Forbidden Feelings

Disclaimer: Remus, Hermione, and Lucius are not my characters and I am not making any money off of this. I do admit that I am having a lot of fun, though. Can you be sued for that?

Forbidden Feelings

Chapter 4

Remus Lupin silently watched the couple in front of him. Hermione’s strong scent had drawn him into this seemingly deserted room, only to find the two of them together.

The smell of her arousal mingled with the sight of her took him back to that night in the Shrieking Shack. He had lost control then. As he felt the now familiar desire course through his body, he was tempted to let his baser instincts take over. However, the full moon was now past and he was once again in control. He would not - could not - take advantage of Hermione a second time.

He was furious to see them together and it took considerable effort for him not to tear Malfoy’s heart out of his body.

Lupin had only been there for a moment when he spoke.
“What is going on here?” he asked in a dangerously low voice.

The couple broke apart in surprise and Hermione quickly moved away from Lucius. Lupin glared at the older wizard. He had seen where Malfoy’s hands had been but he tried not to dwell on it, as that was treacherous territory indeed.

“Professor Lupin,” Hermione whispered in a shaky voice. She sounded as if she were about to cry.

Remus continued to look fiercely at the other wizard. It was safer than looking at the distraught young woman.

“Professor Lupin,” Lucius smirked. “So good of you to join us.”

Ignoring this remark, Remus’ eyes bored into the other wizard as he instead addressed his student.

“Leave now, Miss Granger,” he whispered hoarsely.

“Please Professor, I…” she began in a pleading voice.

He then looked directly at her, his eyes wild.

“Now!” he bellowed. His face reflected the tortured rage he felt.

A sob escaped her as she fled from the room.

Damn. She had no idea about what was going on. He found he was holding a tight rein on his emotions and he wasn’t sure how long it would last. She was just so beautiful…

Her hair was slightly messed, and her lips swollen from the other man’s kisses. He just didn’t trust himself around her. He was torn between anger and desire.

Once she left the room though, he was able to channel all that frustration to where it rightfully belonged.

Lucius Malfoy.

“Tsk, tsk. Poor girl,” the blonde wizard murmured with more amusement than sympathy in his voice.

“I should have known better than to trust you…” Lupin spat. “You are incapable of keeping your word.”

“Whether I’m able to keep my promises or not is irrelevant,” Malfoy stated calmly. “However, on this occasion my dear professor, I did in fact keep my word.”

Lupin glowered at him, astounded at the other man\'s words.

“Right, Malfoy,” he accused, his face livid. “You swore never to touch her and yet your hands just happened to be under her skirt…your fingers inside her panties.”

“I swear it was not my fault,” Lucius stated innocently. “She put them there.”

Remus was torn between his rage and the image that Malfoy’s words produced. He could visualize the innocent Gryffindor placing Lucius’ hand inside her knickers, urging him to touch her as she moaned out his name.

Remus’ name.

Control. He had to get control. He needed to focus on his anger toward the other man.

“Of course, Lupin,” Malfoy continued. “You must realize that this is all your fault.”

“My fault! I fail to see how this is my fault!” he yelled. “You were the one making love to her. I had nothing to do with that.”

“Think about it, my dear professor,” Lucius explained patiently. “If Miss Granger was able to remember what happened the other night…” he paused watching the younger man uncertainly run his fingers through his already tousled hair.

“And I suspect you had something to do with that memory loss,” he continued with a smirk. “As I was saying if her memory about the other night was still intact then she wouldn’t have come near me…let alone assail me as she did.”

He smiled smugly at Lupin as the truth of his words stuck home.

Hermione would never have let Lucius get even close to her if she had remembered…Oh God! It was his fault.

Suddenly it was just too much for him. He was full of so many emotions: guilt, anger, remorse, and lust.

Definitely lust.

He was tired of the internal battle he seemed to be continually fighting. He wanted to put an end to it.

Most of all he wanted Hermione to be safe.

From Lucius.

And from himself.

The only way to protect her from his own feelings was to remove Lucius from her life. Then he could go back to treating her just as a student. As it should be.

Remus unexpectedly dropped to his knees in front of Malfoy.

“I am tired of fighting, Lucius.” Malfoy was obviously caught be surprise as he looked at the other wizard.

This was an interesting development.

Remus raised his hands up.

“What do you want from me?” he asked pleadingly. “I’ll do whatever it takes to remove you from Miss Granger’s life. Just tell me what you want.”

His clear blue eyes stared up at the older wizard.

“So noble, Lupin really,” Malfoy stated dryly. “Giving yourself to spare the innocent Miss Granger. And also very foolish.”

Lucius tried to disguise the desire that washed over him at the sight of the man on his knees before him. He also felt anger although he wasn’t entirely sure why.

“What if I asked you to betray the Order? Or kill Potter? Or even to kill yourself?” he asked angrily.

Lupin did not speak. He watched the rage that suddenly consumed the other man.

“You think you know what I want! You think you know me?” he sneered as he moved even closer. “You have no idea!”

Suddenly his right hand reached out and grasped Lupin by the throat.

“I could kill you so easily,” he continued as he tightened his hold. Lupin stared ahead willing himself to remain calm.

Malfoy then moved his hand from Lupin’s throat to grasp his jaw, forcing him to look at him.

“Do you have any idea what I have gone through over the years?” he hissed.

“If you wanted me dead, I would be dead already,” Lupin stated calmly, although his heart was beating wildly. “You know I will not betray the Order or kill anyone for you. I know what you want, Lucius. Now you can have it.”

“You have no idea…”

“On the contrary, Lucius,” he continued softly. “I have a good idea of what you want and I am the only one who can give it to you.”

Lupin reached up and gently grabbed the hand the still held him. Malfoy was breathing heavily as he stared at the man he had obsessed over for the last twenty years.

Lucius Malfoy was suddenly unsure of what to do. Voldemort would undoubtedly kill him if he found Lucius did not use this to the Dark Lord’s advantage. And yet he had waited so long…had never thought he would actually have this chance.

“Well, Malfoy?” Blue eyes were locked into gray ones and neither man could look away.

“Stay far away from Miss Granger, for good this time, and I will give you what you want. What you’ve wanted for so many years.”

“Tell me then…what is it that I want?” Malfoy asked, his voice raw with emotion.

“You want me…the part of me that cannot be tamed.”

A/N: I know there wasn’t much of Hermione in this chapter but I promise she will be back in the next. I did promise more of Hermione and Lupin. Just be patient. Next chapter is already done and it will be posted on the weekend.