Love Songs: Loving the Dark Wizard

Immortality by LadyVoldemort87



Year of Release: 1996





So this is who I am

And this is all I know

And I must choose to live

For all that I can give

The spark that makes the power grow







Severus Snape sat stiffly watching as the Dark Lord paced in front of him, his unnaturally red eyes glowing in the subtle darkness of the Shrieking Shack. He could sense Voldemort’s sheer fury at being evaded once more by the now, Man Who Lived. It had been five long years that Potter had been hidden away from the wizarding world, gathering troops, skilled witches and wizards for the Order of the Phoenix. Severus too, in those five years he had lived his life, albeit by the side of the Dark Lord, but still lived. The Dark Lord had made him headmaster after brutally taking the life of Albus Dumbledore, Snape’s friend and long time mentor.



He could see the anger building in the snake like Lord, in front of him. The very essence of evil. He hoped to god that Potter had destroyed every Horcrux, in the years he had been constantly on different missions, here, there and everywhere. Severus wished to what ever higher power was listening that maybe after tonight he be allowed to live his life in peace, that he be a Death Eater no more.



Severus knew what life awaited him outside his Death Eater persona, a calm, simple existence, one filled with peace and quiet. Severus would never deny his dark side, it had been the driving force of his every action that brought him the pinnacle of this very moment. He knew in this very minute, how temperamental the Dark Lord was. His every success hung on this night, and Severus could almost taste his defeat in the air. If only Potter would take his swelled head out of the sand and in to gear.



He could hear the sounds of the battle that raged, upon the grounds of Hogwarts. He could hear the mercy filled screams of Death Eaters and Order members alike, each content with wounding and killing as many as they could. His only prayer was for her, the woman he loved, cherished, with all his heart.



But I will stand for one dream if I can

Symbol of my faith in who I am

But you are my only





He could still remember the feel of her kiss, from that very same morning as she left his bedside at Spinners End. Her long curly hair braided into a rope, swinging from side to side as she moved around their bedroom. His heart gave a uncomfortable lurch as he thought of her, out there, fighting. He knew she was ready to die for what she believed in, but he wasn’t ready to lose her.



He wasn’t an overly selfish wizard, or demanding. He didn’t ask for much or accrue many things, but she was the one thing he wasn’t prepared to let go of. He never thought he would have the chance to love again, let alone find happiness. He thought he had lost that power when Lily was taken from this world, by the very man who paced before him. That was his one shining thing he had over Voldemort, the key point to his victory. He severely underestimated the power of love.



Suddenly, as if from nowhere, quietness filled the air. Voldemort’s head rose upward and looked out over the cracks in the shacks walls.



“He has come!” hissed Voldemort, his eyes dancing with sheer joy.



“Then let us leave, my Lord.” said Severus as he made to stand.



“Oh, I don’t think so Severus…I know the secret you have hid from me for all these years….A Mudblood….How very….Predictable of you, Severus. Surely after the untimely death of your first Mudblood, you would realise that I would not allow you another.” said Voldemort as he turned toward the potions master.



“My Lord? I’m afraid I don’t understand.” said Severus.



Voldemort laughed cruelly, “Kill, then follow on.” he hissed in parseltongue to his snake familiar, he took once last look at Snape and walked away, saying his barely audible last words, “I regret it.”



And I must follow on the road that lies ahead

I wont let my heart control my head

But you are my only





Snape tried to move from the chair but found himself bound by invisible bonds. Shuddering as the snake’s long thick body slid over his. He flinched in his restraints as the snake opened it’s mouth, it’s fangs shining in the moonlight. Severus physically shook as the snake lunged at his throat, ripping into the skin of this throat, releasing it’s venom into his bloodstream. He felt himself falling. Until he hit the cold hard floor.



The snake hissed as it pulled away, its jaws stained with Severus’ blood. It’s tongue sliding in and out, tasting the air. He watched in horror as it’s head turned in the direction of the door, himself having heard subtle footsteps. He could feel the venom taking over , slowly killing him as the footsteps grew louder. He barely heard the pained whisper of his name as the visitor entered the room.



And we don’t say goodbye

We don’t say goodbye

And I know what Ive got to be…





He could see her clearly as his eyes began to close, her long curly hair, in disarray, her amber eyes shining like glowing embers. He saw her tear tracked face, and her hand on her heart, her chest rising and falling rapidly. He imagined the snake rising up posed to attack and the loud cry of “Oh no, you don’t!”.



Immortality

I make my journey through eternity

I keep the memory of you and me

Inside





He imagined her swinging the heavy sword of Gryffindor at Nagini’s body, and the snake’s head falling to the floor with a loud thud. He imagined her dropping the sword and dashing across to him, kneeling at his side, her tears splashing off his cold face. It was only as her warm hand touched his face did he realise she was really here. His eyes slowly opened and he saw her leaning over him her hands shaking as she messed with the lid, on a tiny bottle full of pearlescent liquid.



“Damn it, Severus! Don’t you leave me! Don‘t let this be goodbye!” she cried.



“H…He…Her..Hermione.” he gasped, the pain radiating through his body.



She prized the lid off finally, and doused his wound with the shimmering liquid. It instantly started to spit and burn, so much that Severus began to cry out in earnest. Hermione began to chant as the liquid began to draw the venom out of Severus’ body. She cast her charms in concentric circles as she chanted, as the harmful venom was drawn upward out of Snape’s body. She banished it as it appeared.



We don’t say goodbye

We don’t say goodbye

I’ll make them all remember me





Finally Severus gave a pained gasp as the final drop of venom left his body. He lay shuddering as Hermione closed the wound on his throat, healing it best she could. Finally, he gave one last violent shudder and lay completely still. For a spilt second Hermione, thought she had lost him. Until he arched off the floor clutching his Dark Mark, that glowed brightly, then faded completely leaving his forearm, pale and unblemished once more.



“He’s done it!” gasped Hermione.



“The Dark Lord is dead.” rasped Severus, who grabbed hold of Hermione’s hand and squeezed.



“You’re free, Severus. Finally free.” she cried as she lend her head against his chest as he took several deep breaths.





Cause I have found the dream that must come true

Every ounce of me must see it through

But you are my only



I’m sorry I don’t have the role for love to play

Hand over my heart Ill find my way

I will make them give to me…





1 year later….





“When I think back to when I first met Severus Snape, I will admit now, I thought he was trying to kill me,” said Harry as a ring of laughter filled the Great Hall, “But over the years, time and time again, he saved my life. Risked his life so the son of Lily Evans, could live another day. There is not a day that goes by that I do not thank Professor Dumbledore, wherever he may be, for the Phoenix Tears, that saved his life. I could wish for no better man for my son’s Godfather, than Severus Snape, and now I trust him with another of my treasured gifts. My wonderful best friend, and member of my family, Hermione.”



A cheer rang up from around the Great hall as Harry Potter stepped down from the Headmasters podium after giving his speech. Out the corner of his eye he could see his own wife Luna Potter, nee Lovegood, crying as she rocked Albus Remus. Their son James sitting beside her, his raven hair sticking up, in a Potteresque manner. Luna’s hand was firmly attached to Hermione’s as she smiled, her eyes filled with tears.



Severus stood, his own son perched on his shoulder, fast asleep. Aurelius Tobias Snape born barely eight months after the war was the image of his father, with a head full of black curly hair, except for his mothers golden eyes, and offered his hand to his new bride. Hermione smiled as she was led out on the dance floor, with Severus carefully holding their boy as they rocked together.



She took the time, to look into his eyes as they danced, and was overwhelmed by the amount of love that shone from his obsidian eyes. Love for her and their son. She wouldn’t think about the day she nearly lost him, but look only to the long and happy future they had together.



In all my love for you

And what else we may do



We don’t say….. Goodbye…



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My first ever SS/HG fic!



Written for Snapes_Goddess’ Love Song Challenge



Published August 8th 2008



So this is who I am

And this is all I know

And I must choose to live

For all that I can give

The spark that makes the power grow



But I will stand for one dream if I can

Symbol of my faith in who I am

But you are my only



And I must follow on the road that lies ahead

I wont let my heart control my head

But you are my only



And we don’t say goodbye

We don’t say goodbye

And I know what Ive got to be...



Immortality

I make my journey through eternity

I keep the memory of you and me

Inside



Fulfil your destiny

Its there within the child

My storm will never end

My fate is on the wind

The king of hearts

The jokers wild



We don’t say goodbye

We don’t say goodbye

Ill make them all remember me



Cause I have found the dream that must come true

Every ounce of me must see it through

But you are my only



I’m sorry I don’t have the role for love to play

Hand over my heart Ill find my way

I will make them give to me...



Immortality

There is a vision and a fire in me

I keep the memory of you and me

Inside



And we don’t say goodbye

We don’t say goodbye



In all my love for you

And what else we may do



We don’t say goodbye...