Songfic Series

Title: Far Away
Author: Lilith
Summary: says it all.
Rating: NC-17 M/M, Violence, Implied Rape, Death AU
Pairing(s): Harry/Draco
Notes: I tried to write a happy fic…I really did! But the best I could do was write one with a happy ending!! This songfic is dedicated to fragonknight01!! It’s happy! I swear! So happy…you’ll cry!! Inspired by Nickelback’s “Far Away” …which I do not own along with Harry Potter and Co. Listen to the song while reading!

A/N: I am taking requests/suggestions on songfics! I am quickly running out of them!!


This time, this place
Misused, mistakes
Too long, too late
Who was I to make you wait

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Harry panted as Draco released him from the kiss. His bright emerald eyes sparkled as Draco began to undress him. They lay on a bed in the Room of Requirement. It was lunchtime and Draco had been late.

“Draco…What took so long?” Harry panted as he pulled Draco down for another kiss. Draco’s eyes clouded with an unknown emotion before he shook his head and smiled at his little lover. He kissed Harry’s forehead and leaned in to breathe the scent of his lover.

“Nothing Harry, it was just my father. He wanted to speak with me,” Harry’s eyes narrowed.

“You’re lying Draco. What’s been going on lately? Why won’t you tell me?”

“I will tell you…just not yet Harry. Please? Just trust me...I know what I’m doing. I’m sorry I made you wait for me.”

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Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
Cause you know
You know, you know

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“The school year is almost over and then it will be our seventh year…soon we will have to go to war.” Harry murmured as he lay in his lover’s arms in the bed. Draco nodded as he carded his fingers through Harry’s raven locks, his silver eyes distant, as if they could see something far away.

“Harry…Promise me that before it ends, you will let me announce to everybody about us. Just in case something should happen…to us. I’m tired of hiding…I don’t give a damn what everybody will think. The only thing I care about is spending every single moment with you” Harry took a deep breath and let it out slowly.

“As long as you promise me that you will stay safe when the fighting breaks out” Draco’s eyes watered and he nodded. He would not tell Harry… He would not tell Harry just how much he loved him.

Harry stared at his blonde lover. He refused to tell Draco just how much he mattered to him. Maybe then, if he died, Draco would not feel so much pain.

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I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

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Draco gasped as Dumbledore broke the news to him. Harry, Ron, and Hermione had left…to search for a way to destroy the Dark Lord. HE had left…without him. Draco trembled with rage and sat down in the chair offered to him.

“Why didn’t he ask me?” He asked Dumbledore. Dumbledore had known of Harry and Draco’s relationship and had helped to progress it along. He cared deeply for both the boys and was happy to see them together. What saddened him was the fact that they had both put themselves in immense danger to protect the other…to protect the one they loved. It was a sacrifice few were willing to make for others and yet here they were…two teenage boys who had just found each other, willing to risk their lives in a war that should never have been their burden.

Draco’s face fell as he realized why. Harry had been trying to protect him.

*Dream*
Harry arched under Draco as Draco slowly thrust in and out of him. The agonizingly slow strokes drove Harry crazy and he thrashed under his lover, his hips twitching up needing more friction.

“D..D..Dracoooo…”he moaned as he desperately tried to thrust his hips up faster. Draco held them down, his fingers digging into the creamy unmarked flesh of Harry’s thighs. Harry jerked, his head tossing from side to side as his fingers dug into Draco’s shoulders.

Draco was whispering in his ear now, sweet nothings that he never remembered afterwards. He was so close…He could feel the tension in his stomach rising as Draco finally started to pound into him, speeding up to almost a frenzy. Harry’s breath caught as Draco released him to stroke his aching cock. With a gasp, Harry felt himself let go; his body arched off the bed, his head thrown back, his eyes hazy with lust, his mouth slightly open as he trembled with the intensity of it. He slumped down in time to see Draco hiss as he came inside Harry, his eyes closed as if it hurt to be inside him, his body taut and slick.

Draco collapsed to the side of Harry, breathing hard. He turned on his side once he caught his breath and smiled at Harry. Harry grinned back at him and snuggled closer. Draco frowned as he lay in silence, thinking of Harry.

*End Dream*
Draco opened his eyes, his breath coming in short pants. He groaned and flung an arm over his eyes. He couldn’t stop dreaming of Harry. Times before Harry had left him, and they had been happy together.

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On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand

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Harry was kneeling outside his tent. Hermione and Ron lay inside sleeping, probably dreaming of each other. Harry smiled as he thought this and clasped his hands together. He had never prayed before…He had heard about this “God” guy from the children he went to school with before Hogwarts, they told him that if he prayed to him, he would grant his wish. He himself had never prayed; never finding any reason to believe someone like that existed. If someone like him did exist, then why did bad stuff happen to him all the time. If a “god” existed, then maybe he would listen to Harry…just once, as an I.O.U for making his life a living hell.

He only had one request to make as he knelt down in the dirt, wearing only pajama bottoms and a t-shirt. He shivered from the cold and looked up at the night sky. The stars winked at him, as if they knew a secret and were willing to share with him what it was. He took one breath and spoke.

“God…if there is a God…I have a favor to ask of you. Please…let me see him one more time. I just ask for one more chance to tell him what I should have told him long ago. I need him by my side one more time,” he sobbed quietly.

“Without him I am nothing…Please, let me hold his hand…one more time…Let me kiss him one more time…Let me love him…one last time.”

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I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
Cause you know
You know, you know

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Draco twitched as he felt pain shoot through his body. He groaned and rolled over, feeling sore in places he never thought he would. He grabbed a nearby towel and wiped the blood from his thighs, his hand shaking as he saw just how much of it was spilled. He shrugged…it could have been worse. The deatheaters could have killed him afterwards, leaving absolutely nothing. Draco let out a sob as he limped to the bathroom.

No. This pain was nothing. It was all for Harry. He had sold his very soul to the devil in exchange for information about Harry. In exchange for their willingness to help him in his own quest…his quest to help Harry destroy the Dark Lord. He knew…if he made it out of this alive he would tell Harry exactly what he had wanted to tell him since the day he laid eyes on him. He refused to give up on Harry.

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I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

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Harry sat down on the floor, his mind reeling. He now knew that he would never see Draco again. He was the final horcrux. By some fluke…Voldemort had made him a horcrux. He would need to die to in order to kill him…well he wouldn’t kill him. He bit back a scream…Draco. It didn’t matter…Draco might already be dead as far as he knew. If he was gone then Harry would gladly face his death with open arms. He hugged himself, wishing it was Draco that had his arms wrapped around him.

Dumbledore stared at Harry from across the room in Harry’s parents’ house. He knew he needed to tell him before it was too late. He regretted not trusting the boy more…than maybe he would not have had to shock him at the most crucial moment. Voldemort was laying siege to Hogwarts and Harry had contacted Dumbledore claiming he had gotten rid of all the horcruxes except the snake. Dumbledore had known then that he needed to tell Harry. He had flown to Godric’s Hollow and me the Trio. Ron and Hermione had left them alone, knowing what Dumbledore was going to reveal to Harry was important and not for them.

Harry had not been shocked by the confession…he had suspected for awhile after studying horcruxes. No…what shocked him was the fact that Draco had been selling himself to Slytherins and deatheaters alike in order to protect Harry while he was at the castle, and now to find information on how to help him. It had been Draco who told Dumbledore that Voldemort’s snake was a horcrux and Dumbledore who told Harry.

Now knowing he was going to die…Harry wanted nothing more than to see him again…one last time.

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So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

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The school was a battlefield. Everywhere Harry turned there were students fighting deatheaters, people screaming in pain, and people having their last glimpse of life for the last time. But Harry searched for only one person in the crowd of people.

*Draco* Hermione and Ron succeeded in killing the snake, and now fled back to Harry with Voldemort at their heels. Harry stood his ground, he had been waiting for this moment. He knew what he had to do.

From the corner of his eye he saw a familiar blonde head making its way through the silent crowd of people circled around him and Voldemort. He caught Draco’s eye and smiled. Draco stared in confusion and then his eyes widened, his head shaking in denial.

*I just got you back! You were gone for so long and now I just got you back! I need to tell you!* Harry smiled, as if he had heard everything Draco had just thought, and nodded. Draco gulped and began to cry…He already knew.

A flash of green light and a barely understandable hiss marked the end of Harry Potter.

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I wanted
I wanted you to stay
Cause I needed

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Draco howled as Harry lay lifeless on the ground his hands relaxed and his eyes closed his beautiful eyes. Voldemort laughed, his followers and him rejoicing at the death of The-Boy-Draco-Loved. He had died knowing Draco loved him…but now Draco would never hear those words he wanted to hear Harry say. He threw himself forward and onto Harry, shocking everyone, the Dark Lord included.

“I need to hear you say it! Tell me Harry! Please!” Draco lay his head on Harry’s, and he froze as he heard a small voice near his ear where Harry’s mouth was.

“I love you…I’ve loved you all along.” Draco cried as he replied back in a whisper meant only for Harry’s ears.

“And I forgive you, for being away for far too long.” They jumped up as one and shouted the words that would forever silence the Dark Lord.

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So keep breathing
Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me,and never let me go
Keep breathing
Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me never let me go

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They left the celebration early…their hands intertwined as they walked the flight of stairs into a room they had not been in since forever. They didn’t speak one word to each other as they stripped down, their breathing heavy and yet light at the same time. Harry stared at the floor as Draco approached him. Draco tilted Harry’s head up so that he could stare into his eyes as they spoke to each other for the first time since the battle.

“I stopped breathing…when you left. I was nothing…Harry I...” Harry silenced him with one finger against his lips.

“Well keep breathing…because I’m not leaving you anymore.” Draco’s eyes shone as he captured Harry’s mouth in a hungry kiss.

“I believe you…” Draco said as he pulled back from the kiss.

“Show me!”Harry said, “Hold onto me please! Don’t let me go again.”

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Keep breathing
Hold on to me, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me....

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Draco stared into his love’s eyes as he rocked in and out of him. Harry was panting, his eyes closed, as he rocked back against Draco. Their hands were intertwined above Harry’s head; Harry’s legs thrown over Draco’s shoulders. Draco felt his pleasure rising and looking down at Harry he noticed that he too was close. Draco gasped as the force of his orgasm hit him like a tidal wave, rolling through him from head to toe. Harry cried out Draco’s name as he came, his toes curling with pleasure. Draco slowly lay down next to Harry, and pulling him close whispered five little words into Harry’s ear that made Harry cry as they lay together in bed.

“I’ll never let you go.”