Take It All or Nothing at All

Author Note: I do NOT OWN the Harry Potter Characters nor do I make or receive profit from them or this story. Once again I do not own the characters in this story and I do not make profit from the Harry Potter characters!!!!!

I have decided to turn the one-shot into an actual story. As for my other stories I will be updating this week. This story is now taking place where the other story left off.

But in the *flashbacks* Lucius is already out of Hogwarts Also since I am going back into their relationship, Lucius is 18 and Sirius is 14. Lucius is engaged to Narcissa and hasn’t taken the dark mark yet. I hope you guys enjoy. Also sorry for any errors. I got really excited about updating. PLZ Review!!!!! Oh by the way somebody else is also pregnant….Try and guess who it is.


Chapter Two: Honor and Blood



After I finish crying quietly to myself. I decided it was time to get up. Narcissa was to be home in a few hours. She was visiting with my mother. They all were probably raving about Narcissa being knocked up. I felt light headed at that thought but pushed it out of my mind.

I turned around to look at the sleeping figure next to me. He looked so angelic when he slept. It was a very heart warming sight. I leaned down and planted a very gentle kiss on his cheek. I didn’t want to wake him. I knew he needed the rest. The dark lord was very demanding of him. Between the dark lord and politic demands, Lucius was always exhausted. But his looks never showed it.

I start to get out of the bed. I was hit with a wave of nausea, but chose to ignore it. I haven’t really been feeling good lately. I didn’t think it was anything serious probably just a cold.

I silently get dress. Once I am finishing getting dress, I do several spells to get rid of Lucius’ scent and the smell of sex. Once I was finished, I look back at my lover sleeping peacefully in bed. I hate leaving him. Every time I leave him, I feel like it is the last time I will ever see him. I stare one final time and sigh. ‘I love him so much.’ I walk towards the door and leave his room silently. I walk to his study quietly, careful not to alert anyone. I get to the massive fireplace and floo home to Grimmauld Place.

As soon as I step through the fireplace. I see furious green eyes with a tinge of red staring back me. He is sitting in the arm chair in front of the fireplace. My blood starts to run cold. I keep my mind and composure calm, so he doesn’t suspected anything.

“Where have you been, Sirius.” He asked me very calmly even though I know his is upset for some reason. He stares me up and down. It was like he undressing me with his eyes. I almost felt exposed and turned on at the same time. He did look quite delicious in his black long sleeve button up and well tailored black pants.

“I was at Lucius house, love. I wanted to congratulate him on Narcissa current state.” I look at him and put on my best seductive smile. I take off my jacket that I was wearing.

“Sirius, you wouldn’t be lying to me, now would you?” He looked again as if he knew something that I did not. He raised an eyebrow on his handsome face. He was gorgeous. I was lucky to wake up to something so beautiful but yet so unlucky because he was so, dangerous. His shoulder length dark brown hair was pulled back into a ponytail. His long legs were crossed like a man with a lot power would sit. He slightly full lips were smirking at me. ‘He was the dark version of my Lucius. Oh, how I love them both.’

“Why would I lie to you. All you have to do is read my mind and you would have the truth, right?” I stare back at him with a little bit of frustration in my eyes. My body is now hot for all the wrong reasons. I feel the tug of nausea again. I push it back.

“Don’t tempt me. I also suggest you remove the attitude.” He stands up and walks towards me. My body is feeling rather warm. Since I am still standing in front of the fireplace. Even though he sometimes scares the shit out of me and I know he could kill me at the drop of the hat. I do not back up. I hold my ground.

“If you are mad at me about something just come out and say it! I don’t feel like going through one of your tantrums.” I start to walk away from him and I knew that was a big mistake on my part. But it is my pride that takes over. It was one thing he could never kill, no matter how hard he tries. Before I could get a considerable distance. He grabs my arm roughly and turns me to face him. I look up into his now red eyes. He is a few inches taller that me. His handsome features start to darken. My heart feels like it is going to stop.

“How dare you?! Do you not realize I could kill you in one swift movement. That I could make you feel pain that would be so unbearable, that you pass out on contact.” His grip tightens around my arm. I wince in pain. “If is wasn’t for the love I felt for you….You would have been dead a long time ago.” His red eyes stare at me furiously.

“I am sorry…I didn’t mean to yell. I just haven’t been feeling well.” I look at him with as much submission in my eyes that my body would allow. His look turns to worry in an instance. His eyes immediately go back to there normal radiant green. The green that I love to see on him. That is the side I love. It was frightening how he could switch so quickly.

“Sirius, why must you infuriate me. I was just simply asking where you were. I was a little worried because you didn’t tell me you were leaving. I came home to an empty house. I was expecting you to be here. I had plans for us tonight.”

I instantly feel the guilt wash over me, but I mask it. I don’t want him to suspect a thing.

I look into his eyes. I smile once again. I move closer to him. Now pressing my very warm body into his. I feel his body relax a bit.

“You know I would never leave you, right?” I begin to his kiss him. I was gentle at first, barely touching his lips. Then I start to deepen the kiss. I heard him moan. He quickly lets go of my arm and wraps his arms around my body. I completely melt into him. He begins to lightly suck on my bottom lip to get me to open up. I do and felt the surge of power go through my body. I become hard.

His power was so seductive. I knew deep down that I shouldn’t be attracted to him and that I shouldn’t love him, but I do. Not as much as I love Lucius, but almost as much. I was attracted to him for all the wrong reason. Fear, lust, and most of all power. With Lucius it is purely love. I would leave him in an instance for Lucius, if I could. But I knew He would kill Lucius and me. There was no escaping him. I was his obsession the moment he first laid eyes on me. I remember the night that we met.


*Flashback*

“I said that I will not be going to the party tonight and that is FINAL MOTHER!!!!”

“Don’t’ you dare use that tone with me, Sirius Black! I will sew your mouth and your eyes shut for a week. Don’t think I will be kind enough to feed you magically either.”

“Why must I go? Why are you doing this to me mother? I know you hate me, but why must I be married off?” I looked back at my furious mother. Black eyes glared back at black eyes.

We have been having this same argument for the last hour in my room, when my mother revealed that I was to be meeting my future spouse tonight. I knew the only reason my family was doing this was to gain back some honor. They lost honor because of me. Because I was place into the wrong house. I was the official laughing stock of the entire family and pureblood community.

“You have disgrace this family by being taken into that disgusting house. You will bring back honor to this family. You are luckily we found someone who would have anything to do with you. You will marry your intended when you graduate from Hogwarts and you will accept it.” My mother replied back to me a cutthroat tone.

“I hate this family.”

“Well, that maybe, but you will get over it. Grow up and learn that nobody cares about what you want. It’s all about honor and blood, boy. I still regret the day you were born. But I have accepted what you have become. You are my burden, but you will no longer dishonor this family with your selfish reasoning. You will be relinquish on to other’s family and name. At least you could give them more respect then you do us, you little ingrate”

“At least I finally know how you feel about me, mother.” I walked over to my robes that were on the ground. I was suppose to wear them tonight. The robes were a simple black but instead of my family crest it was someone else‘s. I didn’t know who it belong to. It was a silver snake, with a skull. But the snake’s body was going through the skull. I was slightly disgusted. I could tell that whoever this family was, they were definitely into dark magic.

“Mother whose family crest is this?” I looked at the woman in confusion, but realized she had left my room. She left just as quietly as she had enter.

I knew from the little information and the symbol on my robes this couldn’t be good.
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At The Party


I sat in the far corner of the ballroom. I didn’t want to be seen or heard. I hate this damn balls. They were pointless. Everyone here was fake and coldhearted. Purebloods! All they do is talk about their wealth and power. It was almost nauseating to listen to their useless conversation. I was so busy thinking about how bad purebloods were that I didn’t even notice the stranger coming towards me.

I looked up at the stranger. My heart skipped a beat when I seen those beautiful green eyes. They were so bright. They would put even the rarest emerald to shame. The man had hair that sort of reminded me of James hair, but his was less messy and dark brown. James’ hair was more auburn. I continue to stare at the man’s face. His lips looked soft and slightly full. I for some reason wanted to taste those lips. I felt myself blush at the thought of wanting to kiss a complete stranger. The stranger smiled at me, as if he knew what I was thinking. I blushed again and decided to look down instead of at the man’s face.

“Hello.” The stranger stated.

“H…Hello” I stuttered . ‘Oh, that was embarrassing. Now I sound like a bloody girl.’

“No, you don’t. You are just a little overwhelmed.” The stranger replied. I blushed once again. He could read my mind.

I didn’t response. Hell, I could barely swallow, when I felt the power radiating off the wizard in front of me. The prickly sensation of the man’s magic went all through my body. It was not surprising that the man could read minds. I began to feel a little lightheaded with all the magic going through me. The tingle I was currently feeling was getting slightly stronger.

‘What is he doing to me?’ I thought to himself. I started to feel warm for some reason.

“It‘s nothing , compared to what I could do.” I shudder at that thought.

“You look a little flustered would you like to go outside for some air.” The stranger smiled at me again and offered his hand to me. I just held my breathe and took his hand. “Come on, let’s go.” We began to walk across the ballroom. The crowds that were engaged in conversation, immediately disperse. They were all staring at the stranger and me in shock.

I didn’t know what he was doing. It was like I had no control at all. I was never one to go off with strangers. I would normally tell them to go to hell or fuck off. Not blush at them like a bloody girl.

“Would you really have said that to me, even before you knew who I was?” The stranger halted and glared at me a bit. I then felt myself tense up. I was starting to feel cold, just a little bit. I realized at that point I didn’t know who it was holding my hand. I didn’t know this man at all. I felt a fear come over me. For all I knew he could be related to my future wife.

“Well, I wouldn’t refer to myself as a wife.” The stranger smirked at me. I looked back at him in shock.

“What?” I asked.

“Sirius, darling. This is your future husband..” My mother came out of nowhere and stated to me. She looked nervous. I knew something was wrong when my mother referred to me as darling. She never spoke to me so sweetly.

“You are marrying me off to a man!!! What is wrong with you? Have you all lost your mind?” I screamed at my mother while letting go of the stranger’s hand,. She looked at me with pure fear in her eyes.

“I am sorry, my lord. He does not know who you are. When you have come by and visited he was still at Hogwarts. Please, my lord, do forgive him for being rude and offensive.” My mother is now kneeling in front of the stranger. I step back and look at the scene playing out in front of me. Never have I seen my mother shake in fear. It was pitiful. I almost enjoy it a bit, but then I realized she feared my beautiful stranger.

He smiled. Once again reading my thoughts. “It is quite alright. I like the fight in him. He will be a challenge to break in. Please get up.”

“Who are you?” I asked boldly but still with a bit of caution.

“Sirius, that is enough!” My mother yelled at me. The stranger raised his hand up to my mother to silence her further. He began to walk towards me.

“ Don’t yell at him for asking a question.” He stops coming towards me until we are only a few inches apart. He then raises my chin up so I can look into his eyes. He is very tall compare to me. The top of my head only makes it to his lips. He smirks. “ Do you want to know who I am?” He says to me softly. I nod in response.

“I am the person that everyone in this room fears. I am the man that will teach you the importance of what it means to be pure. I will love you and care for you. But if you upset me I will not hesitate to break you. I am Lord Voldemort.” He then captures my lips in the sweetest way imaginable. My body trembles from his power, his gentleness, and his cruelty. It was my first kiss. My first kiss was taken by the Dark Lord. But instead of being scared, I melt into him. He breaks the kiss. Without thinking all I can say is.

“Then my lord, I am yours.”

*End of Flashback
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This is why I am now married to this man. I am his. He made sure of it, they night he first took me. That is why his mark covers my entire back. The mark of the Deatheaters.

That is why my body trembles for him when he comes into a room. I fear him but love him.

But if he knew the truth about the unconditional love I had for Lucius. I don’t want to picture what he would do to us. That is why I have to keep our love a secret. Not because of our honor but because I do not want his blood spilt.

“Come on, Sirius let’s go to bed.” He takes my hand like he did on the night we met. And once again all I can say to him is.

“ I am yours, My Lord.”

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