Losing You:

“She called you Sirius” Remus exclaimed, and Sirius could see the shock in his former friends face, “now Remus, I’m sure –“.

“You do look like him… Your eyes, you’ve got the same eyes!” Sirius cursed himself, Remus was now walking towards him, but Sirius jumped up from the seat and backed away, not knowing what the werewolf would do, “Sirius… Oh god” Remus said as he started to remember his friend, “Remus… Calm down… Stop!” Sirius wasn’t able to run away as Remus had lunged forward, wrapping his powerful arms around Sirius’s small frame. He could feel Remus sniff him and knew there was nothing that would change his mind now. “Sirius, holy shit, what the hell” Remus whispered, Sirius began to struggle, but Remus tightened his grip on him making him yelp in pain, “don’t fucking move, I’m not letting you go, like I did so many years ago!” He snarled and Sirius froze, frightened that he was going to get his head ripped off, both wizards slumped to the floor, Remus’s arms were still around his former friend. “What happened?” Remus asked Sirius, who refused to look at him, “Sirius, they said you were dead… Did you fucking tell them to say that?” Remus turned his sadness to anger as he changed his grip on Sirius, pinning the Pureblood to the ground, Sirius looked up at his angered friend. “What’re you talking about, who told you I was dead?” Sirius asked with complete shock, “Peter and Lily!” Remus answered, but Sirius knew what had happened, Lily loved James, and she wanted him to mature, and this was the worst he had ever done. “Ah, I see… Remus” Sirius cupped his friend’s face with his hands, “that wasn’t my doing, it was Lily’s, you know that Lily loved James, and she wanted him to change… I think she did that in order to see if he’d man up, and Peter, well I told him not to tell –“. Sirius was cut off as Remus pressed his lips against his, he was still for a bit and then he was staring at Remus’s amber eyes, “I understand”. What confused Sirius was, and why did Remus want him after he had the Willow incident? “Why do you want me?” Sirius asked with concern with his friend’s choice, Remus smiled and looked down, “I’m taking it you’re referring to the Willow incident?” He said and Sirius looked away, to ashamed to agree, but Remus had caught his chin ad brought him back to look at him, “we make mistakes because we’re human… How on earth could I be angry with you for so long when I was head over heels with you?” Those words hit Sirius and he burst out crying, shocking the werewolf, “but you guys wouldn’t talk to me –“. Remus had scooped Sirius up and hugged him tightly, “I know, and I’m truly sorry about it, I was angry Sirius” Remus said. Once Sirius calmed down, Remus pinned him down once more, “I’ll never stop loving you Sirius, you got that?” Remus said and Sirius nodded before feeling Remus’s lips on his once again, they broke apart to catch more air. Sirius watched as Remus took of his jacket and shirt, discarding them to the side. Remus bent over to rip open Sirius’s shirt, but Sirius had stopped him, “what’s wrong, did I hurt you?”

“No, you didn’t… I just… I don’t want you to see what’s under there –“.

“Sirius, it’s alright… Let me see” Remus said sadly, and he broke out of Sirius’s grip and tore off his shirt. He could see the pain in Remus’s face as he scoped over his friends scarred body, “was this… Was this from James when he… When he hit you with that curse?” Remus stammered, gently tracing his fingers over the fading, but visible scars that covered his body, Sirius sighed, “Yes they are, the nurse couldn’t heal anymore”.

“Oh god Sirius, I’m so sorry –“.

“Moony that’s enough!” Sirius growled and then watched as a smile appeared on Remus’s face, “now I’m really sure that it’s you Sirius, for a moment before I thought I was mistaking you for my old friend”.

 “That’s wouldn’t be so nice now would it?” Sirius laughed, they kissed again and Sirius snaked his hands over Remus’s body, familiarizing the scars from his transformations. “Will you let me?” Remus asked, his eyes were pleading and Sirius smiled, “go on, I won’t bite… Much” Remus smiled and unbuckled his belt and then doing so with Sirius who went limp, surrendering his body to his friend. It took only moments until Sirius cried out in pain from the sudden intrusion. Remus ha snatched up his wand and locked all the doors and silenced the room, he began to whisper soothing words to Sirius as he continued. Sirius moved, very uncomfortable, but letting his friend go. By the time they were finished, Remus had fallen off Sirius, and both of them were tired, “man that was awesome” Sirius panted as he turned his head to look at Remus, who was smiling at him, “wow… That’s all I can say” Remus replied with a chuckle. Suddenly there was a pounding on the door and both wizards were up and dressed, unlocking the door for Lenny, who frowned at them, “I’m not gonna ask why the door was locked, but, we’ve located some of the death eaters. We need to head out” he said. Sirius nodded, “alright Remus, we gotta move, come with me” he said. Remus took his hand and followed Sirius, not knowing that he was walking into something terrible.