Fade to grey

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Author Note: Just as I promised earlier, Harry gets with someone in this, though its not hardcorely explained, they will get more hardcore as it progresses. Please please review!!! Suggestions, comments, or just saying that you are reading it!!!

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This is your chance to tell the author what to do. In this chapter Harry screws another Hogwarts student and I think the next one he shags will be up to you. The choices are Serves Snape, Remus Lupin, Olive Wood, or Cho Chang. You can also request to see the sex scene from all any other shag that has already taken place whose name has already been crossed out. Just leave me and note and tell me which one you want!! (These names were chose through a small bargaining moment between me and my beta. This chapter has yet to be beta’d, but once it is i’ll repost with a small note saying “Now beta’d chapters ….” And whichever chapters have been beta’d. I hope you like this chapter!

Chapter 6: Bittersweet, or Dirty

Then he decided to length the list, adding other possible lists from his name.

His list had started out so very small, just four small names, so small yet so hopeful. Now the page was littered with names. When he opened the parchment he didn’t simply see four pure names unscratched. After Ginny’s name had been crossed off the list, the list had more then tripled in size from the original numbers, and his conquests continued with no avail.

Crossing over Ginny’s name, writing Green apples beside it with a sigh, she tasted just like how his victory over her was, bittersweet.

Before his once so small list grew he tried to be methodic like Hermione whenever he wrote more names on the list. Trying to have a small justification whenever he added to it. He only wrote one more name from Ginny’s year in the beginning:

Luna Lovegood

Yes, Loony Luna – I’m sure this little revelation makes people wonder if Harry had become a little loony himself, but really all made sense at the time to his mind. Even though she wasn’t a Gryffindor, she and Harry had shared a special bond involving creatures called Thestrals. Thestrals are invisible to anyone who has not seen death – that means they have both seen someone die, this being something else, although horrible, that could bring them closer together. This was Harry’s first justification to madness.

Finding the Ravenclaw dorm wasn’t that hard, not when you have a little house elf that was ready to help you with anything. Of course this first seemingly innocent task he asked of Dobby seemed to be harmless, but that to elevate as Harry became more obsessed.

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The Ravenclaw house being that made for the well…more concerned with reading and learning students, it made sense that the entrance to there dorm would be a mind game.

Dobby’s prompt response to Harry’s question about the where-a-bouts of the Ravenclaw dorm was in Ravenclaw Tower, which is located on the west side of the castle. Although when Harry asked for the password for the dorm Dobby’s answer had confused him more then helped him, for the little creature said “Harry Potter sir, what Dobby knows sir is that only those who are wise, with a ready mind, with a wit, and there own kind may enter, Harry Potter sir.”

If Harry and Hermione were on better terms he would have ran straight to her for help, but since he was still avoiding her ever since there little tumble he was left up to his own devices for this one.

Harry ran back to his dorms and grabbed his invisibility cloak and went in search of the west side of the castle. When he got to the west side of the castle and found the Ravenclaw tower he looked around and around and finally found a little plank, with “Be wise, and keep your mind ready, with your wit, inside you’ll encounter your own kind.” Engraved on the wood. Exactly what Dobby had said to Harry, but it still didn’t answer his question, what does it mean? It seemed so familiar yet his mind was blanking. He could almost hum a tune when he thought of those words.

Quietly he started to hum it to himself, and pace about the small room, periodically looking at that plank, and then suddenly it hit him. This was part of the song that the sorting hat had sung at the sorting ceremony this year. He started to mumble it to himself, “yet in wise…something something…with a ready mind…those of wit and ….will find their kind. Or something like that”.

He continued pacing like that for what seemed like hours until it finally hit him. He went over to the plank and said, “Yet in wise old Ravenclaw
If you\'ve a ready mind
Where those of wit and learning
will always find their kind.”

The words on the plank began to change shape until the words “Welcome” could be read and the plank and wall disappeared, leaving an opening for Harry to enter the Ravenclaw dorm. After Harry located Luna’s shared dorm room it was as simple as saying he wanted her and he had her since she was just as much of a Harry fan girl as Ginny was and still is.

He just pulled the curtains around the bed and muttered a silencing charm around the standard four poster bed, the same as those in the Gryffindor’s dorms, only they were in blue.

Although Harry had already screwed four other girls with seemingly no remorse…this one got to Harry. To him it felt like he had stolen Luna’s innocence, he had taken her virginity, and it was different from the time with Hermione and the other girls. Since the other girls not being virgins…it didn’t affect Harry the same way. Although he had also been Hermione’s first, atleast they had a more solid bond in the first place, and he did not take Ginny’s maiden’s head, he left her in her original virginal state, but with Luna he took it all the way, and he felt guilt ridden. Luna had tasted of lemon drops. Somehow that making the encounter even worse, the second he kissed her he knew she wasn’t the one, but that couldn’t stop his almost animalist urges.

When he entered her and cried out for him to stop in the beginning when it hurt her so much, he just couldn’t. Something in his mind ticked off and he couldn’t help himself.

Then when it was all over, and she turned to him with sad dough eyes looking for comfort, her dirty blonde, waist-length hair spread about her, her arms reaching out for him…he couldn’t bring himself to touch her again. Just looking at her and what he had done made him cringe, and she saw it. The look of disgust he gave her afterwards, for her and himself because of what he did to her.

She curled back into herself, and turned away from Harry, pulling herself into a fetus position rocking slowly back and forth. Her entire body covered with her hair. Harry turned away from the scene, quickly dressing himself. He turned to her, now finally covered with his close…mumbling “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry” but it came out all croaked, incoherent, and he could barely hear his own words over for heart wrenching sobs

He conjured another blanket and placed it over her, afraid to touche the one she was lying on. He looked upon what he had down and turned tail and ran out of the room. As he ran towards the exit he ran into Cho, pushing past her he ran straight to the exit, and didn’t bother looking back.

Another name was gone from the possibilities, but at a cost to Harry, and to Luna. Before it was just a game in a way, try to beat the odds, and this time he really hurt someone, not to say he didn’t before, but this time he was forced to see what he had done and it was devastating. Her sour and sweet taste of lemon drops left in his mouth kept on reminding him. He wondered if it would always be there, that bittersweet taste, making his skin feel crawl, and feel oh so grimy.

From the Ravenclaw dorm he ran to the prefect’s bathroom, running a hot bath, trying to wash off some of the dirt that he felt all over his body.