No One's Better For you Than Me

Chapter trois

Crazy By: Patsy Cline best listened to the remake by The Kidney Thieves.

Crazy, Crazy for feeling so lonely
I’m crazy, Crazy for feeling so blue I knew You’d love me as long as you wanted
And then someday You’d leave me for somebody new
Worry Why do I let myself worry Wondrin What in the world did I do
Crazy For thinking that my love could hold you
I’m crazy for tryin’ Crazy for cryin’
And I’m crazy For lovin’ you


Ginny hadn’t eaten breakfast at all that morning and refused to even step foot in to the great hall in case he was there. She in fact went straight to her classroom. She looked down at her schedule and saw that her first class of the day was, third year Gryffindor and Slytherins. Ginny hated her self for looking at her schedule, for the fact that it was Slytherins meant that she had to teach his house. She refused to even think of his name she was so mad.


Students seemed to file in to her class groups of three or more until every seat was filled. She smiled at the class and was scared of what she wanted to do next.


“Ok guys this is your only chance, I want to get to know you, and I’m sure you all have questions for me so. Let’s begin!”


Hands shoot in to the air as if they were on fire.


“Are you married?” asked a young Gryffindor


“No…” Ginny answered, and then asked of that student, “What’s your favorite subject here at Hogwarts?”


“Herbology.” He stated as another student shouted “Is it true you went out with The Harry Potter?”


Ginny blushed. “Yes, I use to go out Harry Potter and we remain close friends. What’s your favorite Quiddutch team?” The student shouted out “Chuddley cannons”

Ginny smiled, “That’s my brother’s favorite team.” Ginny barely got out as she was bombarded with four more questions at once.


“Did you and Harry ever kiss?” Said a young girl who blushed scarlet red


“Did you fight He-who-must-not-be-named?” A young Slytherin asked.


“Is George Weasley your brother?” Asked a young boy, who looked to be a trouble maker.


“When you went to Hogwarts Which house was yours?” asked a snickering Slytherin.


Ginny hearing every single question pointed at each person and answered in order,
“Yes me and Harry did kiss, No I never fought He-who-must-not-be-named, yes my brother is George Weasley, I have 5 more brothers also but no sisters, I personally was in Gryffindor.” Ginny paused and then asked each one “What is your favorite creature?”


“Hippogriff”, “Mere folk”, “Bogarts”, “Dragons” they answered.


The room quieted and then a question was heard form the back of the room, “If you went to school here does that mean you also had Professor Snape?”


In the cold silence Ginny felt a stab go threw her heart at hearing his name. She recovered quickly and stated calmly, “Yes I also had Professor Snape as my teacher six years in Potions and one in Defense Against The Dark Arts.”


“Was he always so mean, I mean was he evil when you went to school here?” Asked someone who she couldn’t see


“Professor Snape… he … um well I don’t really think that it is appropriate to talk about another teacher behind their back. So I can’t really answer your question I’m sorry.”


“Then by all means Professor Weasley answer her question, I’m standing right here. I don’t even have my back turned away from you.” A voice slithered its way across her skin and almost choked her. She gasped as her eyes flew to the door of her classroom.

“Well Professor, I don’t think it matters if you’re here or not. I would not like to insult a fellow teacher in front of our students here at Hogwarts.” Ginny Smiled happily but her voice was filled with poison as her next words slipped from her mouth, “But professor, if you see me at a later date I can tell you Exactly how I think of you.”


“Come now Professor,” He starred as venomously as she did, “Surly the students deserve to know what a wonderful teacher I am. How I have always been as…What was is …? Oh yes, as mean as I am now.”

Ginny swallowed and took a breath, and said, “Any other questions? I believe we have enough time for one more question.” Hands raised into the air, “Ones that don’t involve Professor Snape!” A few hands fell down and then one in the back flew up and she nodded her head to him.


“Did you and Harry Potter have sex?” the boy smiled while he said it, the boy of course was a Slytherin. Ginny’s eyes popped out and she gasped at him.


“I think that is a very inappropriate question also and refuse to answer it.” Ginny stated

“Well that’s a yes,” the boy from before said “Was he your first?”

Ginny’s eyes bulged even more, “Detention! And 40 points off of Slytherin! Mr. Brown you will be serving your detention will Mr. Filch.” The bell range and everyone rushed to the door, Ginny passed her wand at the door sealing it off so no one could leave. “Read chapter one in your text books!” Ginny raised her wand again and the students rushed out running to their next class.


Ginny turned to her desk and picked up her schedule, one more class and then lunch. ‘I’m probably not going to eat anyway’ she scolded herself, ‘I have to eat something, maybe a banana.’


Foot steps grew closer and she thought it was her next students arriving early, first years usually did run to their classes to make sure they weren’t late. But no it wasn’t a student it was Snape. Ginny’s professional smile faded and was replaced with a glare so strong Ginny hoped he melted from its heat.


“Professor I think you owe me an answer…” Snape said quietly.


“What?” Ginny asked confused and agitated. ‘How dare he come to my class and embarrass me like that!’ “I don’t owe you anything” Ginny snapped


“You said in class that if I came back at a later time that you would answer that question.” Snape stated.


“You never left.” Ginny said trying to get him to leave her alone.


“Am I as cruel now as I was then…?” Snape asked. ‘As if you care, you heartless bastard!’


“There was a time that I thought you cruel. My first through fourth years I thought you cruel, I hated you! And then I got stuck in that pantry, the ingredients room and you rescued me. I thought that I had just misunderstood you. Then Dumbledore died, and I hated you again. But then in my sixth year I thought you to be Voldermort’s man and I despised you even more. Then I witnessed you almost die by him and I knew you were good, I knew it! Harry showed me your memories and I remember crying at them. Then my seventh year I fell in love with you. And stayed in love with you… until today. Today I wish you had died that day.” Ginny paused and looked towards the man she had once loved. “Congratulations Snape, you pissed off the only person who still loved you. Now get out of my class room before I sick Peeves on you.” Ginny turned away from him; he didn’t deserve to see her tears.


The day passed by with little motions, every class was basically the same, and in fact the whole week passed by much the same as that first class. Students asked questions about her and she answered them and requested her own question. No questions were asked about Snape, but other questions were asked that were just as hurtful, if not inappropriate as the Slytherin’s questions from the first day. Some of the questions were from Slytherins. Others such as “Are you dating anyone now?” or her now favorite question, that about five seventh year students asked her, was “You’re single, I’m single. Maybe we should go out some time?” Each one now had detention with Filch.

A month passed and Ginny hardly notice anything but her classes. Another month and she noticed that she no long got her period. Blaming it on stress, she continued as if noting was wrong. The Halloween feast she skipped saying that she had loads of grading to do before she could even think of food.


Another month passed and she still resisted to talk to Snape, and had kindly asked Professor Goldheart if he could trade seats with her, explaining that she hated having to talk over him in order to talk to the other teachers. He of course took this as a proper answer and switched right away. Ginny had perfected avoiding Snape as an art. When they were suppose to be patrolling on the same night she would ask someone else to trade a night with her, saying that she would fall asleep while patrolling if she didn’t get any sleep. Or that she was grading her N.E.W.T student’s papers. Or even once she actually couldn’t patrol because she was throwing up in Madam Pomfrey’s office

Christmas vacation came and most of the students left which made doing rounds so much easier. Only one teacher had to do rounds a night. Ginny got up on Christmas morning and opened her presents. Her mother and father gave her the usual violet sweater. Her brothers Bill and Charlie had bought her a combined gift, a brand new cloak, it was reversable and black on the out side and red on the in. A note said ‘To out little red riding hood.’


Ginny giggled at the note and put on new cloak. It was warm and comfortable. George had sent a pygmy puff and a few quills that changed colors as she wrote. Ron and Hermione sent a package of sweets and a new book called “Finding the Right Man: 10 Easy Steps to Know That he Is the One!” Ginny threw the book on top of a near by chair and rummaged to find two more presents under the tree. One was a little box labeled from Harry, the other not labeled at all. She took Harry’s in to her hands; she knew what it was; he gave her the same thing every year. Ginny ripped off the wrapping and threw it to the ground. She opened the box and sighed as she saw that there was just a note this time and not actually a ring. Ginny unfolded the note and read it out loud.


“My dearest Ginny, when you have decided that you want to be mine, I’ll be waiting.
Love always and forever, Harry Potter”
Ginny coughed after she finished reading the letter and said, “What a fucking chump!”


A voice from behind her laughed, “I agree! He is a chump, indeed.” The voice slithered around her, and touched spots that had not been touched for four months. Ginny curled in to a little ball on the floor, sitting upright, her hands over her face as if she was about to cry. No she did not want to have him here, not right now.


“Please leave Severus, just go away.” She breathed calmly in and out. She was not going to cry! This was a happy day, and she would not let him ruin it. She would not let him take away this one happy day after months and months of misery.


“Look I just came here to see if you liked my gift…” Snape said. Ginny turned and looked at the last present under the tree. Ginny kept the cloak wrapped around her, picked the present up and handed it back to Snape.


“I don’t want it; I thought it was from Harry…” She looked in to his eyes and walked back to her presents by the tree. Her sweater from her mother would have to be worn later, because she could no longer fit in it. The candy might have to wait also, she didn’t know what those candies did to … to women in her state. Ginny picked up the pygmy puff and looked at it, she was definitely a she, she was purple and blue and she had sad eyes.


“I think I’ll name you Misery.” Misery jumped in to the air and swirled around her head. And went behind her and stayed behind her.


“Misery loves company.” Snape said still behind her. “Does your family know that you’re pregnant?”


“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Ginny said “I’m not preg…pregnant.” The last word was whispered.


“Ginny don’t lie to me, I’ve seen you’re belly. I’ve seen running in to the girl’s bathroom to throw up.” Snape crossed the room and kneeled in front of her. “Just tell me is it mine…?”


“What does it matter if it is or not? You don’t love me, so why would you love my child?” Ginny turned her frightened eyes just in time to watch his face fall in to the same stoic face he had always had. “Severus even if it is your child, I wouldn’t let you take it away from me.”


“Is that a yes?” he became hopeful.

“No it’s an evasion. I don’t know who the father is… but its not you. Severus it has never been you.” She continued to look at him.


“How don’t you know who it is? How do you know its not me?” he asked again hopeful. ‘Maybe I can find a loophole that she’s never thought of.’


“It’s not you, Severus I was preg…pregnant before I arrived at school. It could never have been you.” Ginny never falter, she never quit she had to press on she had to give him no hope. “I … I think its Harry’s, but it could be another person’s…only one other person’s though.” Ginny cleared her throat and said again as a tear streamed down her face and fell to the ground, “It could never have been you.”

“Ginny, are you going to marry him?” Snape asked so lightly she swore she imagined it.


“No, I don’t love Harry any more.” Ginny said without emotion, Snape looked happy cheerful, and then Ginny said, “I don’t love anyone anymore. Well except maybe her… her, I’ll love forever.” Ginny patted her belly.


“What are you going to do?” Snape asked still trying to see her face.


“I’m moving to London after school ends, I’ll be close to St. Mango’s for when she’s born. And then… after that I hadn’t really thought about it.” Ginny shrugged She didn’t really care. She just wanted to be away from everyone.


“When’s the baby due…?”


“Snape stop asking questions! This is not your baby. You shouldn’t even know about its existence.” Ginny paused and then continued, “You owe me nothing! You’re not the Father! This should be a happy day for you Snape; You didn’t knock some poor little girl up! Now will you please leave my quarters?”


“Can’t you just open my present to you?” Snape asked quietly as a mouse. He handed her the gift, and watched as she opened it. Inside was a baby’s blanket, a powder blue on one side and a pale pink on the other.


“Thank you, Professor. I appreciate it.” Ginny’s voice was without emotion.


Snape got up and walked to the door, deposited Misery on the table and opened the door ready to leave. “Ginny, I know it’s too late but,” Snape turned to look back at her. “I realize now that I did love you. I will always love you.”


Ginny collapsed to the floor and started to cry. ‘No don’t do this! You’re stronger than this! Stop crying! Stop it! Now!!!’ a voice screamed inside her head. But it was too late.

“Why did you, why did you have to be so … so perfect!” Ginny said between sobs. “I was happy with you and you stole that away. I was content without you and you stole it away. And now you’ve even stolen away my looks because you knocked me up. Merlin’s beard, You’re a bastard! Why did you have to act so nice? Why do I have to love you?”


Snape’s head snapped back to look at her, did she just say that he had stolen her looks? ‘She did, she said that you knocked her up. Go to her! Or are you the Bastard she claims you to be.’ Snape closed the door, and turned toward her and ran. It didn’t seem possible but he just couldn’t get to her fast enough.

He kneeled besides her again and hugged her tight against him. Ginny sobbed harder, unable to control her tears anymore she laid in his arms and cried until she fell asleep. Snape held her in his arms, pushing his fingers threw her hair. ‘I’m going to be a father’ He thought to himself. ‘I’m going to be a father to a little red headed girl with her mother’s freckles or to a little boy with my greasy black hair’ Snape shook his head. ‘No a little girl would be right. It’s what she wanted.’


Snape laid Ginny down, his arm a pillow for her head, his legs acting as supporters to cushion her knees. Snape curled her hair around his finger and sighed as she pressed her back against him. Snape’s hand snaked along her stomach to the prudent bump. Snape felt small movements. Snape smiled and kissed the back of her head.


Ginny woke cold and on the floor. Tears long dried on her face, her body curled into a ball around her stomach. A hand traced her side, and moved up her arm. Ginny turned her body and saw Snape on his back next to her. Snape edged toward her and kissed her lightly on the lips.


“Do you love me?” Ginny asked in a calm voice.


Snape nodded his head. He pulled her to himself and laid her head on his chest. Ginny cuddled close to Snape and sighed at his scent. The smell of old books and vanilla washed over her, and comforted her. The smell intoxicated her; she rubbed her hand against his waist and then his back. Ginny hugged in to him trying her best to suck his warmth in to his body. ‘No it’s not about being warm; I just want to be close.’


“You stayed until I woke up, did you fall asleep to?” Ginny asked.


“No I was awake, thinking about what we’re going to do next.” Snap said against her head breathing deeply


Ginny leaned back, “What do you mean… we? There is no we, there is no us.” Ginny’s eyebrows arched and she moved away from him. She made to sit up and as quick as she could, she got to her feet.


“But that’s just the thing. There is an ‘us’ now. We’re having a kid! You’re the mother of my child. I love you.” Snape was now standing too.


Ginny felt her heart crush, “You love me because I’m the mother of your child?” Ginny asked “You don’t love me …for me.”


“Ginny we’re having a child and I want to be apart of that! I want to be one of those fathers that hold their wives’ hands in the delivery room. I want to be there for you as you give birth to our child.” Ginny stepped away from Snape. “I want to be a good father, and the only way I can do that is if I’m involved in their childhood. I want to be there for my child, always.”


“But you don’t love me. You love the child.”


“Of course I love you. The baby just kind of… rushed things along. Ginny, on the night we fought, you whispered to me that you loved me, and I knew then that I loved you too. And it scared me. I had watched Lily walk away from me after I confessed my love to her. And after I told you that I loved you, I was scared! I was scared of losing you.”


“Then why didn’t you try to get me back, this is the first time in ages that you even tried to talk to me.” Ginny said as she stepped back again. She didn’t want to hear this.


“Ginny I was scared. Your words had hurt me so badly that… I realized that you were right. I tried all along to not fall in love but I already was in love. For the last four months I tried to think of ways to get you back. I admit that most of them were sexual, one was even that I would come in to your bedroom and… well you don’t want to hear the end of that sentence. But then I saw you. I noticed how your robes were getting tighter, how you constantly ran to the bathroom in the morning. I watched you.” Snape gathered her into his arms and hugged her close. “That day I thought I had lost you forever. And then the baby bump had started to develop and a new hope raced through me. I practiced for days how I would come and talk to you.”


“Did this conversation at all resemble your practices?” Ginny asked trying her best to make small talk.


“No, it was suppose to be more romantic, more everything. I thought we would both be crying right now but, holding you is better any day.” Snape pulled Ginny away from him, looking deep with in her eyes as he dropped to on knee.


Ginny’s eyes widened to its full width. ‘This isn’t happening! This is all in your imagination. This is Snape not Harry. Harry is the one obsessed about marrying you.’


Snape’s hand took a small box out of his inside pocket, “Ginevra Weasley, will you marry me…?” Ginny backed away and looked at the situation before her.


“Why do you want to marry me?” Ginny asked


“Because you’re the mother of my child, because I love you. Because I think we belong together.” Tears streamed down her face she was both so happy and sad at the same time that nothing made sense. She back away more and couldn’t even look at the ring. Another sob wrecked her body and she fell to her knees besides Snape.


“Severus Snape, I love you!” Ginny held her hand up between them as Snape tried to hug her. “But you have to prove to me that you love me. I won’t be hurt again. I don’t think I could last.”


“What do you want me to do? I’ll do anything for you.” Snape said now understanding that getting her back had not been anything like her was prepared for. “Ginny I’ll do anything to prove to you that I love you.”


“Good then go get packed.” Ginny said calmly having thought of what she needs Snape to do, she needed him to go to her parents and ask them for her hand.


“Packed…? Packed for what? Where are we going?” Snape asked startled at once. “Can you even travel, How are we traveling?”


“Severus you ask to many questions, now go pack and meet me back in here… in an hour.” Ginny busied herself cleaning around her living room. Picking up the papers on the floor and throwing them away. And then went in to her back rooms ready to pack her own bags.


Snape left with in a hurry. ‘Where are we going? What is so important that she needed him to do it right now? Why is she always so complicating?’ Snape asked him self and the only answer he got back was from the little voice inside his head, ‘If she wasn’t so complex you wouldn’t love her.’


One bag later packed with 3 outfits and his bathroom supplies and a couple of potions Snape was ready to leave. He went back to Ginny’s ready for any quest she would have of him. And then thought of some disturbing quests some involved him fucking another man, but then Snape pushed these thoughts out of his head and laughed at his own stupidity. Ginny loved him! She would never want that. Unless this was to punish him for being so horrible to her. ‘Fuck’ he screamed over and over in his head.


Snape reached the door and opened it to reveal Ginny standing by her fire place. She had a bag ready for herself and a couple more bags waiting beside that one. She smiled at him and grabbed her bags ready to go.


“We’re going by floo network.” Ginny said, not a hello, or an explanation just that and nothing more.


“But where are we going…?” Snape asked unsteady as he took some of her bags in to his hands. She was pregnant and he didn’t want her to get over worked. ‘Just yet,’ said the voice in his head. Yes, it was true he wanted her. More than ever before, he wanted her, in his arms as he made love to her. Made love to her, while she was carrying his baby. But no, ‘First I have to prove to her that I love her. The fun will come later…maybe tonight.’


“You’re going to prove how much you love me, Severus.” She stepped in to the fire place and grabbed a handful of floo powder with her now free hand. Snape stepped in following her. He settled himself and looked at her with love. He snaked his arm around her and nodded. “We’re going to my house and you’re going to ask my parents if they will consent our marriage. The burrow!” Ginny threw down the powder and watched as Snape’s eyes bulged out of his head and looked scared as he turned and faced the Weasley family out side of the now new fire place.


“Hi mum!” Ginny said cheerfully.


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