Broken

Chapter four – Discovery and Reasons

“Harry?” Ginny called through the door and when he didn’t answer Bill opened the door a fraction.

“Harry? It’s Bill.”

No reply

Bill walked in and nearly passed out at the sight before him. “Ginny!” he shouted panicked. “Harry?” he picked Harry up and ran out of the bathroom carrying him. He placed him on the bed and both he and Ginny began episky-ing him. The moment she had finished her wrist, she bandaged it tightly then took over Bills and instructed him to give Harry a blood replenishing potion and a dreamless sleep potion.

“I’m going to Floo madam Pomfrey and see what else I have to do.” She said and walked out. Bill nodded at her back and sat down still in shock from how he had found Harry.

Ginny walked down the stairs and into the living room.

“Gin!”

“Ginny?”

“GINNY?” George shouted and shook her shoulders hard.

“Hmmm? Oh? Fred what’s wrong?” the twins looked at each other shocked, never before had she mixed up their names.

“Um… Ginny, I’m George, not Fred. Are you okay?”

Ron spoke up, “Ginny, what’s wrong with Harry? What’d he do now?”

Ginny ignored him and muttered “madam Pomfrey. Floo.”

“Gin? I’m his best mate! He’s my brother tell me what’s wrong. Please”

Ginny looked up and noticed that no one had left yet. Her knees gave out and the twins grabbed her lowering her to the floor slowly. She was twisting her hands and looked down at them. Tears pouring down her face. She looked up with haunted eyes and began rocking as she said, “He said he was going for a shower. He was so long and when I called him he didn’t answer. Bill found him. Ron, he…he…Ron, he tried to kill himself.” Remus, Tonks and Charlie sprinted out of the room. Molly broke down completely and was being held by her husband who had tears on his cheeks. Albus Dumbledore sank to the sofa and covered his face with his hands. Ron sat down hard and burst into tears, Fred and George bowed their heads. The only one who wasn’t crying was Severus Snape who had turned exceptionally pale.

Tonks, Remus, Bill and Charlie sat at Harry’s bedside waiting for him to wake from the induced sleep Bill had not spoken until Tonks walked over to the potions pouch and pulled a calming draught which she placed at his lips for him to drink. Charlie spoke up first.

“He can’t stay here.”

Tonks sat down next to Remus who said, “I think I have the solution. Potter Manor, he’s not set to inherit it until he turns seventeen, not just by our laws but family decree, however he is the head of the Potter family and there is nothing that say’s he cant stay there. It’s so heavily protected I thinks it’s safer than Gringotts and Hogwarts combined. Potter manor is so old it dates back to before Hogwarts, from what James has said, it uses old blood magic. The grounds are able to detect any one that means any harm to the occupants of Potter manor. It will protect him. It is also under something similar to the fidelious, I know where it is because I’ve lived there before. I wont be able to enter it without Harry, but when he gets there, he will know the location instantly and be able to tell us all that we have permission to enter. The amazing thing about that is he’ll have to either give you permanent permission or he can let you in the front door every time you come. I don’t know how many time I’ve searched for those wards, but I’d be stuffed if I could find them.” They sat looking at each other before and before any one could say any thing, Ginny opened the door.

“I think it’s a good idea. I’m in. madam Pomfrey also suggested getting him out of here. Though if what you say is true, we have to wait for Harry to be well enough to travel.”

“Ginny, what makes you think we’d let you come, no offence Sprite, but Harry doesn’t need someone who’s going to nag him. He needs peace and quiet to move on from all of this.”

“Charlie, Harry is going to need someone who knows some of what he’s dealing with.”

“And that someone’s you?” he asked sceptically.

“Well, unless you know any one else who has bee possessed by him, then yes, I mean me!”

Bill could see that shortly his siblings were going to start an all for nothing war against each other and decided that something needed to be done quickly to prevent it.

“Oi! Charlie, Ginny’s right. As bloody usual.” He smirked and quickly dodged the punch Ginny threw at him. “She’ll be able to help calm him. Besides that we” he pointed to Tonks, Remus, Charlie and then stabbed his own chest with a finger “can’t be there all the time, Ginny will be able to. However, we’re counting on the fact that Dumbledore will let him leave. He’s not likely to without a fight.”

Ginny snorted “if it’s a fight he wants I’ll gladly bloody give it to him.” She looked up at Harry who was starting to stir. “Harry James Potter! If you ever do something so incredibly stupid like that again, it won’t be Voldemort you fear!”

Harry mumbled loud enough for them to hear “I take it I’m in hell then. And I don’t fear Voldemort anyway.”

Bill looked at him sadly and Remus asked, “why?”

Harry understood the question immediately. He pushed himself into a sitting position and said while looking at his bandaged wrists “because I deserve it.”

Tonks looked shocked “why do you say that Harry? I’d say you’re the last person who would deserve that!”

“Every one around me dies. Dad, Mum, Cedric, Sirius. If they don’t die they get hurt Ron, Ginny, Hermione, Mr Weasley, Moody, Tonks, Kingsley. A Dementor, for merlins sake almost kissed Dudley.”

Ginny jumped up off the chair and grabbed his chin forcing his face towards hers. His eyes however looked down avoiding her glare. “Repeat after me Potter, ‘I am not responsible for the actions of those around me!’”

Harry’s haunted eyes met hers and he dutifully recited, “I am not responsible for the actions of those around me.” He then added in barely a whisper “I am however responsible for their deaths and therefore the world is a better place without me in it.” Ginny released his chin as if she was burnt.

“Surely you don’t believe that Harry?”

He glared at her defiantly before spitting “the only memory I have of my father is him yelling at my mother to take me and run. The only memory of my mother is her dropping me in my cradle and begging with Voldemort to spare my life while he just stood there and laughed before killing her. Cedric told me to take the cup, but I had to be a stupid Gryffindor and suggest we both take it; he was killed because he was ‘the spare’. Sirius came to save me because I was so completely…so unbelievably…so unforgivably stupid to believe Voldemort.”

Tonks stood up “Harry, Sirius died because he was being a wanker! If you want to boast do so after you win not during a duel. He knew that rule; all Aurors are taught that, given that he and your father were two of the best Aurors of their time, he should have known better. He ignored that rule! It is the main thing we are taught when we are training. He knew it and he ignored it. That is the reason he died Harry, it was not your fault but his. You do his memory a disservice by suggesting he died for nothing. He died for a cause he believed in. He died fighting, how he wanted to.” She paused and added quietly, “He once told me that if he died, he wanted it to be during battle hopefully protecting you. He did.”

“Harry you told Ginny you wanted to leave here is that still true?” Bill asked changing the subject.

“Please. I don’t want to be here any more. I just thought that Dumbledore would make me stay.”

Remus spoke up, “He doesn’t get a say. He’ll be told that you’re leaving and if he agrees then good, if not you’ll still be going.”

“Where am I going?”

“We’re going to Potter Manor.”

Harry spat out the mouthful of water that he was just about to swallow and went into a coughing fit spraying more water out of his nose. “What? Where? How? I thought that was destroyed when…”

Tonks picked herself up off the floor while Charlie and Bill were wiping tears of laughter from their cheeks. Remus was sitting on the floor holding his sides while continuing to laugh.

Harry chuckled, “Tonks you’re hopeless.”

“I place all blame on the chair.” She sniffed and waved her wand drying her wet robes and hair.

“Sure ya do Tonks! The chair just jumped in your way?” Ginny smirked. “Couldn’t have been fire hose there could it?” she giggled pointing at Harry.

“It’s not my fault she got in the way!” he said trying (and failing) not to laugh.

“It’s at Godric’s Hollow but it’s not the cottage. You’ll see when we get there but the manor is set quite a bit back, in fact even if the wards that hide it weren’t there, you’d still have trouble finding it unless you knew where to look.”

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