Snape's Obsession

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chapter 3

Snape’s Obsession


Severus knew it was the right thing to do. He \'knew\' it. But it wasn’t what he wanted to do. If Valora hadn’t stopped him today……… Well he wasn’t sure what he may have done. Breaking off …. whatever this is, was the best thing to do for both of them. And to her credit, Valora didn’t beg, plead or cry. Well he had seen the few tears that had leaked out of her eyes.

Severus filled his goblet with whisky for the third time since returning to his chambers. ‘I’m sorry’ she’d said, as if she had done something wrong. He was the adult, was supposed to be acting like one anyway, he should never have allowed ……… But he had. He had wanted her. He wanted her still, maybe now more than ever. Enough to tell her about Seren. Only Albus knew about his twin. Why had he brought up his sister ? Maybe, he reasoned, he wanted to share a part of himself. A part of his life with her that few knew about.

He returned to the armchair by his hearth with his goblet half drained. Staring into the fire, he saw her face, but the red in the flames made him think of Weasley. The boy wasn’t worthy of her ! Ah, but would you think anyone but you worthy of her, came the voice in his head. No. He stood and started to undress for bed. He caught himself staring at the place on his arm where his dark mark lay hidden. Would she understand this ? She would have been very young when the Dark Lord was vanquished. She wouldn’t understand how the world was then.

Severus went to his private potion stores. He pulled out a sleeping potion. He knew the alcohol alone would not let him sleep. He couldn’t let the first thing she sees be him looking as if he’d been up all night. Stripping down to his boxers, he climbed into bnd dnd downed the potion. Only when he was almost asleep could he let the tears come, and then he drifted off.

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Severus was edgy all morning. He snapped at anyone who tried to speak with him. At breakfast, he had even snapped at Albus, then apologized, blaming a bad nights sleep. When his class finally ended, he headed up to the Infirmary.

He stood outside the door running his hand through his hair, sorting through his emotions. He wanted to see Valora, but was apprehensive as well. Telling her they couldn’t see each other anymore was the right thing to do, he kept telling himself, but it didn’t make it feel right. And what of her eyesight ? By all accounts it should be back to normal by now. What if it wasn’t ? He’d never had experience with this kind of accident before. Taking a deep breath he walked through the door.

Madame Pomfrey was waiting for him. “Valora’s ready, Professor. I’ve pulled the curtain around her bed to block the light and I’ve used a cleaning charm on her eyes, we were just waiting for you.”

“Thank you, Poppy.” Severus said, not taking his eyes off the curtain around Valora’s bed. He brought himself up to full height and tried to walk briskly to her. He knew she heard his footsteps and could gauge his mood.

Pulling back the curtain, he saw her sitting on the bed. Her hands were grasping the edge and her head down, her hair hiding her face. She looked so defeated. On impulse, Severus sat on her bedbeside her, facing her and took both of her hands in his own, rubbing them gently with his thumbs. She brought a leg up on the bed, turning to face him.

“Valora ?…..” Severus said softly. She faced him, trying to pull her hands back.

“Sever…….Professor, please ….” She whispered. Severus had thought his touch would be reassuring, clearly that was no longer the case. He let her go, carefully watching the play of emotions across her face. He sighed.

“Remove your glasses.” She did as he asked and handed them to him. He put them on the nightstand. “When you open your eyes, open them slightly, while looking down. Let them get used to the light. Tell me what you see and the clarity.”

Severus saw her eyelashes flutter and blink several times. She spent a minute or so this way, then slowly began looking up. She was looking at his hands, then going up the buttons on his coat, then he saw her violet eyes looking into his. He searched her face for some clue as to how well she was seeing. Then he saw tears rolling down her cheeks, without thinking he brushed them away.

“What do you see, Valora ?”

“I see you ……….You need to comb your hair.” She said with a laugh. He laughed too, dropping his hand back into his lap. “Everything still has a bit of a halo around it.”

“That should clear up by tomorrow. You may keep your eyes open for short periods today, but rest them often and keep your glasses on, no bright light. Do not try to read yet, just take it slowly. You may go to classes tomorrow.” Severus said standing. “I will expect you in class on Thursday.” He turned to go.

“Professor Snape ?” He turned back to her. “Thank you …..for everything. I’m only sorry that …….” She seemed at a lose for words, but he understood, he felt the same.

“So am I, Valora. I will see you on Thursday.” He said leaving quickly.


Severus couldn’t stomach the idea of lunch in the Great Hall, all the noise and hubbub. He kept walking out the front doors and out onto the grounds. His feet had automatically chosen a path of their own. In a few minutes time, he found himself under his favorite shade tree, sitting with his back against the tree, his knees drawn up and his arms resting on them.

At least her sight will return to normal, he thought. As will her heart, in time. She was young and resilient. What about yours, the voice in his head interjected. Severus sighed deeply, tilting his head back against the tree. He played out a scenario in his head of what might have happened yesterday, had he done what he wanted to.

“Lovely day, isn’t it Severus ?” Severus looked up to see Dumbledore smiling down at him. He made a move to stand. “No, no don’t get up. You look so comfortable. I was worried when you didn’t come to the noon meal. Is everything quite alright ?”

“Yes, Headmaster. I was in the Infirmary. Valora opened her eyes today. It looks as though her sight will be unaffected by the accident.”

“You must be very relieved. How about her schoolwork ?” Dumbledore asked looking over his glasses.

“Her work is mostly finished through this week. I am allowng her to go back to classes tomorrow.” Dumbledore was still looking at him as though there were something else he wanted to know. “She is still in the Infirmary, if you wish to see her.”

“Thank you, I will stop in later. Will you be there for dinner or in the Great Hall ?”

“I will be in the Great Hall this evening.” Severus said finally standing.

“I see ……Well, I didn’t mean to disturb you.”

“It was time I went in. Papers to correct, you know. I will see you at dinner.” With that Severus walked away. He went back to his office and started on the papers from his class of 5th years. Only he was having trouble concentrating. What did Dumbledore mean by ‘I see’, what did he see ? Surely he didn’t know of the attraction between himself and Valora. The Headmaster would have said something. Wouldn’t he ?

Severus checked the clock. It was nearly time for dinner. He wondered for the twentieth time whether he should look in on Valora. See how she was adjusting to sight again. He finally came to the decision that if Dumbledore was going after dinner to see her, he would tag along too. If the Headmaster had already been to visit, he wouldn’t go. With that decided, he headed off to dinner.


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“I see you opened your eyes, but kept the glasses. Snape’s order ?” Charlie said sitting on the bed as she sat in the chair. “How is your eyesight ?”

“Not up to par yet. It should be better tomorrow.” Valora said looking at Charlie who had a vague fuzziness surrounding him.

“Bet your glad you won’t have to see Snape all the time.” Typical Gryffindor ! Looking down on the Slytherins.

“He is my Head of House, Charlie and I happen to like him. He’s been very kind, giving up most of his free time to help me.” She said heatedly.

“Gosh ….. I didn’t mean….I’m sorry, Val. The last thing I wanted to do was make you mad.” Charlie said sitting on the edge of the bed facing her. He reached out and took both of her hands. He brought one to his lips and kissed it. She was very confused.

“Charlie, what are you playing at ?” Valora said, removing her hands from his hold. “You made it very clear to me we were only friends, what is all this ?”

“It’s just…….when you got hurt in class, I was really afraid for you. I hadn’t realized how much I cared for you. If that wasn’t enough, I started getting really jealous of how much time you were spending with Snape. He’s a teacher, I know, but I was jealous anyway.”

If you only knew, thought Valora. She was saved the duty of replying by the door opening and the Headmaster walking through, with Severus behind him. Her heart fluttered. She hadn’t expected to see him again today. Charlie stood and stepped away from her bed. She watched Severus scowl and his eyes narrow as he saw Charlie was visiting again.

“Valora, how are you feeling ?” Dumbledore said coming over to her. She moved to the bed, so the Headmaster could sit in the chair.

“Better, I can see most things.” She said smiling at Dumbledore. Severus sat down next to her looking concerned.

“Your sight has not been clearing ?” Severus asked.

“It’s better, I think, but everything still has fuzzy edges.” She said turning and looking into his eyes. He was all business at the moment though. Moving closer, he reached up and took off her glasses. Bringing a hand up to her face, he held each of her eyes open in turn scanning them. Her pulse quickened at the contact and the closeness. His thigh was pressed against hers and he was examining her so closely she could feel his breath on her cheek. He dropped his hand, but his eyes remained locked with hers. She could feel a flush coming to her cheeks, and looked down at his hands.

“Do you think something is wrong ?” She asked.

“No, I do not see anything wrong. But maybe you should wear the glasses for a few days. They will help protect your eyes as they continue to heal. Have you had any headaches today ?” Severus asked.

“Yes, most of the day, since I opened my eyes.”

“Have you been resting them as I asked ?” Severus said lifting an eyebrow.

“Well …..some. I was just so excited to be able to see finally” She said shrugging her shoulders.

“Valora……what good are my instructions if you are not going to follow then ?”

“I’m sorry Sev ....sir, you\'re right. I should have rested them more.” She hoped no one had caught her flub. If the Headmaster heard it, he gave no indication and Charlie wasn’t paying that close attention anyway.

“Well, I am sorry, but you need to rest now. No more company tonight.” Severus said turning to look at Charlie.

“Alright, I’ll see you in class, Valora.” Charlie turned to go. He seemed loath to come near her with Severus so close.

“I am afraid I will have to ask you to leave too, Albus. I am going to give her some eye drops and a headache potion.”

“Very well, Severus. I shall leave Valora in your kind and competent hands.” He stood to go. “I’m glad to see you looking better, my dear. Spending time with Professor Snape must agree with you.” Valora felt her cheeks begin to blush, but the Headmaster left without further comment.

Severus hadn’t moved and she could feel him staring again. Valora slowly turned to meet his gaze. She could see a battle going on behind his eyes. She was growing uncomfortable, his stare too intense.

“Did you say you wanted to put drops in my eyes ?” she asked. He turned his head and stood up going to the potions cabinet. He came back with two bottles and a cloth. He put some of one potion in a glass of water and had her drink it.

“I’m sorry. I should have followed your instructions better.”

He took the glass back and held it, looking at her. Then he spoke softly “I am not angry, Valora, just concerned.” His voice was soft as a caress. Her heart skipped.

Severus put the glass down and picked up the eye drops and cloth. Standing over her, he haloralora tilt her head back, looking up at him. He bent over her almost as if he were going to kiss her, but he put drops in her eyes, using the cloth to wipe any excess liquid. He continued until he realized there was far more coming out of her eyes, than he had put in. He looked down into her face, cradling her cheek gently.

She couldn’t help herself. She started crying again, not just tears, but sobs this time. Her body shook with the force of them. She was only vaguely aware of being picked up and set back down on the bed in Severus’ lap. He held her, rubbed her back, smoothed her hair and whispered comfort to her. Finally, after several minutes she quieted. Valora lay her head on his chest, breathing in the scent of him. She felt him lean down and kiss her forehead.

Valora sighed deeply. She wanted nothing more than to tilt her head up and kiss him, it might even be what he wanted, but nothing had changed since yesterday. That was why she was truly crying. She wanted him desperately.

“Valora ?” Severus said in that soft voice again. “Look at me.”

“Severus…..if I look at you, I’ll kiss you.”

“I would not complain.”

“I just ….. can’t …….I feel so close to you one minute and you push me away the next. I let you walk away last night because I thought it was what you needed. If you kissed me now…..I couldn’t bear to have you walk away again.” As she finished she looked up into his eyes.

He looked down into her face, bringing a hand up to caress her cheek. “You are right, it is not fair to you.” Severus sighed. “But I want you to know I am here for you, not because I feel guilty, but because I want to be.”

“Thank you, Sever….Professor.”

“Is your headache any better ?” He asked as he continued stoking her cheek gently.

“Yes.” She said closing her eyes, and enjoying his soft touch. Valora relaxed into him completely, feeling herself drifting off.

Valora woke up to the feel of warm lips on her cheek. She moaned a little as her eyes fluttered open. “Severus ?”

“I had hoped not to wake you. Go back to sleep.” Severus said as he pushed her back and covered her up again. Still in a haze she turned her lips up to him, puckering slightly. He took the hint and kissed her on the lips, a warm chaste kiss. She sighed contentedly and snuggled back into the bed.

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Severus was holding Valora on his lap, breathing in the soft youthful smell of her. His heart overriding his head for once, he leaned down and kissed her forehead to get her to look at him. He wanted to kiss her, and more, much more.

“Valora ?” He said softly. “Look at me.”

“Severus…..if I look at you, I’ll kiss you.” She said against his chest.

“I would not complain.”

Valora’s hypnotic violet eyes met his, as she turned her head up, offering her lips to him. He brought his lips down to hers, just lightly brushing them together until she pulled his head down to her. Her kisses were sweet and trusting, opening herself to him completely. He picked her up and lay her back on the bed. Brushing the hair from her face, he examined her. Watched her eyes dance over his features. Watched her lips quiver in her excitement. He didn’t deserve so rare a beauty, but she wanted him and he reveled in it.

“Retexere Vestimentum “ Severus said pointing his wand at her. The spell having stripped her of her clothing, he brought his head down and planted a kiss in the valley between her full breasts. She moaned encouragingly, paying no heed to her sudden nakedness.

“Retexere Exuvarum” He said pointing the wand at himself. Nude now, he pressed his skin to hers, kissing her again, de wit with more urgency. Running his hand down to her hardened nipple, he brushed the palm of his hand over it, teasing her, making her arch up for more contact. That’s what he wanted. He wanted her to beg him to take her, beg him to teach her the skills of the flesh.

“Please, Severus ……. I want you” Valora breathed into his ear. Slowly, he knew he needed to go slowly, building her excitement to make her ready for the brief pain to come.

“Patience, my sweet. There is time.” Severus said capturing a nipple in his mouth, sucking it and licking the very tip making her jump. Then doing the same to the other. She was rubbing her legs together now and he could smell the fragrance of her arousal. He ran his hand down across her stomach and into her nether regions. He groaned excitedly at the amount of moisture he found there. She lifted her hips to him, offering herself to his ministrations.

Kissing her again, he slowly inserted a finger into her, as his tongue plunged into her mouth. He groaned again as he felt her inner muscles clenching him and her hips writhing under his hand. He had to have her, but was still unwilling to hurt her.

Severus rolled onto his back. Valora immediately lay on top of him, kissing him and rubbing her hot wet center over his own aching length.

She sat up, grasping him and maneuvering herself into position. “Slowly Valora, go slow.” He told her, but her eyes were wild with unsated lust. He felt her slipping down onto him, until he felt her virginal barrier.

She looked at him, unsure what to do next. He reached a hand down and began rubbing her pleasure nub, making her gasp and buck, trying to take more of him in, but still unable to. He continued to rub her, putting one hand on her hip. As she threw back her head calling out his name in her release he pulled her hip down hard and pushed his length into her. Her cries of pleasure turned to a gasp of pain mixing with his own moans as he felt her barrier give way.

She lay still on top of him, waiting for more pain, but he didn’t move. He was rubbing her back and pulling her head up to kiss her. As he kissed her deeply, he felt her move experimentally. He could feel himself throbbing dangerously. But he didn’t want to release until she did again, with him inside. He pushed her up a little, so he could reach her little nub. Rubbing her again, she began to gasp and revolve her hips on top of him. Never breaking contact, she began to gasp, crying out his name. He moved beneath her making three or four thrusts up and exploded into her, her name on his lips.


Severus awoke to a vaguely familiar wet feeling in his boxers. He groaned loudly. This was the fourth morning this week he had awoken this way after having dreams about taking Valora’s virginity.

She had been out of the Infirmary only about ten days. The only time he saw her was in class and at meals, when she came. It was almost as if, the less he saw of her, the more his dreams revolved around her. Sighing disgustedly, he threw back the blanket and got up to take a shower. Even this reminded him of her. She liked the smell of his soap and the small amount of almond oil he used in his hair. She would be in class todayat’sat’s why he had dreamt of her. As he soaped himself he ran the dream through his mind again, feeling his body responding to his soapy hand. Remembering kissing her lips in the Infirmary and holding her body close to him on the bed, he quickly brought himself to a real release calling out Valora’s name.




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