So Far Away

So Far Away
By: Gwen
Rating: NC17 overall
Pairing: Harry/Draco
Warning: AU/Slash/Drama/Angst/Romance
Betas: Tracy & Dorothy
Feedback: Much appreciated
Disclaimer: The \"boys\" belong to JKR. I just borrow them on occasion. No money is being made from this little adventure.

Summary: Interesting things can happen when you\'re away from everyone and everything you know.


Chapter 27 - Draco or Malfoy?

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Breakfast was a quiet affair as everyone was in the process of some last minute reviewing before they went in for their first test. Harry was no exception. In one hand he held a piece of half-eaten toast slathered with applebutter while balancing a book in the other.

If Hermione could see me now, he thought with a smile.

Of course he would never tell her the true reason for his last minute cramming - that he and his enemy-turned-lover had argued last night and as a result, his concentration was equal to that of a slug. He wondered if slugs concentrated at all.

Harry had yet to speak to Draco. For that matter, he wasn’t sure where the other wizard had disappeared to. He remembered catching a glimpse of him through their shared bathroom, but when Harry looked next, he was nowhere to be found. He briefly wondered if his boyfriend had slipped off to find someone who would do what Harry had refused him last night. Merlin knew he was good looking enough to pull just about anyone he chose.

Don’t go there, Harry, he thought to himself. Just because you had an argument doesn’t mean he would do that … would he?

\"Bloody hell,\" Harry mumbled as his concentration was broken again by wayward thoughts of his lover.

\"Problem?\" Allen asked from his spot across the table.

Harry closed the book and slid it into his book bag. \"Do you know where Draco was off to earlier?\" he asked.

Allen shook his head. \"No, just said that he needed to clear his head before his first test. I figured that he’d be here in time for breakfast.\"

\"If he ….\" Harry started angrily but quickly stopped that train of thought before it left the station. Taking a deep breath, he closed his eyes and thought of where Draco might be. An image that he would rather have not seen flashed into his mind and Harry’s stomach clenched in anger. He would not stand for anyone touching what was his, and Merlin help anyone who tried. Now HE was the one who needed to get away.

\"I’ll see you guys at lunch,\" he said as he grabbed his book bag and left the Great Hall.

Chad turned to his boyfriend. \"Why do I have a bad feeling settling in the pit of my stomach?\"

\"Probably because you’ve eaten too much,\" Allen teased. \"I still haven’t figured out how you can put away as much food as you do and not gain an ounce.\"

\"I’m being serious here,\" Chad commented.

\"You worry too much, you know that? You’re going to end up with an ulcer before the age of twenty if you keep that up. They’ll be fine. Everyone fights sooner or later,\" Allen said as he buttered another piece of toast.

\"We haven’t fought,\" the blonde stated.

\"Not yet, but I’m sure it’s inevitable. One of us will do something that will undoubtedly piss the other one off royally and an argument will follow,\" Allen said.

\"I am NOT looking forward to that day, believe me. As a matter of fact, I think we’ve done rather well in that area. We’ve been together for four months and not one fight,\" Chad said with pride.

Brown eyes slid to his lover. \"And with that, you probably just jinxed us,\" he teased.

Chad shrugged. \"Like you said, it’s going to happen and when it does, we’ll work through it and then have a mind-blowing round of make-up sex,\" he said with a grin.

Allen leaned over to whisper to his boyfriend. \"I’ve got something else that you could blow,\" he said as he nuzzled the blonde’s neck, causing him to shiver.

\"Between you and Draco I’m not sure who thinks about sex more,\" Chad said as his hand slid up the denim-covered thigh.

\"Oh, like you’re a Saint when it comes to that? Please. I’ve got your number, baby. You want it as much as I do,\" the other wizard said.

\"Damn right I do. How about we finish up here and go back to … study … a bit? Won’t have to worry about being interrupted for a little while, at least until one of them finishes their test,\" Chad offered.

The two of them were naked less than ten minutes later.

* * * * *

Draco lay on his back in the Quidditch stands, mindless of the cold that was seeping through his clothes, into his body. His eyes focused on the gray clouds that hung low in the sky, promising another snowfall before day’s end. His mind was a myriad of thoughts that ranged anywhere from school to tests to the upcoming holidays, and Harry - the one person who could make him feel, and not be afraid of those feelings.

Harry had shown Draco that he could be both a friend as well as a lover, and had experienced emotions that ran from extreme anger in the very beginning at being teased about his Malfoy side to intense passion during the times that Harry had taken him slowly, tenderly, as if he were afraid he would break.

Trust and honesty were new emotions as well. He trusted Harry more than he had trusted anyone before, including Blaise, and never before had he felt the need for honesty. His Malfoy side used whatever means necessary; he relied on his Slytherin upbringing where lies and deceit were accepted without question.

But now, with Harry, he had always told the truth, never dodging one single question or lying by omission. He found that it was much easier to just tell the truth up front and not have to worry about tripping over things later down the road.

Before, he didn’t care. Now he did. And if the emptiness he felt inside was any indication, he cared more than he probably should about how things were going to work out between Harry and himself.

A soft beep from his Muggle watch alerted him to the fact that he had fifteen minutes until class began. That in itself was not the problem as he was ready for his test. The problem would be spending several hours in the same room with Harry and not be able to talk to him.

Unless.

Draco quickly stood and rushed from the stands, hoping he wouldn’t be too late.

* * * * *

Harry rounded the corner on his way to his Ancient Runes classroom and stopped short when he saw who was waiting for him. He wasn’t sure he was ready for this, but he knew that something had to be said sooner or later. His heart hammered in his chest as he took in the disheveled look of his lover. His normally immaculate hair was a mess, his cheeks flushed, his breathing uneven. Harry had seen this look on him plenty of times because he was the one that had caused it. That ‘I’ve Just Been Thoroughly Shagged Look’ that Harry loved to see on him - the look that Harry loved to PUT on him.

No Harry, don’t go there, he thought. Don’t assume the worst just because there’s still part of Malfoy lurking in there somewhere.

Taking a deep breath, Harry concentrated on putting one foot in front of the other.

\"Harry,\" Draco said as he approached his boyfriend.

\"Draco,\" Harry returned coolly.

The blonde ran his hand through the strands of wind-blown hair and looked at the students milling in the hallway. He really didn’t want to say anything here, so he tilted his head to the right motioning to the empty classroom they were standing by. \"Can we talk? Just for a minute?\"

Harry sighed. He REALLY didn’t want to get into this right now, right before their test, but the crestfallen look on Draco’s face swayed his decision. He just hoped he didn’t regret this.

\"Fine,\" Harry said as he followed Draco into the room, the door closing quietly behind them.

Draco’s silver eyes turned to Harry. \"Look, I know we don’t have time to get into everything right now so all I’m going to say is that I’m sorry and good luck on the test.\"

Harry leaned back against the cabinet. \"Can I ask you a question?\"

The blonde nodded.

\"Where were you this morning?\" he asked.

Draco slid onto the top of the desk he was standing beside. \"I went to the Quidditch Pitch to do some thinking. Well, actually I wanted to get away from everything, forget about it all for a little while, but I found myself lying there looking at the clouds, thinking of you.\"

Harry’s eyes narrowed. \"Lying there?\"

\"Yeah, on the bleachers. What did you think I meant?\" Draco asked, his brows knit together in confusion.

The other boy shook his head. \"Nothing,\" he said, not wanting to admit aloud what he had been thinking.

\"Harry,\" Draco said. \"I know you better than you think. Something’s going on. Now why did you ask me that?\"

Jewel-colored eyes flashed at Draco. \"If you know me so well then why don’t you tell me what I was thinking?\"

Draco studied his boyfriend for a long moment, wondering why he was so upset. And then out of the blue, it hit him. Silver orbs went wide with disbelief.

\"You thought I was with someone,\" Draco stated as pain coursed through his body. His boyfriend thought he had cheated on him!

Harry stared into the blonde’s eyes. \"Were you?\" he asked calmly while on the inside he was a jumble of nerves.

\"NO! What in Merlin’s name would make you even think I would do something like that?\" Draco asked, his voice shaky. \"Have I given you any reason to think otherwise?\"

Harry snorted. \"Yeah, last night when you begged me to shag you and I told you no.\"

Draco narrowed his eyes. \"And you just ASSUMED that I would find someone to oblige me. Am I right?\" he queried.

Fingers raked through hair the color of midnight as Harry sighed. \"Draco, it’s not like I wanted to think those things. They just sort of popped into my head. You seemed so focused on that one thing that I figured if you wanted it bad enough you would find someone.\"

\"Harry, I’m with YOU! YOU! Why in bloody hell would I want anyone else?\" he yelled and then quickly lowered his voice so nobody would hear them. \"Regardless of what you think, I’m not Malfoy, Harry. I would never do that to you.\"

The sincerity of Draco’s words cut Harry like a knife and he was hurting more now because he had all but admitted that he didn’t trust his lover. Merlin, this was getting worse by the minute.

Harry let out a long sigh. \"I realize that now, Draco. But …\"

\"No buts, Harry,\" Draco said as he slid from the desk and crossed the short distance to stand in front of his boyfriend. Silver met green as Draco slowly lifted his hand to cup Harry’s cheek, his thumb caressing the plump flesh of Harry’s lower lip. \"I’m the one who started this mess and for that I am truly sorry.\"

Harry right hand moved to Draco’s face, a mirror image of what the blonde had done to him. \"We’ll talk about this tonight, okay? Right now we’ve got a test to take.\"

Draco nodded. \"Tonight,\" he agreed. \"But until then,\" he quietly said before leaning in and brushing a kiss to his boyfriend’s lips.

Harry fought the urge to grab his boyfriend and kiss him like he wanted, to show Draco that he was sorry as well. Instead, he touched his forehead to Draco’s.

\"After dinner we’ll talk,\" Harry said.

Draco smiled. \"And after we talk, we shag.\"

Harry pulled away and a dark eyebrow lifted. \"As I recall, that’s what caused this mess in the first place, Draco. Why don’t you let me worry about the shagging for the time being, eh?\"

\"Why do you get to worry about it?\" Draco asked petulantly.

\"Draco,\" Harry said by way of a warning.

\"Alright, you win,\" the blonde wizard said as he leaned in and claimed another kiss. \"For the time being,\" he said before slipping out of the empty classroom.

Leave it to Draco to have the final word, Harry thought as he followed his boyfriend from the room.

As expected, Draco finished his test first and ‘accidentally’ bumped into Harry as he moved to the front of the classroom, earning a glare from his Gryffindor boyfriend. A quick wink from the Slytherin had Harry smiling as he went back to his work. Again, Draco had the last word, so to speak.

* * * * *

Harry was thankful that all three of his roommates had tests scheduled that afternoon and enjoyed a much needed nap with no interruptions. Upon waking, he found himself feeling very well-rested and had decided to take a quick shower before everyone made it back.

He stepped under the spray of hot water and relaxed. Yes, this was exactly what he needed. After doing absolutely nothing for a few minutes, he washed his hair and nearly jumped out of his skin as he felt arms wrapping around his torso, lips on the back of his neck.

\"I am sorry, you know,\" came the voice behind him. \"For all of it. I know I hurt you by saying what I did, about … you know. I never meant for you to think it means nothing to me, that you mean nothing to me,\" Draco said as his lips grazed the flesh of his shoulder blades, placing a kiss between them.

Harry wanted to turn around and gather his lover in his embrace but held off, waiting for Draco to finish. His mind was listening to the words that spilled from Draco’s lips while his body reacted to Draco’s touches.

That evil little git knew exactly what he was doing, Harry thought with a hidden smile. Apologizing to him in the shower, when there was nothing between them - how very Slytherin of him.

\"You do, Harry. You do mean something to me,\" Draco continued as he held the body in front of him, his hands slowly sliding upwards, settling between two well-defined pectorals. \"What we have together is wonderful, something I never expected. We’ve hated each other for so long and to now have you in my arms is nothing short of a miracle. And I don’t want to lose this,\" he said. \"I don’t want to lose you.\"

Draco’s voice had softened as he spoke and Harry was quickly losing his resolve where his boyfriend was concerned.

But still he held out.

\"I love it when we’re together, whether it’s just laying around doing nothing or when we’re so far gone that we don’t know where one ends and the other begins,\" Draco said as his lips traversed the wet skin of Harry’s back, his tongue lapping at the droplets. \"I love the way your eyes turn darker the more aroused you become, the way your breathing changes, like now, when you’re thinking about us. I would be willing to bet that if I slid my hands down I’d find you hard, wouldn’t I?\" he asked as his hands slowly inched south, stopping to rest just below Harry’s navel.

\"Draco,\" Harry whispered as he gave up the last of his control and placed his own hands over Draco’s, urging them further down. \"Touch me,\" he said. When pale fingers danced along his throbbing flesh, Harry leaned back, his head falling onto the blonde’s shoulder. \"Make me come,\" he said as he slowly flexed his hips, his cock sliding in the aristocratic hand of his lover.

Draco tightened his grip a bit, knowing Harry’s preference for this particular activity. His left hand slid up, his thumb brushing over a furled nub while his lips left a trail of kisses up the tawny neck, teeth nipping as they went, closing around the fleshy lobe of Harry’s ear.

\"Like that?\" he asked as his own cock slid between the globes of Harry’s bum, resting in the valley there.

\"Fuck yes, Draco. I love it when you touch me,\" Harry breathed. \"Always when you touch me,\" he said as he slowly fucked his boyfriend’s hand. \"But you know what I love even more?\"

\"What?\" the blonde asked as his thumb swirled around the head of Harry’s cock.

\"When I take you,\" Harry said as he slowly turned around and backed Draco into the shower wall, a predatory gleam filling Harry’s emerald eyes. \"I love it when I’m buried so deep in you that I lose my mind,\" he said as he lowered his lips to the blonde’s collar bone, kissing, licking, sucking his way down the pale expanse of flesh in front of him now. \"I love it when you scream my name when you come,\" he said as his tongue dipped into Draco’s navel, licking and sucking softly, a gasp spilling from his lover’s parted lips. \"Would you like that, my dragon? Here in the shower?\" he asked before taking the weeping flesh into his mouth, sucking gently.

\"Yesssssss,\" Draco hissed as elegant fingers slid into the dark hair before him.

Now it was Draco’s turn to become breathless as the tables were turned. He loved it when Harry’s Slytherin side came out to play … and play they would.

But not yet.

Draco groaned as the warm mouth left his aching cock and slid up the wet body to claim his lips in a fiery kiss. Harry cradled Draco’s face as he explored every inch of that luscious mouth while Draco’s hands rested against Harry’s chest. Tongues teased, angles changed, and teeth nipped, their passion rising with each passing second.

\"But first, I have a few things to say,\" he said as he pulled back, his eyes never leaving Draco’s. \"I am also sorry, Draco. For the way I acted last night, and again this morning. I should not have left like that. Should have stayed and work things out,\" he said as his fingers brushed the wet strands from Draco’s face. \"But it hurt when you asked me to do that, in that capacity. You have no idea how much those three words affect me. Or maybe you do and that’s why you said them. I don’t know. All I know is that it felt wrong, what you wanted to do, what you wanted US to do when you asked me,\" he said as his emerald eyes passed over each of Draco’s features - his eyebrows, the bridge of his nose, his cheeks. \"Do you remember the first time you said that to me? It was the first time we were together, after I claimed you as mine. And even though it was in jest, about making Malfoy forget about things, you still wanted me. Who am I to refuse you anything you ask? I’ve never been able to,\" Harry admitted as his fingers now played over Draco’s face.

\"Until last night,\" Draco said softly.

Harry nodded. \"Until last night. And that’s only because you took something that I had said and twisted it to suit your needs. You used my words against me Draco, and it hurt. I never thought I would say that, to you of all people, but you did hurt me. After I left, I tried to push you from my thoughts and finish up my studies, but you were there. You’re always there,\" he said as his fingers trailed over passion-swollen lips. \"You’re with me every moment of every day, Draco. And when you disappeared this morning? I hated what I was thinking, that you had found someone who was willing to do anything you asked. I was afraid that I had buggered it all up last night by denying you. The way you looked when I saw you before class … that’s the way you look after I’ve just shagged you senseless,\" he said with a smile.

Draco smiled as well and leaned into Harry’s touch.

\"But it was while we were talking that I knew,\" Harry continued. \"I KNEW Draco … that you would never do that to me. It wasn’t what you said as much as the way you said it. There was so much emotion in that one admission that I realized just how much you do care about us.\"

The blonde placed a kiss against the palm of Harry’s hand.

\"It’s not easy, is it? Caring about someone so much that they’re under your skin, wrapped around your heart. That’s how I feel about you, Draco. It just took last night, and today for me to realize exactly how much I care for you as well,\" he said. \"And it’s scary as hell because I don’t want to lose this either. I don’t want to lose you,\" Harry admitted before claiming his lover’s lips again.

Draco’s hands slipped down to Harry’s hips, pulling the other boy against his own body, twin columns of slick flesh pulsing against one another.

\"I’m sorry, Draco,\" Harry said as he pulled away to catch his breath. \"So very sorry,\" he said before diving in again, his hands holding Draco’s face, his fingers twined in the wet strands of hair.

\"Sorry, too, Harry,\" Draco said when Harry finally released him.

\"Need you, love,\" Harry breathed. \"Need you so much,\" he said as his lips blazed a path down Draco’s torso, grabbing the bar of soap on the way. He quickly worked up a rich lather as he took Draco into his mouth once again, his tongue massaging the vein underneath and then let the shaft fall from his lips as he looked up. \"Spread your legs for me,\" Harry said and watched as Draco’s long limbs separated, opening himself up for what was to come. He lapped at the weeping slit as his fingers slid behind the smooth sac, teasing the sensitive area there before moving on.

Draco gasped as a finger teased him, circling the puckered opening once, twice, before sliding into him, quickly followed by another. He knew by that one act alone that Harry wasn’t going to wait very long before claiming his body.

\"One more?\" Harry asked, not wanting to wait but knowing he would if Draco needed it.

After a quick shake of Draco’s blonde mane, Harry turned his lover around, Draco’s chest pressing against the wall of the shower. The pale body jerked as his heated skin met the coolness of the tiles and then Harry was behind him, spreading him open, pushing into him and Draco forgot about everything. Forgot about their disagreement, forgot about the two tests he took today, forgot to breathe.

But his body remembered. It remembered the feel of Harry’s cock slowly filling him, stretching him even more than the fingers had, relaxing into his lover’s embrace, knowing that he would be taken care of.

\"Perfect, Draco,\" he said as he kissed the pale shoulder. \"Absolutely perfect,\" he added as he started to move inside his lover.

Harry moved slowly at first but the tempo quickly changed as Draco moved Harry’s hand to his shaft.

\"Now Harry,\" Draco breathed as they stroked him together. \"Won’t last … much … longer,\" he said. \"Feels so … right …. never …. lose …. you …..\" he said and then he was exploding into a million pieces, his scream echoing in the small enclosure, safe in the knowledge that his lover would be there to put him together again.

Harry held the trembling body and after a few more thrusts, his voice joined his lover’s. He held Draco’s body tight, never wanting to let go. \"Promise it will be better next time,\" Harry said as lay his face against Draco’s back, his breathing in sync with the fast pace of the blonde’s.

Draco let his head fall back to rest on Harry’s shoulder. \"Always good with you, Harry,\" he panted. \"Doesn’t matter if it’s like this or if you take your time. It’s always good,\" he said.

On the other side of the door, their roommates smiled. \"Sounds like they patched things up rather nicely, wouldn’t you agree?\" Allen whispered to his boyfriend.

Chad nodded. \"I can’t believe we just listened to them having sex. Fuck, that was hot,\" he admitted. \"We’re as bad as Harry watching Draco that one time.\"

\"Hey, it’s their fault for not using a silencing spell,\" Allen said and then he grinned. \"And if they didn’t use that one they probably didn’t use the locking spell either,\" he said as he reached for the knob.

\"Allen!\" Chad admonished in a loud whisper. \"You’re not seriously thinking about walking in there are you?\"

\"Why not?\" he asked. \"It’s not like we’d be walking …\"

Chad’s eyes went wide. \"We? What’s with this WE shit? Got a mouse in your pocket or something?\"

Allen grabbed Chad’s hand and tugged. \"Just shut up and come with me,\" he said as he quietly opened the door. The shower was still running so the others hadn’t heard them enter. Allen held his finger to his lips as if telling Chad to be quiet, but it was a wasted effort. Chad wasn’t saying a word no matter what.

Harry and Draco were talking quietly when the shower curtain was quickly pushed aside.

\"You two about done in here?\" Allen asked with a smile as he wrapped his arms around his boyfriend, his chin resting on Chad’s shoulder as he eyed the two bodies in the shower.

\"That all depends,\" Draco said as he continued to rinse the shampoo from his hair, apparently unconcerned about the intrusion.

\"Oh really? On what?\" Chad asked as his blue eyes watched the soap slide down Draco’s back and disappear between his buttocks.

\"What you’re planning to use the shower for,\" he answered as he moved his head back and forth under the spray making sure that his hair was rinsed thoroughly.

\"Draco, come on,\" Harry said as he slid behind his boyfriend and grabbed a towel from the rack. \"We’ve been in here long enough.\"

Draco gave a quick shake to his blonde strands, sending water in every direction.

\"OH MAN!\" Chad yelled as he was splattered with the droplets.

A grin broke out on Draco’s face. \"Serves you right for interrupting us,\" he said as he accepted the towel from Harry and slowly dried his body.

\"No, if we had come in a few minutes earlier we would have been interrupting. Merlin, Draco. I never took you for a screamer,\" Allen teased.

Harry’s jaw dropped. \"You didn’t set the wards?\"

Draco shook his head again. \"Kind of had other things on my mind at the time,\" he said before giving Harry a quick kiss and wrapping the towel around his waist. \"Besides, you’re the one who always makes sure those things are done.\"

\"Another sign of your laziness,\" Harry teased as he popped Draco with his towel.

Draco lifted his chin playfully. \"I am NOT lazy. I’m used to having others take care of things.\"

\"Spoiled,\" Chad offered.

\"Pampered,\" Draco challenged.

\"Brat,\" Allen added.

Draco pouted. \"Harry, they’re teasing me.\"

Harry peered at his boyfriend from beneath the towel he was using to dry his unruly mop of hair. \"It’s the truth, Draco, and you know it.\"

The blonde turned back to Harry in mock shock. \"Well of course I do. I just didn’t expect you to agree with them,\" he said as he left the bathroom and went into his dorm room.

Harry grinned. \"Bathroom is all yours. Just be sure to set the silencing wards,\" he said before closing the door and following his boyfriend.

Chad turned to Allen. \"Shall we?\" he asked as he motioned to the empty shower.

\"Oh absolutely,\" his boyfriend answered as he quickly undressed for the second time that day.

Mid terms might not be so bad after all.

TBC


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