Close Enough

Ch 33 Complicated

Neither spoke the whole walk to the opposite side of the lake, nor for the first long minutes that they sat on the rock that was found there. Harry sat looking at his feet, his hands still firmly in his pockets. Draco looked across the lake at the castle, stealing glances at Harry every once in a while. The longer the silence lasted, the more uncomfortable Harry became, and the more nervous Draco got about what could be this hard for Harry to talk to him about. Finally Draco couldn’t take it anymore.
“So… what did you want to talk to me about?” Draco asked, stealing another glance at Harry. He watched as Harry closed his eyes and took a deep breath.
“I…” another deep breath, “I want to talk about the bond… and… my inheritance.” Draco sighed in relief, thinking, ‘that’s not a big deal.’
“Well, what about the bond do you want to talk about?” figuring that would be the easier of the two topics.
“That’s it… it’s all one big mess…” Harry sighed, finally looking up at the castle. “I need to tell you some things about me… about my inheritance, and thus the bond… and I know you aren’t going to like them.” Harry dared look at Draco at this point. “I need you to promise that we can work anything out… no matter what it is.” Draco felt confused, very confused to be exact, but he nodded slightly.
“We are to be bound for life Harry, fate saw to that. We will be able to work anything out. No matter what.” Draco said, not sounding completely certain. Harry smiled at his effort, looking back across the lake.

“I assume that from either Severus, or someone, you have found out what I am?” Harry saw Draco nod in his peripheral vision and continued, “So you are aware that I am a mix of Succubus and Veela, a rare one of a kind mix.” Draco nodded again confirming what he had heard. “Well, due to that ever special mix of blood…” Harry paused for a second, “I have needs… needs that I must have filled by someone else…” Harry paused again, trying to figure out how to explain what he meant, “You see, Veela and Succubi are both sexual Creatures. They both find pleasure in things that are… physical…” Harry paused again so Draco interrupted.
“So you are saying that you need sex to survive.” Draco stated.
“Sort of.” Harry scrunched his face slightly searching for the right words. “I’m aware that you have noticed that my friends touch me quite often… more than what would be considered normal?” Draco growled softly, but nodded. “That’s part of it, I need others touch. And my friends are considered my pack, in a sense, and because of that my instincts desire them to be close to me.” Taking a deep breath, “But yes, sex is part of it. A part that I am currently suppressing with a potion, otherwise I would have uncontrollable desire to have sex twenty-four hours a day, regardless of who it was with. Which brings me to the need for my choker, “Harry’s fingers began playing with the charm hanging around his neck, “Without the charm that Cord put on this, pretty much everyone around me would not be able to contain their need to have me.” Harry said this last part barely above a whisper.

“But once we bond, you will have better control over that, won’t you?” Draco asked.
“Yes, better control. But I will still have the desire to have touch, that is something that I can not control.” Hearing Draco begin to growl again he continued, “I know that bothers you, and I’m sorry, but it is something that I need. But just be aware that it has nothing to do with you, or the bond, it is just something that I need to happen. It is part of my Succubus, I need many people to be close to me. It is something about how my blood is mixed, the proportions of it or something.” He sighed, “No one really knows. Part of being one of a kind.”
“So you are always going to have other people near you… touching you then?”
“Yes,” Harry sighed. “and again, I’m sorry.” Harry looked at Draco again, “there’s more... first I have a question.” Draco nodded for him to continue, “will you come to the show tonight?” Draco smiled.

“Of course.” Draco said with a laugh, “I’m glad you invited me.”
“Well… you must understand something else then..” Harry looked at the ground again, “There is a whole thing that happens… at the show… and after… it’s part of it… I have a release… I can’t explain it really… just part of my charm I guess… I just don’t want you to be angry with me… when it happens…”
“What do you mean? What happens?” Draco asked heatedly.
“Well… during the show… I kind of… get a lot of attention.. and my Creature blood likes that… feeds on it kind of… stores it up magically…in a way it’s like.. I don’t know how to describe it.. it’s like I’m a conduit for sexual energy.. and after the show.. we stay at the club for a bit… dance and stuff…” Harry closed his eyes, head bowed slightly, hair falling blocking his face from Draco’s view, “and what is stored… the energy my body takes in… my body changes it… and releases it… when I dance… Cord does the same, just different… she has less in her…” Harry sighs softly, “I have more in me… so when I release it.. it’s… powerful… that’s why I only do it at the club… so it is spread out among quite a number of people…”

Draco felt very confused now, he didn’t understand what Harry was trying to explain to him. “I don’t understand what you mean Harry.” He stated this as plainly as he could, reaching up and tucking some of Harry’s hair behind his ear so that he could see his face. “I don’t understand.”
“I’m sorry, I can’t explain it. It’s kind of unreal.” Harry sighed again and looked up at Draco, “You’ll understand tonight, I guess. Just promise me you won’t be mad.” Draco saw the concern in Harry’s eyes, which was matched by the unease that he felt radiating through the bond.
“I can’t promise you Harry, but I will try.” Draco said with a small smile.
“That’s all I can ask of you.” Harry said, looking back at the castle. “I just don’t want you to be angry with me… when you see what I’m talking about… when you understand what my Creature needs.” Harry explained softly. “I know that you have needs too Draco, but yours are a little more straightforward than mine.” Harry paused, “I just don’t want you to get jealous, when it’s not the same as it is with you.”

The conversation ended there, Draco knew that he needed to explain to Harry what he needed, he knew that he needed to talk to him, yet he didn’t. The pair merely sat by the lake for a good hour, not speaking, Draco stealing sidelong glances at Harry, and Harry staring worriedly at the ground near his feet. It was almost lunch time when Draco decided it was time to go inside.
“Harry, we should get inside, it’s almost lunch.” Draco said softly. Harry just nodded and stood up, stretching slightly. Draco stood, and they walked toward the castle together. Draco could still feel Harry’s worry swirling around in the bond, he wanted desperately to be able to comfort Harry in some way knowing that with the show tonight Harry had enough on his plate. When they reached the doors of the castle Harry headed directly for their rooms, something for which Draco was very grateful. Once Harry reached the portrait to their room, Draco told him he needed to talk to Severus and kept walking with a small wave over his shoulder.

Draco knocked softly on his godfather’s door, upon a muffled ‘Enter’ from the other side, he went in. Severus was sitting in a wingback chair by the fire, a book resting in his lap, looking up at Draco as he entered the sitting room.
“Draco, what are you doing here?” Severus asked setting his book on a side table.
“I was wondering, are you going to Harry’s show later?” Draco asked, perching himself on the arm of the chair nearest Severus.
“Yes, I am. Why do you ask?” raising an eyebrow.
“Well, I just had a very interesting and confusing talk with Harry. He said a lot of things that I really still don’t understand.” Severus gave a knowing look, and Draco continued, “You know what he was talking about then?”
“Correct.” Severus gave a curt nod and smiled, “And you, Mr. Malfoy, will figure it all out tonight. However, I highly recommend that you remember that he is your mate, and nothing that will happen tonight has any baring on that.”
“So you have gone before?” Severus nodded, “And stayed after?” Severus nodded yet again, a slight color rising in his cheeks.
“Yes, I have been to one of their shows, and yes I stayed at the club afterward. Trust me, you are a lucky young man, Draco.” Severus smirked, “Now, you should probably head off to your dorm, I’m sure you want to start dressing for tonight.”
“Yea, I should get going.” Draco smiled, and quickly left Severus’ chambers to get ready for what would prove to be a very interesting and enlightening night.