A Night Out With Snape

As soon as he slammed the door shut behind Potter, Snape immediately went to his quarters and poured himself as much brandy as he could handle. It really took all of his will power to make the boy go away while he wanted nothing else than to press him to the wall and fuck him senseless. Now he was thinking why exactly he refused when the boy was just begging to be taken. Wouldn\'t it be great to be Potter\'s first and then to rub it in Black\'s face that he deflowered his precious godson. Wouldn\'t it be great to take the boy\'s virginity and then tell him to get out before he would barely have time to get dressed. Snape gulped his drink and rolled his head back closing his eyes with his hand. It would be great if it was what he would do. But he knew only too well that he would never tell the boy to leave once the boy would give him all of himself. Since the first time Harry\'s lips touched his skin it became sort of addiction just as much as he became for Harry and he wanted the boy by his side for quite a long period of time. But he turned Harry down and the boy would probably never ever come back. Snape started picturing someone whom Potter would find for him to be everything he refused to be maybe he would even be able to make Lupin agree. Of course he would. Snape poured some more drink down his throat. His head started pounding but he kept on drinking trying to get the images of Potter naked lying under him begging to be taken out of his mind. Little did he know that Harry had no intentions of giving up.

When Harry came back to his dorm an idea struck him. He knew for sure that Snape wouldn\'t get away from him now that he almost had him in his clutches. No sir. He would have Snape and sooner than his professor might think.

The next few days passed in relative calmness with no out of ordinary events. Of course if you don\'t consider the fact that Harry walked through the castle with a sickeningly blissful expression on his face and made no move towards Snape whatsoever. It was as if Harry completely forgot about Snape existing in the same universe with him and when he was passing him in the corridors he didn\'t even deign to look his way. It was only when Snape himself stopped him in the corridor that Harry looked up and met the man\'s eyes. He wore quite a surprised expression and then smiling sweetly said:

\"I am so sorry sir I didn\'t notice you standing here.\" and marched off followed by gaping Ron and Hermione. That\'s why Snape decided to take his revenge on Harry the only way he could now and mercilessly bullied him all through the Double Potions he had with the Slytherins. But whatever he said had no effect no Harry at all and instead of his usual scowls and dark looks he gave his professor brilliant smiles always saying:

\"Yes professor. You are absolutely right professor. Forgive me my Gryffindor stupidity professor. I would have promised you that it would never happen again but you know only too well that it is quite pointless what with my absolute lack of any predisposition in the art of potion making, professor. Detention, sir?\"

But Snape didn\'t give Harry detention knowing that he wouldn\'t be able to control his urges one on one with the boy and he didn\'t take any points from Gryffindor and after a while left Harry alone vainly trying to understand what was going on with the boy. Neither Gryffindors nor Slytherins could understand that too and the two Houses were watching Harry with mild alarm thinking that he cracked at last.

Snape sat down behind his desk remembering what exactly happened there a few days ago and felt that he was getting hard just by thinking about it. That\'s why he tried to forget about it ever taking place and looked around the classroom at the unfortunate moment when Harry was licking his lips in a contemplative way measuring some ingredients. That image didn\'t help much but only brought back the memories of what this lips and tongue could do. But Snape just couldn\'t keep his eyes away from the boy cursing himself for not following with Potter\'s wishes and knowing that if he won\'t do something soon there might be problems.

Harry for his part was aware of Snape\'s looks and his stunned expression when Harry totally agreed with him on every point. He just tried to keep his professor in a good mood making him believe that Harry forgot altogether about the few encounters they had along with his begging and Snape\'s refusal knowing that soon professor would be his.

When the night settled over the castle and everyone went to bed Harry sat in his bed and scribbled a note. Hedwig was waiting patiently by his side.

Professor,
I am writing to inform you that I was seized by a sudden urge to leave the castle. See I\'ve changed, I actually let you know about my plans for tonight. There is really no need to worry you know where to find me.
Sincerely,
Harry Potter.

\"Now, Hedwig, you know what you have to do. Wait till clock strikes one o\'clock and bring the note right to professor Snape. There are no windows in the dungeons so you\'ll just have to travel by castle. Be a good girl.\"

Hedwig looked at him reproachfully but nodded and let Harry tie the note to her foot. Harry stroked Hedwig\'s beak put on Invisibility Cloak and left for the night.


***

\"Damn the boy!\" was all Snape managed to say when he got the note before rushing out of the castle with a resolution of finding the damn Potter brat and murdering him.

But when he was about to enter the club his plans changed abruptly and this pattern of said action was lost forever when he heard a too familiar voice hissing:

\"Here, professor!\"

Snape turned in the direction of the voice and against his better judgements and all precautions stepped blindly into a circle of trees where he felt two arms closing around him from behind and a soft breathless voice saying:

\"I knew you would come.\"

That\'s where all his wits and thoughts and plans left him and he let Harry take him by the hand and drag him away.

\"Harry just where exactly are we going?\" genuinely wondered Snape after awhile of movin ton total darkness through a thick set of trees. But before he could get his answer he had to endure a bouncing up and down Harry Potter beside him.

\"Harry if I didn\'t know better I\'d say that someone hexed you with Tarantallegra but as this is hardly a possibility here would you mind explaining your exuberant behavior?\" inquired Snape strictly though without any nastiness but more with amusement crossing his arms on his chest.

\"You called me Harry, professor.\" Said obviously overexcited Harry with a bright smile though Snape could hardly see it in the pitch darkness that surrounded them.

And before Snape could say something back Harry jumped once more before hugging his professor. He squeezed Snape so tightly that he could barely breathe.

\"And as to your question I just happen to know a place where no one will ever find us.\" Answered Harry grabbing his professor by the hand and dragging him further in to the dark.

Snape shook his head but for the life of him couldn\'t master enough anger or malice to spill on the boy now. It was remarkable and to realize that he could make Harry feel that way and by no means he wanted to lose it because it sent absolutely wonderful sensations all over his body. That\'s why he obliged the boy knowing that when time comes they would do everything according to his terms and that Harry would have no objections.

Soon they were in the house Harry mentioned. There were three storeys and it was indeed abandoned. Snape looked around and found that the house was an excellent choice for a secret tryst. It was isolated from other houses by trees and he presumed that no one ever came by. He considered the house for awhile and decided that with a bit of magic it would also become a perfect place for a midnight tryst.

Harry was standing by the window breathing in fresh air telling Snape how he liked the house and its surroundings. He said that he found this house during his summer holidays and often spent days and even nights in its shadows. He confirmed Snape\'s presumptions about not many people wondering by. Snape was looking at Harry as the boy sat on the windowsill and turned to look at his professor. Snape could feel that Harry wanted to say something and that he needed time to formulate his thoughts abo abolish fears and uncertainties that he might have. That\'s why he leaned back supported by the opposite wall and watched Harry closely thinking that he would charm the room suitably as soon as Harry would make up his mind as to whether he really wanted what he\'d been asking for the other day. He heard Harry sigh heavily before Harry slid down the windowsill kneeled down and crawled towards Snape on all fours. When he was at Snape\'s side on his knees he looked up took his professor\'s hands in his own and pressed them against his cheeks.

\"I don\'t want you to be angry or mad at me professor.\" He started.

\"Severus.\"

\"What?\"

\"Call me Severus, Harry. It\'s really getting annoying being called professor all the time and taking in the situation we are in and the consequences it might have I would appreciate it if you used my given name. It would make things much more easier and comfortable.\"

He could feel Harry smile against his palms that were being caressed by Harry\'s soft breathing.

\"If you are sure Severus.\" Said Harry shyly trying out his professor\'s name and wondering if Snape, no Severus, would let him call him Sev any time soon. Because even Severus sounded somehow too formal and scary for Harry\'s ear and he tried to say the name with reverence this name deserved. He briefly wondered if Snape was of aristocratic heritage though judging by his features and name he must have been.

\"I\'m quite sure Harry. After all I am calling you by your given name so I suppose things should be fair and equal between the two of us.\"

Harry\'s eyebrows flew up.

\"You are going to let me be equal with you?\" asked Harry not hiding his surprise who would have thought the time would come when Snape would decided to be fair with Harry. But then again who would have thought that the time would come when Harry would be pleading with Snape on his knees to be allowed into the man\'s bed and life.

\"Yes, Harry, I am.\" Said Snape with a small though quite unnatural smile of his own caressing Harry\'s cheek, \" Now go on with your speech. I believe you had something to say.\"

\"Yes, Severus. Like I said I don\'t want to anger you and I don\'t want you to hate me for making you follow me. I don\'t want to force you and I don\'t think I could. I just want you to understand me and to understand that in these few days my world turned upside down and I started feeling things I\'ve never felt before. I don\'t ask you to feel the same I just ask you not to hate me. I just ask you to accept me as me and not in connection with either my father or godfather. I\'m not asking you to change your attitude to me in class or in school but I ask you to give me a chance and to prove to you that I am worth your attention and your good attitude. I just want you to get to know me better and to see that I am not a spoilt brat you think I am. I want to offer you peace and understanding and I want to offer you myself. Don\'t try to dissuade me I already made up my mind. So now you can either take me or turn me down once again. If you turn me down this time as well I promise I won\'t make any more moves towards you and I swear I won\'t ever lure you out of the castle to find me. Everything will be back to normal except for thct tct that I won\'t be able to hate you anymore. But you…but you…\" here Harry\'s breath hitched and a tear slid down his cheek falling onto Snape\'s palm burning it with agony that Harry felt at the moment, \"you may come back to hating, humiliating and hurting me again.\" he finished in a whisper.

Harry lowered his head to hide his tears that started falling down as he mentioned Snape hating him again. The next moment however Harry felt Snape sliding down the wall and wrapping his hands tightly and securely around Harry\'s trembling form. Harry buried his face in the man\'s chest and kept on whipping slightly. It was incredibly good to be held like that in these strong arms of a grown-up experienced wizard who could give Harry so much more than just a spot in his bed. Harry was sure that Severus would make his life so much better and richer and maybe even easier if he would choose to help Harry with the burden of the world he carried on his shoulders. Severus would understand. Severus felt the same.

\"Shh, Harry, I wouldn\'t be able to come back to hating you after what you just told me. So you\'d better stop crying right now and listen to me very attentively. Even if you don\'t do it in my class I\'m sure you can do it in general.\" Said Snape softly soothing Harry with light circular touches all over his back.

It made Harry smile and he shook his head.

\"That\'s not true professor I am attentive in your class especially now when my eyes are glued to your every move not to mention your voice. It\'s just that this combination tends to make me distracted.\" He said with a sheepish smile.

\"Indeed. And what pray tell me was distracting you all previous years?\" asked Snape raising an eyebrow.

\"Oh but professor even if I listened and did everything right you would never accept my excellent work. I\'m sure you would only ridicule me still more in front of your Slytherins. So what was the point?\"


Snape thought about it for a while.

\"Well yes you are quite right, Harry, I would never give you a chance at least not in class with my Slytherins.\"

\"See professor.\" Said Harry smirking.

\"Stop calling me professor and stop smirking at me.\" said Snape in a commanding tone that made Harry obey immediately wondering how on earth he never liked to be ordered by Snape before but how he actually liked being ordered now by Severus.

\"Sorry but you started talking about classes and this reflex of calling you professor just kicked in. Anyway I shouldn\'t forget calling you \"professor\" we still are a student and a professor for the rest of the damn world. So you were saying something about not hating me…\" trailed off Harry looking up innocently at Snape. Now that their eyes get used to the darkness they could actually see each other\'s expression.

\"Yes indeed. I see you\'re catching up.\" Said Snape with a smirk and Harry pouted which made Snape laugh out loud but the next instant he sobered himself and continued, \"Harry, these several days turned my world upside down as much as yours. And now I can\'t help but having other feelings for you, feelings that contain neither hate nor anger nor contempt. I genuinely like you and I am ready to find out more about you. And though in public our relationships will stay the same I can assure you that in private it will be quite opposite.\"

\"Does this mean that you are accepting my peace offering, Severus?\" asked Harry timidly relishing the feeling of his professor and soon-to-be lover\'s name flying from his lips..

\"Only if you\'re sure that it is really what yout. Bt. Because I\'m afraid that once we are going to start there will be no turning back Harry.\" Said Snape in a dead serious voice.

\"It is really what I want. It is really you who I want.\" Said Harry determined.

\"All right then. Now stand up, the floor is rather cold.\" Commanded Snape standing up first and lifting Harry by the hand. Snape surveyed the room.

\"This place needs a bit of redecoration.\" He said and with that he drew his wand and produced a few spells. The next moment the room lit up with lots of tiny floating candles, a fireplace appeared of nowhere with warm fire roaring in it. The room instantly became warmer and lighter. A few more swishes of Snape\'s wand and a nice comfortably looking sofa appeared in the room and several warm looking woolen carpets appeared on all sides of the fireplace.

Harry was looking around with his mouth hanging open taking in the transformation of the room. His breath caught in his throat as he felt Snape\'s arms closing around his waist from behind. He leaned in the touch and sighed contentedly shivering as Severus kissed a sensitive spot on his neck.

\"That\'s perfect, Severus.\" He murmured.

\"I\'m glad you like it.\" said Snape smugly.

\"Kidding? I\'ve never seen anything more beautiful before. And the fact that it is only for the two of us…\"

Harry turned around and looked coyly at Snape.

\"Can I kiss you?\"

Snape smiled getting more and more used to the fact that Harry was producing that sort of reaction feeling that the muscles he used for smiling became more and more relaxed and nodded.

\"You definitely can.\"

Harry leaned in standing on his tiptoes and softly closed his lips with the older man\'s. The kiss was slow and lingering. Harry didn\'t rush but was getting used to feeling Snape\'s texture on his lips. Slowly and tenderly the tip of Harry\'s tongue asked permission for entering. Snape opened his mouth and let Harry working all over his mouth with his young probing tongue guiding Harry in the direction he wanted the kiss to proceed. It made him smile that only a few days ago this very tongue that was now so uncertain and shy worked so brazenly and expertly around his cock and neck. The kiss slowly progressed from a tender one to a more possessive until it eventually turned into a battle of two tongues and two strong wills. The battle lasted for quite sometime until Harry couldn\'t find any more air in his lungs and admitted a sweet defeat surrendering to Snape and not regretting it one minute.

Harry\'s head rested on the older wizard\'s shoulder when he heard soft sounds of music playing in the room. He looked up at Snape.

\"Shall we?\" asked Snape.

Harry nodded and put his hands around Snape\'s neck while Snape\'s hands that were still on Harry\'s waist started maneuvering Harry in different directions sliding up and down Harry\'s hips. For a long time Harry was lost in a wonderful sensation of being held in Severus\' skillful arms moving pliantly and smoothly to a soft slow music. Snape was relishing in the feel of Harry in his arms so free and so easy to guide giving up control closing his eyes and trusting him completely. It was perfect and he leaned down to capture the raven-haired wizard\'s lips once again. Once again a slow dizziness penetrated Harry\'s body and he felt as if flying feeling light and transparent as if he was dissolving from the touch of this lips. \"What are your kisses made of?\" thought Harry but when he heard a chuckle he understood that he actually asked the question right into Severus\' mouth.

\"What my kisses are made of?\" repeated the question Snape.

Harry blushed and buried his burning face in Snape\'s neck murmuring something incoherent.

\"What was that, Harry? I didn\'t quite catch it.\" said his professor smirking smugly.

Harry narrowed his eyes and said puffing out air of put up rage holding onto Snape\'s hands for support.

\"Don\'t mock me. I don\'t know why your kisses bewitch me like that. Maybe you\'re drinking a sweet poison potion or something of the kind? Because it makes me feel so dizzy and overwhelmed and light and free and flying altogether and it is too much for my little heart to bear.\" Said Harry daring Snape to laugh at him.

\"Your heart is not that little Harry so don\'t worry. Better come here.\"

Severus put his hand around Harry\'s waist and led him to the sofa in front of the fireplace. They sat down and Harry immediately crawled into Snape\'s lap.

\"You remind me of a puppy or a wolf cub. Always cuddling.\" Whispered Snape affectionately kissing Harry behind the ear.

Harry shrugged his shoulders putting his arms around Severus\' middle so that his chin rested on Snape\'s chest saying:

\"Must be lack of love and affection in my childhood. My relatives thought that touching me would contaminate them that\'s why if they needed something from me they only yelled \"Boy! Get down! Boy! Move your lazy ass! Boy you\'d better be grateful for all we do for you and come right down and cook breakfast!\" I-I need some human touch. I need love and comfort as much as I can get. You don\'t mind? I mean if it bothers you I can move away.\"

\"Harry, shh, I didn\'t say it bothers me. On the contrary I\'d say. It really means a lot when someone needs you when someone craves your touch when you can comfort someone. It gives as much comfort to the one who comforts as well as to the one being comforted.\"

\"It\'s just that I am still afraid of angering you. I like being with you and I don\'t want to let go. But I don\'t know what you like and what you want. I\'m sorry it was so egoistic of me to demand so many things of you while I can give absolutely nothing in return. It\'s really stupid. I am so stupid. I\'m sorry professor…\"

\"Harry, Harry, slow down. What\'s wrong with you? Who told you that there is nothing you can give in return?\"

\"But…\"

\"The fact that you are giving yourself and your heart is enough to make anyone happy.\"

\"But…\"

\"I admit that last week the idea of us being together or the idea of us sharing a life together and both of us giving and taking would never cross my mind. But things change and faster than anyone can foresee. And you\'ve already given me more than enough. You gave me a new life. You gave me your heart. You are going to give me your body. Do you think it doesn\'t count?\"

\"But…\"

\"Harry?\"

\"What if you\'ll get tired of me? I mean there\'s nothing I can do to make you impressed. There is nothing I can do to make you proud. And you are right I am stupid and incompetent I can\'t even get top marks in most of my subjects. I am not good enough for you. Or for anyone else for that matter.\"

\"Harry why are you saying all that? Is this your way of telling me to go?\"

\"No!\" cried Harry clutching at Snape\'s shoulders desperately, \"I just don\'t want you to regret anything. I\'m afraid that by tomorrow morning you will realize how worthless I am.\"

\"Harry whoever told you that you are worthless and good for no one?\"

\"My relatives always told me that I was worthless and good for nothing as well as my parents. And you…you said it on countless occasions. I mean if so many people think the same thing then it must be true indeed.\"

\"Harry you know only too wehat hat I had quite a mistaken idea about you and your life. I know I\'ve been blind and ignorant of many things concerning you and I admit that I just didn\'t want to believe that you were quite a different person. Don\'t let anyone bring you down with their words. You never allowed me to bring you down no matter how hard I tried and you can\'t start doing it now.\"

\"I just don\'t want you to regret.hisphispered Harry.

\"I won\'t.\"

\"How can you be sure?\"

\"Do you trust me?\"

\"Of course.\"

\"Then trust me on this too.\"

\"I just want to make you happy. Severus, will you allow me to make you happy?\"

\"Yes but all in good time.\"

\"W-what?\" said Harry his voice cracking. Did Severus change his mind? Did he spoil everything with his doubts?

\"Shh.\" Started Snape reassuringly smiling softly, \"Tonight it is my turn to make you happy but you are free to start tomorrow.\" He finished smoothing worried lines out of Harry\'s beautiful face with his gentle fingers making Harry shiver and purr.

Harry smiled wiping away the tears he didn\'t know were running down his face. Snape carefully turned Harry so that now he was straddling his lap and started unbuttoning his shirt.

A/N: Tell me what you think! Desperately in need of reassurance!