Head First

I walked down the loft stairs, I had to find a way to get her to relax enough for me to do it, I knew she would fight even if I gave her something. I started to pull the juice from the icebox, then I pulled out 2 glasses, I noticed the sleeping draught sitting in the cabinet, I grabbed an pouch of it before mixing up a cup of hot chocolate.

I mixed just enough into it before mixing the numbing potion into it as well, I didn't want to hurt her, and If I could at least numb half the pain of what came with it, I would gladly do it. I put an anti spill charm on the cups as I carried them up the stairs and into our room. I said "Here this will settle your nerves, I'm sorry for scaring you."

She whimpered and said " You made me hot chocolate, Mum use to make me hot chocolate when I was scared at night." I said It's a soother, you'll like it" She took a long drink out of the cup, I watched her for a moment or 2, until her eyes glazed over, She took the last drink of it, and said "Remus what's wrong with me, what did you do?" I said " It was the only way to get you to go along with me Dannie, I know you didn't want to do it this way, and I wasn't planning on it, but I needed to do this, I'm sorry."

I removed the cup from her hand, and slowly unbuttoned her nightshirt, she began slapping me, I took the punches. I removed her clothing, gently as I knew she was terrified of me. I reached over to the nightstand and pulled out muggle protection, She tried to squirm away, and said " I just want to be safe our first time." "Remus please no, I don't want to, Get off of me, I want to go home." She said. I said " Dannie this is your home." She struggled against me, thrashing against my weight, her hits were tapering off, as the potion took effect, I pressed my knee between her legs as gently as I possibly could.

She cried out frantically, " Remus please don't do this, I don't want it." I said Dannie please don't fight, don't squirm, It will hurt a little, the numbing potion will do what it's suppose to. I pushed her arms above her head, I pushed her legs apart far enough to accommodate my body, she looked up at me as I whispered "I love you Dannie remember that" I used one hand to position on my manhood with her entrance, she tried again to pull away. I slid myself inside her, I felt the thin barrier, I thrusted forward, She whimpered and tried to pull away, I didn't stop my thrusts, I wanted it to be over for her.

I forgot that I was a bit vocal, I could see the fear in her eyes as my grunts and moans became louder as my thrusts became harder. She fell into a deep sleep as the sleeping draught too effect, I came within 10 minutes of her falling victim to the potion. I pulled the condom off tossing it into the trashcan before buttoning up her night shirt and pulling on my underwear, I pulled the blankets up around her, and pulled her into my arms.

I woke up at 9 am with someone knocking on the front door, I grabbed my pj pants and my robe before going down the stairs to the door, It was Sirius and Dora, I let them in. Dora said "Is she awake?" I said " No, and I'm not waking her, she's probably really angry at all of us." Dora said " Did it stop the pain? I know with Bill it didn't, it hurt more than I ever imagined." I said I gave her some sleeping draught to try and make her tired, I cried afterwards, I didn't want to hurt her."

Sirius said " We just wanted to come over and see how things went, I knew you were nervous about it." I said She's not awake, and I'm going to go back to her before she comes off the effects, I want to be with her." Dora stood up and wrapped her arms around my waist before heading towards the door, Sirius walked out as well.

I started back up the stairs, I quietly crawled into bed with her, she was awake.