A Freak like Me

AN: I'm in the process of uploading beta'd version. Thanks to Blaze Lupin and Vally Haven for looking over it. I may or may not be getting more help as needed and so there may be more edits.



Summery: Harry is sold to a man who experiments on Mutants when he's seven. this is a Hp/xmen crossover. I need a beta, hopeful one who can help me with Remy's accent and the characters not in the movies. the info on the xmen will me a hodgepodge of the movies info from the internet the comics I have and other fanfics. Hogwarts will come along eventually but not soon, Harry is already old enough to graduate. i don't really like most of the characters from canon so...we'll see how it goes.



warnings: slash, gay relationships, non-explicit rape, brainwashing.



"french"



'mental conversations'



Chapter 4



Xavier glanced around at the gathered X-men. Logan, Kitty, and Kurt were with Angelous; showing him around the school. Xavier called this meeting specifically to discuss their newest mutant.



"Hank, can you tell us what your experiences were when he woke up?"



Hank nodded and stroked the fur on his chin in a pensive manner. "I found him in the corner by the door to Cerebro." Jean and Scott gasped and sputtered questions about how he could have known what it was. "I do not think he knew what was in there." Hand shook his head at them, "I believe he was looking for an exit, like Logan when he arrived."



They let him gather his thoughts as each of those in the room understood how many complications this boy was going to cause. "He does not seem to understand socially accepted body language." Xavier nodded, he had noticed this. "How so? Tell us your experience."



"I held my hand to him, to help him up, and he put my fingers in his mouth." He swallowed past the lump in his throat. "He also expressed disbelief and betrayal when I told him no one would hurt him here. It is why, I believe, he glanced at me when he noticed Scott's bruises. He saw it as proof that I was lying." Xavier nodded again.



"Any thing else Hank?"



Hank nodded and paused again, furrowing his brow in thought. "I asked him if he was ready to meet you, and he looked at me with exasperation. I thought that it was because he wanted to leave the med lab, but I now think it was because he thought he didn't really have a choice, and was exasperated that I was teasing him. Also, in the elevator, he flinched at my hand on his shoulder, but did not remove it. He physically backed away from me when I smiled. I do not understand that." He looked up at Xavier hoping he had something positive to add at last, "I believe he likes pet names. He responded positively when I called him 'little one'."



Xavier began to relate what he had been able to pick from his brain. The brain is complicated and Xavier only generally skimmed surface thoughts without permission, he is unable to completely prevent himself from entering another's mind completely. Only Remy, Logan, and Jean have protection, but Angelous confused Xavier. It seemed as though the boy's consciousness spoke another language then his own. Not another language like French or German, as all brains speak the same, but that his thought processes were so unfamiliar, Xavier couldn't figure out what they meant.



"When he knelt at my chair, I got flashes of memories that corroborate his story. Flashes of occurrences where he was kneeling at different feet, in different states of panic and undress." Xavier paused and tempered his anger. It wouldn't do to loose his temper.



"I would like your thoughts on his panic attack."



"Which one?" Pyro snorted, but was cowed by a disapproving look from Xavier. The Professor understood that sarcasm was a defense mechanism, but it had no place around this boy.



Storm utilized her degree in child psychology and spoke up. "It was my observation that he was confused as to the reason for your empathy. He was unable to comprehend why you would care, and it lead him to make assumptions. I do not know what they were.." Remy interrupted her. He really didn't want the other x-men to know he was empathetic but he would do anything to help his angel.



"Le petit ange tho' ye was gonna hurt 'em for interupt'n de merriment. Tho' ye was sorry for how bad it wo'd hurt." Xavier shook his head. It was ridiculous how much he had no idea how to deal with this child. But he would give it everything his substantial mental abilities held.



Storm nodded at her brother, what passed for a smile on her serene face. She turned her attention back to Xavier to complete her assessment. "He attempts to deflect anger and punishment by accepting and initiating sexual situations."



Pyro snorted again, "We noticed." In a flash, Remy had a knife at Pyro's throat. "If you hurt' Remy's ange. Gambit will kill ye'. We have d'accord cher?" Pyro glanced around in fear and panic for someone to intervene but even Xavier was waiting patiently for his response.



"Yea, I wasn't going to hurt him." Gambit pressed the knife on him for one second before removing it.



Bobby tried to deflect the attention from his socially incompetent friend, and asked a question that had him burning with curiosity. "Why doesn't he know how to eat? or what a spoon is or a plate?"



Remy chuckled darkly but didn't answer. Storm took a deep breath and addressed them. "I believe that he has never eaten at a table before. That last night was the first time he'd seen a plate or silverware. Assuming that he was supposed to serve Logan, and being unable to handle the silverware are indicative of this. I believe that he was fed in a bowl on the floor, if he was fed in anything at all."



The children shook their heads, unable to comprehend that life. The adults watched them in various levels of pity. The boy and his situation would open their eyes and they would come out of it less naive and more mature.



Pyro added this to his list of why humans deserved death and to be ruled by mutants. He wondered if maybe Magneto had the right idea after all.



"I believe we should discuss his idolatry of Logan." Xavier changed the subject.



Storm nodded, "It seems as though he was held at the Lab that tested Logan. I think that they must have complained where Angelous could hear them and he began to idolize a mutant who escaped."



Scott cleared his throat, catching their attention and expressing his distress about bringing up this next idea. "I think its a good thing. I think that Logan will be able to control him, if he ever gets out of hand." Remy snarled at him. "He's jus' a enfant."



Scott nodded at him and his body language expressed his distaste. "I know, but he's very powerful." Xavier nodded and Gambit gasped his name. Xavier held up his hand to stop Remy's words. "Yes I agree. I believe that Logan will be a good influence on him. He seems to trust Logan implicitly. We all witnessed it."



"You are speaking about the whispered conversation they had before we talked about his powers?" Storm guessed.



"Yes," Xavier answered. "Hank was able to pick up on it. Why don't you tell us what you heard?"



Hank breathed out his nose in exasperation, "Angelous wanted Logan to promise that we were not going to use his ability to heal as a reason to hurt him, an excuse to use him. Logan promised that he would never lie and that he would never let anyone hurt him." Remy nodded, agreeing with the summery of the whispered conversation and proving to Xavier that not only had he heard said conversation, but could keep him and Jean from his mind.



"Remy why don't you tell us how last night went." Gambit laughed low and pained and Storm shifted to get up, alarmed by the pain in his voice.



"L'ange thought Remy would fuck 'em. Would make 'em pay with 'is body to sleep." He sunk down to his knees at the window overlooking where Kitty, Kurt, and Logan were teaching Angelous to play catch.



"'E begged Remy, tried to seduce 'em." He whispered just before his voice broke. The younger x-men had never seen the flirtatious and charismatic Gambit so broken.



Cyclops knew he shouldn't ask, but he had to know. As leader of the X-men he had to be sure, "And did you?"



Gambit turned and threw a charged card at Cyclops. He blasted it from the air before it hit anything. "NON! Gambit would no', did no'." Storm couldn't take it anymore and rushed to her fallen brother. She whispered urgently into his ear and the others continued the meeting, knowing she could help him.



"I believe that we can make him a home here but he will have special rules, as will the rest of the school when dealing with him. I am asking you children to watch out for him during classes. He seems to be unable to disobey. You will watch for other students who abuse that, make him do their homework and the like." The children nodded, all serious in the wake of Gambit's pain.



Remy got control of himself and told them what he experienced before the meeting started. "Angelous tinks this be a mutan' slave training place. 'e tinks humans wan' ugly mutan's an' so I foun' 'em in de bathroom, chang'n 'is apearance. 'e was using 'is gift to make 'em look like a mix 'tween Remy and Jean. Said tha' 'e had to make 'is self belle so humans wo'd no' wan' 'em."



"Changed his appearance?" Xavier asked. "Oui" Remy answered with a nod. "L'ange was changed. 'is eyes were no' green no more. Were blue." He waved his hand to insinuate that there were other changes of that nature. The x-men were stunned at the implications of such a talent. "Remy had to tell 'em tha' 'e was mo' belle befo'e, an' 'e changed back."



"I wonder if he could make himself stronger, more muscular." Hank pondered to himself. Pyro laughed once, "I wonder if he can become a girl." The others rolled their eyes at him, juvenile.



"Speaking of his abilities, we must address the fear we all have." There were nods of agreement to Xavier's comment, although Remy tensed and pulled a card to flip in his fingers.



"I do not believe that he would harm any of us. Not because of a moral obligation but because he believes that he is not strong enough to take us all and he wants to please us to stay. He is stronger then us, and although I can do a similar thing with my ability, we would not be able to stop him. I want you to understand, and then impress upon the others, that he would not use his ability because he is ashamed of it. We will be teaching him, not only that there is nothing for him to be ashamed about, but what is inherently wrong about taking ones control in this manner."



"Now," Xavier decided to wrap up the meeting. It had been hours and he sensed Logan and the others coming back. "We will commence with the plans formulated last night, but with some additions. I will be taking Remy and Logan off active duty for the time being. You are who he trusts most, and I will not remove that security from him. Remy, I want you and Hank to take Angelous to the lab. Logan will join you after I update him on what we have discovered."



Hank interrupted the Professor with something that had upset him greatly, "Charles, why does the boy treat me so?" Xavier sat back in his chair to formulate his response. "Angelous lived a life of complete segregation. One was either a freak, or not a freak. You were not only his first contact after he awoke, but an obvious, forgive the term, freak." Hank nodded and dismissed the apology, they all understood by this point that with the boy, 'freak' and 'mutant' were interchangeable.



Remy put in his opinion, "Vous also de firs' freak, so l'ange wanted you to 'slpain de rules. 'e as' Remy to help, in français parfait I add, to tell 'em de rules. Did ye?"



Hank shook his head with a frown, "I did not understand that was what he wanted." Xavier nodded, "He may have also taken your assurance that we would not hurt him, as evidence that you were not to be trusted." Hank hung his head. He'd had an instant feral response to the boy and his lack of understanding had ruined it.



Remy put a hand on his blue furred arm, "Remy help ye'" He winked at Hank and Beast rolled his eyes.



Xavier signaled that the meeting was over. The last to leave was Storm, she was waiting for Remy, he waved her on.



Xavier waited patiently for Gambit to either tell him what was on his mind or leave his office. "Remy is a bad man Profesur."



Xavier tsked.



"Non, Remy almos'..." he swallowed and Xavier skimmed his thoughts, and caught the reason for his distress amongst the charged shield. He shook his head. Remy was a sexual creature. His past had similar horrors to Angelous, it was why Xavier had charged the empathetic mutant with the care of Angelous. "Remy, Angelous is a beautiful boy. You are not responsible for your reactions, although I would have been disappointed had you acted on them."



Remy held in a sob and put his head in his hands. "Remy was almos' no' strong enough." Xavier nodded sympathetically. He understood better then most how unrequited affection and lust could make you feel weak.



"I trust you Remy. In fact." Xavier waited until Remy's red on black eyes met his. "I am giving you and Logan full autonomy to deal with Angelous as you see fit. I have the utmost faith, that not only will you not abuse your hold on the boy, but that your...less then conventional tactics will help him. You need to find out what he thinks and then help him learn about what is acceptable. If he doesn't have a completely normal view of the world when your done...well then he will be no worse off then you and Logan, now will he. I will personally tell the others that you have my authority when it comes to the boy. They will not bother you, unless you specifically ask for their assistance. I believe that Storm and Hank would be of great assistance."



Remy's face made Xavier chuckle. "Now get out of my office, you have a boy to take care of."



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