Loving and Hating Time

What would you do for the ones you loved? Would you go back in time, knowing you will be with him and not be able to hold him, kiss him, love him? Would you die for the ones you love? But more importantly would you kill? Sirius/Harry



Read this BEFORE reading this story!!!! Ok I’ve taken the movie Serenity and put it into this story! But it will come up more in Sequel. Some of the words will be from Serenity/Firefly I LOVE that show!!! This will be slash (m/m) and brief ((not hugely part of story)) incest, Self mutilation, rape, and torture if you don’t like it please leave! I do not own Harry Potter or company! Please no flames!!

“Talking”
‘Thinking’
*Parseltongue*
“Another Language” ((Sometimes I wont use that and just write the language))
“Dream/Memory”

Loving and Hating Time


Chapter 3
“Talking and Hornyness”



Harry walked down the halls to the library. He couldn’t believe he lost control! God how much he hated Tom!!!

Harry got to the library and walked in to see Lily at the back table with books all around her; he smiled gently she reminded him of Max ((Yes that’s what I’m calling Ginny now!))). Harry walked over and sat down across from her. Lily looked up and blinked at him “O…” she paused “Did I miss dinner?” she asked, eyebrows furrowed. Harry shook his head “No I came early and saw you so…what’d you want?” he asked straight out. She smiled; looking at her book then closed it and put it to the side. “I was just hoping we could be friends; I mean the only person I can have an intelligent conversation with is Remus…” she trailed off and looked at the table.

Harry stood and she looked up, thinking he was leaving. Harry smirked and stretched his hand out “I’m Harry but my friends call me Zion…Z or Zi…” he muttered then smiled as she shook his hand “Lily Evans my friends call me Lily” she laughed. They mock shook each others hand “You want to go walk outside?” she asked, gathering her stuff, Harry nodded once and they walked out.


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Harry and Lily walked outside silently, enjoying the others company. Lily looked at him “So do you have any brothers or sisters…I have a sister she hates me! She’s always trying to get me into trouble.” She said making a face. Harry nodded silently “I have a sister…had a sister Maximum.” He said kicking a rock.

Lily looked confused “Had? O... oh I’m so sorry!” she said pausing “I’m a muggleborn…but I’m one of the smartest witches in Hogwarts! James… the boy you um…well …he’s my boyfriend…” she said with a smile, then looked at him “Do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend?” she asked. Harry shook his head smirking, knowing what she was asking “I like guys…” he said giving her a look. She blushed “Ya I kinda figured… well it’s just…I don’t know…” she muttered blushing.

Harry looked at her “I don’t really ‘date’ I didn’t grow up in the best situations and I just don’t really …like anyone!” he said. Lily looked at him “May I ask a question? I mean you don’t have to answer it I’d understand since we don’t know each other!” she stopped and laughed “Your glasses…” she trailed off. Harry raised an eyebrow at her then looked around for a shady spot. He grabbed her hand and pulled her over to a shadowed outside hallway.

He looked at her, tilting his head then shrugged and took off his glasses. Lily gasped “Oh wow!!” she said and put her hand on his face, tilting her head. He pulled back and replaced his glasses “I have vamp blood in me.” He muttered.


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For the next few hours they sat by the lake and talked about what kind of books they liked. Harry promised to show her some of his books he had by the founders. Lily promised to show him some muggle books she had. Harry and Lily talked about their favorite classes and what kind of music they liked and found they were very much alike. Harry told her a little about Max, how she had the same kinda glasses and wore clothes like him. Lily told Harry about how she didn’t like James before because he was so arrogant and jealous all the time. She told him about how close Peter, James, Sirius, and Remus were. Harry told her about Hermione and how much he thought they were alike.

They lost track of time just talking it wasn’t until the sun started going down that Lily jumped “Oh no, James must be so worried! I swear he get so worried about me sometimes he makes sure I eat and sleep enough… he’s really sweet.” She said with a smile. Harry gave a smile and stood as well “Let’s get to dinner…” he said softly. Lily looked at him “You know we should do this again! I really had fun thank you for talking to me!” she said.

Harry and Lily walked in the Great Hall and separated to their tables.


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Lily sat next to James and grabbed some food. “Where’ve you been?” James asked looking at her with concern “Did the Slytherin hurt you? Are you ok? You look cold!!” he said and took off his cloak and pulled it around her. “James! James I swear I’m fine I was just talking to Zion!” she said pushing him off. All movement stopped and every Gryffindor who heard her turned to her. “What the bloody hell were you doing with that scumbag!?!” James bellowed. “James Potter if you so much as say a word to draw attention to us I will castrate you!” she whispered dangerously, eyes flashing.

Lily looked around and saw only James, Sirius, Peter, and Remus were looking at her…then she saw Zion looking at them he quickly looked down at his plate. She sighed sadly then narrowed her eyes pissed off! “Get Up!” she barked, pulling James up. The others quickly followed and they went to Gryffindor Common room.


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Lily threw James on the couch “How Dare you!!! Who do you think you are James Potter?!?” she yelled. James stood up, now equally pissed, “Who am I?!? You were the one who was practically all over that son-of- …” there was a sharp ‘slap’ sound as Lily smacked James across the face. James looked at her with pain, shock, and anger…never once in all their fights has it ever turned physical. “How dare you even think for a second I would be unfaithful to you?! Zion is my friend! I barley know him and even if I did I wouldn’t start anything with him! Plus for our information Potter Zion likes guys!!” she whispered dangerously, eyes full of hurt, as she stormed up the stairs to the 7th year girls dorm.

James stared after her, still holding his face. Remus shook his head “It’s your own fault so don’t come to me when you screw things up!” he said and went up to the girl’s dorm to comfort his friend.

James looked at Sirius and Peter still in shock “What the bloody hell just happened here?!” he whispered, falling in his seat.


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School and classes went by fast, Harry had become closer friends to Lily and Narcassa and had talked to Lucius and Severus and had become close to them as well. The ‘Advantage Class’ was going really well and people were getting better. Lily had introduced Remus to him and Harry had hit it off with the werewolf fast. James, Sirius, and Peter still stayed away from him, shooting him dirty looks. He learned from Lily that they, her and James, still weren’t on speaking terms. At night Harry would stay up and just go walking/flying or wrap himself in one of Sirius’ hoodies and lay there. But mostly he would go in his trunk where he had taken a portrait of Remus and would talk to him for hours.

Now it was October 14th, a Friday, and the day before the full moon. Harry had been so excited about this day he got Lily, Severus, Lucius, Narcassa, and Remus all together and told them that he was taking them some where tonight. As they all sat in Advanced Transfiguring Harry was practically bouncing in his seat. Harry looked over at Lily who was holding in laughter at him, she was sitting with Remus and Sirius. He paused, at making a face at her when Sirius turned around. Harry looked at Sirius and they stared at each other just looking, as if frozen. Harry turned away first looking at his desk; ignoring the raised eyebrow from Severus, Lily, and Remus.

Harry jumped out of his seat as the bell rang. It was 3pm and the sun went down about 6pm he sighed and waited for the others. Lily came out and burst out laughing “Glad I amuse you Lily…” Harry muttered. Lily shook her head “Oh Zion I wanted to ask is it ok if James and Sirius come with us tonight? Peter said he had ‘things’ to do so I didn’t ask him.” She said rolling her eyes.

Harry blinked and looked at Sirius who walked past them, he watched Sirius’ back. Sirius turned his head but before they could freeze again he turned and walked away, faster. Harry turned back to Lily “Um… I don’t think it’s a good idea cause Luci and Sev are going to be there.” He said a little in a daze. Severus growled “Don’t call me that!” he snapped. Harry rolled his eyes “Sev you are Sev Lily is Lils and Remus is Remy and Lucius is Luci! Deal with it!” Harry snapped “Ok remember when the sun is down meet at the lake!” he said then took off.


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Harry didn’t show up for dinner and no one could find him. Harry was in his four room trunk…

“I don’t know what I’m going to do Moony!! I mean Albus said he has a cage I can stay in for the 48 hours but what about the questions?!” Harry mumbled around the cigarette in his mouth. He was pacing in front of the portrait of Remus, who was following him with his eyes. “Zi you really need to stop pacing! Now about the questions… well you said you told Severus and Lucius and I’m pretty sure Lily would know about vampires…” he said but Harry shook his head “No! No the 3x a year is because of my Angelic-Demon not the vampire I’m just lucky Lucius and Severus bought it. If Lily did research then she knows I’m lying and she’ll ask questions…this is because of the full moon! It’s just Sirius…o god he’s right there…” Harry whispered as his eyes glazed over and his wings flew from his back.

Harry stretched his wings and cracked his back it had been so long since he was allowed to do this and not worry about someone seeing him. God the full moon was pounding in his veins …it was close. He could never understand why he got like this around the full moon. Harry could always control himself on the full moon it’s just when the 3x a year come along that he needed to be locked up. It was then that he would do anything to protect and be with his mate…to be with Sirius.

Remus looked thoughtful and then he blinked “Z… as a werewolf I well….before the full moon I get horny…” Remus cleared his throat, blushing. Harry looked at him and raised his eyebrow then paused “o… right…” he whispered and turned away from Remus, who was looking at him for answers. “Rem there’s something I haven’t told you and I should but… it’s about you and your family…” he paused and a timer went off and he sighed with relief inside. “O the suns going down I gotta go! Bye Moony!!” he called, grabbing his trench, and retracting his wings, and running up the stairs.


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Harry got to the hallway and ran down the corridor then stopped leaning on the wall. He did have a small part of werewolf in him… ‘So that’s why I get so horny around the full moon… I can control it now but when soon…god when will it come around February. What the fuck am I going to do?!?’ he thought leaning on the cold stone wall. His body felt on fire…he could feel the Angelic-Demon demanding to have Sirius now…before anything happens to him again. ‘And it’s going to be 10x worse when my ‘horny time’ comes! This by my calculations is a few days before Christmas…what a wonderful Christmas this is going to be! ’ he thought with a groan.

He pushed off the wall and started outside again. Know matter how much he hated feeling like this he really did love looking at the stars on these nights.


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Harry walked outside and breathed in the night air. The sun was just setting…he’d be able to take off his glasses soon. He wished they knew about the Angelic-Demon so he could fly. Harry looked around and saw the broom shed; he glanced around making sure no one was there yet. Harry smirked and took off running; he reached his hand out; wordlessly calling a broom. Harry slipped the broom under him and took off in the sky without another thought.

As the sun went completely down Harry just flew in lazy circles, he had taken off his glasses and was just relaxed. Harry lay on his stomach; feet at the end and hands still on the handle…but he was relaxed. Harry looked down the 136 feet and saw the tiny figures of Lucius, Severus, Lily, Remus, James, and Sirius watching him. He groaned then smirked; straddling the broom he went head first down wards. He didn’t stop even hearing their screams at him to stop. At the last minute, as he was about to crash, he pulled up and levitated there for a minute before getting off.


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“Are you mental!!!” Lily screamed coming up to him. “You could have gotten yourself killed!!” she barked. “That was really good flying!” Lucius, Sirius, and James all said. Lily’s eyes flashed and she turned on them. They all backed up, even Sev and Luci, seeing her glare.

Harry smirked and tilted his head making his eyes do a glowing thing. “Whoa!” Sirius said as he stepped forward again to see him closer. Harry balked at the closeness but didn’t move away…Sirius’ smell…arousal shot threw him before he could even think. Everyone turned to Remus who chocked as he looked at Harry and Sirius in shock. Harry’s eyes widened and he turned away “Um…ok by the lake.” He muttered and started walking trying to not think about Sirius.


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As Harry gathered everyone to the lake he muttered a spell and a large blanket appeared he looked at them “Ok no fighting children!” he taunted. Harry lay on his back and waited for them to join him. After everyone was comfortable he began to tell them a story “I’m going to tell you a story about a young boy and girl…about monsters and wars…” he paused as everyone seemed to get ready for the story.

“In the future there will be a great war… a war that some will call the ‘war above all wars’. In this time there were some who knew how bad the war would eventually be….so they decided to take it into their own hands. They went around the world looking for 12 babies…and they found them.” He paused looking from either side of him. “They thought ‘we could make the ultimate weapons….the ultimate human.’ They opened a portal to a dimension and put a time block around it; that means a year in this world would be 100yrs in that one.

The people got together wizards and muggles to do this; thinking that even though muggles don’t have magic there ideas with technology was better then anything.” He stopped and looked at Remus, who was looking confused, Harry raise an eyebrow at him. Remus flushed “Well what happened to the children?” he asked and the others nodded too.

Harry took a deep breath “For 600yrs they trained the children…they taught them pain tolerance, how to be emotionless, they taught them everything you could think of. They decided that in order to make them the perfect weapon was to take the humanity out of them. They took blood from one child, there best, and gave it to the others.” Harry paused again and looked up at the stars and closed his eyes.

“What the lab coats didn’t expect was for the kids to escape…. Years later the war did come but most of the kids were so betrayed by the wizards they wouldn’t fight. It wasn’t until 2007 did the war come to end…there was an attack that left hundreds…thousands…dead. The water went red with blood of both innocence and evil for months. So many people died that the Wizarding world would never be the same…” he finished; he turned to look at them; they all gaped at him. Sirius stuttered “What about the happy ending!?! What happened to the kids or those monsters?! You can’t just end like that!!” he whined.

Harry lit a cigarette, which was behind his ear; he inhaled deeply as he looked up at the sky. “You all know that my best friend was a werewolf right?” he asked softly. He waited for them to nod then gave a small smile sticking his lip out slightly, biting it.

“After my godfather died he dragged me out side, the night before the full moon. He had laid a blanket down in the backyard and he lay on top of it. When I went over and lay down beside him, he started telling me stories about the great kings of the past…” he paused and inhaled deeply as he remembered something Remus said. “He once told me that when someone dies and they go to haven they all get a star. He said that all the stars shine the brightest before, after the full moon and then on the new moon. He said that if I ever needed him that all I needed was to find his star and he’d be listening to me.” He whispered.

He knew he had made them think a lot and also made them a little uncomfortable; so he decided to change the subject “Why do you all hate each other?” he asked innocently. Startled they looked at him Lily quickly shook her head “We don’t…” he cut her off “Not you! I mean Severus, Lucius, James, and Sirius? Why do you hate each other when its very obvious that you’d get along if you were in the same house… is that it? Because if it is what about Narcassa she’s a Slytherin and you like her! And Sev you get along with Remus just fine!” he saw the blush on each and smirked.

James and Sirius looked between Remus and Severus baffled. Lily looked like she was working something out in her head “I agree with Zion! We all get along fine, the fighting is mostly about which house we’re in.” she said and looked at the guys.

Harry stood, brushing himself off “Well it’s late…” he said and started walking away but stopped and turned his head “Oh and you should know that Salazar and Godric were lovers!” he said smirking at their shocked faces.


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The next day, Saturday, was uneventful as ever. Harry stayed in his dorm most of the time, curtains locked and a silencing charm over them. He had been so gorram horny! Harry had finally taken some of Sirius’ shirts and put them around his bed…after jerking off a few times he went to a shower.


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As Harry let his head fall on the wall, letting the spray ease his tense muscles, he sighed; he really wanted to make the Wolfsbane potion but it hasn’t been made yet!! He wondered if he should talk to Sev about it… he could advance the potion so that it helped ease the transformation and the pain, sleepiness, and soreness that comes with the transformation. As he thought about the potion and transforming he couldn’t help but let his wings out.

Harry stayed in the shower, just letting his wings clean and just relaxing until a knock startled him out of his relaxing. Harry swore as he retracted his wings and got out; he pulled a towel around his waist, putting on his glamour, and opened the door. Harry looked at Lucius impatiently “What?” he growled, eyes flashing. Lucius gulped but pulled himself together “Evans is outside, she want to see you.” He said, though there was a slight shake in his voice.

Harry walked to the dorm room door; which led outside instead of threw the common room. He looked out and saw Lily, James, and Sirius…his eyes quickly dilating as he smelt Sirius; he quickly used everything that he learned in the labs; as not to let them know.


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Harry looked over them and raised his eyebrows “Lucius said only Lily was here. Where’s Remus?” He stated then backed up; wordlessly inviting them in. He glanced around; Lucius was at his desk writing and Severus was so deeply in tune in a book he didn’t even realize they where there. As they walked in they looked around “Um…Remus got sick and had to go to the hospital wing.” Lily muttered. Harry glanced outside ‘An hour till sunset...’ and looked back at them, gripping his towel a little harder as he looked at Sirius.

Lily sighed, rolling her eyes, “We wanted to know if the three of you wanted to go to Hogsmead on Sunday…as a group it could be fun!” she said excitedly. Harry looked at Lucius, who shrugged, then at Severus who hadn’t even noticed their presence. James rolled his eyes “He acts like Remus’ does…” he muttered and at the sound of Remus’ name Severus glanced up, then blinked at the Gryffindor’s. Harry and Lily noticed how he reacted to Remus name and looked at each other and smirked. ‘Well, well, well it seems I can do at least one good thing...I just need to get them together!’ he thought with a smirk. Harry glanced at Lily and knew she was thinking the same thing and they both shared a look.


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After James, Lily, and Sirius had left Harry had talked to Severus about a potion that would help with werewolves. Severus had looked at him suspiciously but after telling Severus that he had been thinking about it since his ‘friend’ died he wanted to help other werewolves. So that night they had gone to the library to look things up. Harry knowing that Severus would work it out decided to work on how to get rid of the pain and also work on a potion for scars.


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OK I hope u like it and ya I no it’s a lil weird but I hope u like! PLEASE REVIEW!!!


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