Snape's Obsession

chapter 2

Snape’s Obsession

Severus stood outside the door. He knew he shouldn’t be watching, but he didn’t want her to fall getting into the tub. At least that’s what he told himself. When she was safely in the water, he turned away and closed his eyes. Her curves were even more voluptuous than he had imagined, rounded hips and full bust. Even with his eyes closed he could still see her, his body and mind were racing. He shifted his hardened shaft to a more comfortable position.

“Call me, if you need anything, Valora.” Severus said as he walked away. He had to get a grip on himself. He had known this was a bad idea, but did it anyway. You wanted to see didn’t you, the voice in his head said. You’ve been hoping to catch a peep. It was true. It was true, it was sweet torture, but he had wanted to see her, all of her.

Severus busied himself cleaning up the books and schoolwork, putting her things away. He straightened the bed, breathing in her lingering scent. Which made him think, he hadn’t heard any noise from the tub in some time.

“Valora ? ……. Valora !” What if she had fallen asleep ? He hurried to the door. “Valora !”

“Yes, Professor…...”

“I just ….thought ….you may have fallen asleep. I am sorry to disturb you.” He said taking in the sight of her bare wet shoulders.

“No …..I’ll get out soon. I know you need to go.” She said.

“No….I am…with Poppy gone, I should stay.” Did she know he could see her ? See the swell of her breasts coming out of the bubbly water. She sighed and sat back, hepplepples popping out of the water. He couldn’t look away, his breathing quickened.

“Well you better sleep in a bed, not in the chair again.” Valora said.

“Yes …um ….I will do that. Let me know when you want to get out.” Severus said turning to go. Then he heard the water splash as she got up.

“I’ll get out now.”

“Wait ! Valora let me put…” It was too late. She stepped out of the tub and slipped on the tile floor. Severus rushed in and caught her, her wet back falling against his shirt. He instinctively wrapped his arms around her to keep her from falling. It was only when he had stood her back on her feet did he realize one of his hands was cupping her breast and her hand was over his, clasping him to her. He could feer nir nipple hardening under his palm. He tried to move his hand, but she was holding him. The moment lengthened, he inhaled deeply trying to calm himself, but this only succeeded in filling him with her scent.

“Valora….” He said in a low pained voice. She let out a little peep and released him. He let her go, gave her a towel and left the room closing the door this time.

His blood was pounding in his ears. How could he justify being so familiar with a student ? Though, he couldn’t have let her fall either, could he ? But he shouldn’t have been watching her in the first place. Damn !! She knew now ! She would know he was watching her. What an old letch she must think him. But it wasn’t true. There had never been any student that effected him this way. Even those that had tried to trade ‘favors’ for grades.

“Professor ?” He turned, startled out of his thoughts. She was dressed now in a soft blue nightgown and little socks on her feet. She stood waiting for him. He tried to compose himself, so he could help her. He went to her and touched her arm to lead her back to the bed. He had expected her to flinch or pull away from him. But she leaned into him.

“I’m sorry. I should have listened to you. It was lucky you were close at hand.”

“Valora ….. I shouldn’t have been …..this was a bad idea.” He had to make her understand. Even if she wasn’t mad, this kind of thing could not happen.

“I’m not upset. I know you were looking out for me. It …was an …..accident.” She said. He sat her down on the bed, and tried to walk away.

“Professor ? Were you still going to stay here ?” she asked softly.

“I … do not think I should.” Severus said, barely above a whisper. Valora stood suddenly.

“Wait, please don’t go. I know I’m foolish….. I ….don’t want to be alone. And I don’t want you to be mad at me.”

A laugh escaped him. “I am not mad at you. I am …….” Severus sighed. Maybe the truth was best. “I am still a man, Valora. You cannot expect me not to be effected by the sight of you.” She put out her hand and started to walk towards him. He stepped forward and let her hand hit his chest. She moved into him, both her hands making their way up to his face. Her thumb grazed his lips, making him shudder. One hand went to the back of his head, pulling him down to her. Stop this, I must stop this, if she kisses me ……..

But he let her pull his head down and let her kiss him. He tried to stay passive, not take advantage, but as she moaned against him, he wrapped his arms around her and drew her into him, deepening the kiss, opening her lips to him, sucking on her sweet tongue. She seemed just as hungry for him. He put a hand up to her hair and felt her bandage.

Severus pulled back abruptly, suddenly remembering why he was there. He stepped back from her panting, willing his body to calm. “This cannot happen Valora, no matter what ……” He couldn’t finish the thought. He had to leave, now, before it was too late. He turned and left the Infirmary.

He had no direction in mind, just walked, needing to put distance between them. Eventually, he found himself in the Owlery. He breathed deeply, hoping the fresh air would calm him. He looked into the evening sky, the stars twinkling at him. He watched as a few owls came back with their evening hunts. Is this what he was ? A man that would jump on vulnerable prey ? He shivered at the thought. The cold std tod to make him shake. It was then he remembered he was only wearing a thin wet shirt. The cold finally drove him back into the castle. He had to go back to the Infirmary. His wand was in his coat and he would not be able to get into his chambers without it.


Severus opened the doors to the hospital wing as quietly as he could. He walked over to see Valora lying in the her bed with her back to him. He sighed. At least if she were asleep, they wouldn’t have to talk about this anymore tonight. He sat down on the bed next to hers and removed his boots.

“Professor Snape ?”

“Yes …..…. go to sleep.”

“I’m sorry …….. I’m really sorry …I know I shouldn’t of …..” He realized she was crying. His heart clenched and he knew crying would not be good for her eyes right now. He went over and sat on her bed as she rolled onto her back. He took her hand.

“Do not cry, Valora……… it is ….not good for your eyes.” She tried to take her hand away, but he wouldn’t release it. He sighed again deeply. “You must see how I can not allow this to happen. You are vulnerable right now and I am your teacher.” He cupped her jaw running his thumb down her cheek. “What kind of man would I be to take advantage of that ?” She clasped his hand.

“But you care for me, I know you do. I feel it in your touch, I hear it in your voice when you say my name ……..I felt it in your kiss. Is it taking advantage if I want it as much as you ?”

“Yes it is…….you are only 17.” he said.

“I won’t be 17 forever.” she said.

“No, you won’t and when you are older you may understand better. Sleep now, I will be right here.” He said getting up and getting in the other bed. There was no way he could say he didn’t want her, she would know that was a lie. So he said he could have her, which was the truth. Dumbledore would overlook many things, but not sleeping with a student, and he couldn’t ruin Dumbledore’s trust in him.

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Valora was feeling better. She had been in the hospital wing a little over a week. The ‘incident’ with Severus, as she had come to think of it, had been a sort of turning point for them. Somehow, knowthatthat they each had feelings for the other dissipated most of the tension between them. He still came to read to her, but tried not to be alone with her. She could accept this because she still felt the same tenderness in his touch and in his voice as he had before. She certainly didn’t want to risk his job, so she kept enough of a distance, so she wouldn’t tempt him. But she still remembered the way he had kissed her. Those kisses had made promises she intended to see he kept when she turned 18.

It was Monday and Severus didn’t have an afternoon class, so she knew he would be coming to read to her. She was sitting in the chair waiting for him, when she suddenly heard the door to the Infirmary swing open and Severus’ crisp footsteps coming towards her. She could already smell his fresh showered soapy masculine scent.

“Good afternoon, Professor Snape. You sound chipper today.” Valora said. She heard a humph from him.

“It is a lovely warm day today and we will do our lessons outdoors. I stopped by your room and brought you something lighter to wear outside. Hurry now, Poppy will help you to dress.” He said handing her something and a pair of slipper shoes. What in the world did he brinshe she thought curiously. And wait a minute, did he say they were going to be alone ?

Madame Pomfrey helped her change. Valora figured out the outfit he had brought. It was her lavender colored cotton dress, short sleeved with a tie across the somewhat low neckline. She hoped he would like seeing her wear it. Madame Pomfrey also removed her bandages. She had only had her eyes wrapped for a few days. Madame Pomfrey did tell her not to open her eyes though.

“Yes, that will do.” Severus said as she came around the curtain. She heard him stepping closer to her. Then felt his hand on her cheek. “I have brought you some dark glasses to help protect your eyes, but I still want you to keep them closed.” He said as he slipped the glasses on her face. She felt almost normal now, like getting ready for a day at the shore.

“Where are we going ?” she asked smiling.

“I have a favorite shade tree where I go to think. I have also had a lunch packed.” he said. Severus was in a good mood, he must have yelled at plenty of students in his morning class, she thought.

Then he took her arm and began leading her out of the castle. Valora was apprehensive about going down all the stairs, but with him beside her, supporting her, she found it was no problem. Soon they were outside, she could feel the sun on her face, it really was a nice day. Severus is going to swelter in that black coat, she thought.

“You had betteke yke your coat off, I don’t want you passing out on me, I can’t go for help.” she said laughing.

“When we get there, I will.” he said patting her hand. She loved when he touched her, his hands always warm and soft. They walked a long way. Valora wasn’t sure, but she thought they might be near the greenhouses. Then she heard Professor Sprout’s voice coming from one of the buildings.

“Here we are. You stand here while I lay everything out.” he said. Best she could tell, they were behind greenhouse one, between the building and the high stone wall. No one coming or going would be able to see them there. After a few minutes, he came back to lead her to the blanket, rather large blanket it seemed to her. She sat down and felt him sit next to her.

“Lunch or lessons, which first ?” Severus asked.

“I’m not very hungry yet, if you want to wait.” She said.

“Lessons then. Charms is next, I think. Turning the inanimate animate. Should be interesting.” Severus said as she felt him move. She put a hand out and rested it on his now coatless back, he was laying on his stomach to read. How sweet he must look, she thought. She did not take her hand back, instead she rested it there, keeping contact with him. He didn’t object. It was no more than she might have done with Charlie, so she reasoned it would be ok.


After reading and discussing the chapter, Severus said she should give it a try. He held up his greatcoat in front of Valora, handed her her wand and let her try the charm. Unfortunately for him, it worked and his coat wrapped itself around his head and would not let go.

“Finite Incantatem.” Valora said waving her wand at where she thought the coat was. She couldn’t help but laugh at the muffled, disgruntled noises Severus had been making.

“I am glad you find my life in peril so amusing.” He said in that Snape monotone he uses. “May we eat now ?”

Valora said yes. She then heard him rummaging in the basket or whatever it was he had been carrying. She felt him sit back, against the tree she assumed. He guided her to lean back against the side of his bent leg. Then he handed her a sandwich and a bottle of pumpkin juice. She rested against him. The contact felt nice and she was close enough that they could talk easily. He complained about some of his students, she told him about living in the muggle world.

When she was done she tilted her head back on his knee. She felt hands gathering her hair together, combing it with his fingers. Then she felt him braiding it and murmured a spell at the end to keep it together.

“Who taught you how to braid ?” Valora asked curiously.

“I used to braid my sister’s hair.” he said plainly.

“I didn’t know you had a sister.”

“I don’t, she died a long time ago.” He said wistfully.

“I’m sorry.” She said placing her hand over his that was resting on the blanket next to her. “What happened ?”

“She died of an illness, doesn’t matter what. My father was never very good with potions and didn’t keep well stocked. By the time they realized how sick she was and took her to Merlin Memorial, it was too late.” he said and she imagined he was looking off into the distance.

“Is that why you went into potions ?” she asked trying to bring him back.

“Maybe. Maybe that is why I push the students so hard, I never thought about it.”

“Was she younger or older ?”

“She was my twin.” Severus said with a slight catch in his voice. He moved his leg suddenly and pulled her back to lean against his chest, encircling her with his arms.

“What was her name, Severus ?” Valora asked softly.

“Seren. It means star.” He said hugging her tighter.

“Tell me about her.” She wasn’t sure whether she should have pushed him to talk about his twin, but he thankfully wanted to talk about her. They had been quite a pair, almost always into trouble. He laughed as he related stories to Valora.

“You do her memory justice, you know, by teaching potions. I’m sure she’s very proud of you.” He rubbed his cheek against hers and kissed it lightly. Then they sat quietly for a time, with him not releasing her and her not wishing to be released.

“I think I know why I was sorted into Slytherin house.” She heard a questioning hmmm from him.

you you.”

“What !?!” He said with a laugh.

“I mean it. Why else would a mudblood be sorted into Slytherin ?”

“Do not call yourself that.”

“My father is a muggle, I’m not ashamed of that. I’m just saying maybe the sorting hat saw something in me …… for you.” Valora said. He sighed, loosening his hold on her.

“I think it is time we went in.” He said sounding tense again.

“Can’t we stay out a while longer ? The fresh air feels nice.” She leaned against him and tilted her head back onto his shoulder. He made no move to get up, so she took this as agreement. After a moment or so she felt him tensing up against her.

“This won’t work you know.” He said in his monotone teacher’s voice.

“What ?” She said. He drew a finger across her exposed section of her breasts.

“This ……you cannot make me bend to your will just by exposing these.”

Valora sat up, putting her hand to the neckline of her dress and pulling it up.
“Severus Snape !” She said spinning around to face him outraged. “You’re the one who picked out this dress, not me !! If you were seeing something you didn’t like you should have said so !” How dare he say she was throwing herself at him, she had tried very hard not to.

“Ah… but that is the point is it not ? I do like it and you know it.”

“But I didn’t …….I wouldn\'t ….” Valora didn’t get to finish because his lips were on hers, kissing her fervently. His kisses were warm, possessive, demanding. She was becoming lost in the sensations. But ….. but …… Reluctantly, she broke off the kiss, tilting her head forward and pressing their foreheads together, panting slightly.

“Severus wait…… I’ve tried very hard today …… not to tempt you. I don’t want you to be sorry you were alone with me. You know I want you …….. but….”

“I did not think you would be the voice of reason.” He said sitting back against the tree.

“Awfully sure of your charms, aren’t you ?” She said half laughing. Severus sighed.

“We really should go in.” He said sounding saddened by the prospect. He helped her to stand and walked her off the blanket. She heard him gathering things together. Then he lead her back into the castle and up to the hospital wing.

“There you are, Val.” That sounded like Charlie.

“The Professor took pity on me and thought I could use some fresh air.” she said to Charlie. Grabbing Severus’ arm she leaned into him saying ‘be nice’.

“Good afternoon, Mr. Weasley. I shall check in on you later, Miss Whinn.” Then she heard Severus’ quick footsteps leaving. She hadn’t meant for him to go. Well if you can’t be nice, be absent, she thought.

“You look great, Valora, I’m glad the bandages are gone.” Charlie said coming over to lead her to her bed. “When will you be able to open your eyes ?”

“I’m not sure, I hope tomorrow.” she said.

Charlie took her hand in his and rubbed it with his thumb. “Would you like me to be here ?” This didn’t sound or feel like the typical Charlie. What was he playing at ?

“I don’t know when it would be” She said. In truth, she wanted Severus’ face to be the first thing she saw.

“Oh…… well …. if you don’t mind, I’ll stay awhile ?” Charlie asked. He sounded nervous. He’d never been nervous around her.

“I’d like it if you stayed. Are you alright, Charlie ? You sound like something is bothering you.”

“No …..no……I’m just happy to see you.” Charlie said. He stayed for an hour or so and relayed all the latest school gossip to her. And gave her all the news from back home. The Weasleys sounded like such a lovely family, Valora wished she could meet more of them.

Charlie was still holding her hand, when she heard the door to the Infirmary open again. Severus’ quick footsteps coming towards her. Valora heard his footsteps falter as he must have caught sight of Charlie still there, but he recovered quickly and sat on the bed on the other side of her.

“Were you ready for Arithmancy ?” Severus asked, though it was more of a statement.

“I’ll come by tomorrow Valora.” Charlie said, then leaning into her ear “when he’s not around” then he kissed her on the lips. Not quite a passionate kiss, but more than his usual peck. “Goodbye, Professor Snape.”

“Goodbye, Mr. Weasley” Severus said sounding tight lipped again. Valora couldn’t be mad at him this time. Now she understood why he was snippy. He didn’t like Charlie spending time alone with her, or his familiarity with her lips.

To Severus’ credit he didn’t say anything about Charlie, he went straight to reading. He was reading rather quickly, though and with little inflection.

“Severus ?” She said stopping him.

“Valora please, we need to get through this ….. and … you really shouldn’t be calling me by my first name.” He was so obviously annoyed she didn’t need her sight to hear him seething.

“What’s wrong ?” She heard him slam the book closed suddenly making her jump. She could hear him breathing heavily from the next bed, but he was silent. Valora went over to the other bed and sat down facing him. She put a hand out and rested it on, what she assumed was his thigh.

“What’s wrong ?” Valora said softly. She could feel how tense his muscles were under her hand.

Severus muttered something very quick and low. When she didn’t react he said it louder. “I do not like him coming to see you !!”

“He’s just a friend.”

“A friend that kisses you ? You cannot see the way he looks at you, Valora. I knew I was foolish to let this go as far as it has.”

“Please don’t say that. Even if he did like me, it doesn’t change how I feel about you.” Valora said trying to reassure him.

“It will. When you can see again and come to your senses ……”

“That’s silly, I liked you before, you know. That’s why I had this accident to begin with. I was always trying to catch a glimpse of you, hoping you would come over to me.” She said, but Severus stood up.

“You are caught up on your schoolwork. I will see you when you are back in class.” Severus said, sounding as if he was leaving. Valora stood too.

“Wait ……I didn’t …..I don’t understand ….what have I done wrong ?” She felt him grab both of her shoulders savagely.

“We have to stop this now !!” He spat out, his face inches from hers. “I cannot continue like this….…….” He said quieter. Silence hung heavy between them.


“I’m sorry.” She whispered. Valora hadn’t realized how hard this must be on him. She could not be there for him, not how he wanted or needed. If she cared about him at all, she had to let him walk away. “May I ask one last favor ?” She said feeling her eyes burning with tears.

“Yes.” He said lowering his hands.

“I would like you to be the first person I see …..if that wouldn’t ……”

“Of course. I will come by before lunch tomorrow.” He said and she heard him turn and go out the door.

Valora found her way back to her bed, removed her glasses, lay down and turned her face into the pillow to muffle her sobs. The pain in her chest growing, and the terrible feeling of emptiness. Somehow, she thought, if he didn’t care for her, it might have been easier. But Severus …… Professor Snape … never lied about that. Then there was the fear he was right. When she no longer relied on him, would she still feel the same ? Would he ? Eventually she cried herself to sleep.


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