Love is Love

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Disclaimer: NOT MINE!!! Do you really think that if i owned the harry potter character, they would be a world known thing? definitely not!



"Talking"



'thinking'



// Lily talking//



~~ POV change ~~











~~James~~



I let Harry pull me up from the sofa and lead me to the stairs. We made our way down the hall and he leaned back against the wall, pulling me to him, kissing me hungrily. I kissed him back, not thinking about what I was doing and not caring. He pulled away and tilted his head to the side, offering me his neck. I ravished it, desperation coming over me as I sucked at the pale flesh.



"James, oh James, yes." he moaned my name, the magic word that jolted me back to reality.



This was my *son*. I wasn't supposed to do this with him, it was wrong. I pulled out of his embrace like he’d burned me and gave him one last look before I fled down the hall to my room.



~~Harry~~



I saw the look in my father’s eyes.



Pure. horror.



The look he gave me was fearful and ashamed. I knew that if I tried to do this with him it might not work, but it still hurt. The painful sting of rejection always did. It was like the Garden of Eden all over again, I could have any of the fruits I wanted, but the one I wanted most was forbidden and out of reach.



Slowly I made my way to my room and quietly closed the door. Slumping against it I cried, cried for the fact that the one I love is off limits, forbidden.



~~James~~



I heard him go to his room and shut the door softly. I sat on the floor in the corner of my room hiding under the invisibility cloak, hugging a pillow to my chest. Lily's pillow. It was just over a year since she died and my feelings for Harry continued to grow. It scared me more than anything in my entire life. The way I felt for him was not supposed to be, it was wrong.



He was my son, my darling baby boy, what would Lily think...



"Oh Lily, I need you here. What am I supposed to do?" A tear ran down my cheek and fell upon the pillow, leaving a dark spot on the white casing.



A light suddenly began to form from the spot causing me to throw the object aside. As it grew in size, it grew brighter, making me close my eyes and shield them with a hand.



//James, my love.// I knew that voice. That was the sweet loving voice of my Lily. I looked up and found myself face to face with her. My mouth opened wide and my hands started tremble.



//James, I know what is troubling you and I have come to help you sort out your feelings.//



I felt suddenly light-headed and it must have shown on my face because she smiled that beautiful smile and reached out to stroke my cheek.



I am still dead James but I am here in spirit form. You loved me more than anything James and I know that. But I am dead and you have developed feelings for another. It is not your fault; you can’t help whom you love. Love is just love.//



I remembered my thought from earlier in the evening. Lily used to say that all the time.



// Harry loves you, like a father and so much more. You love him too. I know you do. I know if you let go, just think about it and you'll see that what I'm saying is true. //



I couldn't help but think about it. She was right. I did love him and I knew it.



// I think you also know it’s not that you don’t want to be drawn to him. It is that you're scared, scared that you will fall head over heels for him and you’d have to face everything that you want. Think about it James, for me. You know what it's like not to be let in. I was like that with you at first.// She smiled again and leaned over to kiss my cheek.



// I loved you James and I still do. But I am not here anymore and you need to let me go. Harry loves you; he loves you so much it’s hurting him. Let him in and love him back. She gave me a sad smile Goodbye, James. //



She disappeared like a wisp of smoke, fading out to blend with the air and leaving me alone with my thoughts.

TBC....

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