Why Me?

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One year later….

One night an owl came. Harry hasn’t told Claudia about the Wizarding world. For Claudia this was strange, she’d never seen an owl so close to people, especially one carrying a piece of paper on his leg? Very odd, because there no owls in Puerto Rico and most strangely trained. Harry got up quickly but she notices his very tense and nervous.

She made a face and turned to Harry, “Harry, that’s curious, there’s a bird on our window, knocking…”

“A bird? Let’s see...” Harry just froze, his mind went blank. He let the owl in. It was his solicitor requesting his presence on and urgent matter. Harry knew that everything was fine and that his assets were very well guarded in the Wizarding bank, so this request came as a shock; it was unexpected. But know how he will explain, the past is catching up with him. Claudia just looks at him and waits for him.

He had always been so careful guarding his secret from her. In this past two years he had visited England, always d by the Ministry or his solicitor requests. Those were very short trips, lasting a few hours and mostly done by portkey. He managed to keep everything away from his new life and from Claudia.

She suspects that he is hiding information from her. But what is it? Doesn’t he trust her? Harry is reserve when it comes to his past, friends or business. But she knows that he is a very important and wealthy. In the time he had been with them he never had worked but he is very generous and is always trying to pay for everything. Harry had received letters with golden seals, but she had never pressured him, feeling that when he is good and ready he will come clean with her.

She loves him, in the beginning it was more pity than anything, he had suffered so much, now everything is different. She will give anything she has to see him smile, laugh and see him free from the nightmares that plague his sleep, but most of all from the guilt that he carries, that she knows could had been be prevented. His broken soul had started to mend, but his secrets will never let the healing be complete until he opens up.

She notices that every time she starts to read her favorite book from JK Rowling, he tries to distract her or come up with something to do. Or when she wants something and before she tells him about it appears. Like he can read her mind or something, but that is impossible. But she dismisses it.

For Harry to comply with Claudia’s desires were simple use of Legilimancy and he could make something simple into something spectacular; of course he got the help of his elves, but he is very careful, he avoids all magic outburst. Keeping Claudia in the dark about his magic was not easy but he will not jeopardize his new found happiness for anything.

He glanced at Claudia; she watched him curiously and then came the questions – a thousand of them. He couldn’t look at her.
He had been planning to propose to her that night on the beach, with the full moon as a witness… and now this.

He was never planning to tell her about his past or who he really was, she never asked him anything or pressure him to talk, she just loved him for who he is, not his image of Savior of the Wizarding World.

“Harry, is that a letter? Is this a trained bird? Harry this is just incredible!” Harry just stood there speechless wearing a worried expression. Claudia sensed a shift in his mood, “Sweetie, please look at me. What’s going on? Why are you looking me like that? Why do you look guilty? Harry, please, you’re scaring me,” she pleaded.

“I’m sorry Claudia, I will explain everything tomorrow.” Every single fear of losing her came back with that owl, Can she accept him for what he is? Would she forgive him for deceiving her? He tried to get close to her, but she stepped back, staring at him, searching for answers, looking at him straight in the eye.
She wasn’t letting him go without answers, “No, this time will not let you dismiss it that easily Harry. I need to understand, I have never ask you of your past, for me is not important as your present and our future, but your nightmares are always so full anguish I need to know what’s going on,” Claudia looked at him with a mix of sadness and fear in her eyes. She never expected this.

He turned to leave, something he did often when he felt overwhelmed, but this time she stopped him before he left the room and held him. She took his face into her hands looking at him, and speaks,”Harry, it’s that you are not telling me is ok, but clearly something is not right. I think I need to know, better yet I deserve to know what it is, please it’s killing me inside, I can promise you whatever it is I can help you handle it, because I love you, but you have to tell me the truth. You will not be completely free from your nightmares and your sorrow until you let it go.”

With a sigh Harry dropped himself in the seat and told Claudia the whole story. She didn’t interrupt him; she heard everything and waited for him to finish. She had only one concern: how will this information affect them? …and not only them… Harry didn’t know yet, but Claudia was three months pregnant. She was planning to tell him tonight. She knows that he will be thrilled, because she knew how much he loved children from watching him play with his nieces and nephews, but this news could change everything.

Harry finished his story and looked at Claudia full of expectancy and a little fear. This was too much to take in in one day. He knew that Claudia loved him but, he had kept his life from her; his soul.

“You know that I love JK Rowling’s books, on this character of Harry Potter, and you knew all along that was based on your life and you never told me?” Her voice cracked, tears forming in her eyes, “Harry why? Every time that you joke about me believing in magic and in this wonderful world you called it fantasy, you called it unreal and you knew that was real, you knew that it there and you joked around telling me that it was childish of me to believe! All this time this was real. Was I not good enough to confide in me? Or was it because I am…,” she looked around searching for the right word, “What is called in the books a Muggle? All this time you lied to me… I only have one more question. Have you ever really loved me or I am just a convenient shag with no strings attach?, Oh my God I’m and idiot of course you don’t, is not allowed,” Tears were flowing on her cheeks, she needs air she needs to get out, she’s suffocating .

Harry desperately grab her by her waist, and make her face him, he needed to make her understand, , but she pushes him out of the way and runs to the beach. It is a beautiful night with a full moon, the sea just craches on the shore and is there where she fell on his knees sobbing. The sound of the coquí and the sounds of nature are like a balm to her spirit. She needed to think. Unconsciously she put a hand on her flat belly, “I am sorry sweet angel mummy is just upset right now”

“Claudia” he startle her ”please don’t run from me, you are the most important person in this world for me, I do not know how to live if you are not with me, but I am begging you let me explain, let me tell you everything, what I told you before was the truth . I promise you no more lies, no more omissions, just the truth” he sighs. He stands and walks to the shore until the water touches his feet. He knows how she hates lies and secrets, this is not going to be easy and he can lose everything. Turning to face her he starts…

“All my life they expected this Hero, and I could never live my childhood without someone trying to kill me, I became something like a symbol to the Wizarding World, I was just a kid, I didn’t ever knew that I was a wizard until the age of eleven. When everything ended, I was lost, I didn’t know who I was or if I truly belong, I felt empty I could not recall how I get here. I only closed my eyes and thought about a peaceful paradise, when you found me was only hours from the Final Battle”

He drops besides her and continues. ”There were so many losses. Sirius, Remus, Tonks, Dumbledore, Fred and so many more that I couldn’t take it anymore and I ran like a coward. When I wake up and I saw you and your family went far and beyond to help me, a stranger and invite me to stay, I thought that the Universe was giving me another chance a chance to start over and live, being just only me I am alive when I am with you, You bring to my life peace, hope and happiness. I love you”

Claudia took a huge breath trying to calm herself; this is not good for the baby, she thought. She turned and spoke, “Harry, I’m in love with you. God help me but I do! Since we met I have been honest, sincere and there for you in the measure that you have allowed me that hadn’t been much, not that I’m regretting it”; she sighs; “what I mean is that this is too much.” Harry’s heart is on his throat,’ this is not happening, this is a nightmare and I will wake up soon’.

Claudia walked closer to Harry and put her arms around his waist, “My love for you is so strong, but you have to give me time to absorb all this. You have to understand that this is too much to take in just a few hours. I feel betrayed. I need some space Harry; you have to return to England and during that time think about what you want to do. Please I only ask you to make absolutely sure on what you want and that after that they will be no regrets. I promised you I will accept any decision that you take without a fuss, but tonight, please I am exhausted, please just hold me and don’t make any promises.” With that said Harry, exhaled and kissed her with all his being, giving in that kiss all his love, hopes and dreams.

There’s an old saying, “If you love someone or something set it free; if returns it’s yours, but if it doesn’t, it never was.” If this was for Harry’s benefit she’d already made her decision, she would let him go even if it killed her. She would set him free..

If he decides that his world is more important, then she will have the memories and stories to pass to her own child, to his child. She decided that she wouldn’t tell him fearing it would place unneeded pressure on him and he didn’t need that.

After a while, they walked to their house. Harry held her and just watched her sleep. He would do everything in his power to keep this piece of paradise and his beloved safe, He promised to never lie to her ever again to return to her and never let her go.