A Life Changed

hey there... well three chapters in a a day and a half! woOt i am so proud of myself. =^.^= kitty faces for everyone =^.^= =^.^= =^.^= =^.^= =^.^= =^.^= =^.^= =^.^= =^.^= =^.^= =^.^=

Anyway im glad i have been getting some people reviewing but it would be great if everyone could review and tell me what they think of this story

A/N thrnbrooke - thanks again for reviewing and i might have a beta and if i do then i will fix the pervious chapters cause i suck at proofreading my own work.

Anyway

Third chapter that has been beta'd

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After the shock of Harry's answer subsided Draco went in the bathroom trying to get himself mentally prepared. He had never instructed someone how to have sex before especially if there was no sex to be had. How he was going to handle being turned on by Harry being a voyeur? It turned him on to no extent. He had to calm himself down before he went out there. Slowly he relaxed himself as he opened the door stepping out. He had stripped down to only his robe which covered his naked body. As instructed Harry was down to only his boxers making Draco drool. Damn! Quidditch was great to him. Those rock hard six-pack abs just begged to be tasted. There was no real reason why Harry had to strip down but for selfish reasons Draco wanted to see the man partially naked. Draco could feel himself getting hard but he had to calm down or scare Harry.

"So how is this going to work?" Harry asked as Draco bit his lip.

"Well I guess I could show you the main points." Draco said as he walked to a trunk on the side of the room. He pulled out a cloth wrapped item. "Now Harry you are going to have to promise not to freak out or tell anyone I have this." Draco said as he clutched the item rather tight. Harry raised an eyebrow as he nodded slightly. What could Draco have that was so embarrassing? Draco slowly walked over and set the item down and began to unwrap it. Slowly Draco revealed that it was a 10 inch dildo that was light blue in color. Harry gasped as he looked at it.

"What the..." he stopped the words before they left. He promised not to freak out and he had to hold his tongue. Draco blushed red.

"This was a birthday present from Pansy. She thought it would embarrass me but to her surprise I liked it." Draco said as he looked at Harry. "Ok to begin with we would get naked and sorta try to turn each other on by touching each other." Draco said as he pulled out some small bottles.

"When you say touching does that mean like private areas?" Harry asked as Draco blushed nodding.

"But it doesn't just have to be there. Anywhere can be a place to turn one on." Draco said as he gently squirted some blue gel onto the dildo.

"What are you doing?" Harry asked as Draco blushed brightly as he rubbed in the gel.

"Getting it slick. Otherwise it hurts," the blonde said as he stroked it gently. This part always turned him on but the fact that Harry was watching his hands so intently intensified the feeling.

"So your going to use that in front of me?" Harry asked cursing the fact that his voice was so shaky. He didn't know why he was so out of breath at the display. Harry shouldn't be turned on by the fact that Draco was stroking a fake manhood. Although it did look like he would give a very good hand-job with how he was stroking it.

"Well it's really the only way to show you how to do this properly." Draco said as the brunette nodded slowly. Slowly Draco set down the dildo and unbuttoned his robe letting it fall showing his naked body to Harry. He felt so exposed and he didn't know how he should feel about it. Normally he didn't get turned on by just being naked in front of a guy but this time he felt like he was being caressed by Harry's eyes. Harry couldn't help it but stare at Draco's body. He was pale as the moonlight and he had a girl like figure. The muscles from Quidditch seemed to only slightly tone him not make him bulky. If one were to put breasts and a womanhood on him he could easily pass for a woman. No wonder he preferred bottom. He seemed so fragile. Even his manhood was rather thin.

'Wait just a second. Why am I checking him out! I'm not gay!' Harry thought as Draco took the dildo into his hands and sat down on the bed.

"Okay so after we both are as hard as we can stand, we could either give oral or not. When it comes to having sex with a man there is really only one way and thats through the back hole." Draco felt his cheeks heat up as he laid back on the bed his knees bending up. "For you... this dildo will simulate what you would do." Draco said as he was slightly breathless. He gently placed the head of the dildo to his entrance slowly pushing in. Draco gasped as he bit his lip. Slowly he moved it around sliding it in deeper and deeper. Harry watched as he watched the blue toy disappear between Draco's ass cheeks. He suddenly felt breathless as he watched. The look on Draco's face was pleasure in its purest form. He was thorough enjoying what was happening. Harry felt himself grow hard as he watched Draco's hand move the toy faster inside him. The sounds Draco was making were a cross between a cry and a moan. He almost clawing at the sheets with his free hand until it started to stroke himself.

'I think he has forgotten im here... oh damn why cant i look away...' Harry wondered as saw Draco whole body tensing as his release was coming close. With one last strangled cry Draco came hard on his stomach his body bowing up only to collapse back onto the bed in a tired heap. Draco slowly panted as his eyes adjust to meet a pair of dark emerald eyes.

"Shit!" Draco sprang up only to fall onto the floor from his legs being weak from his orgasm. Harry got up and knelt by him.

"Are you alright?" Harry asked as Draco leaned into Harry for support.

"I'm sorry I guess I got carried away. I don't normally have an audience." Draco said as Harry shook his head.

"It's understandable," he said as Draco blushed as they slowly made it to the bathroom. Quickly they cleaned both Draco and the dildo off. Harry had retrieved Draco's cloak wrapping it around his shoulders. "So thats all there is to it?" Harry asked as Draco nod slowly wrapping up the dildo.

"Thats pretty much it. Oral is just as it sounds and I doubt you want to prepare me with anything other than your fingers." Draco said putting the toy back in the trunk and shutting it.

"What do you mean by anything other than my fingers?" Harry asked as Draco blushed.

"Well it's possible to use your tongue to prepare a guy for sex but like I said, I doubt you want to do that." Draco finished as he held the robe around him. "So um do you want to just go over some wedding things?" Draco asked as Harry nodded knowing that the conversation about sex was over. Harry sighed as he grabbed his pants sliding them on. He sat down next to Draco as he shows the list again. "What do you want to start with?" Draco asked as Harry looked over the list.

"Why does this say "Dress or Dress Robe?" Harry asked as Draco blushed brightly.

"Well I was trying to decide whether I should wear an actual dress or a dress robe." the blonde said as Harry looked at him oddly.

"So you would wear a dress like a white ball gown?" Harry asked as Draco blushed nodding.

"If thats what you want. I mean either one is good it just is up to you." Draco said as the panic once again showed evidently in his voice.

"You know you dont have to do everything that I say. If you want to wear a dress wear a dress then." Harry said as Draco looked up at him in surprise.

"You... you want me to pick what I want?" Draco whispered as Harry nodded. Why was is so impossible that Draco couldn't make his own choices? His mother must have forced him to do everything she said. The fear he had for the woman was rapidly becoming distaste.

"I want you to tell me what you want Bunny. I don't want to be the only one making all the decisions in this marriage." Harry said as Draco lowered his head.

"I'm sorry old habit," the blonde whispered as the brunette gently rested his hand on Draco's shoulder.

"It's okay. You don't have to try to appease me at every chance you get." Harry said as Draco looked at him and smiled softly.

"Thanks Harry. And I think I will see which looks better, a dress or a dress robe then I'll decide." Draco said as Harry nodded.

"Will I get to see you in them?" Harry asked as Draco shook his head.

"It's tradition that the groom doesn't see the dress until the ceremony." Draco said with a cute pout to his lips. Harry blinked rapidly as he smiled sweetly.

"I guess if it's tradition. Well what else?" Harry asked and a few hours passed. The planning was slow as they tossed ideas back and forth as much as a couple could do with one being almost too willing to please the other. The wedding would be rather large since both had big family circle consisting of friends. Draco warned Harry that a lot of the Malfoy family was still alive. The oldest being Draco's great-great grandmother. Draco was her favorite great-great grandson. A lot of them would have problems with Harry's friends. They decided that the next thing they would work on is the seating arrangement for the ceremony and reception. Soon the sound of people getting up hit Harry's ears.

"Sounds like people are getting up. Are you hungry?" Harry asked as Draco nodded happily. Heading downstairs the sound of loud talking was heard. Harry stopped Draco before getting to the end of the staircase.

"Sirius why are you acting this way? Harry is your godson you should be supportive of him." Remus yelled as the sound of footsteps moved to him.

"Remus you don't understand! This will ruin Harry's chances at a normal life. He will have the son of a former Death Eater permanently attached to him!" Sirius yelled as the sound of clanging dishes was heard.

"What is so bad about Draco? He seems very nice." Remus tried to reason as Sirius yelled.

"Harry already has enough on his plate! What with Voldemort always tapping into his dreams and the looming war. He doesn't need my cousin also trying to hurt him by going through someone he is supposed to marry!" Sirius shouted. As Harry listened he could feel Draco shaking behind him. He gently took the blonde's hand into his as he looked at him. Draco's eyes were scared and sad as he looked like he was on the brink of crying. Harry squeezed Draco's hand as he gently wiped away a tear that was forming. The pain in Draco's silver eyes made his chest feel very tight.

"Sirius that is why we are here! We can help him if anything happens. Your excuses are weak at best and it pisses you off." Remus said as Sirius stepped to the stairs looking at Harry and Draco. Harry looked at Sirius with dark eyes.

"Sirius either you can support me in my decision or I won't be here in your life. You are the only part of my family who i have left," Harry said as he held Draco's hand tight. Sirius' eyes were shocked as he looked at his godson. He was so much like James in many ways but now as he got older he saw more of Lily in him. No matter what the problem Lily would do what she knew was right, even if it meant she might be unhappy.

"Harry... you... " Sirius tried but he sighed deeply. "Alright... I will support you in whatever you decide." Sirius said as Remus breathed a sigh of relief. Harry felt Draco squeeze his hand as Harry led them away from the stairs into the kitchen. Sirius watched his godson start to make something for Draco who just stood there watching him. Remus gently pushed the dog-man up the stairs as Draco bit his lip.

"Your godfather hates me." Draco said as Harry looked at him.

"No. He is just worried for my safety. Just give him time," Harry said as Draco looked at him smiling softly.

"Thanks Harry." Draco said gently hugging Harry. Harry gasped as he slowly pushed Draco away slightly. Suddenly Draco's eyes widened. "Oh sorry. Not ready for that kind of touching. I understand." Draco said stepping back. Harry felt as if he had just kicked Draco while he was down. But he just couldn't be that close to Draco. What happened before was more than Harry had ever seen and something in the back of his head told him that he shouldn't have let it happen. He slowly let himself sigh as he went back to making breakfast. Draco slowly sat down on a stool in the kitchen and looked at Harry. "Harry do you hate me?" Draco asked after a stretch of silence. Harry looked at Draco and shook his head.

"I mean I did, but not now." Harry spoke as he plated the breakfast.

"Could you ever love me?" Dracoa asked the question that had been burning in his mind since he found out about the arrangement. Harry stilled in his movements as he thought about what he could say.

"I don't know Bunny. I really don't know."