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Adult ++
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37
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9,836
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192
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Cover up
Disclaimer: Checklist of Murray the Leprechaun's possesions;
1. Husband named Blondie---check
2. Two trouble making fraternal twins---check
3. Pie---check
4. Large Anime/Manga collection---check
5. Harry Potter---nope
6. Draco Malfoy---nada
7. Shah Rukh Kahn---**sigh**
8. Lots of shoes----check
9. Wild imagination---check.........damn....well as you can see, I do not own Harry Potter...or Shah Rukh Kahn......**cry**
Warning: Uber Angst
A/N: Sorry it's been a couple days, as some of you know, if you pay attention, Blondie has been on a business trip, and as soon as Maeve, little daddy's girl that she is, realized her main spoiler wasn't present, she threw a fit. Her copy cat brother followed suit and I got to spend the weekend trying to keep the two of them from throwing tantrums and crying themselves silly. Blondie is now home, and jet lagged, so I have a few moments to myself to write for you all. Try not kill me ok? Today's chapter is Cover Up from Trapt. A fitting title I think....but then again, it's my story now isn't it?
Chapter.....-Cover up (Harry)
Do you know what it feels like to have your brain explode? It's sort of a blink, blink, BOOM, kind of thing. Painful, messy, and did I mention painful? All cognitive thought stops, and is generally replaced by the repetition of one word.
"WHAT? I...you...the....WHAT?!"
Draco went from red to white to slightly green then back to red, and Snape developed a twitch that I would normally find hilarious, but at the moment, I was still experiancing brain explosion. "Harry....I.....I didn't mean to say it like that....."
"WHAT?? So...you.....wait...what?!" I closed my eyes and tried to make things make sense but they didn't. "Explain this to me Malfoy. And use small words because I'm pretty sure that my brain looks a lot like silly putty right now. What do you MEAN you HAVE to be a death eater. No one HAS to be a death eater. You don't HAVE to follow that mad man."
"What's silly putty?" Draco and Snape asked together, completely ignoring the rest of the conversation as non-muggles tended to do upon hearing something they didn't know. I glared.
Draco snapped out of it first, "Right...not the point....what was the point?"
"What...do you mean....you have to...become a...death eater...." I said slowly massaging the bridge of my nose. Did I mention how painful brain explosions are?
"Draco, you do not owe him any explanations." Snape said, rejoining the real world as much as he was able. Greasy Git. "Your choices are your own business." he added, cutting off Draco again.
"Your choice?" I snapped. "You WANT to become a death eater??" I glared at him and at Snape and then it hit me. The hysteria I mean.
"Harry, it's not like that." Draco started, "He...."
"Mister Potter, Draco's decisions in life are none of your concern." Snape said, earning him a glare from Malfoy for cutting him off again, "I assure you that he has thought this through completely."
"Thought this through completely? How long have you been THINKING this through Malfoy? From what Snape says it doesn't exactly sound like you just had a sudden change of heart since last period," I scoffed and saw something like guilt flit over his face. So that was it then, he'd known about...whatever the hell this was, for a long time and just hadn't told me. He hadn't told me...so now, in addition to the hysteria and the exploded brain I had to fight off an episode as well. "...No....not a change of heart at all. You know, you're a really good actor Malfoy, but I guess you don't have the stomach to follow through. So what was the plan? The usual, insipid, gain my trust and turn me over? God, you Death eaters are so stupid. Can't you come up with something more original? I gotta admit though, you had me going there for a minute." I laughed and rubbed my arms, I needed to get out of this room, I needed to pretend I'd never heard anything...
"Harry," Draco...no...Malfoy. Never Draco again. Malfoy started to talk again, reaching for me slightly. This time I cut him off, not Snape. I didn't want to hear it.
(Draco)
This was so not good. First with Severus not letting me SAY anything, and then Harry not wanting to listen. And, what was the expression Ginny had used? Kill me face? Harry definitely had kill me face, and that was not a good thing because he actually might DO it. He was certainly thinking about cutting, I could see it in the way he was holding his arms, trying to scratch through the material.
"Harry," I pleaded, trying to make him stop. But he yanked backwards out of my grasp.
"No!" he shouted, holding his head, in his hands, "Don't touch me, don't you dare fucking touch me!" He continued to walk backwards, staring between Snape and I.
"Harry! Please, just listen to me!" I begged again. He had to listen. Severus wasn't saying anything right and I had to make him understand that I didn't want this. I didn't WANT to be a death eater. I had to explain about my mother, and how I couldn't let that sick bastard hurt her. I had to apologize, I had to make him calm down before he hurt himself. I took another small step forward.
"Just....leave me alone Malfoy. I don't want to hear it...ever." he said quietly, reaching the door. "Leave me alone." He took a deep breath and then was out the door before I could stop him.
"Well, at least that's taken care of." Snape said in relief. If he wasn't a teacher.....
"Severus. Shut up." I said, glaring at him. "Do you have any IDEA what your stupid butting in has done?"
"Of course, my 'stupid butting in' has finally solved the small problem of your friendship with Potter." He said, "Which you will thank me for someday, when the war is over." His look softened a little, "Trust me, I just saved Potter's life so that your connection to the Dark Lord won't be a permanent one."
"Unless Harry just ran off to kill himself because he's having a serious panic attack. Good thing he's not the depresive type prone to hurting himself. Oh wait. He is." I snapped as I gathered up my school things, "And now he's off to one of his secret hideaways to slit his wrists. Good job Severus. You just killed the Saviour of the Wizarding World. Won't your fucking Dark Master be pleased?"
"Oh bugger...."
"Fucking understatement of the year, Sev." I rolled my eyes, throwing my bag over my shoulder. "Go pat yourself on the back. I have to find Harry."
A/N: Dun dun dun dun, ANGST!! Woot!
1. Husband named Blondie---check
2. Two trouble making fraternal twins---check
3. Pie---check
4. Large Anime/Manga collection---check
5. Harry Potter---nope
6. Draco Malfoy---nada
7. Shah Rukh Kahn---**sigh**
8. Lots of shoes----check
9. Wild imagination---check.........damn....well as you can see, I do not own Harry Potter...or Shah Rukh Kahn......**cry**
Warning: Uber Angst
A/N: Sorry it's been a couple days, as some of you know, if you pay attention, Blondie has been on a business trip, and as soon as Maeve, little daddy's girl that she is, realized her main spoiler wasn't present, she threw a fit. Her copy cat brother followed suit and I got to spend the weekend trying to keep the two of them from throwing tantrums and crying themselves silly. Blondie is now home, and jet lagged, so I have a few moments to myself to write for you all. Try not kill me ok? Today's chapter is Cover Up from Trapt. A fitting title I think....but then again, it's my story now isn't it?
Chapter.....-Cover up (Harry)
Do you know what it feels like to have your brain explode? It's sort of a blink, blink, BOOM, kind of thing. Painful, messy, and did I mention painful? All cognitive thought stops, and is generally replaced by the repetition of one word.
"WHAT? I...you...the....WHAT?!"
Draco went from red to white to slightly green then back to red, and Snape developed a twitch that I would normally find hilarious, but at the moment, I was still experiancing brain explosion. "Harry....I.....I didn't mean to say it like that....."
"WHAT?? So...you.....wait...what?!" I closed my eyes and tried to make things make sense but they didn't. "Explain this to me Malfoy. And use small words because I'm pretty sure that my brain looks a lot like silly putty right now. What do you MEAN you HAVE to be a death eater. No one HAS to be a death eater. You don't HAVE to follow that mad man."
"What's silly putty?" Draco and Snape asked together, completely ignoring the rest of the conversation as non-muggles tended to do upon hearing something they didn't know. I glared.
Draco snapped out of it first, "Right...not the point....what was the point?"
"What...do you mean....you have to...become a...death eater...." I said slowly massaging the bridge of my nose. Did I mention how painful brain explosions are?
"Draco, you do not owe him any explanations." Snape said, rejoining the real world as much as he was able. Greasy Git. "Your choices are your own business." he added, cutting off Draco again.
"Your choice?" I snapped. "You WANT to become a death eater??" I glared at him and at Snape and then it hit me. The hysteria I mean.
"Harry, it's not like that." Draco started, "He...."
"Mister Potter, Draco's decisions in life are none of your concern." Snape said, earning him a glare from Malfoy for cutting him off again, "I assure you that he has thought this through completely."
"Thought this through completely? How long have you been THINKING this through Malfoy? From what Snape says it doesn't exactly sound like you just had a sudden change of heart since last period," I scoffed and saw something like guilt flit over his face. So that was it then, he'd known about...whatever the hell this was, for a long time and just hadn't told me. He hadn't told me...so now, in addition to the hysteria and the exploded brain I had to fight off an episode as well. "...No....not a change of heart at all. You know, you're a really good actor Malfoy, but I guess you don't have the stomach to follow through. So what was the plan? The usual, insipid, gain my trust and turn me over? God, you Death eaters are so stupid. Can't you come up with something more original? I gotta admit though, you had me going there for a minute." I laughed and rubbed my arms, I needed to get out of this room, I needed to pretend I'd never heard anything...
"Harry," Draco...no...Malfoy. Never Draco again. Malfoy started to talk again, reaching for me slightly. This time I cut him off, not Snape. I didn't want to hear it.
(Draco)
This was so not good. First with Severus not letting me SAY anything, and then Harry not wanting to listen. And, what was the expression Ginny had used? Kill me face? Harry definitely had kill me face, and that was not a good thing because he actually might DO it. He was certainly thinking about cutting, I could see it in the way he was holding his arms, trying to scratch through the material.
"Harry," I pleaded, trying to make him stop. But he yanked backwards out of my grasp.
"No!" he shouted, holding his head, in his hands, "Don't touch me, don't you dare fucking touch me!" He continued to walk backwards, staring between Snape and I.
"Harry! Please, just listen to me!" I begged again. He had to listen. Severus wasn't saying anything right and I had to make him understand that I didn't want this. I didn't WANT to be a death eater. I had to explain about my mother, and how I couldn't let that sick bastard hurt her. I had to apologize, I had to make him calm down before he hurt himself. I took another small step forward.
"Just....leave me alone Malfoy. I don't want to hear it...ever." he said quietly, reaching the door. "Leave me alone." He took a deep breath and then was out the door before I could stop him.
"Well, at least that's taken care of." Snape said in relief. If he wasn't a teacher.....
"Severus. Shut up." I said, glaring at him. "Do you have any IDEA what your stupid butting in has done?"
"Of course, my 'stupid butting in' has finally solved the small problem of your friendship with Potter." He said, "Which you will thank me for someday, when the war is over." His look softened a little, "Trust me, I just saved Potter's life so that your connection to the Dark Lord won't be a permanent one."
"Unless Harry just ran off to kill himself because he's having a serious panic attack. Good thing he's not the depresive type prone to hurting himself. Oh wait. He is." I snapped as I gathered up my school things, "And now he's off to one of his secret hideaways to slit his wrists. Good job Severus. You just killed the Saviour of the Wizarding World. Won't your fucking Dark Master be pleased?"
"Oh bugger...."
"Fucking understatement of the year, Sev." I rolled my eyes, throwing my bag over my shoulder. "Go pat yourself on the back. I have to find Harry."
A/N: Dun dun dun dun, ANGST!! Woot!