the wait. I got a little sick, but here is the next chapter & a big THANK YOU!! to "Blessed Me, Lien, Extraho & beauty7890102" for all the lovely reviews. I\'m glad that you all like the story so far and as for Lily, James & Sirius... well let\'s see yeah? lol -Jaino
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Sirius had enough, he went through so much, endured so much that this was his finally breaking point. \'Did he really deserve all this?\' he thought making his way down a stone corridor to the Gryffindor common rooms.
Wiping his tears away Sirius began to think about all the things that had happened, that might happened and what could have happened.
Sirius had only did what he thought would protect them, yes he made the wrong choice \'but hadn\'t it been enough, all the pain, the loneliness... wasn\'t it enough?\' Sirius stopped walking, looking down the hall he could see the entrance to the Gryffindor common rooms.
\'Was it even worth staying for anymore? Did he really want to, that was the real question.\' With those thoughts in mind, Sirius slowly back way, turning he made his way to Professor Dumbledore\'s chambers.
Hours later Sirius sat in his sanctuary, preparations had been made, he would be leaving Hogwarts, early next morning, to start at \'Selifreick\' a secondary school for Wizards, and Witches in the town of Montrose, home of the Montrose Magpies.
It was planned that he would join the school when they came back from their holidays, which started a few days from now. Leaving Sirius at the school to accustom his self to the new settings.
Sirius was told that the school was very open-minded and it would be no problem to attend there when he would really start showing. Sirius been told the house elf\'s would be taken care of all his things and not to worry, Professor Dumbledore would be by every so often to check up on him.
After leaving, Sirius began to wonder if he made the right choice... but he thought of all the things, he and James had said, and the whole thing with the Marauders, silenced his doubts... The others didn\'t need nor wanted him anymore, it was for the best.
Hearing foots steps coming close to the entrance behind him, Sirius swiped at his eyes, brushing all traces of tears away.
At that second the tapestry was pulled aside, Remus looked in peering at the slightly darken room lit only by the stars.
"Padfoot?" Remus\'s voice called in concern, his body held in tension, relaxing when he saw Sirius sitting in the shadows next to the window.
Sirius sat frozen as Remus stepped into his sanctuary; walking closer Remus knelt in front of Sirius hand out as if to touch him, but at the last second stopped.
"Paddy are you okay?" Sirius looked at Remus\'s eyes, face blank,
he felt no emotions.
Tilting his head slightly to the left Sirius looked at Remus through his limp hair "Paddy?" he softly let out "Since when do you still call me \'Paddy\' Remus" voice low.
Remus startled at that "Sirius- I just wanted to see how you are" he couldn\'t believe how awful Sirius looked since he seen him last,Sirius had always worn his emotions on his sleeve; defeat had taken a toll on Sirius. It showed in his eyes, they way he carried himself, drawing attention to his frail looking body.
Remus started noticing how ill Sirius looked a few weeks ago but didn\'t do or say anything, still too flushed with anger and hurt to consider how Sirius was faring.
But now... it was too much for the usually kind hearted werewolf to ignore. He couldn\'t brush it off anymore; Sirius was wasting away. Finally reaching out he laid a hand on Sirius\'s slight shoulder, wincing as Sirius flinched at the touch.
Sirius stiffened his body "I\'m fine, you don\'t need to pretend you care" pushing him off he got up making his way out.
Grabbing Sirius\'s arm stopping him from leaving Remus said, "Wait a minute Sirius, I do care about you okay? I know that me and the others have been snubbing you but that\'s because we felt betrayed and were angry." Remus turn Sirius around wincing at how frail he felt "But I\'m not mad anymore I don\'t want you to- I just want you back Sirius\' we all do." Pulling him into an embrace
Remus was worried that Sirius wasn\'t listening that he to caught up in despair. But slowly he could feel Sirius\'s arm shifting up to complete the embrace.
He let out his breath not even realizing he held it, soothingly Remus rubbed his hands up and down Sirius\'s back as the boy stated to shake. He could hear his breath becoming labored as he felt Sirius start to cry silently.
"Shhh... it\'s okay, Paddy," Remus softly whispered, voice lowered, like how one would calm an upset animal or, in this case, a puppy.Gently, he lowered them both to sit on the stone floor; running his fingers through Sirius\'s hair, he continued to comfort his companion.
"I\'m s-so- so sorry, Remus..." Sirius started to choke out. "I didn\'t mean it to happen this way... I really didn\'t," Sirius cried, his voice full of tears. Sirius couldn\'t tell Remus what happened with James, that he was leaving... he didn\'t want to spoil the mood.
He just wanted to savor this one last embrace; that\'s all he wanted,
he wouldn\'t ask for more, just this...
The two friends held each other tightly, murmuring apologies back and forth as they began to patch together their torn friendship.
Soon Remus\'s eyes started to fall, Sirius led him back into the dorm room, helping him to bed. Sleepily, Remus snuggled in his bed sheets.
"Goodnight, Sirius, I\'m glad we\'re friends again." With that,
Remus fell asleep.
"Goodnight Remus..." Sirius blinked back the tears, lips trembling he smiled; giving Remus\'s hand one last squeeze, he blew out the candle next to the bed.
"And... Goodbye..." he whispered faintly.
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Chapter 7
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A/N: Sorry for the wait. I got a little sick, but here is the next chapter & a big THANK YOU!! to "Blessed Me, Lien, Extraho & beauty7890102" for all the lovely reviews. I\'m glad that you all like the story so far and as for Lily, James & Sirius... well let\'s see yeah? lol -Jaino
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Sirius had enough, he went through so much, endured so much that this was his finally breaking point. \'Did he really deserve all this?\' he thought making his way down a stone corridor to the Gryffindor common rooms.
Wiping his tears away Sirius began to think about all the things that had happened, that might happened and what could have happened.
Sirius had only did what he thought would protect them, yes he made the wrong choice \'but hadn\'t it been enough, all the pain, the loneliness... wasn\'t it enough?\' Sirius stopped walking, looking down the hall he could see the entrance to the Gryffindor common rooms.
\'Was it even worth staying for anymore? Did he really want to, that was the real question.\' With those thoughts in mind, Sirius slowly back way, turning he made his way to Professor Dumbledore\'s chambers.
Hours later Sirius sat in his sanctuary, preparations had been made, he would be leaving Hogwarts, early next morning, to start at \'Selifreick\' a secondary school for Wizards, and Witches in the town of Montrose, home of the Montrose Magpies.
It was planned that he would join the school when they came back from their holidays, which started a few days from now. Leaving Sirius at the school to accustom his self to the new settings.
Sirius was told that the school was very open-minded and it would be no problem to attend there when he would really start showing. Sirius been told the house elf\'s would be taken care of all his things and not to worry, Professor Dumbledore would be by every so often to check up on him.
After leaving, Sirius began to wonder if he made the right choice... but he thought of all the things, he and James had said, and the whole thing with the Marauders, silenced his doubts... The others didn\'t need nor wanted him anymore, it was for the best.
Hearing foots steps coming close to the entrance behind him, Sirius swiped at his eyes, brushing all traces of tears away.
At that second the tapestry was pulled aside, Remus looked in peering at the slightly darken room lit only by the stars.
"Padfoot?" Remus\'s voice called in concern, his body held in tension, relaxing when he saw Sirius sitting in the shadows next to the window.
Sirius sat frozen as Remus stepped into his sanctuary; walking closer Remus knelt in front of Sirius hand out as if to touch him, but at the last second stopped.
"Paddy are you okay?" Sirius looked at Remus\'s eyes, face blank,
he felt no emotions.
Tilting his head slightly to the left Sirius looked at Remus through his limp hair "Paddy?" he softly let out "Since when do you still call me \'Paddy\' Remus" voice low.
Remus startled at that "Sirius- I just wanted to see how you are" he couldn\'t believe how awful Sirius looked since he seen him last,Sirius had always worn his emotions on his sleeve; defeat had taken a toll on Sirius. It showed in his eyes, they way he carried himself, drawing attention to his frail looking body.
Remus started noticing how ill Sirius looked a few weeks ago but didn\'t do or say anything, still too flushed with anger and hurt to consider how Sirius was faring.
But now... it was too much for the usually kind hearted werewolf to ignore. He couldn\'t brush it off anymore; Sirius was wasting away. Finally reaching out he laid a hand on Sirius\'s slight shoulder, wincing as Sirius flinched at the touch.
Sirius stiffened his body "I\'m fine, you don\'t need to pretend you care" pushing him off he got up making his way out.
Grabbing Sirius\'s arm stopping him from leaving Remus said, "Wait a minute Sirius, I do care about you okay? I know that me and the others have been snubbing you but that\'s because we felt betrayed and were angry." Remus turn Sirius around wincing at how frail he felt "But I\'m not mad anymore I don\'t want you to- I just want you back Sirius\' we all do." Pulling him into an embrace
Remus was worried that Sirius wasn\'t listening that he to caught up in despair. But slowly he could feel Sirius\'s arm shifting up to complete the embrace.
He let out his breath not even realizing he held it, soothingly Remus rubbed his hands up and down Sirius\'s back as the boy stated to shake. He could hear his breath becoming labored as he felt Sirius start to cry silently.
"Shhh... it\'s okay, Paddy," Remus softly whispered, voice lowered, like how one would calm an upset animal or, in this case, a puppy.Gently, he lowered them both to sit on the stone floor; running his fingers through Sirius\'s hair, he continued to comfort his companion.
"I\'m s-so- so sorry, Remus..." Sirius started to choke out. "I didn\'t mean it to happen this way... I really didn\'t," Sirius cried, his voice full of tears. Sirius couldn\'t tell Remus what happened with James, that he was leaving... he didn\'t want to spoil the mood.
He just wanted to savor this one last embrace; that\'s all he wanted,
he wouldn\'t ask for more, just this...
The two friends held each other tightly, murmuring apologies back and forth as they began to patch together their torn friendship.
Soon Remus\'s eyes started to fall, Sirius led him back into the dorm room, helping him to bed. Sleepily, Remus snuggled in his bed sheets.
"Goodnight, Sirius, I\'m glad we\'re friends again." With that,
Remus fell asleep.
"Goodnight Remus..." Sirius blinked back the tears, lips trembling he smiled; giving Remus\'s hand one last squeeze, he blew out the candle next to the bed.
"And... Goodbye..." he whispered faintly.
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