Low Man Is Due
folder
Harry Potter › Slash - Male/Male › Harry/Snape
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
30
Views:
21,773
Reviews:
98
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
Category:
Harry Potter › Slash - Male/Male › Harry/Snape
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
30
Views:
21,773
Reviews:
98
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
Disclaimer:
I do not own Harry Potter, nor any of the characters from the books or movies. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
AN 2 But tell me...
PART TWO
Chapter 1: Lay beside me, tell me what they’ve done – this chapter was just going to be “Tell me what they’ve done” but being anal, I wanted the whole line. That’s seriously the only reason for it to be there!
There is a jump of a number days here. I’ll admit to being lazy, the rescue (like the capture) is not important to the story. This story is about the emotions and the problems thrown up by what has happened to Harry. I had intended this and the next chapter to be one long chapter, but I envisaged Ron’s tantrum as being longer than it was so I split them into two chapters.
By the way, Harry woke up on the previous days, and was told what had happened, he just didn’t remember what had been said. For him, the last important thing was his confession to Severus.
It was in this chapter that I began having Harry physically react to Severus. Some of the reasoning behind that is obvious, but I also always knew what the last line of this story would be and have been working to get it there.
Chapter 2: Dolls of voodoo, stuck with pins – Weird title, I know. I think the two characters (Ron and Harry) are feeling a little like voodoo dolls. They have been tormented, and, unlike a voodoo doll where you make the person feel the pain by hurting the doll, H took R’s pain (well, believed he did) and R took H’s pain (well, believed he did). So, they were reverse voodoo dolls. Also, dolls are toys, and they have both been “played”.
The denial of the rape comes from something a friend of mine once said to me about how she dealt with her abusive husband. She said that if she had called him “abusive” she wouldn’t have been able to cope, but by saying “he’s handy with his fists” it made it less serious and she could deal. (She left him, by the way!)
Chapter 3: What I’ve felt, what I’ve known, turn the pages, turn to stone – This chapter was supposed to be the trial, but I wanted to drop some hints about what might be mentioned, and also I wanted see how the two lads were coping with what had happened. I had a real problem getting Ron and Harry’s friendship to fracture. But I think this chapter, coupled with chapter four, work well to splinter them.
The title refers to how the boys react when given veritaserum – they are “stone” – their feelings have been stripped away. Also, it refers to their relationship which is soon to be in the past (turn the pages). It could have links to the pages the Aurors wrote whilst noting down the boys’ statements. See? I don’t just throw these titles at the chapters randomly!
Chapter 4: The net below has rot away - This stemmed from me thinking about chapter 3 and thinking that there wasn’t enough to split Harry and Ron as yet, so I made sure Lucius had his little outburst (which he did purely to ensure everyone knew who the victims were after he realised he was going to be found guilty), and then had the Daily Prophet react in typical Prophet fashion, by focusing on Harry. I know people think Ron’s being a jackass, but he DID suffer more than Harry did. A lot more! And, as usual, he is being pushed to the sidelines, in favour of Harry.
The title has links to a lot of stuff – the boys’ safety net (the anonymity) has gone, 2) Ron, as Harry’s safety net has “rotted” as a result of what has happened, this has led to their friendship (Harry’s safety net) being ruined, 3) Lucius’ safety net (his own supreme self-confidence) is no longer enough to save him.
Chapter 5: Break the spell or become the doll - The title is actually a warning of what is going to happen to Harry if he isn’t careful (he’ll play a role – a victim – forever if he doesn’t move on). I knew where I wanted this chapter to go to, but I had a hard time getting it there. I had to focus so much on Harry’s emotional state that it took me a lot longer to reach the end of this chapter. And yes, as I got to the end of it, I did start to well up, as I have had to be in Harry’s mind whilst writing it, and that is not a pleasant place to be.
Chapter 6: A ritual’s due – Hopefully you got that Harry, by self-harming, was ritualising his pain and finding a way to cope. (Not a good way, but a way). Oh, and by the way, the word he shouts as he climaxes is Severus’ name. Yes, all the way back here he was having lusty feelings for his tormentor.
Chapter 7: Confess all to the rain – I can be incredibly literal minded in some ways, and actually wanted to find a way to have Severus yelling out his feelings as rain fell. I can see it in my mind and would make a great music video, but would just look a bit daft if it were real, so his confession came in the court-room. I think this story, more so than any of my others, is open to interpretation. I give options as to why a character behaves a certain way, and it is entirely your own choice what you believe. So, was Snape’s voice hoarse because he hadn’t spoken, or because he had been screaming?
And his confession is unpleasant, I’m aware, but also shows that he was being quite kind to Harry, despite his apparent cruelties.
Chapter 8: So I dub thee ‘unforgiven’ – I love the songs I use for the titles. The Unforgiven Too and Low Man’s Lyric are just amazingly beautiful tunes. This title comes, not surprisingly, from the first song mentioned. Clearly, the one who is unforgiven is Severus. Although not found guilty, he is still being punished (which seems a bit mean to me!) which actually has links to “The Unforgiven” (a song on the Black album). In the first song there are some corking lines that apply here: “This whipping boy done wrong… He tries to please them all… This bitter man he is”. Hmm, maybe I should have used that song for this story. Oops!
Oh, and no one commented on Quibbler article! I thought it was funny. Clearly I was the only one. Ho hum.
Chapter 9: And I can’t bear to see what I’ve let me be: so wicked and worn – so many of the lines I used had links to mirrors and seeing, and I wanted to save the other mirror line for later in the story (I did use it in Part three). Obviously, this applies to how Harry feels – he’s the one who can’t stand to look at himself, and see just how ‘worn’ he has become.
I do hope people understood that Severus wasn’t really standing behind Harry when he slit his wrists. It was Harry supplying the figure from his own mind. Again, it is ambiguous what expression Harry thinks fake Snape has.
Also, in this chapter, you can see how much the capture has affected Harry – he gets most aroused when he has cut himself deeply enough to kill!
I have had a go at drawing this particular image – Harry in the mirror, seeing Snape behind him, but I’m still working on it. If I ever feel like it’s come out ok, I’ll stick it up for people to look at.
And, I do realise it was a cruel cliff-hanger, mwahahaha!
Seriously, stop scrolling down! There’s nothing here!
Chapter 1: Lay beside me, tell me what they’ve done – this chapter was just going to be “Tell me what they’ve done” but being anal, I wanted the whole line. That’s seriously the only reason for it to be there!
There is a jump of a number days here. I’ll admit to being lazy, the rescue (like the capture) is not important to the story. This story is about the emotions and the problems thrown up by what has happened to Harry. I had intended this and the next chapter to be one long chapter, but I envisaged Ron’s tantrum as being longer than it was so I split them into two chapters.
By the way, Harry woke up on the previous days, and was told what had happened, he just didn’t remember what had been said. For him, the last important thing was his confession to Severus.
It was in this chapter that I began having Harry physically react to Severus. Some of the reasoning behind that is obvious, but I also always knew what the last line of this story would be and have been working to get it there.
Chapter 2: Dolls of voodoo, stuck with pins – Weird title, I know. I think the two characters (Ron and Harry) are feeling a little like voodoo dolls. They have been tormented, and, unlike a voodoo doll where you make the person feel the pain by hurting the doll, H took R’s pain (well, believed he did) and R took H’s pain (well, believed he did). So, they were reverse voodoo dolls. Also, dolls are toys, and they have both been “played”.
The denial of the rape comes from something a friend of mine once said to me about how she dealt with her abusive husband. She said that if she had called him “abusive” she wouldn’t have been able to cope, but by saying “he’s handy with his fists” it made it less serious and she could deal. (She left him, by the way!)
Chapter 3: What I’ve felt, what I’ve known, turn the pages, turn to stone – This chapter was supposed to be the trial, but I wanted to drop some hints about what might be mentioned, and also I wanted see how the two lads were coping with what had happened. I had a real problem getting Ron and Harry’s friendship to fracture. But I think this chapter, coupled with chapter four, work well to splinter them.
The title refers to how the boys react when given veritaserum – they are “stone” – their feelings have been stripped away. Also, it refers to their relationship which is soon to be in the past (turn the pages). It could have links to the pages the Aurors wrote whilst noting down the boys’ statements. See? I don’t just throw these titles at the chapters randomly!
Chapter 4: The net below has rot away - This stemmed from me thinking about chapter 3 and thinking that there wasn’t enough to split Harry and Ron as yet, so I made sure Lucius had his little outburst (which he did purely to ensure everyone knew who the victims were after he realised he was going to be found guilty), and then had the Daily Prophet react in typical Prophet fashion, by focusing on Harry. I know people think Ron’s being a jackass, but he DID suffer more than Harry did. A lot more! And, as usual, he is being pushed to the sidelines, in favour of Harry.
The title has links to a lot of stuff – the boys’ safety net (the anonymity) has gone, 2) Ron, as Harry’s safety net has “rotted” as a result of what has happened, this has led to their friendship (Harry’s safety net) being ruined, 3) Lucius’ safety net (his own supreme self-confidence) is no longer enough to save him.
Chapter 5: Break the spell or become the doll - The title is actually a warning of what is going to happen to Harry if he isn’t careful (he’ll play a role – a victim – forever if he doesn’t move on). I knew where I wanted this chapter to go to, but I had a hard time getting it there. I had to focus so much on Harry’s emotional state that it took me a lot longer to reach the end of this chapter. And yes, as I got to the end of it, I did start to well up, as I have had to be in Harry’s mind whilst writing it, and that is not a pleasant place to be.
Chapter 6: A ritual’s due – Hopefully you got that Harry, by self-harming, was ritualising his pain and finding a way to cope. (Not a good way, but a way). Oh, and by the way, the word he shouts as he climaxes is Severus’ name. Yes, all the way back here he was having lusty feelings for his tormentor.
Chapter 7: Confess all to the rain – I can be incredibly literal minded in some ways, and actually wanted to find a way to have Severus yelling out his feelings as rain fell. I can see it in my mind and would make a great music video, but would just look a bit daft if it were real, so his confession came in the court-room. I think this story, more so than any of my others, is open to interpretation. I give options as to why a character behaves a certain way, and it is entirely your own choice what you believe. So, was Snape’s voice hoarse because he hadn’t spoken, or because he had been screaming?
And his confession is unpleasant, I’m aware, but also shows that he was being quite kind to Harry, despite his apparent cruelties.
Chapter 8: So I dub thee ‘unforgiven’ – I love the songs I use for the titles. The Unforgiven Too and Low Man’s Lyric are just amazingly beautiful tunes. This title comes, not surprisingly, from the first song mentioned. Clearly, the one who is unforgiven is Severus. Although not found guilty, he is still being punished (which seems a bit mean to me!) which actually has links to “The Unforgiven” (a song on the Black album). In the first song there are some corking lines that apply here: “This whipping boy done wrong… He tries to please them all… This bitter man he is”. Hmm, maybe I should have used that song for this story. Oops!
Oh, and no one commented on Quibbler article! I thought it was funny. Clearly I was the only one. Ho hum.
Chapter 9: And I can’t bear to see what I’ve let me be: so wicked and worn – so many of the lines I used had links to mirrors and seeing, and I wanted to save the other mirror line for later in the story (I did use it in Part three). Obviously, this applies to how Harry feels – he’s the one who can’t stand to look at himself, and see just how ‘worn’ he has become.
I do hope people understood that Severus wasn’t really standing behind Harry when he slit his wrists. It was Harry supplying the figure from his own mind. Again, it is ambiguous what expression Harry thinks fake Snape has.
Also, in this chapter, you can see how much the capture has affected Harry – he gets most aroused when he has cut himself deeply enough to kill!
I have had a go at drawing this particular image – Harry in the mirror, seeing Snape behind him, but I’m still working on it. If I ever feel like it’s come out ok, I’ll stick it up for people to look at.
And, I do realise it was a cruel cliff-hanger, mwahahaha!
Seriously, stop scrolling down! There’s nothing here!