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Chapter Six
19/12/07 Hi, Q here. thank you to our lovely reviewers - you are making us so happy! Please do let us know what you think.
Chapter Six
Severus Snape looked at the bright green eyes staring into his and silently cursed that damned girl to Merlin and back. WHY couldn't she, just this once, have listened?! The last thing he wanted at this moment was to have this annoying boy, the very boy he'd died for in the first place, mucking up THIS life for him too.
He sighed through his wounded throat and closed his eyes, hoping that when he opened them the other would be gone, instead he heard Albus' voice in his head "He needs you Severus"...
"Well, Severus my boy, you've finally reached the place you wanted to be. Somewhere quiet. Now, before I have to say goodbye to you for the last time, I'd like to say how proud I am of you. No one could have done more for Harry. You were just what he needed - his protector and keeper..."
"Cut out the crap, Albus, I don't have to listen any more. I'm dead, aren't I?"
"Well, yes and no. You can make a choice, Severus, a choice to return, or a choice to stay..."
"Why would I choose to return?" Severus asked mockingly "I'm a Death Eater, a murderer to them. Here I can be quiet."
"Yes, well, you wouldn't stay HERE, but would go on to the next adventure. Are you sure you wouldn't prefer to go back?"
"No, and I don't want you interfering, do you understand?" Severus growled. "You spent years manipulating me, but I won't have it anymore. If I choose to die, do you PROMISE to not interfere, to make me stay?"
Albus looked mildly hurt. "My dear boy," he began.
"Promise me," Severus commanded.
Albus nodded his head. "Severus, I have only ever wanted what was best. I am sorry if, at times that has meant sacrificing my friends, but I did mean well."
"You're stalling." Severus said.
"Not at all," Albus responded, "merely giving you the opportunity to understand my motives. I had a frightening responsibility - to the Wizarding World and to one young boy in my care. Severus, what could I have done but what I did?" He paused before going on, "You were superb. And yes, if you wish to move on I shall not interfere. I promise to you that I shall not stop you from dying. But," he looked serious, "are you sure?"
"Am I sure?!" Snape suddenly shouted. "I spent Merlin knows how many years caught between two equally demanding masters! I did EVERYTHING you asked, regardless of what it cost me! I followed your instructions faithfully, whatever they were! I had to fight off werewolves and mad dogs to save an infuriating brat who was NOTHING to do with me! Had to try and teach him enough to survive! Had to somehow get the sodding sword of Gryffindor to him! Had to sacrifice everything for him and two demented fools! Yes, Albus, I am ABSOLUTELY sure!"
"You can't go back," Albus said softly. "It's not a decision you can ever change."
Severus didn't even answer the older man. He looked at him derisively and made his way steadily towards the waiting train.
"Professor Snape?" the voice was distant, but it was coming from behind him, not in front.
“Professor Snape?”
"Professor Snape?" louder this time, more insistent.
“Professor Snape?” louder this time, more insistent.
He tried to ignore it, but he felt something tugging him from the entrance to the train. No matter how he fought against it, the force increased, pulling him back, back to the world he longed to leave. In desperation he turned to glare at Dumbledore. "Albus!" he ground out, "What are you doing?"
"Nothing," Albus said, humming pleasantly, "I promised not to interfere, and I haven't. All I had to do was delay you for a little while."
"PROFESSOR SNAPE!" The voice was a scream - or was that the whistle of the train?
Severus opened his tired eyes, focusing again on a world of greys and browns, the voice of Albus lingering, ghostlike, "I only had to delay you for a little while...
Severus saw the fuzzy outline of Hermione Granger leaning over him in concern and knew that, once again, he had been out manoeuvred. Slowly, the brown eyes of the girl swam, became green ... The past and the present mingled for a moment - was it Lily? - then he focused.
Harry Bloody Potter
The boy who was the bane of his existence, past AND present.
"Fucking Gryffindors!" he snarled, then gasped, "G-get OUT!"
Chapter Six
Severus Snape looked at the bright green eyes staring into his and silently cursed that damned girl to Merlin and back. WHY couldn't she, just this once, have listened?! The last thing he wanted at this moment was to have this annoying boy, the very boy he'd died for in the first place, mucking up THIS life for him too.
He sighed through his wounded throat and closed his eyes, hoping that when he opened them the other would be gone, instead he heard Albus' voice in his head "He needs you Severus"...
"Well, Severus my boy, you've finally reached the place you wanted to be. Somewhere quiet. Now, before I have to say goodbye to you for the last time, I'd like to say how proud I am of you. No one could have done more for Harry. You were just what he needed - his protector and keeper..."
"Cut out the crap, Albus, I don't have to listen any more. I'm dead, aren't I?"
"Well, yes and no. You can make a choice, Severus, a choice to return, or a choice to stay..."
"Why would I choose to return?" Severus asked mockingly "I'm a Death Eater, a murderer to them. Here I can be quiet."
"Yes, well, you wouldn't stay HERE, but would go on to the next adventure. Are you sure you wouldn't prefer to go back?"
"No, and I don't want you interfering, do you understand?" Severus growled. "You spent years manipulating me, but I won't have it anymore. If I choose to die, do you PROMISE to not interfere, to make me stay?"
Albus looked mildly hurt. "My dear boy," he began.
"Promise me," Severus commanded.
Albus nodded his head. "Severus, I have only ever wanted what was best. I am sorry if, at times that has meant sacrificing my friends, but I did mean well."
"You're stalling." Severus said.
"Not at all," Albus responded, "merely giving you the opportunity to understand my motives. I had a frightening responsibility - to the Wizarding World and to one young boy in my care. Severus, what could I have done but what I did?" He paused before going on, "You were superb. And yes, if you wish to move on I shall not interfere. I promise to you that I shall not stop you from dying. But," he looked serious, "are you sure?"
"Am I sure?!" Snape suddenly shouted. "I spent Merlin knows how many years caught between two equally demanding masters! I did EVERYTHING you asked, regardless of what it cost me! I followed your instructions faithfully, whatever they were! I had to fight off werewolves and mad dogs to save an infuriating brat who was NOTHING to do with me! Had to try and teach him enough to survive! Had to somehow get the sodding sword of Gryffindor to him! Had to sacrifice everything for him and two demented fools! Yes, Albus, I am ABSOLUTELY sure!"
"You can't go back," Albus said softly. "It's not a decision you can ever change."
Severus didn't even answer the older man. He looked at him derisively and made his way steadily towards the waiting train.
"Professor Snape?" the voice was distant, but it was coming from behind him, not in front.
“Professor Snape?”
"Professor Snape?" louder this time, more insistent.
“Professor Snape?” louder this time, more insistent.
He tried to ignore it, but he felt something tugging him from the entrance to the train. No matter how he fought against it, the force increased, pulling him back, back to the world he longed to leave. In desperation he turned to glare at Dumbledore. "Albus!" he ground out, "What are you doing?"
"Nothing," Albus said, humming pleasantly, "I promised not to interfere, and I haven't. All I had to do was delay you for a little while."
"PROFESSOR SNAPE!" The voice was a scream - or was that the whistle of the train?
Severus opened his tired eyes, focusing again on a world of greys and browns, the voice of Albus lingering, ghostlike, "I only had to delay you for a little while...
Severus saw the fuzzy outline of Hermione Granger leaning over him in concern and knew that, once again, he had been out manoeuvred. Slowly, the brown eyes of the girl swam, became green ... The past and the present mingled for a moment - was it Lily? - then he focused.
Harry Bloody Potter
The boy who was the bane of his existence, past AND present.
"Fucking Gryffindors!" he snarled, then gasped, "G-get OUT!"