Somewhere

It's 2:33am again... if you haven't noticed I have somewhat of a pattern going here... in fact the whole time i've been on holiday all of these (well most of them) have been added in the early hours of the morning.... need to sort out my sleeping pattern

my phone is beeping at me to charge it but it's in the other room and i'm wedged in here with the keyboard on my knee so i can't get out and the chair is so old that every time i move it sounds like i'm torturing some poor hamster!!

ok so again i wasn't going to give you this for a while but what the hay i'm making up for the draught that'll start in about 2 weeks

enjoy it while it lasts people

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“I never would have thought you’d be the cuddling type,” said Harry, snuggling closer to the warm side of the man next to him, an arm coming to wrap tightly around his shoulders.

“This is not cuddling. We are simply sharing a couch in each other’s company,” he said indignantly.

“It’s cuddling and you know it. I bet secretly you like it as well, deep down in that little black heart of yours,” he smiled.

“I do believe that I could come to enjoy it,” he said when Harry laid his head on his chest.

“Told you so.”

“Yes you did. Your training is progressing well isn’t it?”

“Urgh, let’s not talk about that hey?” he said, listening to the soothing rhythm of the other man’s heartbeat.

“Then what do you want to talk about?”

“I don’t know. Tell me about yourself.”

“What do you want to know?”

“Tell me about your family, your childhood,” he said, almost immediately feeling the man next to him stiffen.

“I… I don’t think…” he said, pausing as though stuck for words.

“It’s ok if you don’t want to tell me, I understand,” he said, looking up at him.

“No, if we’re going to do this we should be honest with each other, it’s just not something I like to think about,” he murmured.

“I know how you feel Severus, really I do, but like you said, maybe it’ll help if you say it out loud. After all you have to remember the past in order to let it go and have a future.”

“When did you get so smart?” he said with a slight smile.

“I’ve been spending a lot of time with this grouchy old potions master. You can tell me Severus, I won’t tell anyone, I promise.”

“In that case I suppose I should start at the beginning,” he sighed.

“Take it slow, I’m in no rush,” he said, taking Severus’ hand in his own and giving it a reassuring squeeze.

“My mother was a wonderful woman, beautiful, kind, and intelligent, nothing like my father at all. She was pressured into the marriage by her parents. She died just before my first Christmas at Hogwarts. They say that it was an accident, that she tripped and fell down the stairs, but I’m sure he killed her. He’d beaten her from the very first day they were married and when she died there was no one to stop him turning on me. He was an evil man through and through, a true dark wizard. He was the one who first introduced me to the Dark Lord. I tried to make him proud, did every thing he asked, but he was never happy. That knife I gave you caused half of the scars on my body. It was my grandfathers, my mother’s father and he was perhaps the only person other than my mother that was ever kind to me in my family. The first time my father used it on me was when I came home for Christmas in my third year. My grandfather had died a few months before and then I really was completely alone. Some how he managed to find out that I was gay and he didn’t take it well. He used it on me many times after that before he finally threw it at me one night in my sixth year and told me that I was nothing but a disappointment to him and to our family. He told me that the most honourable thing I could do was be a man and take my own life, sacrifice myself for the good of the Snape name. I will never forget that day, the look of contempt and loathing in his eyes. He hated me,” all the memories that he’d buried suddenly rushing back and overwhelming him.

“Oh Severus, I never knew. You should have destroyed this,” he said, pulling the dagger out from where it was strapped around his thigh, handing it to the other man.

“No. it’s the only thing I have left of my grandfathers and although it holds bad memories, in a way it saved my life as well,” he said, closing Harry’s fingers back over the hilt before showing him his wrists. As the younger wizard watched, two vicious scars shimmered into view, one on each wrist.

“You tried to kill yourself. He had that much power over you,” he whispered.

“He made me believe that everything he said was true. Luckily my house elf Elena found me. She took me away from that house and kept me safe. She made me realise that there were people that did love me, that I wasn’t worthless like he’d said. I realised just how disappointed my mother would have been. She’d have wanted me to live and be happy. I am now and I just wish she could have seen that,” he said, looking down at Harry with a smile.

“Oh Sev. You’ve been through so much and you never had anyone to lean on. I thank the gods every day that you were there for me. We’re more alike than I ever realised and I love you so much. Thank you for telling me that, it means a lot to know that you trust me that much.”

“I trust you and I love you because you complete me Harry. Like I said, if we’re going to do this I want us to be honest with each other, no secrets or lies. I will ask one thing though.”

“What?”

“Sev?” he asked with a raised brow.

“I don’t know, it just seemed to fit. I like it though. Mmmm… Sev,” he purred, crawling into the other man’s lap.

“Brat.”

“But don’t you just love it?” he said as he placed a feather light kiss on smiling lips.

“Sometimes, but sometimes you’re just a brat,” he said, licking the shell of his ear before gently sucking the lobe into his mouth to nip on it, delighted with the quiet moan he received.

“Gah! As much as I love you and your exceptionally talented mouth I really should be going or they’re going to worry about me. So if you don’t stop now I’ll never make it back to the tower,” he groaned as the other man’s tongue licked a hot path down his neck.

“You should defiantly go then,” he whispered, standing up and bringing Harry with him, hands cupping his backside.

“Hey, put me down!”

Walking to the door, Severus ignored Harry’s protests and pressed him up against the wall, in a very similar position to the one he’d been in not long before in training. Finally setting him on his feet he pulled the shorter man to him and kissed him deeply. It seemed to last forever before he finally pulled away and rested his forehead against Harry’s.

“You really should go,” he said quietly.

“Ok. Can I come see you tomorrow?” he sighed.

“I don’t see why not, just let me know first.”

“Will do. Hey, do you think I could get away with being the wolf while I’m out and about in the castle? It’s not like it’s a secret anymore.”

“I don’t see why there’d be a problem with it, just make sure you’re careful.”

“Actually I’m probably safer as the wolf. All my senses are heightened and I’ve got some vicious claws,” he grinned.

“Then yes, prowl all you want. Now get going before I change my mind and ravish you,” he said, stealing a quick kiss.

“Mmmm… ok,” he said, changing into a small bat and flying up to sit in Severus’ hand.

“You have got to learn to open doors before you change,” he sighed, opening the door and watching as Harry flew out into the corridor, disappearing into the gloom.

He flew for a while, making sure he was out of the dungeons, before changing in mid-air into the wolf, landing gracefully and running towards the tower. He passed a few teachers who said hello or waved at him as they did their rounds, looking for curfew breakers. Unlike in previous years no one stopped him. Last year the Headmaster had told them all that because of circumstances he often walked around the castle at night and at least this way they could keep and eye on him, rather than he have to sneak about. He’d left out the fact that the circumstances were crippling nightmares that left him retching and covered in a cold sweat, screaming till his throat was sore and his voice hoarse. Luckily he’d managed to perfect silencing spells by then. As it was after that he regularly met up with the odd teacher in the corridors, although this was the first time that he met them as a wolf. Luckily for him they’d all read the paper, other wise he was pretty sure that they would have hexed him on the spot, afraid that he’d attack the students, being that he did look rather dangerous as the larger than average, wild looking wolf that he currently was. Even so Professor Flitwick had to do a double take as he ran past the tiny man. Finally he came to the door of the Gryffindor tower, guarded as always by the Fat Lady in her pink gown. She’d got used to his late night ramblings and sometimes he’d even sit and chat with her.

“Ah, Mr Potter I assume,” she said to the wolf that was sat watching her, nodding its head.

In a breath he was back to normal self, standing in front of her.

“How was your summer?” he smiled.

“Blissfully quiet,” she said with a laugh before swinging open to let him in.

Walking inside he saw a few groups of people sat around the fire. Heading to the stairs he walked up them to the room that he’d called home for the last six years, calling out to Blue and Shale as he went.

“Are you guys in my room?”

“Yes. Shale is playing with the other humans,” said Blue.

Getting an idea he quickly changed back into the wolf and bounded up the rest of the stairs. Stopping outside the door he found it slightly ajar, taking the time to breathe deeply and inhale the scents of the people inside. Identifying Ron, Shale and Blue he nosed the door open and crept inside. Lying low in the shadows he could see Dean, Seamus and Neville sat on Ron’s bed playing with Shale. Ron was no where in sight but listening harder he could hear someone in the bathroom brushing their teeth. Crawling along the floor on his belly he stayed hidden until the last minute, suddenly jumping on the bed and letting out a howl, making everyone scatter and Ron come running out of the bathroom, a toothbrush in his mouth and toothpaste all around his lips.

“Harry, you’re silly,” giggled Shale, moving to rub against the wolf’s legs.

Meanwhile Seamus, Dean and Neville were stood on the far side of the room, putting as much distance between them and the menacing looking wolf as possible. They looked on in shock as Shale started to play with it, the larger animal playfully butting the kitten with its head. When Ron saw what was happening he burst out laughing at the others, who were still eyeing the creature warily, wondering how a wild animal could have got into the castle, let alone the tower. His loud laughter caught the wolf’s attention who ran over to him and head butted him in the legs, making him fall over. With another laugh he scratched the animal all over, finding one spot in particular that made its hind leg twitch, thumping on the ground.

“He’s not going to hurt you,” he said to the other as the wolf sniffed his hand.

“How did it get into the castle?” asked Neville.

“Haven’t you lot figured it out yet?” he said, pushing the animal away as it tried to lick his face, “don’t you dare or I’ll follow through with that threat from earlier,” he said, making the wolf whimper.

“Figured out what?”

“Merlin you lot are dense sometimes. You’d better enlighten them Mr Wolf,” he said, getting to his feet and stepping back, just as Harry changed back into himself.

“You wouldn’t really shave me would you?” he pouted.

“It depends,” grinned Ron.

“You bloody idiot. I thought you were going to try and rip us to shreds,” yelled Dean, picking up a pillow and throwing it at him.

“Sorry, I couldn’t help myself. I thought you’d realise though, what with that rather damning article about me earlier. I won’t bite I promise,” he grinned, catching the pillow before it hit him.

“You’d better not. Maybe we should give you a flea bath and get you fixed. My dad knows a vet,” said Seamus as Harry covered his crown jewels with his hands.

“You stay well away from them. They have a bright and promising future ahead of them.”

“Well I suppose we could let you keep them for now but the first time you mark the furniture they’re coming off.”

“Ok dad, I promise. Now this little wolf is knackered and wants to got to bed, so goodnight gentlemen,” he said, moving over to his bed and stripping down to his boxers and t-shirt. Crawling under the covers, shale came to curl up near his head, while blue went to perch on one of the posts. Around him everyone said goodnight as they too hit the sack.

“Night guys,” he said receiving various replies.

“Night Harry,” mumbled Shale as he wriggled about to get comfy.

“Night Shale, night Blue.”

“Goodnight.”

“See you tomorrow,” he said, receiving a sleepy mumble from Blue. All he could hear from Shale however was a quiet snore near his ear.


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To the luberly *yawn* reviewers

fruit for the author for now tis better for me!

Dragonsnurse -- lol draco'll get his turn and no blue wasn't going to turn human... he's too cute as a bird. i haven't read the trickster series but only because i can't afford it other wise i'd have all her books!

evanlani64 -- good to know that you still like it and you're still with me *hug*

kunitsu -- trust me if you heard the conversation i had with vyator in regards to this story last night you'd not be in a padded cell you'd be hooked up to life support and they'd stick me in the cell! lol i'm glad my kisses are that good! and the alan song was 'in demand'.... right now scooter is playing again... *head bangs a bit more*

bumblebee -- hmmmmm.... i suppose i forgive you lol

Mie -- steamy steamy *nod nod* as for draco... yeah that's probably get an intersting reaction!
isis: she says she'll play with you Shale
shale: yay!! play with me! *the kitteh runs around your feet*
isis: play nice or i won't bring you again understand?
shale: uh huh *nod nod* i'll be good i promise
isis: ok he's all your's while i right these replies!

spikesbitch -- YOU'RE BACK!! *glomp* yay! lol yeah the image in my head when he lost was priceless!

vyator -- they didn't have any whips at the ann summers party... although they did have this REALLY nice basque that i'm gonna buy... yeah can u imagine a bald wolf?! not pretty! i changed it as well so yay for free publicity!

Werewolf Mistress -- lol i think she noticed their new found friendship and the ease they have with one another... it's quite easy to be at ease around someone when they've just tried to snog the life out of you!

Kurai -- shale is my babeh! as for hermione.... ;D

poohbear74 -- *looks at you blankly* i have no idea what you're on about o_o ! as for digging... YAY!! *dances with a spade*

Tina109 -- one update as ordered

Carmeleyes -- he can only push you against a door after he's done it to me!! omg what a thought being pressed up agaist a door by sev *drools on the keyboard* oops *gets zapped* zzzt... ouch!

Diane Rainwater -- i hope the update e-mail reaches you cus i did add you and sorry about your neck! *hugs you* as for skils... i have had SO much fun writing about the training that i wanted a bigger bit with a face off... subtle flirting helps as well lol *giggle* yeah feed me fruit *opens mouth* nomnomnom as for pomegranate though.... you've lost me but i don't remember any myths about them in egypt... that's breast milk and lettuces! sorry to worry you as well. when another fan of the immortals tells me i'm doing a good job that really makes me happy cus i love those books to death and i really REALLY wouldn't want to kill them! as for lunch and dinner... that's a regional thing i think because i always knew it as breakfast dinner tea when i was little then it was breakfast lunch dinner when i got to college so yeah it's wrong evn for me *scratches head* i hadn't even realised i'd made that mistake! *makes note to change it* as for mr draco... you'll have to wait and see *evil laugh* mwahahaha.... *looks up* wow that's one hell of a reply! oh yeah... glad you like it!

ladyroo88 -- no hermione is observant ron is just dumb! BANANA!! *remembers the time she unintentionally teased her tutor with the banana* honestly i had no idea until after i got nudged! i suppose that's why i'm know as the ball breaker at college.....

Slytherdor -- oh good it got there ok then *relieved sigh* i'm still picking spines outta my grey matter! and as for foreplay... you'll see in a few chapters won't you

Slowly_Dissapearing -- it's not her it's her brother but no we won't be seeing any more of him... at least i don't think we will. lol i made the mistake of jumping into the smut in my last one and i regretted it right away, this is working at a much better pace. lol as for sleep... it'll come eventually

MissElphie -- i was wondering who it was and then i was like 'it's Christine!!' yay! you're perhaps the first person to say i have good taste in music... what's on at the min... *looks at play list* linkin park - numb.... that's another song that has a snarry in the pipe line! stupid songs

crazyforkakashi -- holy peanut stealing beavers! you read it all in one go! how long did that take?! glad you like it though

ok well there you have it....

i'm in a rambling mood....

but i won't inflict it on you... instead i'll go finish that dream bit i'm writing...

*looks at her notebook* poor thing the first one is getting a bit tatty
we're one page away from the green section though! that means there's only a quarter of the notebook left to type up...

oh holy hell not only do we get to the smut soon but i forgot about the other thing that happens not long after... oops!