Love Affair

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter...I wish I did but I don‘t. I’m only playing with the characters. Please do not sue me. I don‘t own any money so it will just be a waste of everyone‘s time.
Pairing: (eventually) Remus/Sirius
Author: Catium
Rating: NC-13
Word Count: 2420
Genre: Romance, drama.
Status: In progress
Warnings: Fluffy feelings, language, drama, slash.
Summary: The story of Remus and Sirius’s friendship and love affair.
Note: This story is kind of a prequel to There Is a Thin Line between Hate and Love. In chapter 13 of There Is a Thin Line... Harry comes to Remus for an advice because he thinks he has feelings for Draco. Remus tells Harry that he and Sirius were a couple and after Harry runs out to talk to Draco, Remus starts to think about how he and Sirius became friend and later lovers. This story traces Remus and Sirius story of friendship and later love affair.

I’m going to diminish this blast from the past deal and stop it from this chapter onward. I never intended to have this much of it, it was only supposed to be chapter 1 that was going to be written like this but somehow it turned out differently.

Thanks to everyone that read. Your support is priceless. Now here is chapter 4.

Chapter 4. – Finding Out

“I’m not worried. There is only one of him and four of us. What can he do? I will tell you. Nothing.
It’s just logic four of us and one of him he can’t win.” Sounding a bit like he was convincing himself as much as he was convincing the others.

Sirius knotted his head in agreement.

“Yeah...James’s right. What can he do?”
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“Where is he?” Sirius thought desperately and looked around the Great Hall. Remus had gone to the library last night and not been back before Sirius went asleep. When he woke up Remus’s bed had been empty and didn’t look like he had been sleeping in it and now during breakfast there was no sight of him.

“Where is he?” Sirius said up loud. “Remus never misses breakfast.”

“He’ll show up soon Sirius relax.” James said nonchalant.

“He didn’t sleep in his bed last night.” Sirius continued his worried babble.

“He must’ve fallen asleep in the library. He’s done it before.” Peter said.

“Yeah I guess your rig...” Sirius started to say then a thought hit him. “Snivellus!” He said loudly.

“What about him?” James asked looking a bit confused at the sudden change in subject.

“He’s done something to Remus.” Sirius said sure of himself.

“Why...”

“Remember when we did that first prank on him six months ago in November? It was like he took it especially badly that Remus participated in it. Maybe Snape decided to get back at him. I bet that he’s holding Remus captive somewhere.” Sirius said the idea making him more upset by the minute.

Peter and James both looked scare at Sirius’s sudden outburst.

“Look...I just think you’re overreacting Sirius.” Peter said calmly to Sirius. “This isn’t the first time he disappears for a few days. Just last month he had to leave suddenly ‘caus his aunt was really sick.”

“Yeah...and the month before he went home for his mom birthday.” James said helping Peter to calm their friend.
Sirius realised they were right. “You’re right...” He told them. “Remember? The month before that Remus was sick for some days and the month before that he’s aunt was...”Sirius’s voice faded away when he realised something.

“His aunt.” James repeated. “Was sick then too...”

“And during Christmas he left for three days despite he had told us he was supposed to stay here and he didn’t even explain it...”Peter continued.

James and Peter seemed to realise something too and James started to say slowly.

“I just realised he’s been absent for a few days every...”

“...month...” Sirius interrupted him and finally Peter finished the sentence.

“since we began school.”

The three Marauders stayed silent for a while and then looked at each other, nearly reading each other minds and
James started to shake his head slowly.

“No way...”

“Mhmm...” Sirius denided.

“It can’t be...” Peter agreed.

Then the three of them sprang from their seats and ran to the library as fast as their feet could carry them.
They slowed down right before they came inside the library and tried to slow their breaths. Once inside James looked at the other two.

“Peter ask Madam Pince about all the books on...” James stopped speaking like he couldn’t bring himself to say
the word.

“dark creatures?” Peter asked helpful.

“Yes.” James said and Peter went to talk to the scary librarian but she always treated Peter nicely for some reason. “Sirius...” James continued. “... you and I’ll find the school attendance register. It is supposed to be open to the students so they can see their attendance. It should be updated daily by magic.”

“All right.” Sirius said and they went to find the school attendance registers. They soon found them but it took them awhile to find the ones for, the soon to be over school year and the ones that had Remus’s attendance in them. When they found them and went to the tables in the library Peter was already there, with around ten books on dark creatures.

More precisely werewolves.

“Do we know when the full moon is every month?” Sirius asked.

“I’ve got calendar with the days the full moon is marked.” Peter told them.

“Days?” Sirius and James asked.

“Yes. There is a full moon for three days. You didn’t know?” He asked.

“Excuse us for not being nerds.” James said sarcastically.

“Guys can we just not do this right now?” Sirius snapped at them. “I wanna know ok? Let’s just get to work and find some proof.”

“All right.” James and Peter said and they boys got to work. The found Remus’s school attendance record and wrote down all the days he’d been absence. Then they compared them to the full moon days on the calendar. When they had done that they looked at each other.

“They all match.” Sirius said in a low voice. “Remus is always absent from school when the full moon is. And
sometimes some days afterwards.”

“And the symptoms match.” Peter said. “He gets more irritated right before the full moon.” Peter said.

“Like when Snape injured James, remember? He more like... growled at me than spoke when he told me to get Madam Pomfrey and he pulled me down, he should not be able to do that, he shouldn’t be stronger than me but it would fit if he’s a...” Sirius said and stopped not being able to say the word so he changed the subject. “According to the calendar that was the day before full moon.”

“And he has scars.” James said. “We saw one of it on the Hogwarts express. It says that if werewolves can’t bite someone during their transformation they bite and scratch themselves. He must have done that to himself.”

“It says the transformation takes a lot out of them. That’s probably why he doesn’t come right back to school. He needs to rest afterwards. Maybe sometimes go to the hospital wing and get himself treated for the bites and scratch.” Peter added.

“It matches. The days, the symptoms everything...” Sirius said again. “Remus’s a werewolf.

The boys were at loss for words.

“What will we do now?” Peter asked them.

Sirius was reading one of the books about lycanthropes and was just reading an interesting paragraph that read.
“A witch that was an Animagus and had a husband who had lycanthrope started to transform herself into her animal form and stay with him during his monthly transformations. That seemed to make the transformations easier on her husband and made him more controllable during a full moon. That proves the theory made by werewolves experts that werewolves don’t attack other animals, just humans.”

An idea started to form in Sirius head and he showed James the paragraph he had just read. James read it and then that smirk crept on his face...that smirk that never bode good. He looked at Sirius and Sirius read his thoughts smirking at him back and told Peter.

“I know exactly what we’ll do.”
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Remus woke up in the hospital wing and when he moved every muscle in his body ached. He groaned.

“It’s getting worse isn’t it?” Madam Pomfrey asked him when she came to his bed.

“Yes.” Remus told her.

“It’s been getting worse every month since you started.” She told him.

“Why?”

Madam Pomfrey sighed and drew out a chair next to Remus’s bed and sat down.

“Well Mr. Lupin first of all young people who have lycanthrope hit puberty sooner and are more precocious then kids their age. When puberty hits the increasing hormones that the body produces makes the symptoms...” Pomfrey hesitated a bit.

“What about the symptoms?” Remus asked her.

“They get worse...”

“Worse?” Remus asked her.

“Yes the transformation gets more...painful and the symptoms before the transformation get more extreme...the irritation...the lost of attention... and the symptoms you always have like the strength, the olfaction will increase too....basically the wolf wants to get out more desperately and gives it his best shot. And in return you get more...” Madam Pomfrey explained to Remus the best way she could.

“Inhuman?” Remus suggested.

“Yes.” Madam Pomfrey said in a low voice.

Remus sighed and fell back on his pillow hand covering his face.

“You’ve told my parents?”

“Two months ago. They asked me to wait and see for a while if it would really stay worse. I did and it did so I send them a letter this morning they answered me and asked me to tell you so... I told you.”

“How long will this continue being worse?” Remus asked her.

“Until you get off puberty then your hormones will balance and the symptoms will diminish but it will not be like you remember it now. It will be not as bad as it will be when your puberty hits full time but not as...good...pardon the bad choose of words...as it is now. But then you’ll be all grown up physically so you should be able to handle it better.”

“I see...” was all Remus managed to say until a loud and demanding knock could be heard on the doors to the hospital wing.

“I will go see who it is.” Madam Pomfrey went to the doors. Remus closed his eyes and for a few minutes he could hear voices speaking together then he heard footsteps. Remus assumed it was Madam Pomfrey coming back and said.

“So I will get worse then a bit better but never as “good” as I am now?” He asked her. “That’s just lovely.” He said sarcastic.

“Sorry that is what I’ve read happens to werewolves when they hit puberty.” A voice answered him but it wasn’t Pomfrey’s voice.

“Merlin no, no, no.” Remus thought when he realised this was James’s voice and now he could smell James and Peter and... Sirius! He mustered up all the courage he had and opened his eyes looking at his friends.

“How?” He asked them.

“Your absence from school once a month...your irritation right before full moon...the scars...it wasn’t hard to figure out.” James told him.

“So now you’ve come to tell me you don’t want to be my friends anymore. I understand and appreciate that you are telling me to my fa...”

“Are you daft Remus?” Sirius asked him shocked. “We are still going to be your friends we don’t care about your...”

“... little furry problem.” James added.

“We are going to become Animaguses to help you through the transformation. We read that it makes it more easier on you and makes you able to stay more human when you’re in your werewolf form if someone else who is human is staying with you...even if it’s in animal form. More controllable.” Sirius told him quickly.

“I’m going to be a stag or some big animal that can control you if you decide not be play nice with the other animals.”

“And I’m going to be a rat...because we need to able to press that lump that stops the Whooping Willow from whooping our asses.” Peter said.

“What? Did you talk to Dumbledore or Mad...”

“No we figured it out...”James told him“...and snooped around the Willow, found the tunnels and realised no ghost could do what’ve been done to the Shrieking Shack...are we right?”

“Yes...” Remus said. “I thought I was the smart one in this group.”

“We aren’t stupid...we just can’t bother using our wits in school.” James said pleased with himself.

Remus looked at Sirius and asked him.

“And you? What are you going to turn into?”

“A big dog.” Sirius told him and despite Remus always being kind of slow after a hard transformation he realised the flaw in that. Dogs came from wolfs. And the wolf in him might...react to Sirius in dog form in some unpleasant ways and he wouldn’t be able to control it. Remus was starting to realise he felt more towards Sirius than friendship. He had been having this dreams recently that make him wake up painting for breath and feeling a bit...stiff in certain places.

“Precocious indeed. I’m not even twelve I shouldn’t be feeling anything like this. And sure as hell not towards MY BEST FRIEND GOD DAMN IT!!!” Remus thought.

“I guess...” He started to say. “...that there is no way to make you not do this. It might be dangerous what if the wolf doesn’t want to play nice like James said.”

“It won’t and we won’t budge in this Remus so don’t even try it.” James told him and sounded so determined that Remus knew that he could argue until he turned blue...they wouldn’t budge. He shook his head in defeat.

“I’m not even going to try and argue you...you never listen anyway.” He told them and they all smirked.

“You’re damn right mate.” Sirius told him.

“We should go.” James said. “You need to rest...gather your strengths because when you get back to school you need to help us figure out how the hell we’re going to become Animaguses.

“I thought you just told me you were so smart so why can’t you figure it out for yourselves?” Remus asked teasingly.

“Well we aren’t that smart...but you are.” Peter said and the boys started to leave. Remus knew that he needed to talk Sirius out of making his Animagus form a dog so he called on him.

“Sirius! Can I’ve a word with you?”

Sirius told James and Peter he would see them later and walked to Remus’s bed again.

“What is it Rem?” He asked calling Remus a pet name he rarely used.

“Don’t become a dog Sirius. I’m afraid that it will irritate the wolf. Because wolf and dogs are related you know? So having another canine around might make him mad and if something happens to you I...”

Sirius silenced Remus and told him with confidence.

“You won’t. You will be easier to control and I think the wolf will like having another canine around him.”

“Yeah a bit too much.” Remus though. “Please Sirius I don’t think it will.”

“I’m not changing my mind. Besides I’ve always fancied myself as a dog, now my dream will come true.”

Remus gave up, too tired to argue about this anymore and decided that he would have to leave this one to fate and told Sirius.

“All right then but I’m afraid you’ll regret it.”

“I won’t.” Sirius assured him and then left.

Remus looked at him leave and dread crept up on him as he thought.

“But I will.”
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Remus managed to get through dinner almost without Snape throwing some petty remark his way. He ignored Snape like Sirius had suggested. Once finished with the dinner Remus was about to leave to retire to his private quarters, then Snape asked him in a sarcastic voice.

“Why so blue Lupin? Feeling down?

“Ignore him Remus. He’s working on some sort of an insult.” Sirius’s voice said

“I know Sirius I’m not stupid.” Remus said. Then he turned around and decided the best way to disarm Snape would not to answer in a cruel or sarcastic way like he was expecting but with honesty.

“Yes I am Severus. I’ve been thinking a lot about Sirius today. It’s made me kind of sad.

The stunned look on Snape’s face was almost worth telling him the truth. Although when he would get over the fact that Remus had told him the truth he would probably taunt him about “missing his boyfriend.”

Even Sirius’s voice had gone quiet. Remus knew how crazy this was but he really wanted Sirius to keep talking to him so he thought.

“Sirius? You there?”

But no one answered. Not unusual, sometimes Sirius voice would disappear for months and then just jump back up like nothing had happened. When that happened, clearly some part of him was telling him he’d been crazy enough for today and now it was time to act normal again for awhile.

He’d been talking to Sirius for a whole afternoon now so this was clearly all the craziness he would be allowed for some time now.

When Remus reached his chambers he poured himself a drink and sat down in his favourite armchair. Deep in thought.

He really did miss Sirius and these memories he’d been having today of their first few months as friends weren’t making it better. But now, no matter how hard he tried to stop these memories they kept coming making him remember their whole life together from them being two 11 years old building up a friendship to the time he’d seen Sirius fall through the veil.

TBC

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