Love, Lies & Loneliness

Chapter 35
(Detention)

“That was sooo fucking subtle Draco.” Harry complained bitterly as he collected his books from his trunk and began back downstairs towards Snape’s office for his detention. Draco found it all very amusing but was careful not to upset Harry further in case the other boy turned on him.

“Would you have believed me any other way?” Draco looked sceptically at his friend who sighed and shook his head in agreement. “Well then it was worth the detention and just think of it as an opportunity.” This time Harry scowled at Draco having realised what the other boy’s plans had been.

“No, I’m not going to jump him in detention Draco besides we haven’t even talked about what he said at the party yet.” Harry shook his head as Draco rolled his eyes and pulled him to a halt at the end of the corridor that led to Snape’s classroom and office.

“Okay fine, even if you do end up just talking to him you can at least look a little less like a virgin sacrifice. If there’s one thing I know about my godfather’s sex life if nothing else is that he doesn’t like the whole innocent look with his partners. Now unbutton your collar.” Harry looked doubtfully at his friend who rolled his eyes and reached to undo Harry’s buttons himself before running his fingers through Harry’s hair to make it look a little messier. “There now you don’t look like the good little school boy now, and remember sit with your legs apart.” Harry looked at Draco as if the blonde had gone mad, to which Draco again tutted in frustration.

“No way, it’ll be too obvious, no one sits like that.”

“I’m not saying open them wide like an invitation, I’m just saying sit with them a little apart it gives you more a relaxed look. Besides men with big cocks do it when they’re on the pull, and it works.” This time Harry shook his head in disbelief as Draco gave Harry’s appearance the once over again.

“Firstly I don’t have a big cock Draco, and secondly I’m not on the pull for women if you haven’t noticed.” Draco had obviously had enough chat and with another tut pushed Harry down the hall towards his detention.

“Don’t argue just do it. I’ll be in my dorm when he lets you out, come and see me.” Harry nodded as he stopped outside the professor’s classroom with a sigh. Glancing back down the hall Harry saw Draco wave to him before the blonde boy disappeared back to the Slytherin common room leaving Harry to face his own detention. Shifting his books into his other arm Harry knocked on the door and waited.

“Come.” Obediently Harry stepped inside the potions classroom and quietly closed the door behind him before walking the short distance over to stand in front of Snape’s desk. Snape was marking essays and didn’t look up from his red quill as he pointed to the front bench Harry normally occupied with Draco in sixth year potions class. Quietly Harry took the seat and sat down just as Draco had said with his legs a little apart and his back relaxed. “I think it’s time we talked Mr Potter about a matter I’ve neglected to talk about since the incident happened some weeks ago.” Harry felt his gut sink as Snape finished marking the essay he was on and sat back in his chair having replaced the quill in the well on the desk.

“What incident.” Harry instantly closed his legs as he tried to play dumb not wanting to have the conversation he knew would only seal his heartache and ruin the friendship he’d built with the professor over the past year. Harry watched as one of Snape’s eyebrows quirked in amusement but it was short lived and fell back to mirror the shape of it’s neighbour. “I understand that it is sometimes difficult for wizards and witches your age to control your hormones, and having been through it myself understand that as a result youthful school crushes become the everyday norm.” Harry winced inwardly at the clipped and authoritative tone that Snape took when explaining himself. Surely this wasn’t a good sign, not that Harry had expected anything else. “It has come to my attention that you have developed a said crush on me.” That was harsh and Harry lowered his eyes to the desk top at Snape’s blunt statement, trying to hold back the tears. “Well Mr Potter? Is this true, cause there is no use me continuing if it is not?” Silently Harry nodded wishing himself a million miles away again. “Good, and I suggest opening your eyes Mr Potter unless you want to try your luck with involuntary apparition again, you might not be so lucky this time.” Obediently Harry opened his eyes trying and failing to glare at Snape who sat so calmly behind his desk as if they were discussing little more than a bad report card. “It is my responsibility as a teacher at Hogwarts to inform you that pursuit of this kind of relationship is inappropriate and that I will not be encouraging it.” Harry dared to glance up as he heard parchment rustle. Snape rose from his seat and carried a piece of parchment over to the desk along with his already inked quill. “This is an official complaint form filed by the ministry against me for inappropriate conduct with a student. It seems that some of the parents of students here believe that we are involved in a relationship and that the kiss we shared in the great hall earlier this month was a public declaration of this, and have demanded a formal inquiry into my teaching.”

“What?” Harry looked up shocked at Snape who sighed heavily and handed Harry the inked quill.

“I need your signature on the bottom of this to say that I have formally warned you that I shall not be encouraging student teacher relations beyond the normal teaching environment.” Harry was stunned and quickly put his signature on the bottom of the parchment not wanting to jeopardise Snape’s job just because of a kiss. With the paper signed Snape flicked his wand at it and it disappeared most probably onto some ministry officials desk somewhere.

“Are you going to lose your job? I didn’t mean for it to happen, I just….” Harry began to panic that he’d cost Snape everything, just when he’d learnt how much the wizard had done for him and his mother. “I’m so sorry.” Harry stood up abruptly a little out of breath as he clutched at his chest. It hurt so much but he couldn’t let Snape suffer by trying to purse an unattainable crush. Harry turned to leave but a strong arm hooked around his waist and pulled him backwards so that his body came flush with that of the elder man behind him.

“Shhh, Harry calm down.” Snape wrapped his other arm around Harry’s chest and covered the younger man’s hand that he found shaking there, before pressing a soft kiss to the top of Harry’s messy head of hair.

“I’m sorry.” Harry was still worried but didn’t struggle as Snape turned him slowly around and enveloped him in a warm hug. Harry melted into the others embrace having missed the contact. He’d tried so hard to forget about how much he loved the man but it was just impossible and nothing short of death could convince him he wasn’t in love.

“I know and it’s not your fault, I should have been more guarded with my affections for you but I was too worried about loosing you to think straight.” Harry could hardly believe what he was hearing and secretly pinched himself to make sure he wasn’t dreaming.

“You, you actually like me?” Harry felt Snape chuckle above him the soft ghosting of the man’s breath making a shiver run down Harry’s spine in delight.

“You think I’d have let you get your tongue in if I didn’t at least have some sort of feelings for you, did you?” Harry tightened his hold on Snape’s waist as the man shook a little in amusement. Harry felt Snape’s hand burry itself in his brown locks and gently begin massaging the back of his head in soothing comfort.

“But you told Sirius….” Harry glanced up at the older man who sighed and rested his chin down on Harry’s forehead as he silenced Harry’s concerns.

“I told Sirius what he wanted to hear, and I can assure you he didn’t want to hear about me intentionally pursuing his godson. Besides this is breaking one of the cardinal rules of being a teacher and I had every intention of not acting on this until you were no longer a student here, but it seems every man has his weakness and mine unfortunately is you.” Harry smiled at this confession and looked up cheekily at the professor who stared awkwardly down at him. “Sin is so tempting when it’s laid on a platter before you.” Snape looked deeply into Harry’s eyes and Harry smiled as he reached up and drew the man’s face to his own, so that their lips met in a chaste kiss.

“I love you.” Harry was the first to draw apart his eyes fluttering open again to focus on Snape’s dark gaze.

“I know and that’s why this is going to be so damn difficult.” Before Harry could reply Snape closed the gap between them again this time flicking his tongue out to tease apart Harry’s lips before delving into the moist cavern he found. Harry struggled to keep up with the kiss having only done it once before but when he felt Snape’s hand come to rest on his cheek guiding him he suddenly realised it didn’t matter that he didn’t know what he was doing. Short of breath but not willing to break the kiss Harry experimentally pushed his tongue out to meet Snape’s and inwardly smiled to himself as he heard the elder man groan into his mouth. Before he knew it Harry felt himself being lifted up onto the bench Snape pushing Harry’s legs apart to stand between them in order to get closer to his lover. Harry eagerly accepted it and ran his hands up the man’s back to his neck were for the first time he was allowed to touch the silky black locks he found there.

Finally though Snape broke the kiss and pulled back a little his hands still cupping Harry’s flushed cheeks as the boy panted. Snape smiled lopsidedly at Harry’s flushed appearance and bent to press a soft kiss to the end of the boy’s nose.

“There’s going to be rules. If we’re going to make this work it has to remain a secret until you’ve finished school at least. You’re not to pull any more stunts like the one in the hall both today and last month and we have to be discreet, which includes not waltzing on down to my private chambers whenever you feel like. With the ministry’s official inquiry I’m going to be watched and assessed for the next week so nothing is to happen, then when they’re satisfied nothing untoward’s going on then I’ll arrange for us to meet occasionally. Finally we can’t have sex, not until you’ve left school At least then if this does by some chance get out I’ve got something to fall back on in defence against me losing my job. Understood?” Harry nodded and consciously shifted back a little on the bench aware now of his suddenly pressing need between his legs. He hopped Snape hadn’t noticed it but Harry stiffened almost immediately as Snape’s hand came down to cup the boy’s hardness through his robes. Harry shot up straight and bit his lip as those long fingers he’d imagined so many nights before gently massaged the bulge.

“I think I’m going to enjoy knowing you’re masturbating over me Harry.” Snape withdrew his hand and stepped away unconsciously straightening his own robe as he turned back to his desk and went to sit down, leaving Harry still hard and panting on the bench.

“It’s nearly curfew you should go, we’re in enough trouble as it is without me keeping you out after curfew in detention. Go on, I’ll see you tomorrow.” Harry nodded quickly and jumped off the bench clenching his teeth as his hard cock rubbed against the zip of his trousers. Grabbing his things Harry consciously held his books lower as he reached for the door to the classroom. “Oh and Harry.” Harry paused and looked back at Snape who looked up mischievously from his marking. “Tell Draco to teach you how to put those fingers of yours to good use.” Harry was confused but nodded in agreement which seemed to please Snape who smiled to himself and went back to his marking. Harry hurried out of the classroom and having checked to make sure the hallway was clear began running down to the Slytherin Common Room. Having finally been told the password Harry instantly climbed in through the doorway and made his way down to Draco’s dormitory. The few students who were still milling around the common room didn’t take much notice of his presence, all of them now aware that the Gryfindor boy often visited his friend.

“Draco? Are you awake?” Harry stepped into the boy’s dorm and smiled as he saw Draco lying on his front reading Quidditch Monthly magazine. Almost immediately Draco sat up as Harry ran the short distance across the room, dumping his books on top of Draco’s trunk before launching himself onto the bed. No sooner had Harry landed on the mattress than Draco had charmed the green curtains around his bunk closed and set up a silencing charm.

“Well?” Turning his wand into a light source Draco looked questioningly at his friend, who now lay on his back, his hands crossed behind his head and a wide smile beaming on his face.

“Fuck it was good.” Harry sighed in delight as his pink tongue poked out to run along his lips still tasting the residue of the other man on his tongue.

“I was right then?” Draco pressed, his own smile lighting up his face as he watched the tension and stress drip from Harry’s body.

“Yeah, he loves me or rather he likes me. He didn’t actually say he loved me but the kiss….” Harry trailed off his eyes closing as he savoured the memory of his lips pressed against Snape’s.

“And judging from that, I guess it was some kiss.” Harry opened his eyes to see Draco’s cheeky finger pointed at the tented fabric of Harry’s robes. Embarrassed Harry grabbed the pillow from behind his head and brought it down hastily to sit over his lap, an unattractive blush creeping up his cheeks. Draco seemed to find it all very amusing and pushed Harry’s shoulder jokingly, as he again referred to Harry as a prude. “Oh come on it’s only a bloody erection Potter, you’ve seen me getting head for fucks sake. You’ve really got to loosen up a bit.” Draco again pushed Harry’s shoulder but Harry didn’t shift the pillow from his lap as he relaxed back into the bed. “So what else happened?” Draco casually settled himself down on his side, his head propped up on his elbow as he watched the normal pale pink colour return to Harry’s cheeks.

“There’s an official ministry inquiry about his teaching.” The smile that had played on Harry’s lips died immediately as he sat up slightly and looked over at Draco seriously.

“What? Snape’s a fucking excellent teacher. I bet their pissed cause they had to give him back his family’s estate and are trying to get him another way. They’re complete arseholes, they just won’t leave him alone.” Draco scowled angrily, his temper over the ministry’s treatment of his godfather his one true weak point. Reaching over, Harry put a comforting hand upon his friends shoulder.

“I don’t think it’s that although I wouldn’t put anything past the Ministry. Apparently when I kissed Snape that first time in the great hall, some parents of students here took offence at it, and someone has filed a complain against him saying that he and I are involved in an inappropriate teacher student relationship.” Harry watched as a coy smile twitched at the corner of Draco’s lips.

“But you are involved in an inappropriate teacher student relationship.” Harry rolled his eyes just as Draco would do to him if he had said something as stupid.

“I know that, you know that and Snape knows that but the Ministry and everyone else has to think that we’re just teacher and student and nothing else or he’s going to lose his job.” Draco sighed heavily but nodded in understanding. If there was one thing that Draco knew how to do it was keep secrets, having done so all his life.

“Alright so it’s all hush, hush for the time being.” Harry nodded and Draco smiled in acceptance before he settled back down on his bed. “So when are you going to have sex with him?” Harry looked incredulously across at his friend, who after all he’d just said asked such a dumb question.

“I don’t know that. He said we couldn’t do it until after I finished school though, in case this gets out he’s at least got some defence.” Draco groaned and rolled his eyes at Harry’s reply.

“No way are you going to last another year without having sex with him. Just look at you now, in another 12 months time you’ll be dead with frustration.” Draco gestured casually at where Harry still had the pillow across his lap. Unseen to Draco’s eye Harry erection was still proudly awaiting attention but the boy tried to ignore it in the hopes it would go on its own. “Never mind though, we’ll let this whole inquiry thing blow over and then we’ll work on changing Snape’s mind on the sex issue. You can’t keep wanking you’ll go blind.”

“Really?” Harry looked at Draco in horror, wondering if all the masturbating he’d done over the past six months had contributed to his already failing eyesight. Draco burst out laughing and pushed Harry hard in the shoulder with complete amusement.

“No. It was a joke Harry. Merlin, you really don’t know anything about sex do you, even after I told you that stuff.” Harry blushed and turned his gaze away from Draco’s as he fiddled with the corner of the pillow still clutched over his lap.

“I know stuff, just not everything. I figure I’ll just learn it as I go along.” Harry folded his arms defensively across his chest trying and failing to look confident.

“Nah, not with Snape you won’t. He’s a man Harry and he’s going to want to fuck another man not a virgin school boy.” Draco looked seriously across at his friend who sighed heavily.

“So what? Are you suggesting I go and have sex with anyone just so I’m not a virgin anymore?” Harry didn’t like the sound of what Draco was suggesting, having not the experience the blonde had with such matters. Draco rolled his eyes and shook his head in reply.

“Certainly not. In fact I think Snape would single handedly rip me limb from limb if I told you to do that. All I’m saying is even though you’re a virgin there’s no need to act like one. Education is the key Harry, and I think some extra curricular reading is in order.” Draco moved to the end of his bed and Harry watched as the other boy stuck his head out of the curtains. Harry heard the lid of Draco’s trunk opening before it closed again and Draco stuck his head back into the curtains. “Here, they’re not totally your thing, but they’re a starting point.” Draco handed over two magazines and Harry’s eyes nearly popped out of their sockets as the naked witch riding the broom on the front cover of one of the magazines winked at him sexily. “I’ll see what I can do about getting some more appropriate reading material. After all I can’t ruin my reputation by having rumours spread about me buying queer porn.” Draco rolled his eyes as he saw Harry flicking through the magazines occasionally stopping at a particularly graphic picture. “You better get going, curfew past ages ago and I am not having you staying here tonight with that still in your trousers.” Harry growled at Draco but obediently began collecting his things, ensuring the two magazines were well hidden beneath his robes.

“Thanks and I’ll talk to you tomorrow.” Harry went to get out of Draco’s curtained bed but paused as he remembered something. “Oh hey I just remembered Snape said something to me just as I was leaving.” Draco looked up from where he was just folding down his blankets ready to get into bed.

“Yeah?”

“Wait, let me get this right cause I didn’t understand what it meant. He said ‘Tell Draco to teach you how to put those fingers of yours to good use.’” Harry paused running over the sentence quickly in his mind to ensure he got the message right before he turned to look at Draco who sat with his mouth hanging open staring at Harry completely stunned. “What? What does that mean?” Harry was a little worried that it was something bad but when Draco laughed the brown haired boy relaxed a little.

“It means my godfathers a sadistic son of a bitch that’s what it means.” Harry looked at Draco blankly the meaning behind Draco’s explanation completely lost on him. Draco rolled his eyes and pushed Harry off the bed and out of the curtains before sticking his head out after the other boy who still looked completely lost. “Don’t worry about it I’ve got everything under control, and I’m the best damn tutor you’re ever going to have. Now bugger off back up to Gryffindork tower, before we both start losing house points.” With a shrug of his shoulders Harry headed off back towards his own dorm. Having spent so many years sneaking about he now knew the teachers habits in patrolling the corridors and could easily time his nightly wanderings as not to get caught. There was so much to think about tonight and Harry knew he was going to get very little sleep, one way or another.

TBC>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.

A/N Okay I\'d like to take this opportunity, to point out some things which are irritating me, as I find myself doing with every story I write and here is the list.
a) I am and never confess to be an English Teacher.
b) I do not get paid or am making any money from my stories
c) I get bored really, really, really easily.

What does this all mean? It will be a cold day in hell when I find myself correcting Grammar and spelling mistakes in my own works without getting paid to do so, and that if you can\'t at least take the time to critise/praise my work with something other than pointing out my shocking English skills then don\'t bother reviewing at all. I write cause I enjoy it, not cause I need the practice.

*Wanders about pointing to the sky.* Oh look there goes my evil nasty side.....

Anyway\'s hope you liked this little chapter. I think it\'s time we got some action happening, and now I\'ve gotten the whole plot out of the way its going to be a free for all. Hand\'s up all those that are interested in Snape\'s dangly bits??? *Smiles evily* If you are you\'re going to love the next chapter...

Thank-you to all of you who reviewed, and I\'m so pleased the plot finally made sence.

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