Dark Desires

:: Hours afterward that incident, Laiza woke up again, feeling pain in her head. Sleeping for hours more than required of a normal human being would really mean pain too.



:: She looked around her and felt the fireplace lit, the room warm, her surroundings slightly dark and the presence of anger and pain inside of her still there as her thoughts slowly crept back to their rightful places.



:: Everytime she fell asleep, and wakes up the following moment, she just wished she never woke up again.. ever.





:: Nothing made sense anymore and she couldn’t tell whether Remus was reallyalive or what.. or what was happening.. she lost track of time and everything else around her.. time, days, weeks, how long has it been since her captive..?



:: No, she couldn’t recall much anymore. The torture she always received shook her to fear and a mentality that will soon turn into insanity. Nothing, mattered anymore.. nothing seemingly does..





:: She slowly sat at the bed and found out that she wasn’t chained, meaning.. Severus did try to soften her again by not chaining her.. but that wasn’t going to work. She’s sure he’s only doing all that to lessen her anxiety with him.. so that he could get what he want.. the easy way.. What a coward.





:: She stood from the bed and walked.. well, rather limped around the room.



:: The last torture still pained her left knee and she felt her ribs were still not in their proper places.. What a **** she was in.





:: She moved around the room and went to the fireplace and sat before it, thinking..





:: She wished she was at Hogwarts right now, taking care of Remus.. if ever he’s still okay.. by the warm fire at Hogwarts, or anywhere else.. as long as she was with him.. but being here, in this warm and cozy place, was worst than being in a cold winter forest..



:: She wanted Remus.. she needed him badly.. or she will rather go insane in days.. There must be a way out of this place..







:: Thoughts swimmed inside of her head as she watched the dancing fire before her.. her eyes straight into it.. “There must be something I can do..” she thought quietly to herself, “I wouldn’t be here certainly if I’m not that important.. and I must use that importance in my own advantage.."



:: "They took me because I’m intelligent they say..” she paused and tried to think clearly despite the pain in her body and soul, “then I must use that intelligence.. somehow.. someway.. It is mine..” she frowned as thoughts slowly forming inside her head were starting to help her unconsciously, “they’re mine.. This intelligence is mine, in my head.. and nobody could tell me how I’m going to use that.. I could control it for it is mine.”





:: Her thoughts suddenly broke apart when she heard suddenly movement behind her. She looked behind and the door closed locked and saw a figure walking forward her.





:: The shadow reached the fire and she found Snape standing before her, holding a basin of warm water and a cloth.





:: “I didn’t know you would be awake at this hour,” he slowly said, settling the basin down on the floor and kneeling next to her. Laiza only stared at him, she didn’t say anything.. her mind was still half inside those thoughts she was thinking.. and she was surprised to see him here right now.







:: She watched silently as he bathed the cloth with warm water and watched as he placed a potion out from his pocket. She flinched at the sight of it, Severus stared at her for a moment, “It’s not something that will hurt you,” he assured her as he poured a purple liquid into the basin and its colour vanished.



:: He dipped the cloth into it and let it there for a couple of moments as he stared at Laiza, “Would you like some dinner?” he asked her, staring at the cuts left around her hands and feet, “It’s nearly past midnight, but I can make an elf make some for-“ “I’m not hungry.” Laiza quickly said, and she bit her lip for that.. she must learn to control herself or else.. she would not be able to think.. and she needed to think, to think clearly to get out of that place.





:: But Severus didn’t say anything. He was used to all her defenses and her denying of everything he offered. He was at the level where he would be just waiting until Laiza got tired of saying ‘no’ to finally say ‘yes’ to everything he would give and ask of her.





:: Slowly, he reached towards her and took her arm, “let me see the wounds..” he slowly said, and stared at them, Laiza didn’t protest when he held her hand and placed the warm cloth on it.



:: It looked as if he wanted to heal her, but then he restrained himself from the thought and merely said, “Just place this cloth on the wounds and it’s going to heal you..” he said, handing it to her and turning to the basin, “I’ll just get you something to eat.” Then he left her without saying another word.







:: Laiza stared at the cloth and to the fire, the way he treated and stared at her.. He was handing her everything she needed to escape this place.. Yes, thinking clearly does make her feel better, makes her more aware of everything that was happening.





:: The more the Dark Lord tries to hurt her and break her spirit, the more Severus wanted to mend it, to make her believe he was the only wall she could stand against with.. Yes, he was making her rely on him.. that was his game.



:: That’s what he wanted to play. And knowing Laiza thinks there’s no way out of this, she would slowly rely on him.. to his presence, his gestures, to his movements.. she would depend on him. That’s what he was expecting her to do, so everything would be easier for him.





:: Laiza placed the warm cloth over her wounds and bruises and within moments, they healed already.. and as they did so, she knew that the only way to heal herself and to get out of that place was to use all resources Severus was not conscious he was handing her wholeheartedly.





:: “You can never be whole again by being broken..” she softly thought to herself, “and to be broken.. you have to be prepared to go through whatever it takes..” those thoughts did make sense, but did scare her a little. Was she ready whatever it takes?





:: The door opened again and Severus entered, holding a tray of food again. Like he didn’t remember what she did to the food tray earlier. He placed the tray next to her and showed her the contents and told her she could eat by herself if she wanted to and he would no longer force her to eat.



:: Then, he knelt down next to her and examined the healed wounds as he dipped the clothing again. He rolled up his sleeves and he was too busy with it, he didn’t notice Laiza staring seriously at the food tray, to him then back to the fire.. he didn’t notice Laiza’s once intelligent mind.. was once more returning to its rightful thoughts.. thoughts where she was the one who controls them..



:: Thoughts of a nymph, that once formed, could no longer be held back.





:: He dried the cloth off with dripping water and turned to Laiza again, this time, he was slightly surprised to see her reaching out for the glass of juice on the tray and was starting to empty the glass. He smirked a little, but tried to hide it.



:: Laiza did notice it, but pretended that she didn’t. she was going to play this game the way he wanted it to be played.. the way he wanted it to work out.. but she was going to play it in her own terms.







:: He returned his attention to her wounds and bruises, then he remembered the Death Eaters bruised her legs and that one of her knees was indeed injured. He slowly reached for it, and thinking Laiza would protest, already held himself for whatever she was going to hit him with this time. But none came.





:: He reached slowly for it and examined it, still she didn’t do anything. When his slender hands were already at the end of her nightdress to lift it up to examine it, he heard Laiza flinch in pain..





:: He looked up at her to see if she was protesting or whatever, but she wasn’t. Instead, he saw a pained look over her face one that really showed she was being tortured by that injury.





:: “They hurt you here?” he asked, though he didn’t expect for an answer as he slowly lifted the clothing.. and revealed her skin..





:: He felt moist in his forehead doing this, and it wasn’t because of the fire before them. As he lifted it, he took the cloth from the basin and was to start healing and wiping it over her leg but found out that it would be a disaster to do so. Doing so will be unable to restrain himself from something, and that would completely ruin all his plans..





:: So instead, he handed Laiza the cloth and said firmly, “Just place this at the area where they have bruised you, just like in your hand.. it’s going to be healed..” he told her handing it to her and turning to her food instead to help her slice the lean mean he had taken from the kitchen downstairs. As he did so, half of his senses was still with Laiza if she was going to heal herself. But he didn’t want to look at her at that moment, no, or he will really not restrain himself.





:: He placed his attention back to the food, and afterwards, as he was slicing the food on the platter, his eyes wandered back to Laiza.. Her back was turned to him, but he would see her in a sideview. Her long slender hands were slowly reaching down her knee.. she slowly lifted her clothing right up above her knee.. and was slowly placing the clothing..slowly..up and down her knee.. smoothing it with the clothing to heal it..





:: He could feel his insides turning as he did so.. the way she does it, maybe it was better he just did it himself, roughly and more fast.. than this way she was doing.. she was doing it ever so slowly.. maybe it really was that painful that she needed to take it slow to heal it..





:: But then again, Laiza felt his eyes on her.. and she couldn’t help to think that this plan was really going to work..





:: Soon enough, he was back before her and asked for the clothing back so he could place it away. She didn’t give it back, “It’s still painful,” she slowly said, nodding to her knee as she placed the clothing she just dampen a gain back to her knee, “and it think I need to heal it some more..” she softly said, and she faked some flinches adding some moans with it..





:: She lifted her eyes up and saw him stare away from him, shaking his head. She went on healing her feet until Severus seemed to have had enough of it.. he roughly took the clothing from her and said, “I’ll just give you a potion for that, it works more faster.”





:: He took it and Laiza tried to get it back, when he didn’t and he turned, she suddenly cried in pain that made Severus turn back to her. Laiza clutched her side and pushed him away, “It’s nothing..get away..” she softly said and Severus saw the pain in her eyes and he quickly knelt down again next to her.





:: “What’s wrong?” he asked, unable to see that Laiza was starting to learn and realize how things would save her..





:: Laiza shook her head and turned back to her mood of rebellion against him, “It’s nothing.. it’s nothing..” she quickly said, “I can get through this pain.. get..away..” and she still groaned in pain and curled into the ground.







:: Severus shook his head and quickly set aside the food tray and took her hand away from where she was pinning it. She was placing it at her rib side and was clutching it painfully.





:: He shook his head. Then he remembered, the loud bang he heard earlier. His eyes widened, they had thrown her around the room earlier..



;: What the..





:: Without thinking twice, and thinking only to heal Laiza, he quickly took her in his arms and brought her back to the bed.. She didn’t tell him ealier that her ribs was nearly broken.. Oh great, just great..





:: “I’m fine..” Laiza told him, holding into her side but really, trying to pull down her clothing without him realizing what she was really doing, “you don’t have to care about this, this is better and-“ but her words soon were cut off as she watched him roll his sleeves higher and took some bandages from the cabinet and some other healing things.







:: “I need to heal you or you’re going to be in so much pain later on,” he warned her as he could sense the danger of what deep wounds might have reached her.





:: Seeing the pale look already at his face, he didn’t care if he would protest, but out of worry, he didn’t realize Laiza didn’t protest anymore.. no, she didn’t protest a slight chance.





:: Placing her to face on one side, he was just to heal her from the outside of her clothing, but Laiza slowly pulled down the lace of her blouse and slowly lifted her left rib part.. revealing some skin.. but not too much skin.. but much enough to make him be reluctant if he should heal her at all..





:: Gently then, he placed the bandges at her skin.. his hands as he lowered them on her skin were shaking.. what made it worse, was when Laiza made sounds when he healed her.. surely she was just flinching in pain..







:: The tips of his hand reached down and he felt the soft skin beneath them.. the soft skin of Laiza.. he could hardly stop himself.. but before so, Laize already pulled her clothing back to its place and he moved away from her.. She didn’t say anything, he didn’t even wait. He could understand that the pain in her wounded left part already was paining her enough for her to protest.. What he didn’t didn’t know was that al the while he was healing her, and Laiza was making sounds.. she was faking it.





:: No, her left part was deeply bruised and wounded but it was far from being broken for Laiza to make sounds like that as she was being healed..



:: No, she was faking it. And she was going to fake everything if she needed to.





:: When Severus left that night with the basin, clothing and food tray, she turned on her back, starting at the fireplace.. The blazing fire reminding her of the compassion and passion in Severus’ eyes as he healed her tonight..





:: He had handed her the most powerful weapon she could hold against him.. emotions.







:: And because of that, now she was sure.. emotions was what keeps her alive, emotions gives her the will to bring her back to Remus, and emotions it is that is weakening Severus and strengthening her. Two opposite attractions, with one same power.. one to weaken and strengthen the other.. and it was the only way out. It was both a weapon for destruction and a weapon to build.





:: And because of that, now that she has what she needed to have to get out of the place, she was ready.. Ready to battle until the end, until she comes back to Remus. Ready to strike, to do everything.. she was ready for everything now. She has got nothing to lose anymore. And she was going to get out of this place for Remus Lupin.. she was going to do everything that was necessary for that to happen.





:: Laiza Raines was going to use the intellect she has been given, to use everything she was left with.. She knew what she has to do….what she has to do.. to get out of that ****, whatever it has to cause her..





:: “I’ll take all my chances,” she thought before drifting to sleep, “Anything to get out of this ****. Whatever it takes.”





:: The following morning, Laiza was woken by the strong smell of warm croissant around her. She looked around and found the table filled with her breakfast, quickly looking around, Severus seemed to be at the next room, washing his hands up at the sink as it sounded.





:: She looked around her, her mind quickly settling. She only has little time for everything as she already knows, and little time she has requires a lot of quick thinking already. But she has made up her mind last night, she was going to use all the resources she has out of this ****.





:: Quickly getting off the bed, she went to the table and found herself hungry. Thinking made her hungry and it means her normal state of mind was returning, and she needed strength.. and she needed to play along with it at all costs..





:: She was already at the middle of her croissant, when the door of the bathroom opened. Severus looked surprised when he found her sitting next to the end table and eating the bread, but he didn’t say anything. He took it as a good sign that Laiza seemingly is realizing that she was going nowhere anymore.. might as well let her rely more to him.





:: “How was your sleep?” he asked her, walking around the room and staring at the surroundings, “How are your bruises?” he asked.





:: Laiza didn’t answer at first. She needed to always have a well thought of answer for everything he was going to ask her. She needed to sound helpless, vulnerable.. like he was the only ray of hope for her to live.. she needed to sound like she was starting to depend on her.





:: “It did hurt so much..” she slowly said, lowering the bread in her hand, “and I thought I was going to break my ribs thoroughly-“ “Next time you have been pained like that tell me exactly where they have pained you,” he said, sitting opposite her and drinking the coffee he had earlier, “so I can heal it easily.” “I thought I could manage it..” she softly said, looking away.





:: Severus stared at her, there was still that thought in her that she could depend on herself. Well, he must take that out from her.







:: “You can’t manage anything anymore,” he told her but not unkindly, “that’s why I’m here. I already told you.. If you want to survive this war.. you have got to place your mind where they should be..”





:: Laiza wanted to say she knows where she has settled her mind already. But she kept quiet, she wanted him to think that she was already thinking twice over not wanting to be with him.. that he was her only hope to live in this war.





:: “You’re only going to survive this war because of me,” he told her straightforward as he drank the coffee and placed it back on the table, “I can let you remain unscathed from this war until it ends.. Do you understand?”







:: Still, Laiza didn’t say anything. She wanted him to let him say his thoughts, the way things were and everything.. he wanted her to think that he was right in everything now and she was wrong in everything.. and that she has no other choice. She needed him to think she was starting to depend on him.







:: Severus finished the coffee and quickly stood up, suddenly flinching. Laiza’s eyes narrowed.. she then remembered the thing she had seen the other night. Severus must still have those wounds then.. that long sharp wound he had that she had seen.







:: He flinched, his face showed it, but he pretended otherwise. “I’m going to come in later to check on you,” he told her, taking his traveling cloak, “I will be back later to give you that potion you need to heal those wounds faster. If anyone else attempts to get in here –“ he paused and stared at her and remembered how Lucius savagely attempted to do so, “you know what you have to do. I’m not going to care if you will murder Lucius here.” Then with that, he turned to the door and left, leaving Laiza alone in her thoughts.. alone in her scheming..







:: That very night, Severus returned very late too. Almost midnight it already was, and he left Laiza under the care and guidance of the house elves. When he asked how everything went, he was pleased to hear that all the meals they sent her, she has managed to finish and they told him that the sound of cryings in her room lessened already and she was more quiet than usual in her room. She was seemingly asleep whole day and when the fire burnt out, they told him she asked for another one.





:: Severus was pleased to hear all this. Since the other night, that he told her that he was the only one to care for her now, it seemed it was slowly sinking in her already and she has no other choice in this war anyway..





:: When he went up the stairs to check on her, the lit from the fireplace was gone and it was quiet. He had presumed that she was asleep already and headed straight for the bathroom. When he got there whatever.. he wasn’t prepared to what he had just seen..





:: The sound of drifting water from the large tub he had there was mounting, overflowing.. some bubbles were all over the side of the tub and.. he could only hold his breath.. the smell of enticing and mesmerizing perfume filled the room.. it warmth both his hands and insides..





:: Laiza was lying on the tub, clearly breathing, eyes closed as the water slowly was sipping through her skin..





:: He stood there for a long moment, Laiza didn’t realize he came in already and he wasn’t sure whether he wanted her to realize it or not.





:: He stood there for a long moment, watching Laiza, at the bliss of just sitting there, eyes closed, inhaling, relaxing.. breathing smoothly as the water caressed her porcelain skin….





:: He didn’t know what to do.well, he knew what he wanted to do at that very moment, he **** knows what he wanted right there at that very moment..



:: Standing there, watching Laiza just there.. inches away from him.. his hands sweating already.. his insides shaking.. But that was a crucial stage, and again.. it will ruin his plan of gaining her and her trust the way it should be..





:: Laiza had her eyes closed, but she did hear him open the door and enter, the silence for some moments. If her calculations were right in what Severus wanted to happen between them, then she would have rejoiced. A



:: nd as she heard the door open again and closed, and footsteps fading away.. she closed her eyes and nodded to herself.. a long wide, smirk spreading across her face, telling her exactly, that the game she thought Severus was playing on her, was exactly what she was thinking..





:: After seeing that, Severus didn’t know if he wanted to stay longer back inside the room or go anywhere else. Before he could decide however, the door of the room opened and in came an elf, telling him that the Death Eaters were having a meeting down the stairs.





:: “At this hour? But we had just one-“ “Master Malfoy says that the Dark Lord wanted talk to you and to my Master, sir.”





:: Severus nodded at the elf and stared back at the bathroom door. He could still hear the sound of the water flowing. He didn’t want to leave, but he wanted to leave at the same time. Staying there would only put his plans into jeopardy.





:: Turning, he headed out of the room and left Laiza there, wondering and battling with himself if he wanted to go back later or not.



:: Laiza finished bathing up and taking the bathrobe hanging by the silk, she dressed herself only with it. She stared upon the mirror.. the necklace binding her with the charm to be Severus’ possession for the rest of her life was sparkling beneath her neck..





:: She touched it and felt its glass shimmering cold upon her skin.. “I can’t be yours,” she thought darkly, her eyes narrowing, “I’m Remus’ alone.. I’m his. Not yours. Whatever you placed upon me.. and I’m getting out of this **** soon..”





:: She tied slightly the bathrobe and left the bathroom. Looking back into the room, it was lit by the fire in the fireplace, but Severus wasn’t around.



:: She wondered for a moment where he was and walked to the door. She wasn’t expecting it to be unlocked, by it was. But.. why? Where was he? He doesn’t usually leave it that way..





:: Slowly walking around the room, barefoot, wearing only the robe, her hair slightly dripping with water, she tried to look outside the door. She pushed it ajar and stared around.. Now she only realized her room was placed somewhere in a long dark hallway, but further part, she could see the way of the staircase and another staircase at the other side of the other hallway nearest her room..





:: She pushed the door open and walked outside, knowing what she was doing was dangerous. What the ****.. what was the worst thing that could happen to her.. ?





:: She walked further and stared around her, nothing, darkness.. She made a few more steps.. she could hear some people down the stairs.. beneath her was a grand hallway.. and she could hear talking there.. but who were there..? Death Eaters? Perhaps. No doubt about that even.







:: She moved to the stairs and tried to catch some of the conversation.





:: “What can they do?” she heard a man’s voice said in an insulting way, “The Potter boy is can’t do anything, he is in a comma. And that werewolf they so lovingly stand against? Well, he’s good as dead.. Didn’t you know..? It injured him..badly.. the last battle.. it was a very great ambush at that time and-“ “Will you keep quite?” said a female’s voice, “I don’t care about the werewolf.. I care about us killing Potter. That’s the only way we can all live forever, isn’t it..? And Severus.. Shouldn’t he be dealing with that Sylph? What is he doing..? Toying with her?” said the female’s voice angrily.



:: “If I didn’t know any better, she doesn’t have anything special. She’s just here because Severus pretended she has something special.. so he could bring her here, for his own.. personal..use..” the last words were too silky and even Laiza didn’t like the way it sounded.







:: She bent further to listen, but suddenly, a hand clasped against her own wrist and someone pulled her suddenly. She looked up, fear in her eyes as she saw standing there, with glittering eyes was Lucius.





:: “Well, well.. well..” he whispered, pulling her and pushing her against the wall that pained Laiza’s back, “Look who got out of her cage.. How do you like few steps away of freedom from your cage..” he asked, his black gloved hand pulling a long dagger from his pocket and showing it to Laiza.





:: Laiza stood next to him, immobile, eyes shinning in both fear and anger.



:: He pinned her against the wall, his other leg blocking her waist from making any movement away from him and he had his other hand pressing her neck against the wall, the other holding the dagger out and twirling against her hair.





:: “And looks like someone is starting to enjoy her stay here..” he motioned towards her wet hair and leaned closer. Laiza stood still, undoing anything as he felt Lucius’ nose linger around her neck, sniffing its way around her hair, ears, neck..





:: He moved his head away and stared at her, “And looks like someone has no longer the will to protest..” he whispered gently, the tip of the dagger, he pointed and cut the lace of Laiza’s bathrobe, revealing her left shoulder.



:: “Looks like you have learned to be with a Death Eater.. Tell me..” his icy voice sounding in her ear as he leaned closer and suddenly bit her ear, “Has Severus finally gathered up the courage and finally became a man?” he raised his eyesbrow, his face inches from Laiza’s lips as he slowly then touched his lips along Laiza’s jawline.





:: Laiza stood there, still not moving. She was dead scared with the dagger in his hand, yet, half of her wanted to know how badly Lucius wanted her.. how badly she could use this piece of situation to her own will..





:: “Severus is not a man..” she told him, her voice suddenly with silent rage that actually made Lucius stare up to her. He stared at her for a moment, the challenging gaze at her eyes..





:: “He never was a man to me..” she slowly said, her voice strong and firm, but not revealing anything, “Death Eater is he?” she slowly said, “He has not slightly shown me a sign of it..”





:: For a moment, Lucius didn’t say anything. Then to Laiza’s surprise, a very wide grin spread across Lucius’ face. A cold sneer as he shook his head and moved the dagger away from Laiza and instead cupped her chin, “Tell me,” he softly whispered, “We could arrange for that.. All you have to do.. Is tell me..I’m the Dark Lord’s closest ally, you know..” he said, tracing Laiza’s jawline with his gloved hand, “I can arrange something if you want.. But ofcourse.. I can show you what a Death Eater really is.. or rather.. what a man really is.. What can you-“





:: “LUCIUS!” a very cold voice called and they both turned where Severus came halting in front of them. Without another movement, he quickly pushed Lucius away from Laiza and placed himself between them.





:: “I was just blocking our prisoner,” Lucius said, staring from Laiza then to Severus, “you might want to take care of her.. You know, the Dark Lord wouldn’t want finding out she has been freely wandering the corridors-“



:: “You have no right to tell me what to do with her,” Severus said, pulling Laiza behind him, “Get out of this corridor. As you know, this boundaries as well as everything within it, are mine.” “And this is still my gallant villa, if you don’t know.” Then he turned around away from them, stopping then turning to Laiza, “You might want to think about it, my darling..” then he left them both, sneering to himself.







:: Severus stood there, shaking in anger. Then he turned to Laiza whose expression was wide grin that quickly turned in fear when he turned to her. He didn’t notice her smirk, when he turned, she was full of fear and anxiety.





:: “Did he do anything-“ “He..” Laiza said, sobbing and showed him the mark Lucius left along her neck and he quickly cursed and pulled her back to the room.





:: “Are you out of your mind? What were you doing outside? I already told you!” he yelled at her once they entered and he lit the burnt out fire, “Think about it, Laiza. Staying with me will keep you alive until this war is over.



:: "Nobody can ever harm you until I’m here with you. Don’t get out of this room and try to escape! You are never escaping and getting out of this place, you hear me? You cannot escape this life anymore, learn to accept this is your fate! Here, with the Death Eaters, with me.. Under the Dark Lord’s victory! Get it out of your system Laiza.. you’re staying here.. Here, with me.. Do you unders-“ he turned and her words were broken when he turned to Laiza, she was sitting on the ground, with half the bathrobe down her back, revealing her back.





:: For a moment, he stood there, open mouth to her when he heard her sobbing, “I was just looking for you..” she cried softly, “I wasn’t trying to escape.. I was just looking for you because I wanted you to heal this one wound that was left.. It really was painful and I couldn’t take it any longer, I just thought maybe you could.. I really wasn’t trying to escape..” she softly looked up at him and Severus was taken aback by the kind of soft look she had in her face.





:: Quickly, he grabbed some bandages and medicines from his storage and knelt down next to her. One deep cut was placed along her shoulder blades and he didn’t know how he was going to heal that one without having to touch it..







:: He could see that the wound was deep and it really was painful to look at. “Why didn’t you tell me about this earlier-“ “I wasn’t sure I could ask you to heal-“ “Rubbish,” he said angrily, biting off the bandage to cut it, “You know you can ask me for anything to help you..” he said angry of himself for scolding at her, whilst she wasn’t trying to escape at all, but seek his help..







:: He paused.. she was seeking his help.. she was seeking for him. She was beginning to think he was the only hope she did have in this war.. laiza was beginning to rely on him.. to trust him.. to ask for his presence.





:: “I was just scared.. that’s all..” Laiza’s voice murmured after he had healed her and helped her back in the bed, “that’s all.. he scares me..” “What else did he say anyway?” Severus asked as he kept the bandages back to their places, “What did he say?” as he wanted to know what words he has been poisoning on Laiza to scare her.





:: “Nothing much,” Laiza replied, “he just said you aren’t a man enough and that-“ “He said what?” he asked angrily, sharply turning to her. Laiza tried to look innocent, the exact effect she was expecting was forming in Snape’s face. Brilliant. This plan was going too well.





:: “Never mind, he just-“ “He said I’m not a man enough?” he repeated again as he moved around the room and grabbed a goblet of wine, shaking his head, “Not man enough. Well, who does he call a man? Himself? Himself while the other night Narcissa just went to me and asked how the **** she was going to still put up with him while-“ but he paused because he realized that he was talking more to himself than to Laiza anymore.





:: “What else did he say to you?” he asked angrily, turning to her. Laiza shook her head, “That’s all. But I answered him that you’re a man enough and that-“ “It doesn’t matter what he say,” he cut her short, “what matters is that I don’t want to see you again ever being touched by him. One more time I see his hands onyou.. I swear, I cannot control myself from doing what I could-“





:: “He’s a Death Eater,” Laiza reminded him, “you can’t exactly do anything-“ “I own you!” he yelled suddenly at her moving to her that made Laiza back away, “Can’t he respect that! I do own you Laiza, the moment that spell bounded us! And he knows it! He does and he’s **** all this on purpose.. If I ever see him-“ “Don’t,” Laiza whispered, “it doesn’t matter. I’m fine. I’ll be okay.. you healed the wounds anyway.”





:: Severus looked as if he wanted to argue more, but then again, he remembered to now show too much emotions to Laiza too. “get to sleep,” he simply ordered her, “just get back to sleep.” He moved to the door to go but Laiza called him back, “Can you stay?” she suddenly asked him, her eyes showing nothing but innocence..





:: “I’m scared that he might get here again.. and I don’t know what I’m going to do..” Severus didn’t even wait for her to finish her sentence as he locked the door and stayed at the couch.





:: “Don’t’ fear him,” he told her, “I’m not going anywhere..” he whispered as he caressed her cheeks and she stared back at him. Laiza tried to look both scared and happy at the same time for him staying.. she wanted to give the impression she was still scared of him, yet she knew that he was his only hope to live longer.. she must show all that fake thoughts to him..





:: The clock ticked and went on and Laiza fell asleep on the couch, her head lying on Severus. He couldn’t believe it. Laiza wanted his presence, for her to feel more safe, she needed him now. To be with him, with him..







:: His eyes roamed the fireplace as Laiza breathed in and out, sleeping next to him as he caressed her hair. It was past midnight already and so he thought of carrying her back to the bed. He placed her gently and covered her with the sheets of blanket and was nearly at the door, when he heard her moved over the bed, slowly opened her eyes and looked around.





:: There was a questioning look over her face and Severus stepped away from the door, “I just thought you’d want to sleep-“ “I thought you were staying here tonight..” she murmured, stress over her face.





:: He didn’t say anything else. He walked forward and stared at her, “You should rest now..” he told her, nodding towards her wounds, “You should-“



:: “I can’t sleep properly..I think it’s painful.. or something.. I really can’t.. When I move around, it’s painful..” Laiza answered, nodding to the wound on her back.





:: Severus stared at her for a moment, I’ll check it in the morning, you go ahead and sleep now..” but Laiza didn’t let him go, instead she pulled him to sit down and sat down herself, “It’s really painful.. Do you think it’s like.. infected or something..?” she asked, rubbing her eyes.





:: Severus shook his head, the way he sees it, maybe Laiza really was in pain with it. “Okay, I’ll just check it..” he told her, “but I’ll get some materials for it-“ “Maybe you can just look at it then decide what to do..” she told him and before Severus could stop her or do anything else, she turned around from him and pulled down the silk robe she was wearing and revealed her shoulder blades to him.









:: For a moment, he stood there, open mouth to her when he heard her sobbing, “I was just looking for you..” she cried softly, “I wasn’t trying to escape.. I was just looking for you because I wanted you to heal this one wound that was left.. It really was painful and I couldn’t take it any longer, I just thought maybe you could.. I really wasn’t trying to escape..” she softly looked up at him and Severus was taken aback by the kind of soft look she had in her face.





:: Quickly, he grabbed some bandages and medicines from his storage and knelt down next to her. One deep cut was placed along her shoulder blades and he didn’t know how he was going to heal that one without having to touch it..





:: He could see that the wound was deep and it really was painful to look at. “Why didn’t you tell me about this earlier-“ “I wasn’t sure I could ask you to heal-“ “Rubbish,” he said angrily, biting off the bandage to cut it, “You know you can ask me for anything to help you..” he said angry of himself for scolding at her, whilst she wasn’t trying to escape at all, but seek his help..





:: He paused.. she was seeking his help.. she was seeking for him. She was beginning to think he was the only hope she did have in this war.. laiza was beginning to rely on him.. to trust him.. to ask for his presence.





:: “I was just scared.. that’s all..” Laiza’s voice murmured after he had healed her and helped her back in the bed, “that’s all.. he scares me..” “What else did he say anyway?” Severus asked as he kept the bandages back to their places, “What did he say?” as he wanted to know what words he has been poisoning on Laiza to scare her.





:: “Nothing much,” Laiza replied, “he just said you aren’t a man enough and that-“ “He said what?” he asked angrily, sharply turning to her. Laiza tried to look innocent, the exact effect she was expecting was forming in Snape’s face. Brilliant. This plan was going too well.





:: “Never mind, he just-“ “He said I’m not a man enough?” he repeated again as he moved around the room and grabbed a goblet of wine, shaking his head, “Not man enough. Well, who does he call a man? Himself? Himself while the other night Narcissa just went to me and asked how the **** she was going to still put up with him while-“ but he paused because he realized that he was talking more to himself than to Laiza anymore.





:: “What else did he say to you?” he asked angrily, turning to her. Laiza shook her head, “That’s all. But I answered him that you’re a man enough and that-“ “It doesn’t matter what he say,” he cut her short, “what matters is that I don’t want to see you again ever being touched by him. One more time I see his hands onyou.. I swear, I cannot control myself from doing what I could-“ “He’s a Death Eater,” Laiza reminded him, “you can’t exactly do anything-“





:: “I own you!” he yelled suddenly at her moving to her that made Laiza back away, “Can’t he respect that! I do own you Laiza, the moment that spell bounded us! And he knows it! He does and he’s **** all this on purpose.. If I ever see him-“ “Don’t,” Laiza whispered, “it doesn’t matter. I’m fine. I’ll be okay.. you healed the wounds anyway.”







:: Severus looked as if he wanted to argue more, but then again, he remembered to now show too much emotions to Laiza too. “get to sleep,” he simply ordered her, “just get back to sleep.” He moved to the door to go but Laiza called him back, “Can you stay?” she suddenly asked him, her eyes showing nothing but innocence..





:: “I’m scared that he might get here again.. and I don’t know what I’m going to do..” Severus didn’t even wait for her to finish her sentence as he locked the door and stayed at the couch.





:: “Don’t’ fear him,” he told her, “I’m not going anywhere..” he whispered as he caressed her cheeks and she stared back at him. Laiza tried to look both scared and happy at the same time for him staying.. she wanted to give the impression she was still scared of him, yet she knew that he was his only hope to live longer.. she must show all that fake thoughts to him..









:: The clock ticked and went on and Laiza fell asleep on the couch, her head lying on Severus. He couldn’t believe it. Laiza wanted his presence, for her to feel more safe, she needed him now. To be with him, with him..







:: His eyes roamed the fireplace as Laiza breathed in and out, sleeping next to him as he caressed her hair. It was past midnight already and so he thought of carrying her back to the bed. He placed her gently and covered her with the sheets of blanket and was nearly at the door, when he heard her moved over the bed, slowly opened her eyes and looked around.





:: There was a questioning look over her face and Severus stepped away from the door, “I just thought you’d want to sleep-“ “I thought you were staying here tonight..” she murmured, stress over her face.





:: He didn’t say anything else. He walked forward and stared at her, “You should rest now..” he told her, nodding towards her wounds, “You should-“





:: “I can’t sleep properly..I think it’s painful.. or something.. I really can’t.. When I move around, it’s painful..” Laiza answered, nodding to the wound on her back.





:: Severus stared at her for a moment, I’ll check it in the morning, you go ahead and sleep now..” but Laiza didn’t let him go, instead she pulled him to sit down and sat down herself, “It’s really painful.. Do you think it’s like.. infected or something..?” she asked, rubbing her eyes.







:: Severus shook his head, the way he sees it, maybe Laiza really was in pain with it. “Okay, I’ll just check it..” he told her, “but I’ll get some materials for it-“ “Maybe you can just look at it then decide what to do..” she told him and before Severus could stop her or do anything else, she turned around from him and pulled down the silk robe she was wearing and revealed her shoulder blades to him.







:: His eyes wanted so much to roam farther than only her shoulder blades, but he must stop himself. He was ruining his own self. Laiza was seeking his help now, that was what he wanted.. but he didn’t exactly see this coming from him.. He was the one left unable to have control over himself now.















:: Her porcelain skin laid before his eyes and to make matters worse, Laiza lie flat on her stomach on the bed so he could have a better look at it..





:: “Is it infected?” her voice asked from the pillow as she lowered the robe more, he quickly and roughly grabbed the robe and covered it all over her again, “I told you I will just check in the morning, can’t you understand that?” he asked, unable to control himself.





:: Laiza looked over her shoulder to him, “Is.. something.. wrong?” she asked, innocence in her eyes. He looked down at her, eyes almost glinting, “Nothing’s wrong..” he told her, “It’s just that..” he paused not knowing what to say. ‘It’s just that I can’t control myself when I see your skin..’ was something he was unlikely to say.





:: Severus shook his head, “I just don’t have enough potion tonight for that.” Severus told her quickly, then quickly turning away from him, “I will heal that in the morning. Get some sleep. I will see you..” then he turned to leave and was about to go when Laiza pulled her to him and with a swift pull from her that he was unprepared for, Laiza pulled his face to hers and passionately and warmly kissed him.





:: He couldn’t move for a moment, and when he tried, Laiza didn’t let him go quickly. No, she kissed him warmly for a long moment, her mouth, lingering with his. Just when he was comfortable already, Laiza let go and smiled at him, “Goodnight..” she whispered in his ear, then slowly went back to bed, without looking at him. Where he was still looking expectantly at her.





:: For a moment, he just stood there, until Laiza closed her eyes and pretended to be asleep already. He shook his head and turned to leave, his fist not knowing how to move around.





:: When he was gone, Laiza opened her eyes.. a dark spark in her eyes sparkled.. and a grin like no other began spreading into her face..





:: Severus entered one of the rooms in the mansions where some of the Death Eaters were, staying in and lazing around.





:: For a moment, he stood at the doorway, eyes roaming around the room, then when he saw Lucius at the corner, talking to Narcissa with a glass of wine in his hands, he didn’t think twice.





:: He quickly strode forward his direction and then knocked over the glass of in his hand and pushed him backward with so much force. Lucius hit the black oak cabinet next to a mirror and stared at him angrily, but before he could react, Severus already hit his face twice and had him fallen back onto the floor, fists clenching.





:: Severus grabbed the end of his collar, his wand out, “I told you not to lay a hand on her..” he whispered, his fingers digging over his throat, “I told you already – and what the **** did you do with her-“ “Will you get off me?!” Lucius yelled back at him, pushing him away from him with his knee, but Severus did not let go.







:: The other Death Eaters didn’t know what to do, even Narcissa, they lay gasping around them both.





:: “Why can’t you let your hands off her? She’s mine and you don’t’ have the right to let your filthy hands-“ “Before you exaggerate over everything, why don’t you ask why I really did it? The Dark Lord ordered me to punish her in a-“ “Punish her?” Severus asked, his eyes bulging even more, “What the **** do you mean punish Laiza-“ “It’s true, Severus,” Narcissa’s voice came from behind him, “The Dark Lord ordered Lucius to punish the sylph.”







:: For a moment, he didn’t let Lucius go, then he pushed him away and turned to Narcissa, wand still in the hand, “What do you mean?” he asked her.





:: Narcissa shook his head, “The Dark Lord wants the information out of her soon,” she told him, helping Lucius on his feet who was staring angrily still at Severus, but in a proud sort of way, “and we think he couldn’t wait any longer from your strategy.”





:: Nobody said a thing for a moment, they just stared at one another for a long moment. Then Lucius walked around Severus who was still seething at him, “Or perhaps you simply no longer have a strategy?” “And what’s the suppose to mean?” he quickly turned, but Narcissa stepped over between them.





:: “Please, the two of you,” she pleaded, “you don’t have to-“ “Severus is losing his touch just because he has fallen stupidly inlove with that stupid sylph. Admit it, Severus, you don’t know how to deal with her any longer,” Lucius smirked, walking away and going to the other table, staring at the other Death Eaters, “Severus here can’t do what the Dark Lord asks because he has fallen in the eyes of that sylph-“ “That’s not true!” he yelled at him, “that’s definitely-“





:: “Then you would have known that punishing her and torturing her is a mere strategy and you wouldn’t overlook as something I did for the sake of doing it!” Lucius yelled back at him. He walked towards Severus and stared at him, shaking his head, “Just admit you can no longer handle her and do what you have to do,” he told him, smirking, “if you just handed her to me, then long ago, we have the information we need and we already won this war. Your strategy is the bait of our failure.. the end of our side.. the losing of your heart. Look at it carefully, Severus, you’re losing yourself to her already.. You don’t have the power over her. Not anymore. She has the power over you and you have barely touched her.”





:: Then with that, Lucius pushed him out of his way and walked out of the room.







:: Lucius quickly Apparated towards one of the sites where the Dark Lord was holding another kind of Death Eater meeting.





:: “Of what emergency brings you here, Lucius?” asked the Dark Lord staring at him with curious eyes. Lucius bent forward and nodded at his master, “It is about the task you have given Severus. He is failing it.”





:: There came some silence. “It concerns not of you.” The Dark Lord simply told him, walking away and talking back to the other Death Eaters, but Lucius would not be shaken.







:: “Severus’ is falling prey to the sylph. I believe he has fallen in love with her already that’s why he couldn’t do the task.” Another silence.







:: “Severus will not betray me.” Voldemort simply said, walking forward Lucius and staring closely at him. Lucius bowed again, “He wouldn’t dare betray you, my lord,” he told him, “but he also couldn’t do the task himself. I am asking for your permission-“ “Permission for what?” The Dark Lord asked, walking forward him, “Ah.. I see.. you want the task and the reward-“





:: “I’m only thinking for the quickly victory of our side, my lord..” Lucius said, bowing and kneeling on the floor, “it is only essential-“ “Severus will finish the task..” he told Lucius, “I want him to be the one to break it out from her, however.. as I am seeing the same threat as you are.. I shall give you a part of it.”







:: Lucius waited for his words. “II will send Severus for a task, take Laiza.. Don’t break her.. I’m warning you, Lucius, don’t’ break her in.. Just take her and punish her in the way you think it to be.” “But, master, Severus-“ “I will get him out of your way. But make sure after breaking her and when Severus returns, she is ready to divulge what we need out from her.”





:: The night has swept on and the cold wind outside the Order’s hideout made the night seem more somber that it already was.





:: Images filled inside Remus’ mind.. his mind filled with cries and plea of help.. pleading for him to wake up.. to remember.. to take her away.. everything.. help was crying for remus.. but he couldn’t do a thing.. not a thing.. nothing.. anything..







:: A week later, late very night, Severus left the Dark Lord’s master meeting room. He was seething in anger but he couldn’t do anything. It was an order. And it has to be done.





:: He quickly went to his chambers, but before getting there, he was barred by Narcissa.





:: “Get out of my way,” he told her, sweeping away from her but Narcissa grabbed his hand to him. He stared at her for a moment then took his hand away from her. “What do you want?” he asked her. “Can we talk?” she asked him, motioning to his bedroom.







:: Severus shook his head, “Laiza is asleep already. And I don’t accept visitors in my quarters-“ “I have to talk to you about the task that was given to you-“ “I already know what it is all about,” he told her, “I know it is a mere way of making me out of their way to-“ “I’m not stupid, Severus..” Narcissa cut out, “Long before I know you have feelings for the sylph..” she motioned towards the door, “you know that it is forbidden.. greatly. You know she feels more for that Remus Lu-“ “THAT-CAN-CHANGE!” he yelled at him and actually grabbing her arm and shaking her as he said those agonizing words.





:: “It can!” Narcissa whispered wildly, “but the fact remains.. She will be killed before this war ends.. When the Dark Lord takes what he needs, he shall dispatch her. You know that. Control your feelings so when you kill her, it will-“ “What did you say?” Severus asked, shaking her more and pulling her in another corner, a little far away from his bedroom.





:: Narcissa stared at him for a moment, unable to say a thing. As if she did say something she wasn’t to tell him this soon..







:: “What did you just say?” he asked her, shaking her, his eyes narrowing, pushing her against the wall roughly.





:: “The Dark Lord tests his followers’ loyalties to him by asking them to take away from them the most precious fragment in their lives.. “ she paused as she let those words sink in inside of Severus, who was not looking derange by it.





:: “Whatever happens, it only comes to one ending. You will surely be the one to kill her..” she paused and breathed deeply, “By choice or by force..”