A Thought Repeating Itself

AN: This is the last chapter so enjoy. I hope you'll review. I think I know what you are going to say. ;)

Lyrics - A Little Pain by Olivia (Nana - Ending #1)

I've been thinking about you little less this week. It might be because you have been in the hospital wing for a few days. I know the reason alright. I was the one who put you there after all. I didn't mean to be so rough but I couldn't help it as my anger got the better of me. The fact that we were playing Quidditch certainly didn't improve my mood a bit. I just had to shove you off your broom.

Satisfied with what I did to you I've been able to go on. I've actually been even thinking about dating someone else but there is no one who has met my requirements yet. I'm starting to believe that there will not ever be such a person. You damaged me for good Golden Boy.

Open your eyes,

I'm here waiting for you

There is a future different from now

I'm here waiting for you

And I continue screaming

I'm walking down a path that ends at the lake. The sun is shining brightly and the trees cast irregular shadows around me. The green grass looks inviting and I would like to just lie down and enjoy the slight breeze against my face. Soon I will be leaving this place for good. No more school, no more seeing you everyday.

But of course luck would not be on my side today. I can see that you have been released from the hospital wing already. A frown settles upon my face as I see that you are not alone. That Weasel bitch is with you and you seem quite smitten with her. I clench my fists and think what would be the best course of action.

God I hate her! I hope she would fucking die! I have to get rid of her and soon. I walk to the side of the path I was taking and hide behind the trees. I walked swiftly but quietly nearing them without them noticing. I stop as the bitch glances at her watch. She says to you, "Oh, I have to get the next class. I'll see you later." She kisses you on the lips and hurries away.

You still lay on the ground as I walk into your view. You turn and see me causing you to stand up frm the ground.

"So how are you doing? Fucked that little Weasel whore yet?" I almost spatted the foul words.

"That has nothing to do with you and don't call her that!" You glared at me shouting.

I sneer. "Of course, Golden Boy, I'm so sorry for being rude. I didn't know that bitch was so important to you. Have you been telling her all the lies you told me? How you will always love her and protect her from all the evil out there!" I take an aggressive step towards you.

"Fuck you! You don't know a shit, Malfoy, so shut you mouth before I'm forced to do it for you." You don't back out, you also take a step forward.

We are standing face to face glaring into each other's eyes.

"Oh, are you threatening me? Then, tell me what I don't know or understand! I've been no better than a crap on the bottom of your shoe for months you bastard and now you have the nerve to say I don't understand anything. That might be because you never told me anything that might actually be the truth!" I poke an accusing finger against your chest. I take a step back as I suddenly see your eyes fog with tears.

"I try to be strong. I honestly try but I don't know if I can be," you clutch my shirt burying your face in my chest. "All I love die because of me and I don't want that to happen to you," you say in muffled voice. "That's why I tried to push you away. I wanted you to hate me. I wanted to hate you so that I would be able to go on and you would stay alive."

The thread that binds our hearts together is pulling

To bring you by my side as before

I hug you tightly against my body as those words left your mouth. I can't believe what I am hearing but I know it has to be true. You had swore to protect me and that was what you had been doing. I can see it clearly now. I release a shuddering sigh.

"Harry, thank you," I whisper into my lover's ear. "I understand now but that doesn't mean that I don't want you back."

You raise your head to look me in the eye. "But we can't--"

"Oh, shut up." I silence you with a kiss.

No need to cry

And then I finally have you. After all these weeks of suffering I finally have you in my arms. Sex has never tasted so good as it did now with you. I don't know about tomorrow or any other day for that matter but what really matters is that you are with me now. We are one for one passing moment in eternity.

The war might start tomorrow and we might be separated, but I don't want to think about it right now since I know, when that happens I will loose you for good. You will not be the same even if you came back to me and that is something I will not be able to live with.

FIN

Original lyrics:

Kizuite

I'm here waiting for you

Ima to wa chigau mirai ga atte mo

I'm here waiting for you

Sakebi tsuzukete

Kitto kokoro wa tsunagu ito wo tagutteru

Ano koro no watashi me wo samasu you ni

No need to cry