The Things We Did For Love

Chapter 4: What Is Love? (Slightly edited)

Rated: R
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Andromeda lay in bed unable to sleep, thoughts of what had happened merely an hour ago kept replaying in her mind. Love? Ted had said it and meant it, but what was it really?
No one had ever said it to her before; not her Mother, not her sisters, not Sirius, not Rab, these were feelings she had but had no clue how to express them. Why? Why did he love her? Who is she to deserve the love of such a caring person? Andromeda was constantly preaching to herself to let herself live her own life not the one her parents planned but when Ted said those words to her, she knew she was trapped.

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Looking for something I’ve never seen
Alone and I’m in between
The place that I’m from and
The place that I’m in
A city I’ve never been
I found a friend or should I say foe
Said just a few things you should know
We don’t want you to see
We come and we go
Here today, gone tomorrow
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It didn't matter what she wanted, because she had know idea how to change what her life had already become. She had no idea how she would ever get out of marrying Rab. Her family had to much control, she would never be free. Just having these feelings for Ted was putting his life in jeopardy, Bella would murder him if knew what had just happened. Her own feelings could not overcome the feelings of her family, and she wasn't strong enough to contest them. She felt so insignificant at this moment.


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Were only taking turns
Holding the world
Its how its always been
When you’re older, you will understand
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Her life had been planned out for her until the point where she actually married Rab, but then what? Were they supposed to be one big happy family and love each other forever? No Rab didn't love her, the only thing Rab loved was himself, Andromeda was property to him, he was entitled to her. He would have mistresses, but she would be expected to be completely faithful to him, and pop out a few children and they would grow up to be death eaters just like their daddy and aunt and uncle.

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If I say who I know it just goes to show
You need me less than I need you
Take it from me
We don’t give sympathy
You can trust me trust nobody
But I said you and me
We don’t have honesty
The things we don’t want to speak
I’ll try to get out but I never will
Traffic is perfectly still
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Ted deserved to have someone stronger and more confident than her. Someone he could hold hands with as they walked to class, a girl he could snog in front of other people, not someone who he had to be with in secret in the dark empty corridors. Someone who wasn't afraid to say "I love you too". Andromeda had no idea how to be that girl. She knew that she was the one that really kissed him, and bloody hell if it wasn't the best thing she's ever felt but she knew there were too many odds against them. Even though she couldn't say it, she loved Ted too, more than she even knew.

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Were only taking turns
Holding this world
It’s how its always been
When you’re older you will understand

And again maybe you don’t
And again maybe you won’t

When you’re older
You might understand
When you’re older
You might understand
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It was going to be impossible for her to be with Ted. Maybe she should just accept her fate to be the wife of a Death Eater.


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Andromeda thought after running out on Ted after his declaration, he would avoid her, or hate her even, or worse want to talk about it. But Ted went on as if nothing had happened or was out of the ordinary, which in a way is what Andromeda wanted but it still hurt. So she on the other hand tried to push him away, she didn't want to hurt him, or get him hurt.

But there he was smirking and staring at her the way he usually did in potions because he sat behind her to her right, close enough that she could she him out of the corner of her eye. This staring at her thing constantly caused him to mess up on the potions when he was stirring or adding other ingredients to it. Slughorn constantly yelled at him “Mr. Tonks please pay attention to what you are doing!”. When class was finally over, Ted had gotten up before her and as he passed her he dropped a small piece of paper on her lap, no one else had seemed to notice, she opened it

Dromeda

We need to talk, meet me in the Astronomy tower at 9:00pm tonight
Love T.T.

Andromeda quickly shoved the paper into her potions book, and got up to leave contemplating on whether or not she would meet him tonight or not.

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She had been dead set not to go to the Astronomy Tower tonight, she needed to end this, so Ted could move on, be with someone he deserved, and not some one who was already heavely broken and damaged. She thought this until dinner, it started with her catching Rab and Danielle O'Riley a 4th year snogging in the slytherin common room, instead of interferring she merely walked passed them after all she had done the same thing, but at dinner it was all the slytherin girls could talk about, some of the girls looked at Andromeda with pity others were smirking at her in thought of getting with Rab themselves. Then Cissy came and sat right next to her

"Andi there's something I need to tell you...Rab was" she started

"Snogging Danielle O'Riley in the common room,yeah I saw them." She finished her sentence, appearing to be completly unhurt, but that fact her sister was concerned about her feelings made Andromeda feel better in a way.

"You knew?? So why haven't you put Rab in his place yet?" she asked

"What good would that do Cissy, it doesn't change anything" Andormeda said

Cissy looked at her older sister as if she were insane, then turned her gaze to Rab which she then sent death glares his way.

Andromeda was concentrating on her roast beef a bit to intently, she then looked up from her plate and looked around the great hall, her eyes wondered over to the Hufflepuff table and saw Ted sitting there looking only at her, she was the only thing in the room to him. And she realized she wanted him to look at her like that always, no one else, she wanted Ted, she was tried of pretending, she would meet him and get her feelings out. But she was still scared out of her mind.


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Dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me
And dear my love, haven't you longed to be free
I can't keep pretending that I don't even know you
And at sweet night, you are my own
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9:00pm came around, there was still an hour before curfew, so getting out was easy, shewasn't even noticed by here fellow housemates. and she made her way to the Astronomy tower. When she finally reached it, Ted was already there, his eyes in one of the telescopes looking up at the stars, she then closed the door behind her which caused Ted to look away from the stars and look at her, a smile spread across his face

"You came" he said but not surprised

"I almost didn't" she answered not being able to look at him yet, they stood a room apart from each other, Ted looking at her, while she looked at the floor. It seemed like forever until he spoke again

"I meant what I said last night, and I'm not sorry I said it" He said not doubt in his voice at all.

She merely looked up at him, the tears started to well up "Why? Why would you love me?" sheading a few of her tears.

"Dromeda I have loved you since to moment I saw you, when we got off the Hogwarts express, before I knew your name, I had never felt anything like I had felt when I first saw you, it was like the fog had started to clear and I could finally see the stars, It was the first time I felt as if I belonged somewhere, I know that sounds strange but it's true. Then as the years went by and we got to know one another better my feelings only grew, I feel like were meant to be together " he said

"According to my family I'm meant to be with Rab." she said quietly tears falling from her eyes

"What do you want?" he asked

she shook her head "It doesn't matter what want"

"of course it does Dromeda" he said walking over to her he placed one hand on he hip and on hand under her chin and lifted her face to look at him "This is your life, ou should live it the way you wish."

"No matter what I choose you end up hurt, If I choose you, there's no telling what my family and Rab would do to you, if I choose Rab, you get hurt." she said

"So do you, Rab will never love you like I love you." he stated

"I know that." she said trying to gather the rest of her thoughts she pulled away from him and started to pace "But you desevere so much more than me, you deserve someone stronger, someone nicer, someone less prueblooded than me, if I do this I complicate both your life and mine forever. They will never let us be together."


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Take my hand

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be halfway to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name
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"None of that matters as long as we're together, you are so much stronger tahn you think, anyone that can put up with a family like yours the way you do, is incredibly strong. You are lovely, and kind, and I could care less about our blood, the fact that I am muggle born does not make me less of a wizard, it isn't a handicap it isn't a disease, it doesn't make me less intitled to the wizarding world, it doesn't make me ferior, I am a damn good wizard." he said in an angry rant, he had been keepin this inside for awhile.

"I know that." she said still crying

Ted walked over and craddled her face with his large hands wiping the tears from her eyes
"then start being true to your heart love, let us fall in love with each other, as long as we're together we can make it through anything." he leaned down and started to kiss her again.

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I have dreamt of a place for you and I
No one know who we are there
All I want is to give my life only to you
I've dreamt so long I cannot dream anymore
Let's run away, I'll take you there

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be halfway to anywhere
Where no one needs a reason
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She reluctantly pulled away from him, "No one has ever said that to me before." she said

"Said what?" he asked not sure which part she was talking about

"No one has ever told me they loved me before." She said in a small voice

Ted looked at her in shock "No one? not even your parents? or your sisters?"

she shook her head, it was something she had never even said to Sirius even thought they both knew they cared for each other.

"So you see I don't even know the first thing about love." she said still trying to push him away. It was her last push, she couldn't keep pushing him away. With this new information in light she firgured Ted would think she was some sort of freak and run away from her, but he only got closer to her, she couldn't keep trying to protect him from her.

"Then it's time someone started loving you." He said looking deep into her eyes wih out any fear, just love and devotion he had for her. Andromeda's heart swelled and she felt love for another person for the time in her life,and was lost completely, this time she was the one to pull him into a heart pounding kiss

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Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you
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Their kiss had become more heated and passionate, and one time he had lifted her off the ground and held her against the wall, her head was swimming her heart was racing, she was moaning, Ted was more grunting, she could feel his erection pressing onto her, she thrusted her hips against it causing them both to moan loudly.Rab had felt nothing like this, she was so upset with herself for letting Rab take her viginity at that moment, why couldn't she have saved that for Ted. Ted had one hand on her hips, Andromeda's legs were wrapped around him,his othe hand was on her right breast caressing and squeezing it, causing Andromeda core to become wet with aurosal. He pulled away from their embrace and unhooked her legs frome his around his waist, setting her legs on the ground, Andromeda was confused, he then got down on his knees and his hands went under her skirt, and pulled down the waistband of her knickers, down past her knees, and he then lifted each of her ankles as he pulled her white cotton knickers and shoved them into his back pocket. He then went back to her legs and pushe her knees apart so he could settle between them, he the dived into her pussy and started to lick at her wet folds.

"Ted what are you *gasp gasp* ahhhhhhhhh " she stared to say when Ted found her clit and started to attack it with his tongue, he then sent two of his fingers to rub her folds, then shoved them inside her canal. She was the most amazing thing he had ever tasted, he could have eaten her out for hours. Andromeda couldn't stop moaning and yelling out, she had even broughten a hand down to grab Ted's head to make sure he did not stop the incredible assualt on her pussy, and her othe hand came up to her breast to rub it. "Oh my gods" she yelled out as she continued to ride Ted's face and Ted moaned into her clit, and his finger found her g-spot and started to rub it, all this was too much for Andromeda and for the first time in her life she orgaismed and came all over Ted's face and fingers. When she recovered a bit, Ted had stood back up and held his fingers that were covered in her cum to her mouth, Andromeda seemed to understand and opened her mouth and started sucking off her juices she also reached between them and started stroking his cock through his trousers, but he had got so hard from eating her out that he came right away grunting her name. he pulled his fingers out her mouth and replaced them with his own mouth and tongue felling higher than he had ever felt before.
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Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you now

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be halfway to anywhere
Where Love is more than just your name.
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Just as they were about to move on the door swung open and they heard a familiar voice say
"All right kiddies break it up and hed back to your houses" they both looked over to see the mordified faces of their gryffindor pals Frank and Alice, they must have been making theit rounds. "Oh Ted? oh sorry mate um we're just gonna go yeah" Frank said as he backed away towards the door, he grabbed Alice's hand as he did so, Alice had this 'you have to tell me all about this later' look on her face as she looked at Andromeda as she and Frank left the astromony tower. Once they were gone, Andromeda and Ted burst into laughter of being caught by their friends, who could have taken house points away from them for being out of bed. They then looked at each other smiling, Ted then scrougified them both and looked back at the witch he loved

"maybe we should stop for tonight" he said Andromeda shook her head in agreement

"That was amazing" she basked still in her afterglow, Ted then pulled her into a hug and just held her "Where do we go from here Ted?" she asked

"I don't know, just as long as we're together Dromeda." he said


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A/N
Trust Me- The Fray

Anywhere- Evanescence

I hoped everyone enjoyed this chapter, I'll try to keep the them coming. But everyone should expect a brutal confrontation with Rab soon