Wash Away The Pain

Author's Note: Yes I am back. I have this story all written out but not typed. Honestly I haven't had time to. I just started a new job, I had schoolwork and FFA stuff to do. Seeing as how it’s summer and I no longer have to sleep at night I will try my hardest to get this story typed. I have the first chapter of the sequel written but I can’t put it up till this one is finished. That’s all I have to say this time. Thanks so much for sticking with me.


Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter. That privilege belongs to J.K. Rowling. I only wrote this for fun. No money is being made what so ever.

Chapter 4: A Permanent Reminder.


It was a little after 1 when they finally decided to shower and get ready for the day ahead. Harry had desperately hoped Draco had forgotten but that was like asking a fish to swim out of water. It wasn't going to happen.

They stepped in the shower and turned on the hot water. Harry stepped under the water, closed his eyes and put his head back. Draco looked at his boyfriend and felt a familiar twitch in his groin.

He pulled Harry into a deep kiss. A kiss hotter then the water. Draco raked his nails down Harry's back and was rewarded with a lustful moan.

"God Draco, you're insasable." Harry said when the kiss was broken off.

"So are you."

"Yeah, but it's not as sexy when I'm filled with lust like it is with you."

"Obviously you haven't seen the way your eyes change when you’re horny."

Draco pulled Harry into an ice-melting kiss. Harry's hands roamed Draco's body, going over his ass, fondling his balls. Harry leaned his forehead on Draco's shoulder, and bit his collarbone. Draco inhaled sharply. Harry let go of Draco's flesh leaving a red mark.

"Let's shower, do what we have to do and then we can have sex."

"That's not fair!"

"It wasn't fair this morning when you did it to me." Harry stuck his tongue out at Draco. He went to go catch it but Harry pulled it in his mouth too soon.

"Keep that tongue in your mouth, my mouth or in my ass. Don't stick it where it doesn't belong."

"But it's fun to stick it where it doesn't belong." Harry pouted. Draco pulled him to him and began kissing his bottom lip. He caught the lip in between his teeth and began to suck on it. Harry moaned and moved towards Draco.

"Harry, stick to your word." Harry groaned.

"But Draco,..." He whined.

"No if's, and's or but's, even though yours is rather spectacular." Draco smirked at his lover's pouting face. They finished showering and got dressed in lounging clothes. While Draco was changing Harry pulled out everything they were going to need. Draco looked at the blade he had pulled out and placed on the bed. At the sight of this he started getting nervous. He couldn't believe he asked to do this, but he wasn't going to back out. Slytherians and Malfoys don't back out. Harry looked at him and the worried look on his face.

"Draco." Harry spoke, pulling Draco out of his trance. "We don't have to do this." Harry pulled his boyfriend into a tight embrace.

"I want to. I'm sure."

Harry nodded and pulled Draco to the bed and pulled him on top of him. They started a very heavy make out session. They separated after a few minutes, when the need to breathe became too much. Harry reached for the blade on his nightstand. He put the blade to Draco's beautifully unmarked skin and was ready to make the cut when they heard a tapping at the window.

Harry let a breath he didn't know he had been holding and went to open the window. In flew an owl and perched on Draco's shoulder and held out his leg. Harry went over and took the message off the owl's leg and told it to get some water at Hedwig’s perch.

Harry unrolled the note and saw that it was from Ron.

Harry,
We (Dean, Neville, Seamus and I) aren't coming back tonight. So, you and the ferret can have all the fun you want, with no interruptions. *wink wink nudge nudge* Well, see you tomorrow around dinner.

Ron


As Harry read, he started smiling. An extra day of scroumping was really a piece of heaven for him. Draco looked at him with an awkward glare and Harry handed him the note. As Draco read a smile appeared across his face. As soon as Harry sat on the bed Draco pounced him, and started covering him with kisses. After a while Draco laid on Harry’s chest, and Harry wrapped his arms around Draco and held him close.

“Well, now what since we have an extra day?” asked Draco.

“Stick to the original plan I guess.”

“Well then, I guess you have some ‘splainin to do.” Harry laughed and pulled Draco closer.

:” I guess it all it all started last year after summer started. With Dudley and I back in the same house and no one else to pick on, I was an open target for my overly large cousin. I have been ever since I was little, but as I grew up, so did Dudley. He was able to punch harder and last longer in fights. One night Dudley had caught me going from the bathroom to my room, and he beat the shit outta me. When I was able to get away I ran into my room, and pushed my dresser in front on the door. In the rush to blockade the door my trunk got knocked over.”

“I went over, and started picking up my things, and I noticed my razor had fallen out. I set it on my bed to put away later, and picked up the rest of my things. After I was done I flopped onto my bed, and my razor jabbed me in the arm. It didn’t hurt that bad. So, I picked it up and placed the blade on my arm, and drew the blade across my skin. Suddenly, all the tension I have had in the past couple weeks was gone. Nothing mattered now except the line of blood forming on my arm. The stress was gone as well. For the first time I had something in my life I had control over.”

Draco stared at Harry. He seemed so in love with this bad habit, and he couldn’t help but accept it. Draco moved towards Harry, and laid on top of him, and held him close.

“Why didn’t you tell me you felt this way?”

“I didn’t want to make you worry.” Harry said sheepishly.

“Honey, not a day goes by that I don’t worry about you. You do have a deranged lunatic after you. Worry comes with love. So, if you don’t want me to worry about you then we should end this.” Draco moved to get up, but was unable to move. Harry had an iron grip on him.

“Draco, I never want this to end.”

“Neither do I.” Draco craned his head up and kissed Harry soundly on the lips. When they parted Draco was the first to speak.

“I am ready to do this.” Harry looked into the eyes of the man he loved. “I trust you Harry.” They shared a very deep and passionate kiss.

“I’m ready.” Draco said.

“Ok, but first I think you should see what this could lead to. It’s a hard thing to start but it’s even harder to stop.”

Harry let down the concealing charm to show Draco the scars that had come from this. What Draco saw frightened him yet fascinated him. There were scars all over Harry’s arm. There are words, there are pictures, but most are just lines. The scars went all the way up to Harry’s shoulders. Draco placed a hand on the scars gently, as if he was afraid to hurt his boyfriend.

“They don’t hurt Draco. Besides the ones from last night, they’re all healed.”

Draco’s pressure became normal. He spent a few minutes looking at the scars. One eventually caught his eye.

“’I will love him till the day I die and even longer.’”

“Yeah, that’s actually the second one I did.” Harry blushed. He had forgotten about that one. He did it one day after he had gotten a letter from Draco. He was so happy, and he wanted something sentimental and permanent on his skin about his love for Draco. He wouldn’t do a tattoo because it would have been a little harder to conceal during school. So, he cut the words ‘I will love him till the day I die and even longer,’ into his skin. He was really happy with the results and was highly upset he couldn’t show Draco.

Well, now he could. Now he could show him how much he loved him. To do something so permanent that if they ever fell apart it would still be there, staring him in the face. A reminder of how cocky he was when he was in love.

“Harry, are you ok?” Draco asked.

“Yeah, just thinking.”

“About???”

“About what that would mean if we ever break up.” Harry said.

“We’re not going to be breaking up anytime soon.” Draco responded. He thought for a second. “That one was about me?”

“Of course it was about you, you git. Who else would it be about? Ron?” Draco shut up Harry’s rant by kissing him, and suddenly Harry forgot why he was mad. Draco laid Harry down on the bed so he was on top. He started to move his hands down his lover’s body. After a few minutes Draco broke off the kiss and started sucking on Harry’s neck.

“Let’s finish what we have to, and than we can have sex.” Draco whispered into Harry’s ear. The breath that passed over his ear made Harry shiver.

“How do you know either one of us will want sex after this?” Harry asked, lust apparent in his voice.

“Because we are both nymphos and can’t get enough sex.” Draco said with a smile on his face.

“Good point. Well, if you want to do this you’re gonna have to get off of me.”

Giving Harry’s neck one last suck and bite, Draco got off of him. Harry found the razor and for the second time that night, brought it to Draco’s beautifully unmarked skin.

“Are you sure you’re ready?” Harry asked.

“As ready as I’ll ever be.” Draco responded.

Before he pulled the blade across the skin, Harry pulled Draco into a kiss because he felt tense, and tension made it hurt more. After he felt Draco relax Harry quickly pulled the blade across Draco’s arm. Draco started to scream into Harry’s mouth and than broke off the kiss and fell backwards onto the bed. Harry bent over Draco to make sure he was ok. He started to stroke Draco’s hair. After a few minutes Draco spoke.

“Again.”

“Are you sure?” Harry asked.

“Yes. I want it again.”

Harry placed the blade on his boyfriend’s skin again, and dragged it across. Blood started to flow from both wounds. Draco looked at them, fascinated by the red liquid flowing from them. To stop some of the bleeding Harry brought Draco’s arm to his mouth and began sucking on the cuts. Draco threw his head back and moaned. He never knew something so wrong could feel so good. Draco lifted Harry up with the arm that wasn’t being sucked on, and pulled Harry into a fiery kiss. Ever since Harry started sucking on his arm he had a hard on. Harry felt this, and while he was kissing him, began to stroke his cock.

“Not now Harry, I’m not done with this yet.” Harry whined but complied with Draco’s request.

“Sit.” Draco ordered, and Harry listened. He doesn’t always like it when Draco tells him what to do, but tonight is one of those nights where he doesn’t mind. Draco picked up the blade, and made 3 more cuts on his arm. He crawled on top of Harry, took his shirt off, and began to kiss up Harry’s chest, starting at the waistband of his pants. When he got to his neck he started biting and sucking playfully.

“Do you trust me Harry?” Draco asked.

“Yes.”

“Then, will you let me mark you?”

“Yes.” Draco smiled at this.

“First, I need to think of design. Although, I already know where I am putting it,” Draco ran a hand along Harry’s hip. ”Right there. Wait, I know what I’ll do. Just lay back and try not to twitch.” When Draco was cutting into his skin it felt different than when he did it to himself. When Draco did it, it was almost sexual. Harry laid still and waited for his boyfriend to finish. After a few minutes Draco lays down the blade, and tells Harry he is finished. When he looks, Harry is speechless. Draco had drawn a combination of their zodiac symbols.

“Now, when ever someone sees that they will know you are mine.”

“Draco, it’s wonderful. Let me put the same thing on you.” Draco nodded his head and they switched places. Harry didn’t take nearly as long as Draco to put the symbol on his lover’s hip. Harry conjured up some towels to clean up the blood. Draco pulled him to him, and kissed him deeply.

“Let’s go take a shower.” Harry suggested.

“Yes, let’s.”

They get into the shower and clean up. After the shower they went and laid in bed, Draco laying on top of Harry, and Harry’s arms wrapped around him. After a few minutes of quite, Draco bit Harry’s nipple.

“What the hell was that for?”

“Cause I want sex.”

“You could have just said that.”

“No I could of. That would have been too easy.”

“And you don’t do easy, I get it.” Draco sat on top of Harry, and was straddling him.

“I’m going to make you feel as good as you made me feel tonight when you marked me as yours.” Draco bent down, and started to bite at Harry’s neck. He was in for a long, hard night.

A/N: There you have it, chapter 4 all nice and typed for your reading pleasure. Please don’t mind any mistakes. I hope you enjoy and I will have chapter 5 up as soon as I can. Also, the more reviews I get the more inclined I am to update. Get those reviews coming and I will have another chapter out soon.