Dark Desires

“You will take this assignment without any protest, Severus….” The Dark Lord’s voice echoed around the serpentine chamber, “And as I wish it to be.. you shall not resign into anything against anything, do you understand?”





“Yes, my lord….” he softly answered, his black eyes shinning through the gaps of his mask. “I shall not hear anything going wrong with the plan. Do well with it and I shall give you what you have long asked for.. Lucius will guide you through the task-“





“I don’t need his help.. My Lord.” Snape quickly added, bowing down low. There was silence in the circle of the band of Death Eaters.





“Tell me.. you are not weakened by the task, are you? Having a soft heart for it?” “No, not my lord.. that I can assure you..” he answered, bowing once more, his fist curling at his side when he saw Lucius sneer under his own mask.





“It is untrue then that you feel something.. particularly for the assignment I have given you?” There was some pause. A long pause from him. “No, there is nothing I feel about the charge you have given me, my lord.. I can do the task and flourish through it..I can do it.”





“Very well.. This task is essential.. It requires a lot of patience.. and your cunning abilities will be tested to the limit.. This we shall see how good you really are, Severus.. I shall give you assistance in the crucial state of the plan, but apart from that, there is nothing you can ask for.. Fail and your life shall be laid for it. Accomplish the mission and remained untraced,” Snape couldn’t help the grin spreading across his face when he saw Lucius curl his fist this time, but he did not dare say a word about it, nor any sign of protest, “then you remain in your position as my faithful Death Eater.. and you shall clearly prove to me that you were and still is my most useful and closest ally….”











“Do you think she’s still going to wake up?” “Idiot, don’t say that….Ofcourse she’s going to wake up.. She just needs a lot more sleep-“ “She has been sleeping for two days already and you say she needs more sleep? What are you trying to kill her-“





“Boys! What are you doing here?! I told you to get downstairs now.. You have work to do and you’re lingering here!” “I already warned them, Mrs. Weasley,” Hermione said, entering the room and bringing in a pitcher of cold water, “I told them I have to check on her and try and clean her face again, but they insisted on stayng.. Why don’t you tell Ron to get out of here, he’s not any help either-“





“Excuse me,” Ron retorted standing up from the floor, “I did help! I helped get her here inside this room!”



Hermione raised an eyebrow and placed down the pitcher of cold water with towel on the end table. “Go away boys,” Mrs. Weasley ordered, “Harry is having breakfast downstairs now, Hermione dear, did you have yours already?”



“Yes, I had an early o so I could watch over her today, it’s alright.. The headmaster didn’t say anything else I would do today except watch over her while-“ “I’m done eating breakfast, I’ll watch over her….”



Everyone looked at the doorway and saw Remus standing there. Still heavily bandaged, exhaustion visible at his face, yet he was perfectly trying to look wide-awake. Dark circles were heavy under his eyes, but he forced some smile for thm.



“But Remus, you just went downstairs.. It’s not yet even a minute,” Mrs. Weasley said sharply helping him get inside the room, “you haven’t eaten anything have you? You just pretended to-“



“I’ll just get him some breakfast Mrs. Weasley,” Hermione said, smiling at Remus and getting downstairs while eyeing Ron and George angrily.



“We’re gonna have some breakfast too..” Ron said uncertainly, following Hermione and George’s lead.



Mrs. Weasley sighed heavily when the door closed. She stood at the other side of the bed and took the towel and dipped it inside the pitcher filled with ice-cold water.



“You will get yourself ill Remus,” she warned her shaking her head, “this does not do any good..” “It will,” Lupin snapped forcing himself to stand up and taking the towel from Mrs. Weasley, “this will pay off.. I just have to take care of her, that’s all.. I’m alright..”



“You have to take care of yourself too you know,” Mrs. Weasley countered, “I’m sure she wouldn’t like it if you abuse your strength-“ “My strength is only for her,” Lupin snapped again, shaking the blurry look in his eyes again.





“I’m alright and I’m fine.. There is nothing wrong with me. I just have to take care of her and-“ “Laiza will not like it if you exhaust yourself. When she wakes up-“ “I want to be at her side when she wakes up!” he said, his eyes widening, “I want to be here with her when she wakes up-“



“Three days Remus, three days.. and she still isn’t waking up.. Look at her, she’s pale and she’s thin and-“ “And I would do well in taking care of her!” Lupin yelled, squeezing tightly the water out of the towel and placing it over Laiza’s forehead who was asleep on the bed for days now, sleeping and unconscious since she arrived.





“I’ll take care of her, I know.. you all are concerned but I’ll take this in my own hands,” Lupin said, taking Laiza’s pale hand and bringing it to his lips, “I’ll just take care of her.. That’s all.. is that too hard to understand?”





“But you have to get some rest too! You haven’t got any sleep since she arrived the other night with Severus bringing her here! I think you ought to get some rest to-“



“I’m fine,” Lupin stubbornly said, “I’m alright.. as long as she is.. I think they need your help downstairs, the headmaster might need something..” he said shortly, caressing Laiza’s cinnamon hair and looking down at her. Mrs. Weasley opened her mouth to argue more but thought better of it.





There was just no point on trying to take Lupin away from Laiza when he was not willing to stand from his chair or even take his eyes off her since she arrived..











“Please understand,” Lupin said quietly when Mrs. Weasley was at the doorway, “I love her so much and it was the nearest miss to lose her.. I won’t let it happen again.. not while I still can breath.. nobody could ever harm her..I love her and I would never take my eyes away from her.. Please understand how much I love Laiza….”





Mrs. Weasley wiped away some water in her eyes, “We understand that.. I understand, Remus..”



Alone in the room with his beloved, Remus held Laiza’s hands, praying and his face streaming with tears. He couldn’t help himself. He just almost lost Laiza at the hands of the Death Eater, of Lord Voldemort, and he couldn’t think less of Severus when he saved her….





Two nights ago, it was storming hard in the headquarters and it was very late that night already. Everyone else was asleep already except for himself, where since figured out that Laiza was left behind, he could no longer sleep..everything went so fast that night.



Severus arrived at the gates of the headquarters and woke the whole headquarters when he arrived at the doorstep carrying in Laiza, bleeding, dirty, and unconscious, with himself, having a deep cut across his hand..





He carried Laiza inside the headquarters and Lupin literary jumped from the top floor landing and down the end of the stairs. He quickly grabbed Laiza from Severus and they placed her in the living room where everyone fussed around to grab medicine, bandages and clothing for her.





The headmaster had a word with Severus while they left everything to Lupin and the others. Since that night, Lupin barely had any sleep. He insisted to everyone that he will watch over Laiza day and night and they shouldn’t worry about her. If he needed any help, he would ask, but as far, he wanted to do everything for Laiza to make sure she was going to be alright.





Snape concocted a couple of potions to heal deep cuts inside her wounded arms and knees, while Lupin patiently bandaged every part of Laiza that seemed cut, bruised or harmed in any manner.



Mrs. Weasley meanwhile made the food for Lupin because he no longer went downstairs nor anywhere else since Laiza was transferred in her own room upstairs which was next to Lupin’s.. Who barely left Laiza’s room to stay at his own.





Everything was quick and since that night, Lupin barely had any talk with Severus on how exactly he had saved her.. no, he couldn’t care less. All that mattered to him was that Laiza was back in his arms and that she was safe with them, with him..





Everyone wanted to know how Severus managed to break Laiza out of Lord Voldemort’s prison, but the headmaster plainly explained that further details would not be asked except for the fact that it was not that easy to take her out..When Harry asked why Snape had the cut around his arm, what was stated was that “It is a matter of unimportance for anyone else but for the headmaster and for myself.”





It did give Harry some bad impression after all the hours he thought and he felt safe with Snape for a moment in his life, when he of all people, was able to return one of the most important people in the Order..and the most important loved one Lupin ever had….





Through the past two days, Laiza was still kept unconscious and was healed by the Order, patiently watched over Lupin and cared by Madam Pomfrey, who, where everyone else was just as surprised, was found by Severus from Lord Voldemort’s prisoners and took her back with him and Laiza.



She seemed shaken herself when they arrived back at the Order, and was unable to tell any accounts of what else had happened since her capture seven months ago. But because of the headmaster’s still great skill in magic, they managed to heal her, though at times, she was still being easily shaken by someone calling her or moving around her.





But apart from them, everything seemed perfectly well.. the only thing they were waiting was for Laiza to finally wake up and tell them exactly what has happened to her….







Tuesday afternoon….



“Remus, it’s time for lunch,” Mrs. Weasley said, entering Laiza’s room where Lupin had spent the night once more, sitting next to her bed and watching her tirelessly, “you can come downstairs while Madam Pomfrey watch over-“



“I’m fine,” Lupin said, smiling weakly, the dark circles across his eyes worsening, “I’ll just get some later.” “Alright dear,” Mrs. Weasley answered, defeated, “I’ll just get Hermione to take something here again.” Then she left the room, leaving Lupin still gazing at Laiza, watching over her.



“Laiza… “ Lupin whispered, straightening on his seat and taking something out from his pocket, “you have got to wake up now.. You see this? I made this for you,” he said, placing a miniature frozen crystal rose over Laiza’s hand, “I made this for you and I have many of these.. but you have to wake up now.. you have to…. Please….”





The other night, the headmaster had went to visit Laiza and told Remus that Madam Pomfrey did everything she could to try and wake her up, but it seemed that.. she was bound to a spell….and it seemed like she would not be able to wake up any time sooner..





Remus was not to believe in it, until the headmaster himself placed a special charm on her, and when it didn’t work and bounced away from Laiza, they found out that she was indeed recovering from another spell that placed her in such comma. And such spell that she had been, the worse news was that.. even if she wakes up, there was a possibility of damage in her..whether physically, emotionally.. mentally….





Since that, Remus did really not have any sleep, or just for a few minutes then he would be awakened so sudden by nightmares and he would turn back to Laiza and wait until she wakes up.. which seemed no hope at all….







“Professor Lupin isn’t eating,” Hermione sighed gravely, sitting back inside the living room and looking around at Harry and Ron, “I don’t know.. I’m worried about him….” “Me too,” Harry said, sighing and sitting down opposite her, “but.. something..Well, no, not really..” “Something what, Harry?” Ron asked, raising an eyebrow..



“Never mind.. Where’s everyone else?” “They’re having a meeting at the other room,” Hermione answered. “Why aren’t we included?” Harry asked, looking at her and standing up suddenly, “Why aren’t we-“ “The headmaster said he only wanted to talk to the older members.. obviously, we’re not old enough for that talk.. I’m going out, I’ll just try and persuade professor to eat something..or perhaps have a look if Miss Laiza has woken up….”





Hermione nodded to herself and walked out of the room leaving the other two. “Something wrong, Harry?” Ron asked him, looking at him. Harry shook his head, “Nothing, it’s nothing.. it just seemed odd that Snape managed to get Laiza and Madam Pomfrey out of the dark side’s prison cell, I mean, aren’t they supposed to be heavily guarded or something?”





“Relax Harry, let’s just be thankful the git saved them.. only wish he could have seen Fred or something.. but we’re working on that.. I have to go Harry.. I remembered I have to practice something of a spell for tomorrow..”





“What’s with tomorrow?” “We may have a new assignment.. I’ll see you around, Harry….”







“Come in,” Lupin said, wiping away his tears and sitting right back up. It was very late that night already, almost past ten and he was still awake. He just finished a cup of tea Hermione left earlier for him before going to sleep like everyone else. He was as usual, still up that night, watching and waiting for Laiza to wake up..





“Everything alright here?” “Everything is, Severus..” Lupin said, standing up and closing the door behind Snape. Snape nodded at him and commented on the dark circles underneath his eyes, but Lupin just smiled about them and ushered him to have a seat. Snape walked towards the middle of the room and watched Laiza still in comma on the bed.





“How is she doing? I just arrived from another assignment from the Order,” he started walking around the room and observing Laiza, “and I just had a meeting with the headmaster.. Says Laiza is still in comma and is possible not to-“ “





She’s going to wake up,” Lupin sharply said, not meaning to raise his voice, “She’s just.. resting.. she just needs more rest,” he said, sighing and giving a faint smile at Snape who didn’t look shaken but his almost outburst.





“I understand,” he simply said, nodding, “the headmaster has chosen me to make his potion once she wakes up.. but ofcourse, Madam Pomfrey would be of great help for me.. and as well as you are.. though I suppose this is already the help you’re giving..” “I’m no expert in potions,” Lupin said, “but I can just be here with her.. though I wish I was good at it, but in any case, I’m glad you’re making it, Severus….”









There was some pause. Snape walked around the room and stared outside the window where it was raining hard.

“I assume the headmaster has told you about his new theory in the Order….” Snape started, his voice barely a whisper, “he has told you about it?”



“Yes,” Lupin quietly answered, “yes he has. And I still cannot believe it. I do not understand how.. but in any case, I’m glad you have found out about it.. and I’m glad you have found Laiza..” “It is a mere duty-“ “No, no.. No, Severus,” Lupin said staring down at Laiza and walking towards Snape and staring at him.







“I know there has been many, many things between us before.. even until now,” he slowly said, looking at Snape’s back, “but I want you to know that, even if we have such many differences, I have appreciated this more than anything else.. I want you to know that I am glad and thankful enough that you have found Laiza.. that you have saved her from great danger.. We both know how important she is, and how important she is to me.. Thank you, Severus….” Lupin said, his eyes straight at his black eyes when he turned to him, and he slowly extended his hand to Snape. Snape looked down at it for a moment and stared at Lupin.





“It is my duty to protect everyone at the Order,” he slowly said, staring at Lupin, “and that law is for everyone in the Order.. if I save my skin, I save everyone else’s no matter how much I despise them,” he simply said, still ignoring Lupin’s extended hand, “however.. I cannot tell you how glad I am to find her alive.. and I am glad to see her back here in the Order, with us.. with you.. Laiza Raines belongs here with us..Her purpose is for one thing alone, and I believe that purpose is being handled carefully.. You don’t know how glad I am to be the one to take her back here with us in the Order….” Snape silkily said, sneering at Lupin, then slowly extending his hand too and took Lupin’s and shook it quickly.





Lupin gave him a weary smile and shook his hand, “I’m glad you have found her.. if you didn’t, I don’t know what Voldemort may have done to her.. we both know how much he is willing to kill to get to her.. to have her.. “



“Yes, I know.. I now how everyone would do anything to have this nymph by their side….” Snape said, smiling curtly and taking his hand back.



Lupin smiled at him and shook his head, “You better keep that.. Laiza never like it whenever you call her a nymph..” “Bad habits die hard, Lupin..A nymph like her would always have the protection she needs.. I just wanted to see how she is doing, send me a word if she has waken already.. I want to know how she is.. and I just had to remind you of Dumbledore’s theory.. we are being outnumbered because of the other wizards and witches in the other sides of the globe joining the Dark Lord…. And for that, I cannot be sure that we are forever safe.”





“Dumbledore’s theory does make sense,” Lupin said, sitting back at the seat next to Laiza’s bed, “atleast we’re sure that his theory does make sense.. and here in the Order, in this headquarters, atleast we can be sure nobody is a traitor..”



“Ofcourse,” Snape softly said, walking towards the door, “the headmaster’s great theory is still that there is someone else in the Order of the Phoenix being the traitor.. not here in this headquarters, but somewhere near.. his precise words infact.. we have to find out who it is then..”





“Yes, I know..” Lupin said, smiling at him, “we have.. because of that traitor, we have failed many plans, we have failed to take back the freedom of the Wizarding World, when Laiza wakes up, she should know about it.. perhaps her ability could help..”





“Perhaps.. perhaps.. but ofcourse Laiza is still weak.. “ “I know she can help.. I only want to protect her not only from whoever it is that lies with us but serves Voldemort.. I’ll protect Laiza with all my life.. I’ll do it..”



“I’m glad to hear that,” Snape whispered faintly, he paused, then, “the headmaster wishes to talk to you. I have almost forgotten because of this discussion. He wishes you to come to his office this late night so there will be no disturbance. I shall watch over Laiza for the few minutes that you shall leave.”





Lupin paused and thought for a moment. He didn’t want to leave Laiza but Snape was someone he could trust, after all, he was the one who had saved her from great harm. He was the one who brought Laiza back to him.





Lupin nodded and stood up, “Alright.. I’ll be back, stay with her..don’t leave her alright?” he said walking to the door. Snape nodded at him, “Don’t worry,” he called back when Lupin was about to leave the door, “I’ll make sure she never gets out of my sight.. never..ever….” he whispered, turning back on Lupin and gazing down at Laiza.





" The door closed and Snape stood before Laiza, watching her closely and observing her.





“Everyone missed you back here, didn’t they?” he slowly said, walking around Laiza’s bed, “everyone.. and most especially Lupin.. I wonder what they would do if you wake up already….” Snape sneered, walking towards her and leaning closely on her.





He extended his hand and gazed down at her face, his face barely few feet away from Laiza’s face, “I most admire you, Laiza.. but.. I would want to see what your reaction would be when you wake up.. Nobody would believe in you..A traitor in the Order.. we would see about that….” Snape whispered, glint in his eyes, a grin across his sallow-skinned face.





He lowered his face to Laiza’s and touched her cinnamon hair, “Everyone is anticipating for you to wake up, Laiza Raines..” he whispered in her ears, “everyone. And that includes me. So why don’t you stop fooling around and playing you’re in comma when we both know that you can get up now.. Wake up little Laiza.. wake up dear Laiza Raines, the Dark Lord awaits for you to wake up because everyone would finally know who is the Death Eater that passes information in the Order….” He slowly gripped her right hand, sneering to himself.









"Let’s end this game Laiza..you stupid sylph.. do you really think that with your words you could defeat the Dark Lord? You stupid, pathetic sylph.. not you, not you would defeat what we all have worked so hard for long years now.. wake up now..,” he whispered in her ear, his eyes wondering around Laiza, “you’re werewolf is awaiting for you.. so am I..Let us see who they would believe.. Make yourself useful, Laiza.. Let’s end this game.. you and me..” he whispered in her hear, his hand shaking in anger.







“You stupid sylph.. I could kill you now, you know.. you and all of you.. right now at this moment.. I am dying to kill your beloved werewolf…even you..but you know I can’t. So instead, wake up Laiza.. you see, there are games we still have to finish and I still need that information that is mingling inside your sylph spirit.. wake up little Laiza…Let’s get this over with, give me what I need and perhaps I could have your life spared when the Dark Lord wins this war.. which is likely to happen.. why don’t you wake up now Laiza Rai-“ Snape suddenly stopped, his eyes in panic.





Laiza’s hand that he was gripping started moving and her head was stirring. He quickly let her arm go and back away from her face, his eyes wide in panic and in fear.





Laiza lie on the bed, her head spinning in pain, her whole body numb, yet everything around her didn’t seem to make any sense. She could hear a voice speaking, but she couldn’t understand a word it was saying. She slowly opened her eyes.. and blurry images came to her….



Snape stood away from her, his eyes glinting in anger and in panic. Laiza was going to wake up now. She was going to wake up any moment now….Something everyone else had been anticipating.





He stood there, unable to move as he watched as Laiza slowly opened her eyes, her visions weak, but her senses were becoming sharp every second.





Her emerald-purple eyes slowly opened, looking and gazing around her surroundings; her voice weak as she tried to call someone or something….



Laiza’s head turned around her trying to see anybody. “Remus…. Remus….” Laiza murmured weakly, her brain still half-jamned with memories and thoughts because it was still in great pain, “Remus…”







Laiza felt like her head was as heavy as a large rock, and her whole body didn’t seem to want to move at all. She couldn’t remember many things.. but her memories were flowing back instantly at her.. as a painful and great anger emotion inside of her was burning, making and forcing her remember everything quickly.. something inside of her was yelling for her to return to reality….







“Remus… where are you.. you have to know something..” she whispered, trying to get up, her hands feeling the bed around her, “Remus.. there’s something you have to know…anyone.. is anyone here.. where am i….” Laiza said, she forcedly made herself to sit up at the bed and tried to get down, and ended up, half falling at the end of the bed until somebody grasped her arm to stop her from falling.





“Here, let me give you some help….” Laiza looked up at that voice. She couldn’t quite recall who owned it, but she feared at the sound of it. Snape was standing before her, eyes observing her, his hand tightly gripping around her arm.





Laiza was numb for a moment as she looked up at the blurry face before her…….trying to recall that face.. that pale face.. that posture.. that voice.. that cold, sneering soft voice that always scared her away.. those black eyes.. glinting black eyes.. those cold eyes that always told her she was never better against him.. against Snape.. Severus Snape.. an Order of the Phoenix member.. an ally.. a Death Eater.. a traitor….







Laiza’s eyes widened in fear at once and she quickly staggered away from him, hardly able to pull her hand away from him. She was flat on the floor, trying to move away and back against the wall as far as possible from Snape. The look of terror all over her face.



“What’s wrong?” Snape asked her, trying to pull her towards him and help him get up, “What’s wrong? Are you alright.. Laiza?” he asked, extending his hand to her, “Here, let me help you-“





“Get away!” Laiza yelled weakly, shoving his hand away from her and backing so hard against the wall, “You… you… you..” she stuttered, blinking hard, trying to clear her visions.





“Me?” Snape repeated softly, his eyes observing hers.. he was trying to see what it was in Laiza’s thoughts right now.. could she completely remember everything..? everything that happened between them…….





“Get away from me..” Laiza gasped, forcing herself to stand up and get back to the bed, her hands fretting for something she could use against Snape, “I remember.. I know.. I’m sure..” she said, her eyes still blurring hard as she swayed away from Snape who simply stood before her.





“Know what? You remember what, exactly?” Snape asked, finally getting a hard grip on both her hands and shoving her back to the bed.





Laiza slumped back on the bed, taking the blanket over her, “Get away.. don’t you dare.. I know you.. your game.. you.. Where am I? What did you do..? I’ll let everyone know who you are-“





:: “Who I am?” Snape repeated, “I am Severus, don’t you remember Laiza?” he said, his eyes shinning to hers, “don’t’ you-“ “Don’t you dare play games with me!” Laiza yelled angrily, “don’t you dare- you traitor- scum-I remember everything!”









:: Snape stared at her for a few minutes..a dumbstruck and calm look at his face..his eyes blank..his face enigmatic.. unreadable..



:: But, slowly then, a grin spread across his face. He slowly sat down at the end of Laiza’s bed and smiled at her.



"very well.. just calm down...” he softly whispered, “I’m glad you see through this..”





:: Laiza shook her head, “What are you talking about?” she asked, holding out the sharp piece of the glass, noticing it had sliced her hand already at the side, “What are you-“





“I will not play games here, Laiza,” Snape cut out, his eyes focused to hers, “we both know why I am still here.. and I am surprised you’re not glad to see yourself alive..” “Alive? You did something.. I know you did..What did you-“





“There was nothing taken from you, if that’s what you want to know,” Snape sneered, smiling at her, and looking down at her, “though I would have been more than glad to undo that fact….But also.. I want you to know that, that will be taken from you.. one way or another.. “







Snape stood from the bed and walked towards her. Without warning, he dived towards her and grasped her hands behind her back. Laiza cried in pain, but she was still weak, and she knew there was something wrong inside of her.





“Laiza Raines..” Snape sneered behind her back, grabbing her closely towards him, “we’re not yet through.. We’re not yet.. And now we’re back here in the Order, you will do well to do what I tell you-“ “Never in your dreams,” Laiza yelled angrily at him, struggling against his tight grip around her hands and waist, “I will make sure everyone knows-“ “





"Oh, everyone knows.. goodness Laiza, you woke up too late.. Everyone knows exactly what happened.. what kind of story happened to you and me..between us in other words.. I already told them-“ “You told them nothing but lies!” Laiza angrily said, her hands trying to reach away from Snape who where tightly binding them behind her.





“You told them nothing but lies-“ “Listen to me,” Snape hissed, seizing her more tightly, “listen closely to me.. We might be back here now at the Order.. but things will go as I tell them.. as I wish them to be. And you will do well into doing whatever I tell you to do or you’ll get yourself in jeopardy.. In other words, you would do well to my bidding this time. It is me now you should follow, not yourself, not anyone else.”



Laiza let out an insulting laugh at him and continued to struggle against him, the glass in her hand slowly slipping away, “I will never ever do whatever you ask me to do.. never even in your dreams Snape.. you traitor.. everyone will know that you have been taking away information.. you wait.. when I see Remus-“





“Actually, your beloved werewolf trusts me.. He actually just went outside after thanking me wholeheartedly for saving your sheer **** skin,” he laughed, his face close to Laiza’s, “he trusts me. And Dumbledore’s trust for me will never fail now.. Not now when I was the one who saved their most important ally.. You see, we all want and need something from you, Laiza Raines.. so you would hand me that-“





“You won’t get anything from me,” Laiza laughed at herself, “never.. you will never get it from me..” “No?” Snape said, “Well, actually.. I was already willing to trade for it.. That memory, in order for me to give you back a memory.. a very bad memory you just did..”





“What memory?” Laiza asked, eyes widening, “What the **** are you talking about? What bad memory-“ “What memory?” Snape repeated, tightening his hold on her while he took out his wand from his robes with his right hand, “What memory, Laiza? This memory..”





Without warning, he tightly forced the tip of his wand at the right side of Laiza’s forehead and muttered a long spell.





Laiza cried and struggled in pain as an emerald and gold strand of a spell shot out from Snape’s wand and pelted straight towards and inside her forehead. Laiza cried in pain as something rushing and blurry came inside her forehead that made her want to scream very loud in pain.





Images flashed before her mind’s eyes, images and scenes she was sure never happened.. she never did.. but was flashing in her eyes..







With a final cry of pain, Laiza dropped on the ground gasping for breath, Snape watching over her. Snape bent down and grabbed her hair, “That memory, Laiza.. “ he whispered, linking his lips into her temples, “Now, it is that memory you shall have or the memory I need for you to give up..”





Laiza closed her eyes in pain as the memory Snape placed inside her head made her cry harder. The images, the scenes.. it were too much of a nightmare to be true..





“No.. no.. I didn’t do this.. I didn’t-“ “Yes, you did,” Snape hissed angrily, “you did.. It’s inside your head now and once they find out about that.. They will surely know who the traitor in the Order is..”





Laiza’s tears worsened. The memory gave her great pain….



“I didn’t do any of those!” Laiza yelled at angrily at him, with all her might, pushing him away, “I didn’t! I never did! Take it away-“ “It will only be taken away if you agree to give me that memory I need.."

"It is now connected with that memory..concealed with it..with your thoughts. Try and keep it away, and that new memory of yours will linger.. it is easy for them to see that.. do not underestimate my influence, now, Laiza..” Snape whispered, pushing her back towards the bed, “Do-not-underestimate-me.”





Wednesday morning….





She stood before the band of Death Eaters and at the middle was George Weasley.. bleeding in pain.. tears-streaked face.. pleading for mercy.. and she just used the Killing Curse against him.. the latest plans of the Order, she was passing to the Dark Lord as she knelt before them….



The Dark Lord was honouring her for a job well done for killing more Muggles and Order members.. for shedding more lives.. Laiza and Lucius Malfoy, together killing Hermione’s parents…. And the Dark Lord.. the Dark Lord placing and burning the Dark Mark on her very skin….



“NOOOOOOO!” Laiza screamed, bolting upright on her bed. Everything around her was dark, she screamed and cried and cried in pain until someone suddenly came to her and hugged her tightly, trying to comfort her.





“Laiza, Laiza.. wake up.. you’re alright.. you’re alright..” “No..no, I didn’t do it.. I’m not.. I’m not the traitor….” Laiza cried, looking at the person embracing her. Lupin sat next to her, his eyes full of worry and he was embracing her harder than ever.





“I’m not.. I’m not the traitor, I didn’t kill anyone.. I wasn’t the one..” she cried at Lupin, realizing finally that it was Lupin. Laiza quickly gulped in her tears and stared at Lupin, she grabbed his arms rigidly, “You’re listening to me, right? You do understand don’t you-“





“Laiza, calm down.. wait here, I’ll get you some potion-calm down-“ “No, no.. !” Laiza pleaded at him, “don’t leave me here.. he will get me again.. he will force it out from me.. please, Remus.. listen to me..” she cried, pulling him to her, “I’m not the traitor,” she cried, her eyes straight at Lupin’s, “I’m not..”









Lupin shook his head, “Calm down, Laiza..” he whispered, “I know you’re not.. we all know you’re not.. We’re going to find out who hurt the other members.. you’re not the traitor.. you’re safe here.. Please.. calm down.. I’ll get you some breakfast.. stay here..” “Remus-don’t leave me-he’ll get me-“





“Who will?” Lupin asked, making her sit on the bed, “nobody’s going to get you. You’re safe here.” “Please, listen to me..you have to believe in me.. I know who the traitor is..” Laiza pleaded, her hands almost reaping Lupin’s clothing.



“I know who is.. you believe me, don’t you?” “Ofcourse, I do,” Lupin said, alarmed at the look on her face “Listen.. we’ll talk about this.. I’ll only get you some food. I think the potions are still giving a slight failure to your memory, after you woke up yesterday, you went blank and was unconscious again, I thought we lost you again. But you’re here and you’re alright, that’s all that matters. I’ll get you food, Laiza.. It will help..”





Lupin kissed her forehead and assured her that he would return quickly. Laiza’s face streaked with tears as she nodded and let Lupin get her some food.





She sobbed alone in the room, and found that morning sunshine was just starting to shine through her window. She quickly stood up and looked around the room for sign of anything evil..





No, there wasn’t anyone else there. She was safe and she needed to have to think things over.. was it all a dream? Was she safe here? But Snape.. she could swear, he was here.. they were talking.. and he did something to her memory.. that memory she just dreamed about.. did she do it..? No, she never.. she would never ever.. she didn’t.. but it felt so true.. no, she wasn’t a Death Eater.. she simply wasn’t….



Laiza looked around her and suddenly, she felt her arm burn in pain, making her lean on the window.





“What..” she gasped in pain as she looked down her left arm. Panic started rising in her, “It can’t be..”





Tears in her eyes, Laiza quickly pulled up the silk clothing covering her skin and stared at her left arm.. left forearm.. and she felt as if she was stabbed right at the chest and all her senses gave away..



A newly-burned skull-serpent mark was very visible on her left forearm.. The Dark Mark..





“No..it can’t be..I wasn’t..I didn’t..” she gasped in fear, staring down at it. Tears returning back to her face. She quickly grabbed a towel on the table and tried to erase it. But nothing happened. No, the mark was still very much visible and it was burning in pain.





“No.. no.. it can’t be.. I didn’t! I’m not.. I’m not a Death Eater.. I didn’t kill anyone.. “ she cried, feeling her numb senses being in pain. She quickly ran towards the door when it suddenly opened.





“You.. what did you do..” she whispered as Snape entered the room, closing it behind him.





“What the **** did you do! Why did you do this to me!” she yelled at him, running to him and hitting him hard on the chest with both her arms.





Snape grabbed her arms and shook her, “Did what? I did all you deserved, did you enjoy your sleep lastnight? Everyone was very worried, you had an elapse of-“





“You gave me this!” she yelled, slapping his face, “you..remove this! Take this away!” she yelled at him, showing him the Dark Mark on her left forearm.





Snape grabbed her hand and with his long fingers, traced the mark on it, “Ah..My…my….that..Very..very beautiful.. I think it suits you well..This time, we’re even..” he whispered, leaning towards the mark and kissing her left forearm gently.





“We’re not even!” Laiza yelled shoving his face away from her, “You.. you take this away or-“ “Or what? You’ll tell them I’m the traitor?” he laughed at her, his eyes glinting.





“May I remind you that far long they have known me to be a Death Eater,” he whispered softly in her ear, “and this won’t come to them as a surprise. But you.. an unlikely thing to happen when they now know that there is still someone else passing information to the Dark Lord.. a Death Eater undiscovered.. yet. Likely choice?” he asked her, raising an eyebrow.





“So if I were you.. I would do whatever I tell you to do and give me that memory or else.. everyone else would find out who you are.. traitor.”





“IM NOT THE TRAITOR! I’m not this! This isn’t right – you know I’m not – you placed this – you evil- remove this now!” “It can’t be removed actually,” Snape coolly said, pushing her away to the bed.





“It’s on your skin now and you’re the traitor they will be looking for. Not only because you have the Dark Mark but because of that memory.. the ones you killed.. how you joined the Dark Lord.. very fascinating what magic can do, Laiza.. don’t you think?”





Laiza’s insides were burning in anger. She wanted to kill him at this instant. But how..she can’t.. he was the only one who knew how to remove the memory and the mark he burned on her skin…. But….





“To tell you, you did hurt me when you placed this wound on me,” Snape continued, showing her a scar on his hand, a long fresh scar. “I didn’t do that..” Laiza said, backing away from him, “I didn’t do that.. you know I didn’t-“



“Actually, you did.. you did this when you tried to kill me when I was trying to rescue everyone else.. a masked death eater wounded me and tried to kill me..do you remember?”



Laiza’s head began to spun in pain again and another scene she knew that didn’t happened focused in her eyes. she yelled in pain.





“I didn’t try to kill you! It was you who tried to kill me at that time! I didn’t try and kill you-“ “Really? But would anybody believe now that you have those memories.. and the Dark Mark..” Snape softly said, laughing at her and walking across the room, “Only one memory Laiza Raines.. and you couldn’t hand it to me. Now it will cost you your life, your reputation.. and your beloved werewolf..”



“No! I DID NOT KILL ANYBODY! I DID NOT TRY AND KILL YOU!” Laiza yelled at him, pushing him away and getting the wand from his hand.





There were great noise as Laiza through a large glass box at him and she was able to get his wand. Without warning, with all her anger rising inside her, she used a Disarming Spell on Snape and pushed her back on the wall. There came footsteps outside the room.





“I did not kill anyone,” Laiza whispered angrily, pointing the tip of Snape’s own wand at his neck, “and I did not try and kill you.. you ruined many lives.. and this time, I will not flinch to see your death – perhaps I did not dare try to kill you, but this time.. I can’t believe you’re the traitor.. you destroyed many lives and it’s enough.. I will kill you Severus,” Laiza whispered, digging the tip of the wand at his throat. Snape’s breathing was shallow and he began choking, because Laiza’s anger made her stronger.







He could almost not breath and feared that she might indeed kill him and fail to do his mission.. but she could not..





“I will kill you,” Laiza whispered angrily, her hands shaking, her eyes tear-streaked and angered, and the tip of the wand, she was digging deeply every second at Snape’s throat “Death Eater or not.. I don’t care.. I will kill you Severus Snape even if that’s the last thing I do….”







“What are you doing, Laiza?” a voice called as the door opened.





Both of them looked at the doorway and saw the headmaster standing there and half of the Order, looking at the headmaster’s back to see what was happening. He was looking at Laiza with wide-eyes.







Laiza’s mouth was left hanging open. Realizing what this was looking like, she quickly let Snape go and removed the wand from his neck, retreating from him.



“What is this?” Dumbledore asked calmly, entering with half the Order.



“Headmaster, quickly..” Snape suddenly said, turning to the headmater and to Lupin, “Use the sleeping spell on her.. she’s not herself.. she tried to hurt herself and me,” he said, his voice in panic as he grabbed a clothing from the table and quickly tied Lynda’s hand as he took the wand away.







Lupin stared unbelievably and angrily at Snape for a moment, then slowly grabbed Laiza too.. he couldn’t believe it, but it look as if Snape was telling the truth..







“What – no, no! Wait –no- Listen to me, Remus-“ Laiza yelled, struggling from the bonds and kicking her way away from Snape, “No -! Remus.. listen to me, I didn’t – he’s lying – he’s hurt me –he was- he did-Remus, don’t please-“ she cried as she watched Snape instead master a potion at a corner and showed it to Dumbledore so he could make Lynda drink it.







“No! No! I’m not taking that- no – please headmaster- listen to me-“ “It’s for your own good, Laiza..” Remus whispered, holding her tight to him and kissing her forehead to calm down, “It will soothe you.. calm you down.. Laiza.. listen to us, to me.. please..-“





“No, you don’t understand – he’s lying- he’s the traitor- he’s a traitor- headmaster, please-“ she cried, fighting against Lupin’s grip and staring at Dumbledore who looked plainly at her, “please.. you know.. I know you know and you could feel that something is wrong around here.. please.. you know me better than anyone I’d never-“





“Hold her tight, Lupin,” Snape sharply ordered, mixing the goblet with his wand and walking towads Laiza and grabbing her chin, “hold her tightly..” he softly said, his eyes turning to hers.. he could see the visible hatred in Laiza’s eyes..