Tainted Soul

“Rose, come on talk to me.” Viktor said as he flew beside her.
“I don’t want to talk Viktor. I want to fly away and never come back. But everyone knows I won’t do it. Everyone knows what is best for me when I don’t even know.” She said to him.
“They are worried for you just as I am.” He said to her. She pulled her broom to a stop and looked at him as he did the same. “Why is everyone so worried about me now? I am trying to get past what happened. But how can I when everyone wants to make my choices for me? How can I know what is right for me when no one allows me to make the choices myself?”
He looked at her for a long moment and then sighed. “Are you marrying me because I asked you?”
“How can you ask me that I love you and no I am not? It is the first choice I was able to make and I made the right one. See if you doubt me.” She said before she flew away from him. She knew that there was no use he would catch her but she wasn’t going back now. She needed to be alone and if she had to fly as fast as she dared then she would.
“Rose, don’t run from me I am trying to help you here.” He shouted from behind her.
She knew that he was close behind so she leaned further on the broom and pressed it go to faster. She had to get away from him and if that meant running away for a little while she would. She couldn’t stand to be around anyone at the moment. He called her name and it was faint. She had finally put some distance between them. Still she didn’t slow even when she felt her toes start to get numb. She slowed after her legs got numb and she had to get them warm or she would fall off the broom. She looked down and saw that she was over a small town. She headed towards the town and landed in a field. She headed towards the town and found a hotel for the night. It was magical so she was able to pay with the money in her pocket. She headed to the room before anyone could ask any questions. She was only going to be there for the night.
When she got to the room she collapsed on the bed. Then she curled up into a little ball and started to cry. This wasn’t what she wanted in her life. They didn’t understand what she was doing and why she was doing it. But now they were trying to take her life away from her and give her one that she didn’t choose. They couldn’t do that and she wouldn’t let them do it. She didn’t hear the sounds of footsteps coming down the hall but she knew some how they had found her. She put wards on her door so they couldn’t come in or open it. She had just finished when someone shouted and she heard them hit the floor. They had found her but she wasn’t going with them. “Just leave me alone I will be back to morrow.”
“Now, now dear who said we were the good guys?” A silky cold voice said from the other side of the door. She opened the window and got on her broom. She pushed off the floor and out the window just as the door opened. She flew as fast as she could back the way she came. She didn’t even feel it when she got cold because she was so scared. She heard them flying behind her and she flew up higher. She found some clouds and flew through them so they didn’t see her for a while. It was dark out but even at night you sometimes can see people when they fly on their brooms.
“We can’t lose her again. Last time Voldemort was enraged. This time he might just kill all of us.” The man said from behind her. She wrapped her legs tight around the broom and went into a 90 degree dive straight into the lake. She held her breath for a few minutes as she flew under water on her broom. She prayed that this would lose them for a little while. She didn’t go back to the sky until her lungs hurt from lack of air. When she went into the sky she saw that she wasn’t that far from the grounds and went into a dive to fly through the woods. As she flew through the trees she heard them behind her but they weren’t as close as they were before and she was happy about that. The grounds appeared in front of her and she flew right to the door of the castle and hopped off her broom. She rushed inside as she heard them come out of the woods. Then she heard them scream as they were tossed back into the woods by an unseen force.
“Rose, thank Merlin you are ok.” Hermione said as she threw her arms around her.
“You are soaked dear.” Hermione said as she let go and pulled out her wand. She did a quick dry spell and watched as she fell to her knees.
“I’m not safe any where anymore” Rose said as she started shaking.
Hermione sat down and pulled her into her arms. “You know you are safe here.”
“No I am not. Here everyone wants to tell me how to live my life or they want to make choices for me that I should be making. They don’t’ care what I feel or think. I am trying to live my life and make it through this but they are standing in my way.” She cried into her chest.
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“She has returned.” Dumbledore said to the three men that were waiting in his office.
“Is she ok?” Harry asked him.
“I cannot say yes to that Harry she was almost gotten by deatheaters tonight. She now realizes that she isn’t free to leave here anymore.” Dumbledore said to him.
“Does this mean that she will not come back to Paris with me after school?” Krum asked him.
“Not until this war ends. They will hunt her. They have been hunting her. And now that they know she is here they will wait until she comes out again.” Dumbledore said to him.
“We can safe proof the burrow for her.” Ron said to him.
“No Mr. Weasley I fear this time she may not leave the school grounds. This is my finally word on this.” He said to them.
“There you go making my choices for me once again.” She said from behind them.
“It is a choice that I had to make for your well being.” He said as he turned around to look at her.
“Like I am safer here.” She growled before she turned and walked to the door.
“None of you realize that my life is that my life. And if either of you try to live it for me again all of you and Krum I am sorry to say this means you too because I know that you agreed with Dumbledore about my memories, will ever be in it again.” She said before she opened the door and walked out of the office.
“Why can’t she understand that we are trying to do this for her best?” Krum asked them.
“I agree with her it is her life and she is finally dealing with it and now you want to take it all from her but there are two things that you both forget. Seth and her soon to be husband Krum how will she remember them if she doesn’t have the memories of them?” Harry asked them.
“I agree with Harry. It is her life and all we can do is be there for her when she needs us. We cannot run it and take away something that isn’t ours to take. It will make her a better person. If she can live through it at fourteen why can she not get through it at eighteen?” Ron asked them.
“It looks like you have two that don’t agree to it.” Harry said as they stood up.
“You don’t know what you are doing to her then.” He said to them.
“Yes we do. We are giving her the choice.” They said before they walked out of the office.
Harry and Ron rushed to Rose’s room knowing that she was upset with them. They wanted her to understand that they didn’t agree with the others. They thought that it should be her choice not theirs. Harry knocked on the door and waited for her to answer. “What is it Harry?”
“We need to talk Rose.” He said to her.
“I don’t want to talk to anyone. Do not worry I know how you and Ron feel and I am thankful for having you two on my side. But I want to be alone for now.” She said through the door.
“As long as you promise that we will spend some time with you tomorrow Rose. We have missed you over the last few days.” He said to her.
“I promise.” She said as she fingered the ring on her ring finger.
She heard them as they walked away and she knew that they were gone. She went back to her desk and sat back down. Lupin had returned her memories but she had found out that Dumbledore made copies and placed them with his memories. That wasn’t something that she liked too much. She remembered the way she had met Viktor and it was the first time since she came back that her heart didn’t jump with happiness when she saw it. She knew then what she was doing was wrong but how could she tell him that she couldn’t marry him? How could she do the same thing to him that Hermione did? Seth was so fond of him and she knew that Viktor had fallen in love with him the moment he saw him. She wasn’t the only one to be considered here. The first thing she was going to do tomorrow was look up that law that Snape told her about there had to be around it, for she knew that if she didn’t know it she would have to marry Snape after she broke it off with Viktor.
But the question on her mind was she able to break it off with him? She sighed and looked into the fire. Her life was so carefree when she was 11. She had come here and met great friends then her father her own father served her to the dark lord on a platter. After that she drew into herself. She wouldn’t allow anyone to know her. Then Viktor had found her in the rain with Seth and offered them his home for as long as she needed. That was a few months ago and now she knew that she was going to hurt the one man that saved her and her son.

AN I am at a block with this one but I promise I will mkae progress on it soon. Intil then please so read my other stories if you like my writing.