I Don't Want To Be Lonely Anymore

Hermione had woken up in the middle of the night to the sounds of Remus and Sirius as they stumbled passed her room in their hurry to get to their own and their bed. She ended up hearing some of Sirius’ louder screams and moans, which came every few seconds, and they had her dripping wet. Imagining what Remus was doing to him to get him to scream like that… No! She should not be thinking thoughts like that. She should just put up a silencing charm and try to go back to sleep, but no matter how many times she told herself that, she couldn’t bring herself to move. She lay still in her bed and just listened and used her imagination to picture what was going on and what it would be like to join them. To feel their hands touching her body, their lips kissing her and exploring her, to be between them as they took her at the same time.


It was one of the secrets buried deep in her heart. She'd had a crush on Remus ever since she was in school and he was the professor who taught DADA. She used to have fantasies about him keeping her after class and having his way with her while she was bent over his desk, or her getting a detention and him taking her against a wall, or something along those lines. And then, once she really got to know Sirius, he started showing up in her fantasies as well. She just couldn’t help herself. They were both so dark and sexy and irresistible. They were so smart and funny and charming that she really couldn’t blame herself for falling for them and falling hard.


Not that anything would come of it, she thought to herself. There was just no way that two men as incredible as them would be interested in her. Not to mention the fact that they were gay and together and so perfectly in love. She sighed as she felt the now familiar twinge of jealousy run through her. She wanted to feel like they did, happy and in love and surrounded by warmth and comfortable in the knowledge that they had someone to share their life with.


She sighed again and turned over on her side. She had gotten caught up in her depressing thoughts again and during that time the noises had stopped and the house had settled and become quiet. She closed her eyes and tried to clear her mind. Not the easiest thing to do when thoughts of the two men down the hall kept trying to invade and were replaced by thoughts of what she was missing in her life. She would open her eyes, blink and shake her head and take a deep breath and begin the process of clearing her mind all over again. Sometime during that repeating cycle she managed to fall asleep.


She woke up to the sun streaming through her window and falling on her face. She tried to resist it. She’d been having such a good dream. There had been hands roaming her body and lips following them and soft voices whispering in her ears. With a groan she sat up as she gave up fighting the power of the sun. Grabbing her towel she opened her door and slipped across the hall to take a shower and relieve some of the pressure she was feeling between her legs.


Once inside the bathroom Hermione turned on the water and stepped back to watch it steam. She slipped her shirt over her head gasping at the feel of it as the material brushed over her nipples. Once it was off she threw it into the corner and took off her underwear. She ran her hands lightly over her body enjoying the feel of her skin under her fingers. She lightly brushed her fingers over her nipples before pinching and twisting them roughly and then letting go to use softer touches again. The mix of pain and pleasure soon had her panting and moaning. She stopped teasing herself and stepped into her shower basking in the feel of hot water running over her skin. She started to touch herself again, light and hard pressure over the spots on her body that drove her crazy before slipping one hand down to her core.


Hermione was dripping wet as she first touched herself. She used feather light touches against her sensitive clit and then a little more pressure in small amounts. She rubbed herself just the way she liked for a few minutes, keeping the picture of Remus and Sirius and the sounds she had heard the night before in her mind. When she was panting heavily she stopped teasing her nipples and clit and slipped two fingers inside of her dripping sex, pumping in and out slowly, drawing out her pleasure. Her left hand came back up to play with her nipples again as she added another finger and started to pump herself faster as the pressure in her belly started to grow. She rode her fingers hard and fast and came with a long, drawn out moan. She slumped against the wall of the shower as she came down from her high and figured that this wasn’t a bad way to start the day.


After washing her body Hermione got out and brushed her hair and teeth and wrapped her towel around herself before stepping out into the hallway and into her room to get dressed. She was in a better mood than she had been for a few days and she had errands to run so she decided to wear something cute. It took her a few minutes of rifling through her drawers and closet to find something that she liked; Her dark blue hip hugger jeans that were tight in all the right places and flared out a little after her calves and her shirt was a pale green tube top with small black hearts running up her right side. She decided to just leave her hair down and let it air dry. The unruly frizz and curls had finally tamed themselves and now her hair hung to her waist and the curls were loose and sleek looking. She took one last look at herself in her full length mirror making sure everything looked all right then turned and headed downstairs.


Halfway down the staircase she smelled the most delicious scents of coffee and cooking food. Usually Kreacher cooked, but every once in a while Remus decided to do it instead. Only as she took a deep breath to inhale the heavenly scents did she realize how hungry she was. She had only eaten a small lunch yesterday and then skipped dinner because of how bad she was feeling. When she thought about how she had acted she felt a twinge of guilt for the worry she must have caused everyone and made a promise to herself to not let her emotions take over like that again. She didn’t need to make people worry lest they try to really figure out what was wrong and she didn’t know if she could handle Remus and Sirius finding out about her feelings for them or how deep they ran. They would probably think it was cute and laugh it off.


Giving her head a small shake she went the rest of the stairs and walked into the kitchen. She was greeted with the sight of Remus standing in front of the stove cooking and Sirius sitting at the table sipping at a cup of coffee with a blissful smile. She couldn’t blame him, no one made coffee as well as Remus did. He had already been officially dubbed the 'Coffee King' by herself and Sirius and every other person lucky enough to have tasted some.


“Good morning Remus. Good morning Sirius.”


At the sound of her voice they both looked up and stared for a second before realizing what they were doing and stopped. They both had caught their breath at the sight she made standing in the doorway. Her hair cascaded down her back like a waterfall and the clothes she was wearing were tight in all the right places leaving nothing and everything to the imagination. She was one of the most beautiful creatures they had ever seen and she had no idea how she affected them. Remus gave his head a little shake before he managed a reply.


“Good morning Mione. I imagine that your hungry so take a seat and this food will be done in just a minute.” Hermione nodded her head in thanks and sat at the table across from Sirius. “Is there any of that coffee left, or have you managed to drink it all?” she asked him. He looked up with a serious expression and said, “I drank it all of course.” The twinkle in his eye gave him away though so she just shook her head and got up to get herself a cup.


While she had her back turned Remus and Sirius shared a bewildered look. Hermione was acting almost cheerful today. They didn’t believe that everything was all of a sudden all right with her, but if she wanted to pretend they would go along with it for now.


Remus finished cooking and set the food on the table before pouring himself a cup of coffee and sitting down to eat with them. They were all silent as they ate, each just enjoying the food and the company of the others. When Hermione finished eating she got up and put her dishes in the sink and turned around to face Remus and Sirius. “I’m going to be running errands today.” she said. “Is there anything you guys need for me to get while I’m out?” They both shook their heads no so she nodded, said, “See ya later then.” and walked out the door and apparated away.


They looked at each other for a minute before Sirius said, “Do you think we should have gone with her?” Remus shook his head no. “We could have, but there’s no reason for it. I say we let her go and do what she needs to do while we take advantage of her being gone to get some more plans figured out. We only have a week and a half to get everything planned and perfect.” “All right that makes sense I guess. I’ll go floo Harry and Draco right now to see if they can come over to help us.” He got up, put his dishes in the sink and went into the living room.


Remus sat in his seat for a few minutes longer thinking about Hermione before he too got up and put his dishes in the sink. He knew Kreacher would take care of them so he didn’t bother to wash them off. He walked into the living room to see Harry and Draco seated on one couch and Sirius on the other telling them what they wanted to do today since Hermione was out. “There’s a lot of work to be done and very little time to do it.” he was saying. “We have to figure out where we are going to hold it, who to invite, who else can help us plan, what decorations to use, what food to serve and the biggest part of all, the cake. So any ideas on where to start?”


“Well I know a couple of people who can help us plan. Ginny being one and Molly the other. Molly’s good at these sort of things so she could be a big help. Plus she could be in charge of all of the food and the cake. We could have Ginny distract Hermione for the day and then bring her to the place where we are having the party and she could figure out the guest list with me and Draco. That leaves the venue and the decorations for you two and the rest of us will help when we have time. What do you think?” Harry asked.


“That sounds like a pretty good idea Harry. Would you mind going to the Burrow now and asking them to help? Better yet, just bring them here and we can explain everything to them.” “Sure. I’ll be back in a few minutes.” Harry got up and walked over to the fire place. Grabbing some floo powder, he flung it in and shouted, “The Burrow” before disappearing in a green flash. Remus, Sirius and Draco settled down to wait while also trying to think of the perfect place to hold a party for Hermione. “What about a park?” Draco asked. “We could have it in a big clearing and decorate whatever trees and bushes are around.” Remus shook his head. “Don’t get me wrong, it sounds good, but it just doesn’t seem like the perfect place. We have to find somewhere that is one of her favorite places to be. If we could do that it would make the party, and our efforts, all that much better for her.”


“All right, I agree that that makes sense, but do either of you know where a place like that might be?” He looked at Sirius who just shrugged his shoulders and then at Remus who had his head down and was looking thoughtful. “I’m not sure just yet, but I do have an idea. Give me a couple of days to confirm my suspicions and then we can go from there ok?” “Ok. But it can’t be longer than a couple of days or we wont have time to get everything ready.” Draco said. As Remus was nodding his head the fireplace flashed green and Harry stepped out followed by Ginny and Molly.


“Remus, Sirius, Draco, what’s going on?” Molly asked. “Harry said something about you guys needing help for something and wouldn’t say another word about it until we agreed to come here.” She stood with her hands on her hips as she glared at each of the men standing before her. “Molly, I’m sorry Harry was so vague and if he made you worry, but it’s not anything bad at all. We just needed your, and Ginny’s, help in planning a giant surprise birthday party for Hermione. She has been depressed recently and we want to show her how much we all love her and care for her and appreciate everything she does for us.”


“That sounds like a wonderful idea Remus!” Molly said. “ We were only going to do a small party at our house, but this is a much better idea. Of course I’ll help. Ginny what about you?” “You don’t even have to ask mum. Of course I’ll do it.” “Great. Now tell me what you guys have already figured out and we can go from there.”


“Well, we were going to ask you if you would be willing to take care of all of the food and drinks and the cake. Ginny could help Harry and Draco figure out the guest list and on the day of the party take Hermione out to keep her busy so that we can set everything up and bring her to wherever we choose to hold it. And Sirius and I can figure out decorations and the place. How does that sound?” Remus asked. “Works for me.” Ginny replied. “Me too. I’m going to go back home now to start planning the menu and the cake.” With that she turned around and walked back into the fireplace and flooed home.


Harry turned to Draco and Ginny and said, “We should probably go too. I promised Ron we’d go flying today and then we can sit down and get working on the guest list and starting the invitations. We will wait on you, Remus, to figure out the location, then we can finish them and get them sent out in plenty of time.” “Sounds good to me. See ya later Remus, Sirius.” “Bye Ginny.” She left and was followed by Draco then Harry. Once it was quiet Sirius rested his head on the back of the couch and closed his eyes and took a deep relaxing breath. After holding it for as long as he could he let it out in a slow stream.


Remus was still standing and took the opportunity to study his lover. He could see that he was a little more relaxed than he had been now that they had a definite plan and were starting to set said plan in motion, but he was still tense and upset. “Sirius?” He didn’t look up as he replied. “Hmmmm?” “Are you doing ok?”


Sirius sighed again before replying, “Not really Remus. I mean I’m happy that we finally have a plan and that we’re starting to do stuff, but I’m still so worried about Hermione. She was so upset yesterday and we have no idea why, and even if she does seem happier today than she has been, I know there’s something still wrong with her. Not to mention the fact that I want her and love her and you do too, and she doesn’t even suspect a thing. She probably just thinks of me as Harry’s godfather and a friend and you as her ex professor and also a friend. And I know that I’ll never feel completely all right or whole until I can finally wrap my arms around her and never let her go. She’s the missing piece to our puzzle and I hate not having her.”


“Oh Sirius.” Remus said and he crossed the room and sat next to him on the couch and gathered him in his arms. “I know how you feel love, but you must try and be patient for a little while longer all right?” Sirius nodded his head. “How about you think of something that we can get her as a birthday present. Something really special and amazing that shows her how much we care for her. That should distract you for now and tonight we can talk about ways to get her to be with us. Does that make you feel better?” “A little.” "Good. Now get up and get on it.” Remus stood and gave his lover a kiss and walked out of the room. He had a little research to do before they figured out where to hold the party and for that he needed to go to the library.