Tonight I Wanna Cry

A/N: Usual disclaimer. I own the plot and OC\'s only.

Thanks for the reviews I really enjoy reading them. I am surprised that nobody has caught on to the theme of the names of the titles. HEHE.

Co-written by Mandy (Sammo_00) please check her story titled Differences.
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Chapter 4: Making Memories of Us

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As curfew approached, Bridget and Severus started to make their way back to Hogwarts as unnoticeable as possible. Severus led Bridget down towards his office so that they can finish their previous conversation in private. Severus had been meaning to tell her all of this in a letter one day, but never sent it. It just stayed warded in one of his desk drawers.

Severus opened his office and let her go in before him, \"You can have a seat on the couch there. Would you like anything to drink?\" Severus tried to make her as comfortable as possible before telling her everything.

Bridget sat on the couch and leaned back into it with her knees tucked underneath her. \"Sure, Boone\'s Farm if you have it.\" Bridget smiled hopefully at him. Severus shook his head hopelessly and started to look through his private liquor stores. He pulled out a dusty bottle with the plastic cork still in it. Severus pried the cork off and poured her a glass. He fixed himself a glass of brandy and sat down next to her. \"Thanks, as you can see, my taste for the cheap stuff hasn\'t changed.\"

Severus nodded and suppressed a slight smile. \"You are welcome. There have been some things that I have been meaning to tell you ever since you left. It is about my mark and other things.\"

\"Severus must we discuss these things now?\"

\"Yes, we have to. What did you think when you first saw this?\" Severus rolled up his shirt sleeve to expose the blazing dark mark.

\"That you are a Death Eater. I may not be from England but I sure as Hell know what that means.\" Bridget glared at him and took a large sip of her cheap wine.

\"I was and in some respects, still am a Death Eater. It was a choice I made when I was just out of Hogwarts. Before I could do any harm to others, I went to Dumbledore and begged for help and forgiveness. He gave me an option, which I gratefully accepted. I have been spying ever since, that was two years before the attack on the Potters. I cannot deny that since that time I have done harm to others, in order to save my own life. I was sworn to secrecy and could not tell a soul, unless there was an absolute need to know. Now, since the Dark Lord\'s return to power, I had to become active on both fronts, with the Death Eaters and with Dumbledore. I am an active Death Eater, in the fact that I attend summons from the Dark Lord and constantly prove my loyalty. I am active with Dumbledore in that I provide him with information that would be helpful to capture the Dark Lord or thwart the Dark Lord\'s plans for an attack. This cannot be told to anyone, it could risk everything that we have worked so hard for. So do you understand now why I had to tell you?\"

\"Yes, I do. I won\'t tell anybody. It just is a lot to take in all at once. So you are a spy, risking your life for Dumbledore?\" Bridget moved closer to Severus and settled right up against his chest.

Severus wrapped an arm around her. \"Yes, I know it is a lot. Yes, hard to believe, I am sure.\" It felt like neither of them had ever left each other and that those seven years were long gone and forgotten.

Bridget looked up at Severus, \"I notice that you still drink that expensive stuff.\"

\"Yes, I have never been desperate to try the stuff you are drinking. I am sure that it will leave me with a right hangover the next day.\"

\"Possibly, but that is if you drink it like brandy. You have seen me drink Boone\'s Farm before.\"

\"Yes, huddled around your cousin\'s shed passing the bottle around and completely intoxicated.\" Bridget giggled against his chest and sighed.

Severus could feel his mind starting to wander to the body parts that lay so deliciously close at hand. He wanted so badly to raise his hand to touch her chest, but just couldn\'t bring himself to do it. He felt like a young wizard in his teenage years all over again. However, Bridget made up his mind for him. She stood up slowly and stretched like a cat, revealing all her luscious curves under her forest green robe, then turned to Severus. His breath caught in his throat as he saw the look of pure lust in her eyes. He knew instantly that tonight would be a night for the books.

He stood up and in one swift motion, bent Bridget over, his lips pressing hungrily against hers, his tongue seeking entrance to her mouth. She eagerly complied, her soft lips giving way under the pressure of Severus\' unyielding tongue. Bridget mewled in the back of her throat, her hands entwining themselves in Severus\' soft hair, her body trembling like a leaf blowing in the wind. Severus moaned, his body not able to get enough of this long lusted after treasure in the current position. He bent forward, momentarily unlatching his mouth from Bridget\'s and with a quick movement, tossed her over his shoulder, taking pleasure in the squeal that he heard.

\"Severus,\" she shrieked. \"What do you think you are doing?\" She kicked her legs wildly until he put his arm across her calves, holding her legs tight against his body. An electric jolt passed through him at the sudden melding of her body against his. \"Put me down this instant,\" Bridget squealed. Severus chuckled deep in his throat and walked purposefully across the room, his black robes billowing out behind him as expected. He pushed his way through a door set next to the fireplace and unceremoniously dumped Bridget on a large four poster bed, with a luxuriously soft feather bed, draped in folds of silver and green velvet with silk sheets in identical colors. Bridget gasped when her body sunk almost four inches in the mattress. She glared at Severus from her reclined position but before she could say anything, Severus climbed on top of her, pushing her further into the mattress.

\"I\'m incredibly sorry my dear. I do hope that I haven\'t harmed you in any way.\" To most people who knew him as Snape, that would have come off as rude and sarcastic, but Bridget knew better. She shook her head meekly and Severus, looking into her rich blue eyes, saw the love and desire, sparked with a hint of lust. In that second, he knew he had to tell her just how much he loved her, missed her, needed her, WANTED her. His mouth opened but before he could say anything, her hand floated up and drifted across his mouth, soft as smoke.

\"You always have to say something at the wrong time, Spookie-\" Severus smiled slightly as he heard her nickname for him \"-but right now, I just want you to make love to me. That\'s it, we can talk later.\" Severus nodded and gently kissed her hand. He pulled away and bent over her, slowly unbuttoning her robe and pushing it back to reveal her bra and panties. Severus inwardly laughed. Bridget never wore anything under her robe if she could help it, but every few people knew that. He pulled her robe off, raising her hips with one hand to get it entirely off. He noticed the goosebumps that rose instantly on her skin and his brow furrowed. He looked around for his wand and saw it lying on the nightstand. He grabbed it, muttered something, and a large fire burst to life in the fireplace, instantly warming up the room. Bridget sighed and opened her eyes slowly, looking at Severus.

\"That feels good, you always were so thoughtful,\" she murmured, sitting up slowly. She smiled slyly, a cat\'s grin, reached behind her and unclasped her bra. She pushed the straps down her arms, revealing her average sized breasts with the erect nipples surrounded by light tan areolas that contrasted with her almost white skin. Severus inhaled sharply and almost ripped his robe off. He sat down next to her and her fingers made quick work of the buttons on his shirt, then slowly pushed it off, her fingertips lightly grazing his skin. He shivered slightly, then leaned forward and ran one of his thumbs lightly over her nipple. She gasped and pushed her chest into his hand. He roughly pinched her nipple, rolling it back and forth between his thumb and forefinger, feeling himself harden at the sounds she was making. Bridget reached down unbuckled his belt, then his pants. She stood up, then pulled him up as well. She pushed his pants down, revealing his black silk boxers, straining at the crotch. She laughed quietly and lightly scratched her nails over the bulge and heard Severus\' sharp intake of breath. She pulled his boxers down, revealing his sizeable cock, standing at stiff attention against his flat stomach. The pulsing between her legs intensified and Bridget involuntarily let out a quiet moan. Severus took that as encouragement and ran his hands down her soft skin, slowly pulling her panties down so she could step out of them. He paused, holding her at arms length while his eyes traveled the length of her.

Her round face was framed by short wisps of blonde hair and her perfectly shaped light brown brows arched over her clear blue eyes. Her high cheekbones were covered by fair, smooth skin and her small pert nose led right down to her heart shaped, lusciously pink lips. Her neck was long and graceful and led to her well-rounded body. Her breasts were not that impressive, but they were high and perky and the curve of her hips led right to the light smattering of blonde curls between her legs. Her legs were not long and graceful but they were white, smooth and well-shaped. As Severus examined Bridget, she took a moment to take him in.

He hadn\'t changed much in the past seven years, she noted. His skin was still white, that was only because she knew how easily he burned, so he avoided the sun at all costs. His six pack was beginning to dissolve into flat skin, the result of too many bottles of alcohol consumed on lonely nights. And then of course, there was his erection surrounded by a nest of black curls.

Bridget looked up at Severus and suddenly pressed her body against his, feeling his hot erection push against her tummy. She slid her hand down his smooth hairless chest and grabbed his erection softly, gently squeezing around the base. He moaned, pulled her hand away and planted a kiss on her forehead.

\"Tonight, my dear, it is all about you.\" He pushed her back until her legs hit the bed and she fell, plumping up the mattress around her body. Her head fell back, exposing the tender flesh to Severus\' nipping lips and flicking tongue. While he showered attention on her neck, his hand slipped down her stomach and he rubbed one finger against the tip of her slit and she obediently opened her legs to allow him easier access. He slipped one finger in and found it almost immediately coated in her juices. Playing his finger around, he \'accidentally\' brushed her already erect and throbbing clit, taking immense pleasure in her moan and sudden arching of her back.

\"Touch me, Severus, right there,\" Bridget moaned, her thoughts almost completely incoherent. All of her being was focused on the intense pressure between her legs that was sweeping her into a black void. Severus abruptly pushed her clit down at the same moment that he inserted two fingers in her and she came, muscles clenching around his fingers as she cried out climax. Before it was even over, Severus was guiding his hard cock into her willing body and she was experiencing it all over again. Bridget couldn\'t think but for one thing: oh how much she had missed this feeling of caring and tenderness that Severus always had for her, no matter what. She wrapped her legs around his midsection and he exhaled slowly as he slowly pushed his entire length into her. She gasped at the feeling of being totally filled, and Severus began pumping her, long slow thrusts that brought her right to the edge. Soon, she was twisting up to speed things up, and Severus gradually increased the pace until all that was heard was the slapping of skin on skin and the rhythmic grunts coming from the two lovers.

It was over all too soon. Severus felt that familiar tightening in his balls but held off until Bridget had reached her peak, and then released his cum deep in her body, feeling it spill out onto the bedsheets.

I\'ll have to clean them, he thought, just before the two of them drifted off to sleep.

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A/N: Please read and review. Thanks again to Mandy for helping me out with this chapter. Please read her story Differences (pen name sammo_00)