Meant to be

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Occulemency lessons


Just over a week past with the routine of Harry going to Severus’ quarters in the morning, having coffee in silence then Harry heading to the library to read for the day while Severus headed to the lab with Hermione to make potions, and it was now Friday morning, the last day of term.

Harry tried to spend as little time around Severus as he could, not wanting to get caught looking at Severus more often than what he should look at person. Severus was glad he didn’t have to have Harry around him all day, how would he cope looking at a young hot wizard all day without being able to touch him the way he really wants to?

XXX

Harry was sleeping soundly for once, not having nightmares. He had gone to bed rather late that night and slept well past the time he should have. Harry finally woke up and looked at the clock to see the time. “Shit! It’s 9am; he’ll kill me for being late!” Harry jumped out of bed and headed for the shower.

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Severus was having coffee with Hermione while waiting for Harry to turn up. “It’s 9am. He should be here by now. Where is he?” Severus asked but not really aiming the question at Hermione.

“Should we go and check on him? Something might be wrong. Maybe he’s ill, if he was he wouldn’t go to the hospital wing he hates it there.” Hermione asked.

“Well we best go see what’s keeping him.” Severus replied to Hermione in a cool voice. Severus was a bit worried though. ‘What if something had happed to that sexy annoying wizard?’

XXX

Harry was still in the shower when he heard a knock at the door to his quarters. “Oh great the grim reaper has come to find me.” Harry grumbled to himself.
Harry got out the shower not bothering to dry him self and just wrapped a towel round his waist.

There was another knock at the door and then Harry heard Hermione’s voice “Harry are you ok?”

‘Oh good it’s only Hermione’ Harry thought to himself with relief. “One moment” Harry yelled to his friend.

Harry opened the door “come in ‘mione be one minute.” That’s when he saw Severus. “Oh, hi Severus, sorry I slept in.” Harry said in a quieter voice than what his used to speak to Hermione. Harry held the door open for the two to come in.

Severus couldn’t help but look at Harry’s tanned smooth skin that was so perfect. Severus couldn’t help but think ‘he looks even better than when I saw him in those tight clothes. Oh Merlin, why are the fates so crewel to have Harry standing there in just a towel? I hope neither has noticed the state I’m in from looking at Harry, all I can do is hope these robes hide it.’

Hermione looked at Severus and saw he looked a bit flushed ‘hmmmm maybe Severus does like Harry more than he’s letting on.’ She thought to herself.

“Please sit down, I won’t be long.” Harry said, waving his hand towards the comfortable sofa in his lounge.

Harry left Severus and Hermione while he went to dry himself off and get dressed. ‘Maybe Hermione has convinced Severus to be a bit more human ‘cause I’m sure the potions master I knew would have hexed me at the very least for getting up late’ Harry thought humoring him self.

“Severus, are you ok? You seem a bit…..off” Hermione asked in a concerned voice. “Is it to do with why you asked me to check for hexes and curses the other week?”

Severus just glared at her ‘does she know more than she’s letting on? That Hermione is a bright one who you can’t hide much from. What am I thinking? There’s nothing to hide, ‘cause there’s no way I fancy that brat.’

“I am fine Hermione, thank you for your concern. I’m merely a little tired from the lack of sleep.” Severus finally answered her in a defensive tone.

“I know it’s hard for you to talk to someone, but if you ever have the need you know you can trust me and talk to me right Severus?” Hermione’s tone was warm and caring.

“I assure you I’m fine and I am not one to talk about my problems, if I do happen to have any, with anyone else.” Severus stated. ‘She must know some thing; I need to hide this better. Keep away from Harry as much as I can. This can’t be happening to me.’

“Severus I’ve learnt all I can from those books and I was wondering, as Friday is usually not a very busy day for you; could we have occulemency lessons today?” Harry asked while walking back into his lounge, this time dry and fully clothed. ‘The sooner I learn occulemency, the sooner I can learn to cast legilimens. Just a shame I can’t get taught by anyone else. It’ll be tough learning with him as my tutor.’

‘Damn so much for keeping away from him.’ “If you think you’re ready we can start in a couple of hours. Hermione and I have to make some healing potions for Poppy first.”

“I can manage to make them by myself Severus; I’ve made them before by myself with no problems. That way you can start straight away.”

‘Curse that damned girl, won’t even give me time to work myself up for it!’ Severus turned to Harry and said “Well looks like we will be starting our lessons in about half an hour. That should give you enough time to wake up should it not?”

“Yes Severus.” Harry smiled.

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Hermione set about doing the potions Poppy needed. ‘I wonder if leaving those two alone will make them see how good they are for each other.’ She thought with a smile.

XXX

“Legilimens!” Severus yelled, as Harry walked through the door to Severus’ lounge, hoping to catch him off guard.
Severus saw images of Harry getting hit hard across the face, which made his mouth bleed. He continued to watch while Harry tried to push him out his mind. The next image Severus got was Harry reading books, in a dark room with what looked like a small light shining on the book ‘maybe that’s where he got his fondness for books.’
Finally Harry pushed Severus out of his mind.

“That was rather feeble Harry; would you like to try again, this time not getting caught off guard?” Severus sneered, trying to hide some of the pity he felt for the young wizard.

“Yes.” Harry replied with certainty.

“Very well. Legilimens.” Severus cast again.

Severus was back inside Harry’s mind. This time he saw a dream which Harry was trying to keep Severus from seeing. A man who was naked with very pale skin was standing in front of Harry. The man gently took hold of Harry and started to kiss his neck. ‘The man seems familiar, but I can’t see his face’ Severus thought. Suddenly the dream was replaced with memories; Harry had managed to hide the dream from Severus before he got to see his face. Flashes that Severus couldn’t put together flashed in front of him, and then he was pushed from Harry’s mind again.

“That was a little better. Shall we try again?” Severus asked

“Can we take a break please? I just want a bit of time before we carry on to recover from the emotions I felt.”

“Fine. I know it can be mentally draining with all the emotions it brings back to the surface.”

XXX

Hermione had been working all morning on the potions and was now finally finished. She put all the things away that she had used, cleaned up and had left the potions on the side to cool. ‘I best go say bye to Severus and Harry and go see Ron.’

XXX

Severus was inside Harry’s mind again and surprisingly Harry was doing well keeping all the things he didn’t want Severus to know away from him. That was until….

“I’m off now see you two later.” Harry got distracted and suddenly Severus saw the face of the man Harry had been dreaming about. He also saw the way Harry had seen him while he had been spending time with him over the last week. He saw the night when Harry left quickly understanding now it was because Harry was aroused.

“Stop!” Harry yelled. With that Severus backed off not believing what he saw. Harry went bright red and looked at Severus not knowing what to do.

“I need to sit down.” Severus said feeling a little faint. ‘Wow he thinks I’m gorgeous. I think that eye correction must have gone wrong; he can’t surely see me in that way. I treated him so badly.

“Sorry, I’ll leave.” Harry said in a shaky voice, leaving before Severus could even stop him.

XXX

Harry sat on his bed cursing himself for taking the occulemency lesson. ‘I should never have asked him to teach me. He’s gonna use this as a way to make my life hell now. How am I going to face him again?’

Harry sat there for two hours feeling sorry for him self, when there was a nock at the door to his quarters. “Who is it?” Harry yelled.

“It’s Severus; I’ve come to see if you’re ok.”

“I’m already totally embarrassed without you coming here to gloat and making me feel worse.”

“Harry open the door. It’s not your fault and you shouldn’t beat yourself up about it. You know how if you let your guard down I can see your deepest secrets while casting the spell, and I am not here to make you feel worse.” Severus said honestly.

Harry opened the door and let Severus in. They walked in to the lounge and sat on the couch at separate ends, sitting there in silence.

Finally Severus spoke “I am truly sorry I saw those things Harry.”

“More like you’re disgusted that I see you in that way.” Harry said back in a quiet voice.

“Harry I’m not disgusted by it. You can’t help how you feel about people. Though why you chose to see me in that way I’ll never know. I’ve treated you so bad over the years yet you forgive me for it.”

“I really am too ashamed to talk about this with you Severus.”

“You’re ashamed to feel that way about an old death eater wizard, who is nasty and sarcastic. I understand, I guess I would feel the same.” Severus said feeling a bit upset.

“No, it’s not liking you in that way that makes me feel ashamed, it’s you finding out how I feel about you that makes me feel ashamed.”

“Would you like me to leave?”

“If you wouldn’t mind, I have things to sort out in my head.”

“Very well. But before I go, would you accompany me to the school leaving do tomorrow night? I have to go anyway, and I hate those parties. Maybe having someone to go with will make it seem less like a chore.”

“I don’t know Severus, maybe it’s a bad idea.”

“Nonsense. You need to be cheered up and what better way than to go to a party?”

“Severus you do realize its fancy dress don’t you? You’d have to dress up.”

“I’m willing to make a fool out of myself if you are?” Severus asked feeling a bit hopeful.

“Ok then, maybe it will be fun.” Harry smiled forgetting about his humiliation.

“I’ll see you tomorrow night then about……7 shall we say?” Harry nodded his agreement. “Great tomorrow night at 7 I’ll see you here.”

With his robes billowing behind him Severus turned and left feeling quite happy with himself.



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