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Adult ++
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11,172
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77
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Chapter 5
Disclaimer: See chapter 1.
A/N: My apologies for the length of time between updates but I have been busy at work and had a touch of both writer's block and procrastination.
Chapter 5
With his hand on the handle of the door to their dormitory; Remus took a deep cleansing breath to reinforce his strength and entered the room. He decided to make light of the situation and play it down.
“Fucking hell Padfoot, can’t a fella get a little head in peace? I almost shit myself when you came around the corner. For a moment I thought we'd been rumbled by old Pincey.”
His declaration was met with a stony silence. However he continued on relentlessly.
“Sorry you saw that though. I know how you hetero blokes are about guy on guy action. I hope it hasn’t scarred you for life?”
Remus noticed that the stony silence was now accompanied with a look, what could only be described as sheer revulsion. The young werewolf was at a loss of what to do or say next.
His heart sank. It was worse than he thought.
He had a feeling that he was about to lose one of the best friendships he had ever managed to generate throughout his miserable and lonely life. The thought of this almost tore his heart in two.
His love for Sirius was secondary. He had come to accept that he would never return his feelings but he could live with that as long as their friendship remained intact.
“I’m sorry Sirius.” He offered resignedly. “I simply don’t know what else to say mate.”
Sirius stalked over to him menacingly. They faced each other; their noses were pressed close together.
“You disgust me.”
Remus broke eyes contact out of shame, his eyes downcast as he began to mourn a friendship lost.
Silently he wept inside.
Sirius no longer felt any such compunction to remain silent on the subject. He shoved Lupin’s shoulders hard. Remus merely took it.
He shoved him harder to provoke a response. When it became apparent that he wasn’t prepared to retaliate, he spoke again.
“It’s not natural; you’re not natural.”
Remus’ eyes shot up!
“And of course, being a werewolf is completely natural isn’t it? Yet you accepted that unquestioningly, when I told you about that.” He retorted sarcastically.
This threw Sirius for a moment.
“Yes, but your being turned into a werewolf wasn’t your fault!”
“Are you insane? As if I haven’t got enough strikes against me in this life. I’m scarred; I’m a werewolf and I’m queer! Do you think I actually chose to be gay?”
Sirius knew he was being irrational and unreasonable towards Lupin, but he couldn’t help himself. He was fighting both his upbringing and his burgeoning attraction to Remus. Deep down, he knew a person didn’t choose their sexuality but as they say, attack is the best form of defence.
“Have you even tried to fancy girls?” Oh my God, did I really just say that? Black thought.
“Yeah, Padfoot I did and do you know what? I feel the same way about doing anything with a girl as you do about doing it with a bloke.”
Remus misunderstood the high pitched squeak that emanated from Sirius throat as disgust at his analogy, when in reality Black’s cock twitched at the thought of doing that very thing with the werewolf.
“I rest my fucking case.”
However, the homophobe within came out fighting once again.
“Slavering over another man’s dick and coming in their mouth. It’s disgusting, just like you!” Black sneered, shoving Lupin once more.
This time Remus retaliated physically, shoving him back hard; releasing his latent lycanthropic strength, which he constantly hid. Sirius fell onto his backside, hard; shocked by Lupin's strength and reaction. He’d never seen Remus strike back physically at anyone. It was obvious he’d come to the end of his usually placid temper.
“You just don’t get to do this Sirius. You’ve been fine with my being gay for the last two years and had ample opportunity to voice this homophobic drivel during that time. But have you? No!” He shouted at him. Lupin leaned over his friend on the floor.
“Hell, you’ve even been flirting with me you fucking hypocrite. Not that I believed for one second that you were being serious, so don’t now give me this crap about it being unnatural now you’ve been faced with the reality of the dynamics of sex between two men!”
Remus finished his rant; his chest heaving out of a mixture of anger, breathlessness and frustration. He simply shook his head at his former friend and walked out of their dormitory.
"Do you know something Sirius Black. At this very moment, you disgust me."
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Long after the werewolf left the room, Sirius remained on the floor with his head in his hands.
What on God’s earth had he said to his best friend? He was a fucking idiot.
Although, he truly believed what he’d told Lupin. He was disgusted; he did believe it to be unnatural, however much he wished at some level that he was the one with and not some ruggedly good looking Ravenclaw.
In essence, Black was still fighting his own nature; his own bisexuality. And he did what any self respecting bloke did whilst in denial of their sexuality.
He went and out and shagged the first girl he could. And he did it later that night, in the virtually deserted Gryffindor common room, right there in front of Remus Lupin.
Additional A/N: Sorry for the short chapter. More to follow soon. I just hope this keeps you going in the meantime.
A/N: My apologies for the length of time between updates but I have been busy at work and had a touch of both writer's block and procrastination.
Chapter 5
With his hand on the handle of the door to their dormitory; Remus took a deep cleansing breath to reinforce his strength and entered the room. He decided to make light of the situation and play it down.
“Fucking hell Padfoot, can’t a fella get a little head in peace? I almost shit myself when you came around the corner. For a moment I thought we'd been rumbled by old Pincey.”
His declaration was met with a stony silence. However he continued on relentlessly.
“Sorry you saw that though. I know how you hetero blokes are about guy on guy action. I hope it hasn’t scarred you for life?”
Remus noticed that the stony silence was now accompanied with a look, what could only be described as sheer revulsion. The young werewolf was at a loss of what to do or say next.
His heart sank. It was worse than he thought.
He had a feeling that he was about to lose one of the best friendships he had ever managed to generate throughout his miserable and lonely life. The thought of this almost tore his heart in two.
His love for Sirius was secondary. He had come to accept that he would never return his feelings but he could live with that as long as their friendship remained intact.
“I’m sorry Sirius.” He offered resignedly. “I simply don’t know what else to say mate.”
Sirius stalked over to him menacingly. They faced each other; their noses were pressed close together.
“You disgust me.”
Remus broke eyes contact out of shame, his eyes downcast as he began to mourn a friendship lost.
Silently he wept inside.
Sirius no longer felt any such compunction to remain silent on the subject. He shoved Lupin’s shoulders hard. Remus merely took it.
He shoved him harder to provoke a response. When it became apparent that he wasn’t prepared to retaliate, he spoke again.
“It’s not natural; you’re not natural.”
Remus’ eyes shot up!
“And of course, being a werewolf is completely natural isn’t it? Yet you accepted that unquestioningly, when I told you about that.” He retorted sarcastically.
This threw Sirius for a moment.
“Yes, but your being turned into a werewolf wasn’t your fault!”
“Are you insane? As if I haven’t got enough strikes against me in this life. I’m scarred; I’m a werewolf and I’m queer! Do you think I actually chose to be gay?”
Sirius knew he was being irrational and unreasonable towards Lupin, but he couldn’t help himself. He was fighting both his upbringing and his burgeoning attraction to Remus. Deep down, he knew a person didn’t choose their sexuality but as they say, attack is the best form of defence.
“Have you even tried to fancy girls?” Oh my God, did I really just say that? Black thought.
“Yeah, Padfoot I did and do you know what? I feel the same way about doing anything with a girl as you do about doing it with a bloke.”
Remus misunderstood the high pitched squeak that emanated from Sirius throat as disgust at his analogy, when in reality Black’s cock twitched at the thought of doing that very thing with the werewolf.
“I rest my fucking case.”
However, the homophobe within came out fighting once again.
“Slavering over another man’s dick and coming in their mouth. It’s disgusting, just like you!” Black sneered, shoving Lupin once more.
This time Remus retaliated physically, shoving him back hard; releasing his latent lycanthropic strength, which he constantly hid. Sirius fell onto his backside, hard; shocked by Lupin's strength and reaction. He’d never seen Remus strike back physically at anyone. It was obvious he’d come to the end of his usually placid temper.
“You just don’t get to do this Sirius. You’ve been fine with my being gay for the last two years and had ample opportunity to voice this homophobic drivel during that time. But have you? No!” He shouted at him. Lupin leaned over his friend on the floor.
“Hell, you’ve even been flirting with me you fucking hypocrite. Not that I believed for one second that you were being serious, so don’t now give me this crap about it being unnatural now you’ve been faced with the reality of the dynamics of sex between two men!”
Remus finished his rant; his chest heaving out of a mixture of anger, breathlessness and frustration. He simply shook his head at his former friend and walked out of their dormitory.
"Do you know something Sirius Black. At this very moment, you disgust me."
888888888888888888888
Long after the werewolf left the room, Sirius remained on the floor with his head in his hands.
What on God’s earth had he said to his best friend? He was a fucking idiot.
Although, he truly believed what he’d told Lupin. He was disgusted; he did believe it to be unnatural, however much he wished at some level that he was the one with and not some ruggedly good looking Ravenclaw.
In essence, Black was still fighting his own nature; his own bisexuality. And he did what any self respecting bloke did whilst in denial of their sexuality.
He went and out and shagged the first girl he could. And he did it later that night, in the virtually deserted Gryffindor common room, right there in front of Remus Lupin.
Additional A/N: Sorry for the short chapter. More to follow soon. I just hope this keeps you going in the meantime.