What Is and What Should Never Be
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Category:
Harry Potter › General
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
12
Views:
3,857
Reviews:
21
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
1
Disclaimer:
I do not own Harry Potter, nor any of the characters from the books or movies. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
Wearing and Tearing
What Is and What Should Never Be
Chapter Three: Wearing And Tearing
Author: Prongs (Padfoot79)
Disclaimer: JK Rowling owns all things ‘Harry Potter.’ The song “What Is and What Should Never Be” belongs to Led Zeppelin and was released on their album, Led Zeppelin II. The song, “Wearing and Tearing” also belongs to Zeppelin and is on the album Coda.
Paring: Sirius/James
Rating: R on ff.net; NC-17 everywhere else.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~
“Of course I forgive you, Sirius. I could never hold a grudge against you. You mean too much to me,” James replied quietly.
“James, you have to forgive me, you have to…I am so very sorry. Please, you have-“
“Sirius, I just said I forgive you,” James pointed out patiently.
“You did?” Sirius asked hopefully.
James looked slightly amused as he nodded his head.
“I guess I wasn’t even listening because I knew you would say no. I was trying to figure out what I would say to convince you to forgive me.”
“Well, I do forgive you, Sirius. But I still need some time to myself right now.”
“What about us?”
“We’ll figure it out eventually.”
“ is is there to figure out?” Sirius asked. “I love you, you love me.”
“Sirius, you just beat the shit out of me because you didn’t think I was really myself. It’s not as easy and simple as you think. I know I love you, but I’m really hurt by what you said and did to me. I understand where you were coming from, but I still need some time alone. I need to think about everything that happened.”
“James, I-“
“Please leave,” James looked at his best friend holly.lly.
Sirius sadly nodded his head and left James alone to his thoughts.
~*~
“How did it go?” Remus asked when he saw Sirius.
Sirius shrugged his shoulders. “He says he forgives me, but he doesn’t want to be with me right now. I’m going to take a shower.”
“Perhaps you should go to the nurse, Sirius,” Remus suggested. “You’ve got some nasty bruises.”
Sirius shook his head and disappeared to go take his shower.
Sirius quickly turned on the water and made it scorching hot. He slowly undressed and then placed his clothes on a bench near the shower. As soon as he stepped into the water, he became painfully aware of his many bruises. Sirius groaned in pain and tried to gently clean himself with the soap.
He knew he had made a mess of things, but he honestly wasn’t sure what to do next. He had apologized to James, and James had forgiven him. But James claimed he needed more time to think. What in the hell did that mean?
Sirius dropped the soap and squirted some shampoo onto his long tresses. If he hadn’t screwed up everything then perhaps he wouldn’t be taking this shower alone. He could just imagine James here with him…washing his hair.
James would take the shampoo bottle in one hand and slowly open it. He would then squeeze it and allow a liberal amount to squirt onto his hand. Next, he would gently set the bottle down on the ledge of the shower. Then, he would run his fingers through the shampoo on his hand. All the while, he would be looking at Sirius lustfully.
After the shampoo was on both of his hands, James would begin to massage Sirius’ scalp. He would lean in closer to Siriud brd brush his erection against Sirius’ body…
Sirius’ eyes opened wide when he realized that the water beating down on him was freezing cold. He grunted when he also noticed he had two rather annoying problems. One, his hair was full of shampoo, and he would have to rinse it off in the ice-cold water. Two, his cock was painfully hard.
The second wasn’t usually a problem, but at the moment, it certainly was. He didn’t need to be standing in icy water with soapy hair, bruises all over, and an aroused cock.
~*~
James finally stood up and made his way inside. He ignored everyone he passed, including a very confused Lily Evans.
When James reached the Head-Boy’s door, he muttered the password and quickly went into his room. He looked into the mirror and scowled.
“You look positively dreadful,” the mirror said calmly.
James bit his lip and ran his fingers over his face. He flinched both from the pain and the idea that Sirius had caused him to feel this way.
Sighing, James carefully took off his clothes and walked into the large bathroom. He turned on the steamy hot water and waited for several minutes while the tub filled up.
James stepped inside the bathtub and allowed the warm water to soothe his bruises. He carefully washed the dried blood off of his face and then he leaned back against the tub and closed his eyes.
He really wasn’t sure what to make of the day. He had hoped that when he finally told Sirius about his true feelings, Sirius would feel the same way. James had always thought that they would start kissing and then so much more would happen. Hell, if things had gone according to plan, Sirius would be here right now.
James sighed and opened his eyes. In a way, he couldn’t blame Sirius for not believing him. He understood that Sirius didn’t want to get hurt. However, it was painful to think that Sirius thought James was really Snape in disguise. James shuddered. He and Sirius had always trusted each other.
Of course, Sirius must really love James. His reaction was dreadfully strong—screaming, yelling, and then physically hurting James (who Sirius thought to be Snape). If Sirius wanted to hurt Snape that badly then it must have meant that the prank (which wasn’t really a prank) had severely hit home. Aftel, il, if Sirius didn’t love James, then he never would have been so upset. He would have just laughed and then walked away.
James shook his head and closed his eyes again. This was far too confusing. Perhaps he needed to sleep on it. Maybe then he would have a clearer idea of what to do next.
James started to relax, but then stopped and sat up abruptly when he remembered something. Before any of this happened, Sirius had been upset about something. James never did figure out why Sirius was unhappy. He knew he wouldn’t be able to relax until he figured out what was going on with his best friend.
James stood up and grabbed a towel.
~*~
“James, don’t you think maybe you should see the nurse?” Peter asked.
James shook his head. “Where is Sirius?”
“Asleep supposedly,” Remus replied.
James silently thanked Remus and then walked past everyone else in the common room. He received several odd looks, but he ignored them He He climbed up the steps and then quietly knocked on the seventh year’s boy’s door.
Seconds later, the door opened.
“I knew you wouldn’t be asleep,” James said quietly. He noticed that Sirius wasn’t even dressed for bed. He was wearing jeans and a shirt that read ‘The Song Remains the Same.’ *
“I thought you needed time away from me?” Sirius asked.
“I need to ask you something, Siri.”
Sirius opened the door wider and allowed James to walk into the room. They both sat down on Sirius’ bed, which was where everything had started earlier in the day.
“Why were you upset, Sirius? Before any of this started, you were upset about something. What was it?” James asked gently.
Sirius’ eyes widened, and he just stared at James.
~*~
* “The Song Remains the Same” belongs to Led Zeppelin and was released on Houses of the Holy.
Chapter Three: Wearing And Tearing
Author: Prongs (Padfoot79)
Disclaimer: JK Rowling owns all things ‘Harry Potter.’ The song “What Is and What Should Never Be” belongs to Led Zeppelin and was released on their album, Led Zeppelin II. The song, “Wearing and Tearing” also belongs to Zeppelin and is on the album Coda.
Paring: Sirius/James
Rating: R on ff.net; NC-17 everywhere else.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~
“Of course I forgive you, Sirius. I could never hold a grudge against you. You mean too much to me,” James replied quietly.
“James, you have to forgive me, you have to…I am so very sorry. Please, you have-“
“Sirius, I just said I forgive you,” James pointed out patiently.
“You did?” Sirius asked hopefully.
James looked slightly amused as he nodded his head.
“I guess I wasn’t even listening because I knew you would say no. I was trying to figure out what I would say to convince you to forgive me.”
“Well, I do forgive you, Sirius. But I still need some time to myself right now.”
“What about us?”
“We’ll figure it out eventually.”
“ is is there to figure out?” Sirius asked. “I love you, you love me.”
“Sirius, you just beat the shit out of me because you didn’t think I was really myself. It’s not as easy and simple as you think. I know I love you, but I’m really hurt by what you said and did to me. I understand where you were coming from, but I still need some time alone. I need to think about everything that happened.”
“James, I-“
“Please leave,” James looked at his best friend holly.lly.
Sirius sadly nodded his head and left James alone to his thoughts.
~*~
“How did it go?” Remus asked when he saw Sirius.
Sirius shrugged his shoulders. “He says he forgives me, but he doesn’t want to be with me right now. I’m going to take a shower.”
“Perhaps you should go to the nurse, Sirius,” Remus suggested. “You’ve got some nasty bruises.”
Sirius shook his head and disappeared to go take his shower.
Sirius quickly turned on the water and made it scorching hot. He slowly undressed and then placed his clothes on a bench near the shower. As soon as he stepped into the water, he became painfully aware of his many bruises. Sirius groaned in pain and tried to gently clean himself with the soap.
He knew he had made a mess of things, but he honestly wasn’t sure what to do next. He had apologized to James, and James had forgiven him. But James claimed he needed more time to think. What in the hell did that mean?
Sirius dropped the soap and squirted some shampoo onto his long tresses. If he hadn’t screwed up everything then perhaps he wouldn’t be taking this shower alone. He could just imagine James here with him…washing his hair.
James would take the shampoo bottle in one hand and slowly open it. He would then squeeze it and allow a liberal amount to squirt onto his hand. Next, he would gently set the bottle down on the ledge of the shower. Then, he would run his fingers through the shampoo on his hand. All the while, he would be looking at Sirius lustfully.
After the shampoo was on both of his hands, James would begin to massage Sirius’ scalp. He would lean in closer to Siriud brd brush his erection against Sirius’ body…
Sirius’ eyes opened wide when he realized that the water beating down on him was freezing cold. He grunted when he also noticed he had two rather annoying problems. One, his hair was full of shampoo, and he would have to rinse it off in the ice-cold water. Two, his cock was painfully hard.
The second wasn’t usually a problem, but at the moment, it certainly was. He didn’t need to be standing in icy water with soapy hair, bruises all over, and an aroused cock.
~*~
James finally stood up and made his way inside. He ignored everyone he passed, including a very confused Lily Evans.
When James reached the Head-Boy’s door, he muttered the password and quickly went into his room. He looked into the mirror and scowled.
“You look positively dreadful,” the mirror said calmly.
James bit his lip and ran his fingers over his face. He flinched both from the pain and the idea that Sirius had caused him to feel this way.
Sighing, James carefully took off his clothes and walked into the large bathroom. He turned on the steamy hot water and waited for several minutes while the tub filled up.
James stepped inside the bathtub and allowed the warm water to soothe his bruises. He carefully washed the dried blood off of his face and then he leaned back against the tub and closed his eyes.
He really wasn’t sure what to make of the day. He had hoped that when he finally told Sirius about his true feelings, Sirius would feel the same way. James had always thought that they would start kissing and then so much more would happen. Hell, if things had gone according to plan, Sirius would be here right now.
James sighed and opened his eyes. In a way, he couldn’t blame Sirius for not believing him. He understood that Sirius didn’t want to get hurt. However, it was painful to think that Sirius thought James was really Snape in disguise. James shuddered. He and Sirius had always trusted each other.
Of course, Sirius must really love James. His reaction was dreadfully strong—screaming, yelling, and then physically hurting James (who Sirius thought to be Snape). If Sirius wanted to hurt Snape that badly then it must have meant that the prank (which wasn’t really a prank) had severely hit home. Aftel, il, if Sirius didn’t love James, then he never would have been so upset. He would have just laughed and then walked away.
James shook his head and closed his eyes again. This was far too confusing. Perhaps he needed to sleep on it. Maybe then he would have a clearer idea of what to do next.
James started to relax, but then stopped and sat up abruptly when he remembered something. Before any of this happened, Sirius had been upset about something. James never did figure out why Sirius was unhappy. He knew he wouldn’t be able to relax until he figured out what was going on with his best friend.
James stood up and grabbed a towel.
~*~
“James, don’t you think maybe you should see the nurse?” Peter asked.
James shook his head. “Where is Sirius?”
“Asleep supposedly,” Remus replied.
James silently thanked Remus and then walked past everyone else in the common room. He received several odd looks, but he ignored them He He climbed up the steps and then quietly knocked on the seventh year’s boy’s door.
Seconds later, the door opened.
“I knew you wouldn’t be asleep,” James said quietly. He noticed that Sirius wasn’t even dressed for bed. He was wearing jeans and a shirt that read ‘The Song Remains the Same.’ *
“I thought you needed time away from me?” Sirius asked.
“I need to ask you something, Siri.”
Sirius opened the door wider and allowed James to walk into the room. They both sat down on Sirius’ bed, which was where everything had started earlier in the day.
“Why were you upset, Sirius? Before any of this started, you were upset about something. What was it?” James asked gently.
Sirius’ eyes widened, and he just stared at James.
~*~
* “The Song Remains the Same” belongs to Led Zeppelin and was released on Houses of the Holy.