Library Assignment

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Three weeks later, Hermione was sitting on her bed, all of her sweaters and shirts strewn in front of her. She had been scouring the library in search of a spell that could hide her eventual bump, ignoring the gut wrenching feeling in her stomach from being in the place she had once loved.

Malfoy had ruined everything. She couldn’t go into the library without having a panic attack and having to run out only an hour after entering. She knew it looked strange and it wouldn’t take long for people to notice. She already had a feeling Ginny knew or at least suspected something was wrong.

Hermione shook her head to refocus herself on the task at hand. She had found a couple of spells that spoke of hiding large objects in a smaller space, like the enchantment on the Weasley’s tent at the Quidditch World Championship a couple years ago. She wasn’t sure if it would work on the smaller scale, but she had to try if only to please Professors Dumbledore and McGonagall.

Thinking of the Weasleys made her heart ache. What would they say if they found out? Her rape was one thing, but her pregnancy? Ron would surely never look at her again. She couldn’t let that happen. She loved him as a friend, but had strong feelings for him that were more than friendly.

Her mind ran rampant as she thought of the look of disgust he would give her, the look of betrayal. It was, after all, what she felt. Disgusted by what Malfoy had done to her. Disgusted with herself for letting it happen. Betrayed by her own body. Her body’s reaction to him had been what pushed him that much farther over the edge. She had felt excitement at first and she hated herself for it.

In the beginning, most of her thoughts centered around her will to live. She had never questioned something so much in her entire life. Would it end? The torment of having to see him every day, would it stop? Was it worth it to never see her parents again? Her friends? Ron? It was when this popped into her head that she decided it wasn't worth it. But it made the thought of her pregnancy that much worse. What if he ended up hating her so much that he stopped talking to her and she lost him anyway?

Hermione realized that she had started sobbing quietly into one of her sweaters. This happened a lot these days, and she wasn’t entirely sure the memories and thoughts were the sole blame. Pregnant women did, after all, tend to have frayed emotions. The thought made her cry harder as she heard a floorboard creek. She whipped her head up and wiped her cheeks, “Hello? Is someone there?”

“Hermione? What’s wrong?” It was Ginny.

“Oh… Erm… Nothing, I guess I just haven’t had a good cry in a while.”

Ginny rolled her eyes as she walked over and sat on the bed, “Please talk to me, you’re my best friend and I love you, but I can’t help you if you don’t tell me what’s wrong.”

New tears slid down Hermione’s blotchy cheeks as she looked at Ginny for a long time. “It’s really hard to talk about…”

Ginny hugged her tightly, “I’m here for you ‘Mione.”

Hermione took a deep shuddering breath. “Erm… About six weeks ago now, I had fallen asleep in the library again and woke to find someone watching me. When I tried to leave, he… he pinned me to a bookcase and… raped me.” Ginny gasped and pulled Hermione into a tight embrace, tears sliding down her own cheeks.

“Does anyone know about this?”

Hermione nodded, “Professor Dumbledore, Professor McGonagall, and Madame Pomfrey.”

Ginny sighed with relief, “That’s good, what are they doing? Do they know who did it? Is he being punished?”

“They do, last I heard they were taking my memory of the night to the authorities. That was three weeks ago.”

Ginny nodded, pulling away but keeping contact. “So why are you surrounded by all your jumpers?”

Hermione took a deep breath, “You must promise not to say anything, ever. If I didn’t think it was absolutely dreadful I’d have you do an unbreakable vow. That and I actually trust you.”

Ginny arched an eyebrow, “Hermione? You’re rambling.”

Hermione nodded, “I am surrounded by my jumpers because when I was raped, I also got pregnant. I want to end it but Dumbledore made me promise to at least think about it. I told him that if I couldn’t find a way to hide it in a month I would get rid of the… thing… even if I had to go to a Muggle doctor to do it. That was three weeks ago and I still haven’t found anything. I’m close though, I found the charm used on tents. Hopefully that will work.”

Ginny blinked at her, “So, you’re pregnant and trying to hide it?” Hermione nodded, looking down at her hands. She gasped when she felt Ginny’s arms around her once more. “I am so sorry. Anything you need, I’m here for you.”

Hermione returned the hug, glad she finally had someone who wasn’t telling her what she had to do. Maybe with Ginny she could get through this and still have Ron.

A/N: What do you guys think?? I decided to leave it off there so it had a happy ending because, let's face it. Dark chapter. Anywho. Don't forget to rate and review. Who knows, you might (probably) influence the story! Thanks again, Dylan

P.S. I noticed that the time line didn't really add up so I changed the two weeks to three making it one week before she was to make a decision.