Solanaceae Serenity

Title: Solanaceae Serenity
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Harry Potter/ Severus Snape
Warnings: drug use, explicit language, explicit sexual scenes with a person under 18, self-harm, slash.
Summary: Harry discovers a potion in a restricted text that helps to alleviate his troubled thoughts. Set during Harry's sixth year. AU. No HBP Spoilers.

AN: If you do not appreciate slash, meaning relations between two males, then I suggest you refrain from reading this story. Also, if you are squicked by drug abuse and self-harm, this story is not for you. Although I might add that I think it's tastefully done!! ^__^

DISCLAIMER: All recognised characters are property of JK Rowling, Warner Bros., Bloomsbury publishing and anyone else I have inadvertently missed out. No profit is being made from this endeavour.




Solanaceae Serenity- Chapter Five

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Everything had changed between Snape and Harry- that much was certain. Harry found that it hurt less being around Snape now, knowing that he knew and they shared that secret between themselves. He continued his rehabilitation successfully and with only a few slip-ups that Snape guided him through. His cheeks were again rosy and his eyes bright. Harry and Snape couldn't eat many meals together, as not to arouse any suspicion, but still spent a great deal of time in each other's company regardless.

Although, there was always this air of unrelieved sexual tension hanging thick about the space they occupied whenever together. It wasn't unpleasant, only when Harry caught glimpses of desire in Snape's eyes, causing his insides to squirm uncontrollably and a clenching pain in his chest to remind him of what he couldn't have.

It was almost the end of the school year, and Harry was proud to say that not only had his studies improved but also his health and 'friendship' with Snape. He had overcome his depression and has ceased all self-debilitating actions. His scars remained as an ever-present reminder of what he'd been through, of his desperation, but were now something he could look at and gain strength from.

It was one Friday evening, in Snape's company, in his rooms that Harry found out some quite disturbing news.

"What do you mean, Severus?" Harry asked, not comprehending Snape's first words.

"What I'm saying, Harry, is that Albus called me to his office earlier this evening to ask me if we, you and I, were involved in a sexual relationship." He rephrased, sounding thoroughly exhausted.

"What!" Harry exclaimed, jumping from his seat. "Where the hell would he get that idea?" Harry asked, knowing that this couldn't possibly mean anything good was to come.

"Albus is aware of my... preferences, shall we say, and also, not informed so by me, aware that you and I spend a great deal of time together. Alone. I let him search my mind for anything of the sort he was implying, and of course he cleared me..." Snape trailed off, looking at Harry with a very rare expression of utter sadness.

"There's more than one reason you're looking at me like that, isn't there?" Harry's heart was pounding hard in his chest, his breathing hitched. He reached over to take Snape's hand in his, frowning heavily at the idea he was about to loose his 'rock'.

Snape nodded once, sharply. "He found that we had not had any form of relationship that was sexual in nature, but as legilimency draws on emotions and inclinations, rather than specific images alone, it was made quite plain to him that... the notion for one was there, nonetheless."

"And let me guess, he's forbidden it?" He asked disgustedly, already knowing the truth.

"After saying that a reconciliation between you and I was a good thing, he stressed that it must never go beyond that. For, apparently, our own sakes." Snape squeezed Harry's fingers, tightly entwined in his own, not resisting as Harry crept closer to lean against him.

"Shouldn't that be our decision, Severus?" Harry asked softly, wanting so much to kiss his love, to reassure him that no matter what Dumbledore said, that he'd always be there for him.

"Yes, most definitely. But he does have a good reason." Snape said softly, regrettably. "A reason that I can see as being valid, at least."

Harry sighed in frustration. "We'll never get to be together, will we? There'll always be an obstacle in our path."

"So it appears. However..." Snape trailed off, running the fingers of his free hand through Harry's wild raven locks, gazing at him intensely.

"Hmm? What were you going to say?" Harry implored, his eyes locked with Snape's, the ever-present ache in his chest intensifying.

"No, it's not important. It's of no concern." Snape dismissed, resting back against the lounge, breaking eye contact with Harry.

"It must matter, in fact I can see that it does." He paused, his brow crinkling in thought. "... And I think I can venture a guess as to what you were going to say." Harry tilted Snape's face towards his gently, confirming what Snape was thinking. "You were going to suggest that just once we..." Harry paused, searching for the answer in the ebony depths.

But no verbal answer came. Instead, Snape's lips crushed against his before pulling back, the touch now so soft that Harry thought he might've been imaging it. Not wanting to allow the chance to slip beyond reach, Harry pressed himself impossibly closer to Snape, who responded willingly, their kiss now beginning to come to life.

Harry pulled away abruptly. "Severus, please don't start this and then change your mind, I couldn't bare it if you did." He whispered, his lips tingling, his eyes alight.

"I wouldn't even consider it, Harry." Snape said, his voice, a low purr, now deeper than ever before and laced with lust. He stood up almost quicker than Harry could follow, easily pulled Harry into his arms, causing him to yelp, and stormed off to the bedroom with his prize.

Harry was already aroused by the time he hit the bed, his breathing laboured, his cheeks flushed an enticing pink. He knew, no mater how hard he tried, that he wouldn't last very long. But Harry knew that Snape would know this, and apparently he did.

Snape kissed Harry again, flicking his tongue out to taste at Harry's slightly parted lips. Harry moaned loudly and arched his back, Snape leaning over him, and allowed his tongue to be sucked gently into Snape's mouth. Having little to no experience of the sort mattered not, for it seemed that kissing Snape came naturally to Harry.

Knowing that there was little time for their solitary union, clothes were haphazardly ripped from both of their bodies, no attention spared for them. All that mattered was that they were with each other, touching, feeling, memorising and storing every second of it away safely. It would be their first time, and their last.

Their kisses became almost rough, needy, hands wandering and caressing. Snape's hand encircled Harry's cock, slightly shorter than his own but just as thick, and stroked it, before the older man pulled his tongue from the maddening wet heat of Harry's mouth, only to replace it upon aforesaid cock.

Forcing his eyes open, Harry looked down at Snape, as the man paid extremely close attention to his cock, and took notice of his body. He was tall and thin, yes, and a bit greasy too- not that Harry minded. But underneath his robes his skin was white, so white it was very possible it had never seen the light of day. There were few marks on it, save for the slight etching of the Dark Mark on his left forearm, and the light dusting of black hairs on his lower arms and legs. There was a little bit of hair on his chest too, but Harry thought it was just enough.

Clutching his hands tightly on the nicely shaped shoulders, Harry felt the sinew of muscle beneath that would prove Snape to be an agile, yet strong opponent should he ever be challenged physically. Snaking a hand into Snape's long hair, Harry groaned at the combination of tongue, breath and suction on his cock, knowing that the first round for him would be over soon.

Thank Merlin for his youthful stamina.

With venturing fingers teasing his perineum and applying slight pressure to his entrance, Harry exploded, arching like a feline, completely wonton, filling Snape's mouth with his semen. Conscious thought evaded Harry for the next few minutes, although he was very much aware of Snape's presence and the fact that he had slipped one of his long fingers deep into Harry's arse.

"Hmmm..." A deep voice rumbled from somewhere above Harry, who managed to crack open an eye to see a very aroused, very close and very talented glance of Snape. "You are exquisite, Harry."

Harry sucked in a breath at the compliment, knowing that Snape must really believed it. In fact, upon hearing it, Harry truly felt like he was exquisite too! He felt at ease with his body, his nudity, and more comfortable in Snape's presence than he ever thought he could possibly be with another person so close and all around him. He opened his eyes fully, and was able to hold contact with those before him.

A sudden realisation struck Harry! Snape's eyes weren't black, no; they were such a dark blue that they appeared black unless you looked really close. They were amazing, and Harry told him so, at which the usually dour Potions Master actually blushed, the spots of colour on his cheeks endearing him to Harry in a way he never imagined.

"This is ridiculous." Harry voiced suddenly, feeling his heart muscles clench painfully in his chest.

Snape started above him, suddenly looking more stricken than Harry had ever seen him.

"No, I don't mean... ugh, you don't understand..." Harry panicked, feeling Snape already beginning to distance himself. "Severus, I mean that it's ridiculous how much I love you when I know I can never really have you! Why can't I have you! I know I'm whinging, being petulant or whichever word you'd usually call it, but I don't care!"

Snape was listening, of course he was, but his attention was still stuck on the words I love you. Harry loved him? Yes, he could see it in those green eyes that he did. He couldn't fathom it, probably never would, but knew deep down inside him that he and Harry must never be parted. To hell with Dumbledore! To hell with the Dark Lord! Both old men had lived their lives; it was time for Snape to live his and in a way that he wanted to live it. He knew it would be difficult, but damn he would try, he would try harder than he ever had with anything in his life.

Apparently Harry was still talking, taking Snape's silence as a negative reaction. "Harry." He said, effectively silencing him. "I love you." He blurted before he lost the nerve, knowing it was nothing in the way of romantic, or even tactful like every other of his words. But he meant it, meant it like he never meant anything else ever before.

A moment passed between the two, a moment of mutual understanding. They knew that the times ahead of them would be rough, would probably get a lot worse before they got better, but in the long run it would be worth it simply because they loved each other. It seemed silly, absurd even, but it was there and it was undeniable.

"I love you too, Severus. Now please... please make love to me, I need you so much... oh God!" Harry cried out as Snape pushed another slicked finger into his body, his mouth covering Harry's and coaxing it to life again.

They kissed like it was their last, but knowing now that it was not. Nothing was going to be strong enough to keep them apart, not even death. They knew. They could feel it when they touched. It didn't matter that they were from different generations, or were Professor and Student, or that Snape had despised Harry's father. None of it mattered. All that mattered was that they were together, and that was enough.

Enough.

Harry adored the sensation of Snape's fingers inside his body, preparing him, teasing him and making him slick. The mouth on his neck enhanced everything, even the sharp jolt of pleasure as Snape brushed against his prostate; something that Harry hadn't even considered could possibly exist. But it did- just like their love.

Using his hand, Harry made sure to cover every long inch of Snape's cock with lube so that pain would be minimal, relishing the fact that he had such a precious part of his loves anatomy within his reach. Opening his eyes, Harry looked down and with a jolt remembered the two letters he'd carved into his leg- thin, spidery scars now, reminiscent of his desperation.

Snape felt his startle, and followed his gaze to see what the matter was.

"It seems you knew all along, didn't you Harry?" he asked, not really a question at all, his deeply dark blue eyes alight with his passion.

Harry smiled, which turned into a gasp as Snape slid his three fingers out of his body. He knew he was ready- nothing was going to stop them consummating their union.

"Yes, now Severus..." Harry said, feeling the thick head of Snape's cock teasing his entrance with light little touches, sending his nerves into disarray. With a gentle push and some guidance from Snape's hand, the head entered Harry with excruciating slowness, so teasingly, Harry wanting to scream out for more.

There was no pain, at least not yet. The sensation was different, surely, but not unpleasant in the least. With another push, and hot breath on his neck, Snape entered further still, Harry trying to bare down on him. Snape pulled Harry's legs up high around his narrow waist, and pushed in the final inches.

As Harry keened loudly, Snape worried for a moment when his eyes rolled back in his head. But the green irises returned, literally sparkling, looking more alive than ever before. This was not the same colour as the killing curse, oh no, this was the colour of passion and of love and of everything the killing cure was not. It was the colour of Harry.

Snape lent down and indulged in a languid kiss, taking the time now to pinch at Harry's peaked nipples, and caress his hairless chest. He placed kisses on the sensitive spot just below Harry's ear lobe, all the while trying to distract him long enough to actually make love, and not just explode on the spot.

Gently Snape rocked his hips, Harry's breath catching even more, and surrended to the hot embrace of Harry's body. They were connected in the most intimate way possible and imaginable, and it was utterly perfect.

It was with something akin to reverence, but much stronger, that Harry held Snape to him, feeling him, learning him, knowing him... loving him and giving him everything he had to offer and more, and receiving Snape in return.

As the passion built between them, so did the pace of their now frantic lovemaking. They rocked together in perfect unison as though they had done this many times before, fuelling the other, sweat making their bodies glisten angelically as they sought to find peace within their own nirvana.

The pressure in Harry's groin was becoming too much, his nerve endings too sensitive, and he knew that he could not hold out any longer. He climaxed suddenly, violently, clenching his thighs around Snape almost painfully, as he coated both of their stomaches with the liquid of his ardour. A moment later he felt Snape stiffen, a rough scratchy masculine sound escaping his throat as he too climaxed, adding a part of himself to Harry as his seed dispersed deep within the hot cavern.

A heavy but pleasant weight fell atop Harry and remained there for a breath or two, before rolling off and pulling him in close. They held each other for dear life, trying to recapture their breath, and unable to help but succumb to the urgings of sleep.

While the future lay on a road of uncertainty, neither Harry nor Snape could deny their undeniable need for the other. It would never be easy, and might need to be shrouded in secrecy for a time, but both knew in their heart of hearts that for once, something good was happening to both of them.

And they intended to make good use of it, refusing to allow anyone to come between them.

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AN: OH MY GOD! I am SOO Sorry that this took a stupid amount of time to be finished!!!! I have a good excuse, I swear!

I moved intersate, and my roomie was supposed to be getting a computer... but it never happened! I couldn't write OR go on the net. It drove me insane! But yeah, I'm home again now and finally updated!! I hope it was ok, since I hadnt written anything of it for 2 months and was a bit slow on the uptake!

Anyway, thanks heaps for reading and the wonderful reviews!! ^____^ Hugs for everyone!!