Sing for Me, Cry for Me

25. Reunited in Love.

Lucius was standing in the doorway looking at his mate. It took all patience of his to wait till all the volunteers to visit or inquire as to Harry’s health including his son cleared the space. He was shaken and shaken a lot by what he saw. The way Harry turned his head and looked at him with those piercing emerald orbs of his and than as if caught in a whirlwind started falling down. That was the moment when Lucius’ heart stopped. It was more than he could handle. It was only sheer luck that Draco was situated close enough to Harry and managed to react and catch Harry in time before he could even touch the ground. Draco was shaken too. He was holding Harry in his arms not believing that only few seconds and millimeters separated Harry from death. He cradled Harry in his arms for some time not letting anyone close. Than Ron came running at full speed cursing himself for not stopping Harry from flying today. He also clung to Harry for dear life and started calling him all names possible for scaring him like that. And there was Lucius hovering in the shadows cursing that he couldn’t be with Harry. For the first time in his life he wanted to run headlong to his mate and only Snape’s strong arm held him in place.

“You can’t go there right now. Wait till he is in the Infirmary.”

“Severus do you really think I can wait?”

“You will have to.”

Snape was as shocked as anyone else could be. He was impressed when Potter played the game after the hell of the night he went through and he was sure that Potter didn’t sleep a wink because of the book he gave him. And he knew the moment Potter turned his head in Lucius’ direction that something terrible was going to happen. And when he saw Potter falling he froze, completely froze not able to move his limbs. Afterwards he couldn’t quite place why Potter falling affected him that way. Maybe because he knew that his friend would be in mortal danger if his mate met his early demise. He didn’t know.

Now both he and Lucius were standing at a distance while the whole school was fussing over Harry while Madame Pomfrey was trying to shoo them all away from her almost fallen patient.

“We need to talk. Come to my quarters.”

“No, Severus. If you need to talk than talk but here.” said Lucius in an icy tone of voice he never used on Severus. But right now he needed to be near his mate. His whole being was pulling him towards Harry. And here he had to wait and talk instead of holding Harry in his arms. He could hardly restrain himself. The effort was tremendous and he even felt his face twitch.

“He knows. Potter knows that you’re a half Veela and that you are mates. I gave him a book yesterday.”

Lucius glared at Snape.

“You told him?” he hissed.

“I did not tell him. I merely found him tonight in the hall lying unconscious. I woke him up and he started throwing up. Then he told me that he knew that you’re a Veela. He didn’t sound impressed. He wanted to find a book and I gave him mine. Something is wrong Lucius. He gets absolutely violent reaction when he hears your name. He was retching half the night and he couldn’t walk properly. I gave him a potion to restore his strength but the problem lies within his heart and in the middle of his heart is you.”

“He was sick for the whole night, he hadn’t slept the whole night and he went flying? I’ll kill him.”

“I don’t think it’s a very reasonable idea Lucius. Your son has just saved his life and now you want to take it away. You’d better talk to him and find out what is the matter or there might be problems. Surely you don’t want to find out what will happen if you won’t bond with Potter in six month time.”

Lucius was watching Harry being taken away to the Infirmary with Draco and Ron Weasley on both his sides and other students trailing after them.

“Help me to clear out the space.” It was an order and Snape knew that he’d better obey it or he would find himself facing an angry half Veela who was not being allowed to be near his injured mate. No one who met such a sight made it out alive.

In didn’t take long to scare all the students away. A bit of point taking and detentions and the coast was clear. The most persistent of course turned out to be Ron and Draco who had no intentions of leaving their friend. But eventually they had to leave because Lucius Malfoy and Severus Snape combined were quite some force to drive anyone away. Now Lucius had only one more person to handle – the nurse, not bothering to think of any other way to get rid of her Lucius simply stupefied her on the spot.

Lucius approached the bed Harry was lying on and for the first time in his life felt uncertain as to what to do. He sat down on the edge of the bed and whispered:

"Harry."

"Go away." whispered Harry back in a hoarse voice not opening his eyes.

"Harry." tried Lucius once again.

"Just go please. You're hurting me and I can't take it anymore."

Drops of sweat appeared on Harry's forehead and Lucius tried to wipe them away but as soon as his fingers touched Harry's skin it made Harry flinch away and toss to the other side of the bed. Harry felt as if his skin was on fire and he couldn't bare Lucius' touch. Lucius flinched himself at the negative reaction he got from his mate.

"Harry, I don't understand why I am hurting you. What have I done?"

"More than enough."

"Harry open your eyes." coaxed Lucius.

Harry opened his eyes and turned them to Lucius. Lucius gasped. There was pain. So much pain. Pain written all over. Pain emanating from within the green depth. Harry closed his eyes again. Tears started sliding down his face.

"I'm dying. It won't take long I guess. It never did. And I will suffer a bit but it soon will go away. Pain will go away."

"Harry why would you be dying? You haven't hurt yourself when you fell. Draco caught you. Maybe you're in shock but that can hardly be a reason to die."

Harry smiled sadly.

"And it's not the reason Lucius."

"Than what?"

"It all comes to you. I read the book and I now who you are. I know that when the Veela's mate feels unwanted and unloved it causes him to die. I can't sing. Only in my head. But not out loud. Look what you've done to me."

"Harry what the hell are you talking about?"

Lucius forcefully took Harry’s chin in his hand. Harry's eyes flew open. The touched burnt. It was getting hard to breathe.

"Lucius let me go. Your touch hurts. It burns."

"I won't let you go until you explain to me why you feel unwanted and unloved. Haven't I told you countless times that I love you?"

"There are some things that are never enough to hear. But that doesn't help much. Somehow your actions counteract your words."

"What are you talking about?"

"I saw you. I saw you with your wife. Damn Lucius it hurts. Let me go."

But Lucius didn't. He took both Harry's hands in his own and drew him closer staring him straight in the eyes while Harry was cringing from pain.

"You saw me with my wife and what?"

"And what? You are a bastard Lucius. I am not going to compete with your wife!"

"Why would you be doing it? Haven't I told you already that my wife is quite an irrelevant factor in my life? I married her only because my father wished so. I didn't have much choice and frankly I didn't need it at the time. I never believed in love. I believed in power. I never believed in all those prophecies about mates. But the moment your song penetrated my heart and my soul, the moment your voice woke up my Veela senses and instincts I knew that there was such thing as love. A Veela once recognized its mate will love him forever and when I say forever I mean forever and no death can do our souls apart. We are destined to create one whole soul, our own soul, it is going to envelope us, it is going to wash us up in her rays and we will belong to each other in bodies and in spirits for life and for death. How can I not love you? Even if the first motivation for loving you was not of my own volition I found my own ways in which I love you. There is so much more to you than just my mate and I love you with not just my Veela part but with my whole being. Harry you can't get yourself in that state and drive yourself to death by thinking that I don't love you. You don't know what I felt the moment I saw you falling down. My heart stopped and I thought it would never start beating again. And then I stood in the shadows waiting for everyone to leave and I couldn't be with you. Do you know how that hurt? Damn Harry I am not used to such pain. I never experienced pain before. I know I inflicted it and I liked it because it made me feel powerful but I never felt it. But now I know what it means to be in tremendous pain and I hate it because it makes me feel weak. And I am weak in front of you but only because you need me like this. You need to see that I have a human inside and I present that human side to you. But you are the only one to ever witness me being weak. Because as much as I can be weak for you, you know that I can be as strong. I know that you will never put against me that vulnerable moment of mine but I need you to believe me that there is nothing that I can't do for you. I love you Harry. Do you believe me?"

Harry freed his hands from Lucius and started shakily tracing his face. A soft smile was playing on his lips. Lucius was leaning into the touch just as Harry used to do. Harry took a deep breath and opened his heart once again:


I do swear…that I'll always be there…
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow,
For better for worse, I will love you
With every beat of my heart

From this moment life has begun
From this moment your are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on
From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on


And with that sung before Lucius was able to comprehend what was taking place still overwhelmed by happiness and love that was coming from Harry and vibrating all through him he saw Harry smile and felt soft lips sealing in a kiss with his own.

***

Harry was looking at him through his laughing grass like eyes:

"I do believe you, Lucius. Otherwise I suppose I wouldn't be able to sing. But there is one thing you have to know. There is one thing you are mistaken about. You are not weak Lucius. Neither you will ever be. Until you can admit your weakness you are the strongest person ever. Because it is the strongest man who can show his weakness and this weakness is what makes him still stronger. It is the weakest person who can never acknowledge his weakness. Your weakness is your strength. Admitting it you make yourself powerful. You are holding power over your emotions and they abide with you."

"Harry…"

"Shh, before I forget. There was a question that was nagging at me for a long time. After you raped me I couldn't stand Hermione's touch as much as I couldn't stand your touch moments ago when I thought you didn't love me and was going to hurt me. Was it the same reason with Hermione? I mean she did hurt me in a few days time. Could I feel her betrayal beforehand? Because for example Ron’s touch didn’t hurt me."

"I suppose that your assumption is quite correct. You were supposed to become more sensitive. And during that period of time after I violated you your senses were seeking for someone who could give you comfort and provide assistance and you became more susceptible to recognizing your friend from foe. That is why I presume Granger's touch hurt you because some newly awakened senses in you tried to warn you against her not so friendly intentions. And when you thought that I didn't love you it affected your soul straight away. By thinking that you were killing her thus killing your own self. But as soon as I admitted and I hope I reassured you that I do love you and there is nothing that can stop me from loving you and as soon as you let yourself believe that it is true and I'm not lying and I am not here to hurt you your soul sprang to life and your voice came back. And don't you dare frighten me like that ever again. Haven't I told you not to pull any more stunts like that?"

"Sorry. But Lucius you don't know how I felt. I just couldn't stand the image of you and your wife together. I am supposed to be by your side and not some blond bitch.”

Lucius chuckled.

“Don’t you dare laugh. It’s true. I am supposed to be by your side. It was me in that prophecy of yours. It is me who is singing his heart out for you and it is me who is crying for you and damn Lucius it is me who’s heart and body and soul you have taken by force and now that I know everything I want to give it all to you willingly. And there I saw the two of you and I thought that I would die right there on the spot. I felt the world along with my hopes and dreams crashing down on me. I couldn’t breathe. I had to run away from both of you. To never see you again. And after reading the book I thought that I lost so much more than I could even hope for and I saw your eyes and they burnt me and I fell. I thought I was going to die and I liked the idea because this way I would never ever have that picture displaying in front of my eyes again.”

“Harry don’t you ever dare thinking about me not loving you ever again. As soon as our bonding takes place we will be officially married and there will be no others in our lives. In our life. For we will have one life and soul since than.”

Harry crawled towards Lucius and pressed himself against Lucius’ chest. Lucius wrapped his arms around Harry and started placing soft kisses onto Harry’s neck which made Harry giggle.”

“But you are ticklish my little one.”

“Damn you Lucius. Stop it!”

“I don’t think so love.”

Harry was laughing now with tears pouring down.

“You can’t stop tormenting me. Is it the sight of my tears that makes you so sadistic?”

“You can say that kitten. Your tears as well as your voice are like a life-giving force. I can feel it flowing down my body and washing over my heart and kissing my soul. I can feel it moist and I can drink it.”

And with that Lucius turned Harry’s face upwards and started kissing and drinking the tears of laughter from his face.

“Now that you’ve quenched your thirst for my tears can we talk please?”

“Talk?”

“Yes! Lucius, Madame Pomfrey!”

“Who?” asked Lucius bewildered.

“Madame Pomfrey!” said Harry pointing on the floor at her still immobile form.

“What have you done to her? Have you stupefied her for eternity or what? Why hasn’t she woken up yet?”

“I put a charm on her. I didn’t know how long it would take us and I certainly didn’t want her to wake up at an inappropriate moment.”

“But she is not dead, right?” asked Harry touching a rather cold body of the nurse.

“Love I really have no desire to start our life with murdering someone just in front of your eyes. Though I admit I could do it for you if needed.”

Harry snorted.

“I have no doubt that you would if only to satisfy your own self.”

“You seem to be too calm while talking about bloodthirsty part of my nature.”

Harry shrugged his shoulders.

“That is what you are and there is nothing I can do about it. Besides there are so many things I resigned myself to recently that now I learnt to accept you the way you are. Cruel sadistic dominant intimidating powerful but you are also loving and tender and you make me feel safe and comfortable and happy. So it’s just the way you are and like you said I love you in so many ways that I can even love you being a total complete irrevocable bastard. Though only as long as you treat me good.”

“Always love.”

“Oh promises, promises…” sighed Harry waving his hand above his heart.

“And now seriously, Lucius, what are we gonna do now?”

“What do you mean?” asked Lucius burying his face in Harry’s hair.

“I mean what are we gonna do before our bonding?”

“And what do you want to do?”

“I want to get to know you better.”

“Harry, are you asking me out?”

“Hey! It’s your job not mine!”

“Really?”

“Yes!”

“And why is that?”

“Because it was you who started all this and you are going to finish it.”

“Ok than. How about your next Hogsmeade weekend?”

“Excellent suggestion, Lucius.” mocked Harry.

“Love, honestly have you ever heard such a word as discipline?”

“How many times do I have to tell you moonlight haired man that no I have absolutely no idea about discipline. Ask professor Snape. I think he tried to show me what discipline is all these years but alas he never succeeded. And neither will you.”

“Oh really?”

“Yes!”

“But admit it kitten I have other methods than your Potions Master and I might very well succeed.”

“Are you talking about that cane of yours?”

“Oh well we can take it along if you so wish.”

“No bloody way!” yelled Harry.

“Pity.” said Lucius wistfully eyeing his cane.

“Lucius?” asked Harry after awhile of being caressed and lightly kissed by Lucius.

“Yes?”

“Are we going to keep it a secret?”

“Do you want to?”

“No.”

“No?”

“No. I don’t want to keep our relationships a secret. And if that is what you have in mind you can forget about it or about me. I am not going to hide. I am not some little dirty secret of yours that should be kept in the shadows and being taken out only when no one sees. It’s all or nothing Lucius. It is like that with me. Take it or leave it.” announced Harry resolutely.

“Than it will be all love. I have no desire to hide either. I want the whole world to know that you are mine.”

“And that you are mine dear Lucius” said Harry drawing Lucius for another kiss.

“And you are saying that I am the dominant one here?”

Harry snorted.

“Like you will let me be all commanding with you ever again.”

“Who knows? You seem to have a rather non-typical effect on me. Maybe with time I will become all soft and nice.”

Harry laughed.

“Hardly. You are doing it just to oblige me right now. As soon as I am all yours you will come to your senses and will be overpowering and dominating me again. But remember this: I am a rebel and I will fight.”

“Than we will have a wonderful battlefield life together. You will be fighting against me and than all defeated surrender at my feet. Oh what a lovely picture.”

“Only in your dreams.”

“Let’s see shall we little one?”

“Do you always have to be the last to speak?”

“But of course I’m a Malfoy. Our word is always the last.”

Harry just shook his head. Lucius raised an eyebrow.

“Give up already love?”

And a pillow was his answer.