Losing You:

Sirius awoke in shock, his body was in pain, “bloody hell” he groaned, “language Mr Black” he heard Madame Pomfrey said with a stern look, “oh sorry… What happened?” Sirius asked, wincing as he sat up slowly, “careful, you were hit by a curse, casted by your friend James –“.

“He’s not my friend” Sirius looked at her, his eyes were cold, she sighed, “I tried to heal your wounds, but, they only left scars” she said sadly, “that’s alright… I’m gonna go home anyway, mum will look after me” Sirius said with a smile. “You’re leaving… Are you coming back?” Pomfrey asked with concern, “no, I’m leaving for good, my mother’s agreed on home school me” Sirius replied as he got comfortable. The nurse looked shocked, “oh… Uh, well I hope you do well then” she said before quickly making her way to their way to her desk. Sirius knew that she was quite surprised, James, Peter, Remus and him were so close, but now they had drifted away from him by so much that he couldn’t even handle it. There was a knock on the door and Sirius couldn’t help but look up to see who was visiting, and to his surprise, it was Lily. Her hair was placed in a very neat plait and her nice pink top seem to glow and over power her dark jeans. “Sirius” was all she said and he looked away, “oh god Sirius, I’m so sorry about what James did”.

“You don’t have to be sorry, I deserved it –“.

“Sirius!” Lily spat, catching his full attention, “I agree, whatever you did was downright stupid” she said, seating herself next to him, “but that doesn’t mean you deserve to be hit with a curse… When you were unconscious, I managed to slip through here… You nearly died from all the blood loss Sirius… James would’ve killed you if it weren’t for the teachers” she said, tears forming in her eyes. He stared at her, “what happened after I left?” Was all he asked and Lily sucked in some air, “I gave James a piece of my mind”.

“Oh really, funny, what did you call him?” Sirius smiled, finally finding some humour, “well I think I called him a pathetic excuse of a Pure blood, or something along the lines of that” she chuckled, “ouch” Sirius laughed, “you really didn’t have to stick up for me” Sirius added on, but Lily shook he head, “Sirius, it’s not because you needed the help, I wanted to help” she stated, raking her fingers through her fringe, “because believe it or not, since I had grown closer to James, I had grown closer to you and Remus… Not as much as Peter –“.

“Oh by the way, not that long ago I had bumped into Peter, and apparently he was trying to turn things around” Sirius said, Lily scratched her chin, “yes well, when I looked at the boys, it seemed that Peter was the only one that was more mature in this situation” she said. Sirius smiled, Lily was like a mother, and he always wanted a mother that acted like her, his smile was gone, “I’m leaving tonight” he said in a hollow tone and Lily frowned, “leaving… Where?”

“I’m going back home, and I’m not coming back”.

“What? You’re not doing this because of James –“.

“Trust me Lily; I’m not doing overly well, so I think its best… And the boys are avoiding me, and I can’t handle it anymore, so please, let me go” Sirius pleaded. Lily eyed him off with sorrow, “alright… Promise to write to me?”

“Only if you promise to say that you’re a Pureblood… Because of my mother you know” Sirius said with a sad smile. She smiled and nodded, “I have to go now” she quickly got up and before Sirius could do anything she pressed her lips against his, they were soft. A nice flower smell had started to fill his nose, they broke apart, Sirius was flustered, “Lily, you shouldn’t have done –“. She put her hand up to stop him, “I didn’t do that because I’m in love with you, it was a goodbye and best of luck kiss” she said with a wink, and Sirius sighed in relief. Lily smiled warmly and left, leaving the Gryffindor along once again.
Sirius stayed in the wing for hours until his mother had arrived, “hey mum” he said shyly, and thankfully she smiled at him, “your trunk is already gone, so we can go” she said. Sirius could no longer feel any pain, so he got up and gathered his robes, following his mother out into the hall. That’s when he saw Peter, Peter stopped in his tracks, his eyes on Sirius, and all Sirius could do was put a finger on his lips, reminding Peter about the promise he made so many days ago. Peter’s jaw tightened and then he turned and fled and Sirius continued following his mother out of the castle and back home.

Peter kept silent the next day, Sirius hadn’t come to the first two classes, and he could see that the two other Marauders were starting to wonder, and he could hear them talking, “Sirius wasn’t in bed, did you see him around?” Remus asked with concern and even James was quite concerned, “Remus I haven’t seen him since I threw a curse on him” he said. There was a tap on his shoulder, and he was surprised to see Lily, she never really spoke to him. “We need to talk at recess” she said sternly. Peter nodded and waited until the bell went. When it did, Lily and Peter rushed away from the Remus and James, who were still figuring out what the hell happened to Sirius. They found a quiet spot so that no one could hear them, “this is about Sirius” she said, “oh yeah, he looked fine, I saw him last night”.

“But did you tell Remus and James?” She asked and Peter shook his head, “Sirius made me do a promise that I wouldn’t tell them” Peter said, Lily scratched her chin, “Let’s do this, if they ask you, tell them that he died”.

“What? I can’t do that, that’s not true, what if they go to the teachers and ask?” Peter shot back, but Lily shook her head, “no, don’t worry, the teachers aren’t allowed to say anything, I heard his mother talking to Albus, and he said that he’ll try and keep the boys away… Sad, but true” she replied. Peter sighed, “How is this going to work?”

“James needs his head screwed on properly, I know he still doesn’t care about that curse, and I want him to change”.

“You can change someone”.

“Peter”.

“Alright, I’ll see what I can do… Boy I hope this works” Peter sighed as he left her side to find the two other Marauders. Remus and James were sitting under the old oak, “where were you?” James asked in interest, “I was talking to Lily” Peter tried his best to put on the saddest face he could make, “what’s with the long face… what happened?” Remus asked and Peter sat down. “Sirius is dead” he replied, Remus’s face went pale and he placed his hand on his stomach whilst James dropped his food in shock, “what! No, that can’t be… Peter, don’t lie to me” Remus said, Peter frowned, “I’m serious, Lily had managed to get into the wing, and that’s when they announced him dead… James, you killed Sirius” Peter said, his heart breaking whilst he said the words. James had gone as pale Remus now, “that can’t be… Peter… Are you sure?”

“James!”

“Alright, alright… Oh gods, Remus kill me now” James sobbed, but Remus was fighting his own battle. The boys sat in silence until James had spotted Lily, who was doing a brilliant job of acting her sorrow, but really she was upset, the fact that Sirius was no longer around. “Lily?” James gently said, he had left the boys to confront her, and she whirled around in anger, “get away from me Potter” she snarled and James took a step towards her, “Lily, I never meant to hurt him –“.

“That’s what Sirius said to you about Remus, pathetic!” She snarled, “Lily –“.

“Don’t talk to me, he died because of you!” She pushed past him, almost making him topple over, but he felt strong hands catch him, looking up he saw Remus, his eyes were red and puffy. James closed his eyes; he wanted this all to end.