Discovering

Discovering

Chapter Four

Stipulations

Rose squeezed Scorpius' hand and released it. "I'll see you at lunch." He told her and kissed her cheek.

"Yes. Have a good lesson." She smirked and he sighed.

"Definitely not as good as my break." He kissed her again and she thought back to their 'break' spent kissing and laughing and rolling in his room. They had sneaked down to the dungeons after Arithmancy and spent the blissful hour alone. They had been together for a little over a week, and so far it had been amazing. Rose let him go and headed to the bathrooms. She was thinking about the way Scorpius could kissed her ear and make her feel it in her toes when she walked into the bathroom. She heard someone sniffling quietly and was backing out to go to another bathroom when she recognized the girl's shoes.

Rose dropped her bag onto the sink and walked over to the door. "Sweetie, It's Rose. Are you okay?"

"I'm … I'm fine." Celia told her.

Rose could tell she was trying to hold herself together and was anything but fine. "Come out here, Celia." Rose waited for a minute and then heard her friend shifting to open the door. Her face was blotchy and red from crying. She had tears running down her cheeks that she hurried to brush away and Rose immediately rushed to hug her friend as tight as she could. "Oh, what's wrong?" She pulled back and let Celia walk out of the stall and walked with her to the sink where she started to wash her face.

"I saw them snogging." She sobbed in the middle several times and it took Rose a minute to figure what she said and then it didn't make any sense. She saw who snogging?

As far as Rose knew Celia wasn't interested in anyone, so she didn't really know why anyone kissing would affect her this way. "Who did you see snogging?" She asked, unsure of what else to say.

"Natalie and …" She sobbed again and covered her face as a fresh batch of tears rolled down her face.

Rose knew then.

It was Al.

Celia liked Albus?

But, all those times she had taunted him about Natalie?

How could she have not expected to find him snogging her?

"Oh, I'm so sorry." Rose didn't know how to make her friend feel better, so she just held her while she cried. Once the sobbing subsided, she let her go. "Why didn't you tell me?" She asked softly, trying not to make her friend feel worse.

"I knew nothing was going to happen. He is crazy for her, but I thought … after what happened at your house."

"What happened?" Rose wasn't being soft anymore. If Albus had in anyway hurt her friend by leading her on she would go beat the bloody hell out of him.

Celia composed herself and shrugged. "Nothing really. I went after him when he got upset at lunch and we were just talking and I apologized for bringing it up in front of your parents and I don't even know how we started talking about me but he told me I was beautiful and any bloke would be lucky to date me. I guess he just meant any bloke but him."

"You know that's not true. If you told him how you felt," I started to say but she cut me off. "No! He's happy with Natalie, so who am I to stop that? I just wasn't expecting to see them but I turned the corner and there they were …" She took a deep breath to keep from crying again. "We'll be late for class." She said instead. "We need to go."

Rose spent lunch wishing she could just pull Scorpius out with her and tell him what she had seen earlier. She hated that Celia was so hurt, but she also know that her friend was right. Albus was crazy about Natalie. He really enjoyed spending time with her and they had been close for years. She was a year younger than them and very good friends with Lucy and Roxanne. She had spent time with them over the summer for years and naturally had become friends with them all as well. At first Rose didn't notice her and Al being particularly close since they were in the same house, but over the past year it had become clear that he was falling for her. It seemed now that she was feeling the same way.

Rose liked Natalie and was glad to know that her cousin was happy with her, but Celia had been so upset. She had only seen her friend in such a state one other time and that was when they were eleven and James had nearly scared the life out of her with some spiders, which Celia felt much the same way about that Rose's father did. It felt horrible knowing that her best friend was so destroyed by this. Rose looked down the table at Celia. She looked so happy. She had cleaned up before they left the bathroom and now she was laughing at something that Aidan and Evan were doing.

"Rose?" Scorpius waved a hand in front of her face. "Are you okay?" He asked looking worried.

"Yea I just have a lot on my mind." This just made him look even more worried and she smiled and grabbed his hand. "I'll tell you later, you have nothing to worry about."

After they finished studying that night, Rose and Scorpius left the library a little early to do their rounds. They held hands as they walked and Scorpius rubbed hers with his thumb. "So, are you going to tell me about what was on your mind?" He asked once they were far enough away from the Library that no one would be able to hear them if they decided to leave as well.

"Yes, but you have to keep this between us?" She asked knowing that she didn't need to. He could keep her secrets. He nodded and she relayed to him what had happened. "I feel so helpless." She told him as her story concluded. "I want them both to be happy, and I just feel bad that she's so obviously not happy."

"Wow." Scorpius shook his head. "I had no clue, and neither does Al I can promise you that."

Rose was relieved to hear that. "Good, because if he knew and he still went on about how beautiful she was I was going to strangle him." Scorpius grinned and squeezed her hand.

"She'll be okay?" He asked and Rose just shrugged.

"She has never been this way about a boy before. It's so weird. I don't know what to say because I know if she's this upset then she really feels something for him."

"Like I feel about you." He said softly and Rose instantly felt bad. He had told her he loved her over and over and she had never said it back, not a single time. He said it was fine and that he didn't want her to say it until she was ready, but she knew that every time she didn't it hurt him just a little.

Rose watched Celia throughout the next weeks and she seemed to be fine. She tried to bring it up to her once, but Celia brushed her off and started talking about something else. Rose was worried about her, but if she didn't want to talk about it then there was nothing she could do.

As for Albus and Natalie, they were undeniably happy together. They held hands as they walked to class and he sneaked kisses on her cheek when he thought no one was watching. They were much more reserved than Rose felt with Scorpius, but she thought that was probably how most people were. She and Scorpius couldn't wait to get alone to attack each other, but she reckoned most people weren't like that. They took things slow and discovered new things about each other at a much softer pace than they were. One night in particular they had gone further than she ever imagined going with someone she had only been with for a few weeks.

They spent Saturday of the last weekend in October at Hogsmeade with their friends. Scorpius whispered in her ear all day the things he would rather be doing, and she had to agree that they sounded entertaining. They slipped away for a few minutes and hid behind a shop snogging. When Scorpius kissed her Rose lost herself in him for those few short minutes until he had to stop and the world came rushing back.

That night they had been wandering around the castle doing their rounds and she began to think back to their few stolen moments and she wanted more. "What do you say we pick up where we left off this afternoon?" Rose asked stopping by the door of an empty room.

"I would say I like how you think." He kissed her and they shuffled backwards into the room. Scorpius shut the door behind them and took his cloak off. They laid their cloaks on the ground and then sat on top of them. "No matter how many times you kiss me I can't wait for you to do it again." He told her and she rewarded him with a kiss. They ran their hands up each other's bodies and Rose felt him lowering her until her back hit the floor. She arched into him and felt his erection pressed against her. They were a tangle of limbs, lips, and touches then, aching for more as they pulled off clothes. When they were in their underwear they fought to keep hold of themselves and not take that extra step, one they knew they wouldn't be able to back down from once they started.

Scorpius was on top of her, pushing against her, mimicking the motions she longed for him to really be doing. "I want you." She told him, her voice strained.

"You have me, Red." He whispered licking at her neck.

"No, I want you inside me." She stared into his eyes and he closed them and stopped moving. She felt his entire body tense and then he slowly opened his eyes again.

"We can't do that like this Rose." She looked at him unable to believe he was saying no. She could feel how much he wanted this, but he was saying no?

He could tell that she was upset, but he was not going to back down. "I love you." He moved off of her and kissed her softly. "I'm not going to have our first time be in an empty classroom in the middle of the night on the floor." Rose understood what he meant. When she looked back she probably wouldn't want it to be here either, but right now she wanted it anywhere she could get it. She moved over him and straddled his legs with hers. She reached behind her back and undid her bra. As her breasts came loose she saw him staring at them like he was in awe. He'd never seen her breasts before; only felt them through her bra. She grabbed his hand and brought it to her chest. Her breasts reacted to his touch and he ran his thumb over her hard nipples, slowly. She leaned down and he took one of them in his mouth and sucked at her, making circular motions with his tongue and then softly nipping with his teeth, before moving to her other nipple. "Oh, Scor." She moaned and held herself steady as he made her desire grow tenfold.

She felt his erection twitching as he sucked at her and she knew exactly what she wanted to do. If he wouldn't pleasure himself inside of her she would do it for him. Rose moved down, away from his mouth, until she reached his underwear, which she pulled down as he protested, but she quieted him by wrapping her hand around him. She had never done this to him before and from the way he was laying on the floor, fists balled trying to gain control, she assumed that he was quite enjoying her actions. She moved her hand up and then down, slowly at first, trying not to make him finish early from the surprise of what she was doing. He let his fist go as she went, and she knew then that he was not going to try and stop her, whatever she did.

She felt a little squirt and saw a small amount of his juices on her hand. She paused and licked them off and he lost it. As she tried to move her hand back to him to finish what she had started , he grabbed her and pulled her down onto him. They began to roll around on the floor, each fighting to gain the upper ground, but in the end he won. He kissed her hard as she gave up and then he let a hand fall onto her waist and down to her knickers. He slid a finger into them and felt her wet and waiting for him. He pushed his finger into her and she gasped and arched into it. "Oh, yes." She told him, her voice trembling. "Scorpius, just fuck me." She pleaded.

"You are so tight." He told her. "I'd hurt you if I tried." He pulled his finger out and then pushed it in again. He moved her knickers further to the side and let his thumb graze her clit. "You feel amazing." He told her. "I want to be inside of you so bad." He continued to push his finger inside of her and after a few minutes he added another. She felt her body stretch around him and loved the feeling of him, any part of him, inside of her. It was the most amazing thing she had ever felt.

"Scorpius." She clutched at his back as he continued to rub circles around her clit. "OH." She couldn't stop moaning. Her entire body was aching for him, her clit was on fire and it was slowly spreading throughout the rest of her body. She felt like she was going to explode, like she was going to have to tell him to stop because she couldn't bear it anymore, and then she felt it. Something inside of her tensed and relaxed at the same time and she was screaming his name as quietly as she manage as waves of pleasure hit her over and over again and they she fell back against the floor and watched him lick her juices off of his fingers.

"How was it?" He was nervous and worried that she wouldn't like something he'd done, but she pulled him down and kissed him, tasting herself on his lips.

"I've done that before." She blushed, but went on. "It's never felt that good." She told him and kissed him again.

"Had you ever, with Aidan or Hunter." Scorpius seemed ashamed to be asking her, but she didn't really mind. She thought he deserved to know. She thought back to nights with Aidan, and nodded.

"With Aidan. He didn't make me, I mean, I didn't ever feel like that." She covered her face with her hand and he grabbed it away.

"Why?" He was speaking soft and kissing her knuckles.

"I don't know. I just never … finished." Rose paused and moved closer to him. She snuggled into his chest. "I've never felt the way I feel with you." She whispered, worried that he would think she was crazy.

"Me either." He kissed her head and moved so that she had to look at him. "I think we need to wait still." He told her and he knew she was disappointed. "We haven't even talked about how far we've gone before, or what we're going to do to protect ourselves or anything." Rose suddenly realized that he was right. They had been so close tonight to letting go and shagging right there on the floor and they weren't even thinking about what that could mean. What if she got pregnant? What would her parents say if they knew she was going to have sex? She hadn't even told them about Scorpius yet and had threatened her brother and cousins to do the same.

"You're right." She told him, wishing he was wrong. "We should wait until I talk to my parents." He looked at her disbelieving. He knew how she felt about her parents knowing about them and to a certain point he understood. "If I can't tell my parents about us then I'm not ready to have sex." She told him and he nodded.

"I agree." He looked at the time and sighed. "We better get going. We need to finish rounds before we go to bed tonight."

The day after that, Rose stood in the owlery and petted Jo as she debated sending the letter she'd drafted for her mother. She knew that she needed to do this. She had been dating Scorpius for over a month now and her parents were going to find out. Someone was going to slip up and mention it in their letter home and then her parents would be hurt, and possibly angry that she had kept this from them. She was terrified of their reaction, but she and Scorpius had made a decision to hold off on sex for awhile and one of the stipulations was telling her parents. Along with this stipulation they had decided that before they had sex they needed to tell each other about their past relationships, spend Christmas apart, and she had to be in love with him.

Compared to being able to tell Scorpius she was in love with him, telling her parents they were dating seemed easy. She'd spent the entire morning working on the letter. After starting over about ten times she'd written this.

Dear Mum,

I have to tell you about Scorpius and me dating so that we can have sex.

Thanks.

Love,

Rosie

She had then balled that up and threw it in the fire with the rest of her letters, where she watched it disintegrate. She had tried another fifty times before she settled on the letter in her hand.

Mum,

There is something I need to tell you and Dad. I have been keeping it from you because I have been worried about hurting you, or upsetting you, and I hate the idea of doing either. I love you both so much and your opinions mean a lot to me.

I have started dating Scorpius. He and I have been close for years as you know and we have always been good friends. He is an amazing boyfriend. He respects me and tries very hard to make me happy.

I am doing wonderful in my lessons and I miss you both so much. I can't wait to see you in a couple months. I hope that you are both doing great.

Love,

Rose

It was short and not very detailed, but she thought it wouldn't be wise to get into very much detail. She thought she ought to ease them into the idea. She hoped her mum would take it well and that she would break it to her dad softly. With any luck she wouldn't receive a howler from him. Rose decided that she ought to send them the letter and attached it to Jo. "Take this to mum and dad and you probably ought to not stick around too long." She teased. "I'll see you soon." She told Jo as the owl flew out the window and any chance Rose had to keep her relationship a secret from her parents flew out with her.