His

“What do you mean? its just a simple head ache I don’t get why I needed a healer!”, I asked annoyed, she looked a bit nervous and turned round quickly as a bang told us both Voldemort had arrived through the doors.

“So what is it?”, he asked fiercely to her, she nervously backed away and began stuttering, “Speak up woman or never see the outside of these walls again!”.

“She-she’s about a week pregnant-if that, its so early on it was hard to check but its 100%”, she quickly said. She’s lying, she has to be! She got it wrong, yes that’s it. I don’t carry the child of the dark lord!

“You are dismissed”, he told her sternly, she quickly fled as he looked back down to me.

“Its not true master. I will not be the mother of your child!”, I told him

“Its true, no doubt in that, I’ve known since I first fertilised your egg, I felt it in me. The coma must of ‘cleansed’ away the infertility potion I gave you when you first arrived, as soon as I found out I cast a protection spell on you-any damage you have will not affect it”,

“No! please, no…master I cant be the mother of your child! Im 17 years old and your slave! Please, this isn’t happening!”, I cried, tears sliding down my cheeks,

“I don’t care for a child, but I decided to leave it, not to kill it, I guess it’s a reward and punishment for you at the same time”, he smirked and got up.

“How can you be so calm about this! Your going to be a fucking father! Its not exactly a reward is it master!”, I raged

“It can be”

“Isn’t this going to ruin your plans master? I cant have a child if you want me to do what you want!”, I said with a smirk but still glaring at him, I held my legs to my chest tightly.

“Actually it wont, seeing as the baby is protected its not going to get hurt if you duel or be punished, so technically you and I can carry on as usual”

“I don’t believe that master!”, he smirked and then crucioed my for a minute or so, I hated the pain and once he finished I was still pregnant with a healthy baby. “Im usually against abortion but this is taking the piss! I just cant have a child master!”, I cried, I hate him so much!

“I look forward to it, I think you will too. The spell protects you from any outside damage but if anything damages you internally badly, it wont survive. that’s a warning”, he said in one tone, but he bent over and kissed my forehead then sat next to me, “This is just the beginning”.

“I wont kill my own baby, you know that and that’s why you’ve done this, you evil bastard! Why do you want to keep it master?”,

“I will live forever, I don’t need or want an heir, I wont ever love it either. I didn’t intentionally impregnate you but now that its happened I think you being a mother will come in useful. I told Rodulphus to not see you today and I put off other plans to spend it with you”, I didn’t reply, I didn’t want any of this!

“Haven’t I been punished enough master? Im here aren’t I? not with the ones I love-the ones who love me, im your slave, im forced to study the dark arts and I’ve been scarred for life here! The list could go one and now im pregnant!”, I cried

“Yes, you know who and what I am and that’s not going to change, I have done much worse things in my life-none I regret. Did you really expect to be treated nice here?”

“No, but that’s the thing, im treated better than expected, yes your punishments can be cruel…but everything else…master I guess im supposed to thank you for that”, I muttered quietly, not wanting to look him in the eye.

“Good, at least you realise that…You are beautiful you know that, I cant think of anyone better to be here with me”

“im not and you don’t think that, I am your slave master nothing more”

“You’re wrong, your more than a slave to me. What? Im an evil bastard, that doesn’t stop me liking someone!”, I laughed, he just insulted himself, “Oh so you can smile”.

“When I feel happy or when something’s particularly funny master, that is rare in this place”

“I like your smile, it makes you even beautiful than you are. Many would crave to be you, to be with you, Brains and beauty is so rare…” ,

“If I didn’t know any better you just complimented me, thank you master, your not too bad yourself”, I replied, it was the truth he was the most good looking man I knew,

“Thank you, when I was younger I had basically a fan club of girls all wanting to be my date, I turned all down though-I had no interest”

“Many would of craved to be you then master, to be with you, Brains and beauty is so rare…”, I mimicked with a smirk, “So you wasted your charming ways while at school master?”

“Of course not! I slept with half the girls in my year and a few in the year below! A nice fuck isn’t the same as a date”

“For a second I thought you were a good boy master but of course evil from birth, a player in your teens a murderer from then on”, I laughed

“Well when you put it like that…”

“Your alright when your like this master, I like it-but im still not happy about being a mum, im not ready for all that”, I said seriously because I was scared.

“You will be. What do you want it to be?”

“Oh, I never thought about it seeing as I just found out…but I always wanted a girl master. Its going to be your child so what are you going to name it?”

“Ill leave the decision to you, but nothing common! I will not tolerate another name like Tom”, I laughed again which he returned with an actual smile,

“Wow I never knew you could smile master”, I teased

“You know if anyone else said that they would be dead within an instant, I guess I will just have to live with it”

“Is that another one of your ’I care about you’ remarks master? I don’t believe that, I have no reason to, yes you have helped and saved my life a few times but for your own gain. That isn’t going to change is it”, I said quietly and got up, he caught my hand and pulled me back, I thought I was going to get a slap but instead I got a kiss.
“That was…unexpected master”, I whispered, my eyes closed and I could still feel his breath on my lips.

“Surely your use to the unexpected by now”

“I know master, as should you”, I opened my eyes to see him looking confused, I gave him a quick peck on the lips, which he returned, and I returned even more.

The next morning I woke naked in his arms, for the first time I didn’t feel pain, for the first time in my life I felt satisfied. I stroked his chest and kissed it, I looked into his eyes which were deep in mine.

“Im so confused master”, I breathed

“Yes but there is no need to be. Your still here, alive and well…and happy”, he stroked my hair gently and held me tighter.

“I don’t know master”, a single ear falling from my eye and landing on his chest, “Im not happy, I cant be”

“Why not?”

“You’re the dark lord master, happy doesn’t exactly come with you. Im carrying your child…I-im going to be a mum!”, the realisation just hit me and I gasped in happiness, “Oh my, im so scared but I have someone growing inside of me!”, I couldn’t stop smiling, it was his baby but it was also mine.

“That’s what usually happens when someone gets pregnant”, he said sarcastically but kissed my hair and rolled me over to straddle on top of him, “Finally warming to the idea?”

“I-I shouldn’t but this so unreal master! There’s so much to do!”

“slow down, you’ve still got 9 months and in that time its not just going to be about the baby, your still going to serve me”, he reminded me, it sort of broke down my spirit but he was right and I actually didn’t care, “We will carry on the usual duelling-its good practise and you get better each time. One last thing, I want to know, is it because of the child that your like this?”.

“No”, I answered simply, “I enjoyed last night and don’t regret it either master, I want to be with you like that all the time, it just felt so nice…I felt happy. Not just because of the baby master, but how we got on, we could talk”

“I see”

“Master…this is confusing for myself but you’re the first person I’ve ever…never mind, aren’t you busy today? your just wasting time here with me”, I muttered and attempted to get off him but he held me tight.

“You want a lover, that’s something I will never be. I will always have a sadistic taste, last night was an exception. Expect a more painful-but even more pleasurable experience in future, see I can be nice, I gave you a warning beforehand”, he sniggered, he was like a teenager again when he talked like that, he lifted his head to kiss me when I leaned down but he made a point by holding onto me very-very tight and taking control of my tongue. He released me and I got up off of him to sit back on the covers.

“Master? I know it’s a bit…random and not related to what’s been going on, but I gather its Christmas soon, I know its not really your thing but it will be the first one away from friends and family…”, I murmured quietly, Christmas was always important to me.

“Christmas? I forgot it ever existed, I killed my father around this time…”

“Ok then…I see, you have a problem with it master, ill just go get ready”, I got up and left for the bathroom, barely through the door I stopped turned around, “Master you know I need you now. I hate that”, and left.

I ran a bath which took a matter of seconds and slipped in, I was so relaxed, I looked down to my stomach and rubbed it warmly, my baby.
“You may have the worst father in the world but you will definitely have the best love from your mother”, I said quietly, nine months, crazy im going to be here another nine months, it was like being sentenced. After an hour in my own thoughts I got out and dried off, thankfully he had left me some clothes so I slipped that on. A white gown, nothing pure about me anymore.

The library wasn’t empty, Rodulphus was there waiting inventively on a sofa.

“How’s the ice maiden this morning?”, I had a feeling he was the sarcastic type, I went over to a shelf to look through the books.

“As usual sir”, I muttered quietly, I wasn’t in the mood for this guy.

“Good, now come here”,

“What do you mean sir?”, I said confused still browsing, a sharp tug on my arm and I was pulled to the floor, “What are you doing!”, I said nervously as he straddled me.

“I said id come and fuck you and that’s what’s going to happen whether you want to or not!”, I tried to scream but he gagged me with a rag so I couldn’t do anything more than murmur, the evil fucking bastard! “Lets see how you like this!”

He didn’t even take off my clothes just my underwear so he could get in as fast as possible, I was so disgusted by his touch-anyone who has Bellatrix as a wife isn’t exactly the kinder of man you want to have fuck you. All through it I blocked him out my mind, I didn’t scream, I just pictured I was with someone else…who as it? It was like I could see him but I was blinded by him. Finally he stopped, no worry of getting pregnant since I was already and no damage to the baby because of my protection, I didn’t hurt inside but my body felt a bit battered, he pulled out the rag from my mouth and rubbed it across my forehead.

“Ill be back for you little whore, im doing my job, im stopping anyone else hurting you aren’t I”, he laughed and apparated off. I didn’t get up, I lay there gazing at the ceiling and laughed, he had got some pleasure from a quick fuck but it didn’t matter to me, he thought he was hurting me but I had faced much worse and he was forced to make sure no one would harm me-other than Voldemort and himself of course, it was like he was my slave in that way.


“What on earth are you doing on the floor?”, someone said from the doorway about an hour later

“I just don’t want to get back up sir”, great another death eater, he walked up over me and I could see it was Snape.

“What happened to you? You have a few bruises on your body and a black eye, did you piss off the dark lord again?”, he tutted and pulled me up, I sat down on a sofa while he sat next to me.

“What do you care? shouldn’t you be at Hogwarts sir”

“Actually it’s the weekend and the holidays, I think the dark lord made you think you’ve only spent a couple of days back here, when you fall asleep you’re asleep for longer than natural, just to keep you out of the way while he’s busy-”

“Just great, so much has been going on the last couple of days it was impossible sir…”

“So are you going to tell me what happened to you?”

“Rodulphus just came to have some fun sir”, Snape looked a bit shocked and moved closer to me, he flicked his wand and all he bruises vanished, “Thank you sir”

“I take it he’s the one protecting you then?”

“Protecting me from everything but himself sir”

“Yes that sounds like him”, he laughed, “Are you alright then?”

“Never been better sir”

“You know I would of thought you’d be more angry with me, not that id care but im surprised your so ok about everything”, he question suspiciously.

“I was angry but I have other things to care about sir, you know about the baby?”

“Yes im the only one who knows, the dark lord wants a low profile. Bad news or good news?”

“Both sir. Im angry its his but im happy im going to be a mum, a little baby is growing inside of me”, I smiled and rubbed my stomach-a habit I had now gotten.

“Good”

“So sir, what does everyone think at Hogwarts about me?”

“Well most think you’re an evil bitch who betrayed everyone to shack up with the dark lord, Harry and Dumbledore still have your best interests at heart though-as they always do. Happy no?”

“I was already sir, oh and thanks for being the cause of all this”

“Don’t mention it”, he smirked-back to his sarcastic self, “Do you hate the dark lord?”

“That’s a random question sir but I cant really answer that. I don’t know anymore”

“Ill keep that in mind, I have a feeling your falling for him”, I ignored him, what does he know?

“Ill take my leave then, I just came to see how you are about the baby and your alright”, he got up and walked to the door,

“Thanks, and can you do me a favour? Kick Rodulphus in the balls for me”, he laughed and went.

I settled to read a book and relaxed, I imagined what it would be like to be holding my child, what a feeling!

“You have a high spirit today even though you’ve been attacked earlier you still find it in you to smile”, Voldemort said next to me, I had gotten used to him popping up in places now.

“Yes but that wont take away the fact that im going to be a mum master”, I smiled and put down my book. “So you knew he raped me then? Typical”, mistake. He casually Crucioed me and then held my hair tight when he released the curse.

“Your lucky I don’t give you for all to use you ungrateful bitch!”, he snarled, and now he’s back to his normal self.

“Lucky would be anywhere but here master”, he tightened his grip and I winced while tears filled my eyes.

“You have everything you will ever need here and more, but you still complain, if I could id of killed you months ago with your attitude, many have died for less than that”,

“I don’t care master, im happy im having a child now, im not happy its yours. Im lucky im still alive, im unlucky im still your slave. How do you expect me to act?”

“Like a slave”, he growled

“Something I never wanted master”

“If you weren’t you’d be living the sad old life you always had, no power, no respect”

“How am I respected! Im everything but, master! Even now im forced to call you master”

“You don’t think you have respect? Then bow on the floor like how your supposed to then!”, instantly he let go but another force was pulling me to the floor at his feet. Humiliation. “You are my slave but I treat you so much better than someone would imagine!”

“Im at your feet aren’t I master? I hate how you keep changing, sometimes your so affectionate and passionate the next your cruel and sadistic!”

“Complaints! You have everything you will ever need here and more!”

“Except what I want master, its something you know nothing about. I hate how much I need you”

“and?”

“and what? I hate you master”,

“No, its that fact you hate that you love me”, he said and apparated somewhere, leaving me confused, staring at the spot he had just left.

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Voldemort keeps changing his attitude to Hermione and its confusing of course!
I think she does feel for him, I mean he has helped her out of some sticky situations and has been loving-sometimes. She hates him for it but emotions cant be chosen, if anything does happen I pormise he will be the evil scumbag he is-with just a mini, tiny hint of affection-unlike how he has been.

Ooh its like the song ‘Hate that I love you’-Rhianna, someone just pointed out the similarities J