Hermione's story

A/N Thanks heaps to Slytheringriffindor, your reviews are great and if some people find my stories confusing due to lyrics I am sorry I just like writing songfics. Please if you read feel free to review flames are welcomed they help the writer fix the story up.

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Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
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Well here I was again, sitting in the great hall. Minerva was just finishing up the sorting of the new first years. Surprisingly there were only a few this year as Parents opted to keep their children away from a school that death eaters could get into.

Looking around I saw that even the seventh years were few and far between. Slytherin house had only a few in it, much to my disgust Pansy, Crabbe and Goyle had returned. Blaise was there as well, but the dark Italian was always keeping to himself so I knew I had worries with him.

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He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true
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At the Gryffindor table there were all of us, call it courage or stupidity I did not know. But every once in awhile I would see Pavarti and Lavender look over at Ginny and I.

Ginny was a mess due to Harry and Ron leaving on their search for the Horcrux's. I myself, well I didn't know what to think. True I loved my best friends with all my heart, but my love for Ron was more a pain now. Snape and Draco had spent a few nights at my place, until my parents returned. Snape had marked me as his own. I not sported just under my breast a perfect black snack tattoo.

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And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

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Like the Dark mark, if he wanted to see me it would throb. Oh but not in pain mind you, it would send shots of pleasure through my body. I know most people would ask how I could betray my friends by helping the two Slytherins, but Hey whats a girl to do when in the long run it would help our cause.

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I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well
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Finally dinner was over and Blaise who was head boy and I directed the prefects to take first years to the dorms. Then we retreated to our own shared common room. Blaise was a strange boy, he could sit there for hours and not say a word, then out of the blue he could suddenly say anything. It was like this that he took me by Surprise in our common room.

I had just sat down about to work on a study plan for myself when Blaise sat next to me. I could feel his black eyes on me, Looking up annoyed I was surprised to see him smirking.

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Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
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"So when will you let you boyfriend know your sleeping with the enemy?" I was shocked, but of course he would know Draco was the boys best mate. "He will never know Blaise! I mean it, I love Ron and what I am doing with Snape is completely just to help out in the war." Blaise gave another chuckle, "Did you spend nearly the whole summer trying to convince yourself of that Granger. You have been with a Slytherin and not to be too cocky but they say once you have a snake, no other will match it."

Frustrated I stood, glaring at him before storming up to my room where I laid on the bed. God was he right, I know that Snape was a great lover and all but my heart belonged to Ron, it always had. What type of woman was I. No I wasn't any woman just a two bit whore selling my body for information instead of money.

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I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
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The last time I had seen Ron I had a feeling he knew I was unfaithful. He knew I was playing around, but just not who with. I think he keeps telling himself that its only fun and once this war was over I would be all his. His eyes the last time we had made love said it all. You have no idea just how hard it is to hide the mark under my breast, glamours only last so long. But I knew he had seen it once when I was asleep, I awoke to find Ron's eyes on me, the sadness was to much.

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Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)
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Tired of thinking, tired of lying I finally gave in to sleep. In my dream I was making love to Snape, it felt so real. As he thrust into me a final time I heard his silky voice whisper in my ear. "Love you," Knowing it wasn't real I cupped his face kissing his lips, "I love you too Severus." I awoke with a start. No I couldn't, I wouldn't in any way ever love a one Severus Snape. Nearly too late I realized I wasn't alone and turned looking into the shocked eyes of a one Ginny Weasley, it was then that I knew I talked in my sleep. She Knew!

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I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)


A/N that's what you call busted. How will Hermione explain this