Is This Really Happening?

This chapter will reveal what Scorpius wrote to finish Lily's list. You guys were close, but still no bingo. Sit back, read, and enjoy. More Scorpius fuzziness to come.

Love always,

Avoline

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Scorpius stepped into Lily's flat. He had gotten her owl saying to meet her there, and was wondering what she could possibly want to speak with him about. He smiled when he spotted her walk from her bedroom, two suitcases in hand.

"Planning a trip, Lils," he questioned with a laugh. Her smiled melted his heart, and he had to fight the urge to kiss her.

Merlin, she's beautiful.

"Yeah, I figured I should get started with my list," she answered. "Speaking of, did you come by the other night?" He shook his head.

"No, I hate to say it," he lied. "Mum wanted me to help her with dinner. Why do you ask?" She reached for the book from the other night, and he began to pray that he had done a good enough job at copying her handwriting.

"I had fallen asleep trying to write down a list of ten things I'd like to do," she began. "I don't remember finishing the list, but the next morning, I awoke in my bed, with the list finished." She held it out to him, and he gently grasped it and read over the list.

1. Go to an amusement park in Muggle London.

2. Fly in an airplane.

3. See the ocean and climb a lighthouse.

4. Go on an African Safari.

5. Swim with Dolphins.

6. Ride a horse at full speed.

7. Watch the sunset on the water.

8. Save the life of a homeless dog or cat.

9. Go on a romantic date in Paris.

10. Say yes.

"That's definitely your handwriting, Lils," he responded. "Maybe you don't remember cause you were too tired at the time." She nodded, and he could see the gears turning in her head.

"That's a possibility," she murmured. Then she smiled. "I just thought that it would have been pretty nice if you had filled it in for me." Her words hit him like a weight, and he cursed himself for lying to her.

"So, it's off to Muggle London," he asked, trying to change the subject. She nodded.

"Aunt 'Mione is going to give me enough Muggle money to pay for anything we need in the Muggle world," she answered. "You wouldn't happen to know what 'say yes' means, do you?" He shook his head.

"Nope," he lied again, "not a clue. I'm sure once the time comes, you'll know what it means, Lily." He closed the book and handed it back to her. A shot of something akin to electricity ran through him as her fingers brushed his.

Did she feel that, too?

He shook his head slightly as she turned away. There's no way she could have felt that. She could never love him, no matter how kind he was to her. He was the worst match for her, yet his heart ached whenever she wasn't near.

She could never love me. Every other girl in the Wizarding world would chase her away.

But she's perfect for me.

Her father would never let her be with me.

Maybe Dad can talk to him.

"Scorp?" Her soft voice pulled him from his thoughts, and he met her gaze. "Are you okay?" He forced a smile.

"Just trying unsuccessfully to imagine life without you," he lied, for the third time. He could feel a lump form in his throat, and he cursed himself for hiding his true thoughts from her. He could talk to her about everything but love and her impending death. Why was it so hard for him to say those three little words?

"Aw, Scorpius," she soothed, wrapping her arms around his torso. "It'll be just fine. I promise it will." He returned the embrace and held her closer than ever.

"Lily, you're my best friend," he whispered. "When you first told me that something was wrong, I thought you were joking. Now, though, with each day that passes, it becomes more real." Her arms tightened around him.

"I know," she murmured. "James and Albus thought I was joking as well. It wasn't until Daddy broke down and cried that they realized I wasn't joking." He pulled away and forced another smile.

"At least you know that they'll miss you," he pointed out. She smiled a bit.

"Scorpius, I don't want to do this alone," she stated softly. "I don't know if I can. James and Albus are already with the Auror program, or I would ask them." He held up a hand to stop her.

"Lily, you know I'll do anything you ask," he answered. "I'll head home, pack my bags, and meet back up with you tomorrow morning. Sound good?" Her smile grew, and he could see the tears in her eyes.

"I knew I could count on you, Scorp," she praised, her voice choked. He smiled and kissed her cheek.

If only I could count on myself.