Back Again

I woke in the morning as I felt something, or rather someone stir next to me. It put a smile on my face. I could tell he was trying not to disturb me th.
I.
I heard him leave the bedroom and go to the bathroom. I admit I was a little disappointed as I was hoping, well wishful thinking he would stay in bed and kiss me. Hey a girl can dream can’t she?

I turned over and lay facing the ceiling; I closed my eyes again just laying there in silence. After a few minutes I heard the bedroom door open again and him quietly, not that it was much use as I was awake. Close the door and climb back into bed.

I could tell outside the bed was cold from hearing him shiver and trying to calm his breathing. Still I lay with my eyes shut. I then felt a cold hand gently touch the side of one of my cheeks, slowly stroking it. I felt him move down the bed, I was beginning to wonder what he was planning on doing to me. But then I felt him snuggle into me.

At this point I decided to turn over and open my eyes.
“Morning sleeping beauty” he said smiling.
I just smiled back and moved down a little to bury my head in his chest. I know this is not how friends are supposed to act but I wanted him, needed him so much. I never believed once when he was in Azkaban that it was him that handed over James and Lily. He loved them too damn much. I missed him so much while he was away, so much it felt like each day my heart was being ripped from my chest.

I rather him be around and love someone else than not have him in my life at all.
I started to run my finger tips along the markings on his chest.
“You like them don’t you”
“They give you character Padfoot”
“And I didn’t have character before? I’m hurt by that. I thought I meant a lot to you”
“Come on you know you mean a lot to me” I said looking up at his face, I bit on my lower lip I could tell he was thinking but it was hard to tell what was going through his mind. Least at 17 it was pretty obvious I mean a 17 year old boy, what could he have on his mind?
“So am I forgiven then Sirius?”
“I’m thinking about it”
“Charming, now I am hurt”
“Ok I forgive you Angel, on one condition”
“What’s that?” after saying that I thought that maybe asking this was a bad idea of mine.
“That I can sleep in your bed again tonight, it’s more comfortable than downstairs. And I must say the company is a lot more pleasant”
I smiled “In that case I’m forgiven”
I sank my head back down to his chest and closed my eyes. Bliss, another night of sharing the same bed as him. Dare I try for more than sleeping in the same bed or just leave it I thought to myself.

I felt his arms move tighter around me pulling me closer laying there I could not hear anything but the birds outside and the beat of his heart. I couldn’t think of anywhere else in the world I would rather be.
I sat up “I should get up and make us some food Sirius, you have not eaten in a long time and you need to eat something”
A smirk came about on his face, this time I could tell what he was thinking and I was wishing I had re worded what I said about eating something.
“Sirius Black, do you not think about anything besides what is in your pants”
“I am insulted by that, of course I do. I think about what’s under you dress”
I was too shocked to reply at what he had said.
“Anyway Angel, you were thinking the same as me so doesn’t make you much better than me now does it”
Pouting, “I guess you got me on that. On the bright side, least I don’t know what I am missing do I?”
His face looked sad “You can miss it without having experiencing it. I saw the way you looked at that couple in the café last night. The way they held hands and kissed. You miss that and you’ve never had that have you”
Now I was struggling to hold back the tears.
“Sorry I did not mean to upset you…..I have a habit of putting my foot in it don’t I?” he said as he sat up and pulled me into his arms.

I looked at him and wiped my tears away. “You must think I am a wreck don’t you?”
“No I think you’re lonely, lonelier than you will admit. You want to be loved and to love. I also think that you will find someone that will treat you right and that you marry and have children with. Grow old with.”
“So you’re into fortune telling now? So who am I going to marry?”
Sirius smiled “I have a few suggestions”
“A few huh? I only need one to love me not a few”
Smiling more he hugged me tighter and placed a kiss on my forehead looking at me he said “Come on sleeping beauty lets get out of bed”
Damn I was hoping he would kiss me more, but I shall get up I thought.